D. Gray-man Fan Fiction ❯ Invention Is The Mother Of Neccesity ❯ And Into The Light ( Chapter 6 )

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Invention Is The Mother Of Necessity
A Fanfiction By SailorLight22
Chapter 6 - And Into The Light

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Okay, here it is, Chapter 6!
Get ready, this one's gonna be really long!

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The pallid light of dawn came far too soon for Kanda's liking. After a short night of restless tossing and turning, he was still no closer to accepting Allen's stubborn denial of his 'affections' than before. Growling irritably, he rose from the bed, stretching to remove his lingering stiffness.

'I wonder if Allen slept..' He mused. Crossing the room, he opened his wardrobe, pulling out a clean uniform. Dressing quickly, he once again found himself pondering his next course of action.

Clearly, he would have to visit the madman Komui, to gather as much information as possible. While Allen had freely admitted that the machine Kanda had destroyed the previous day was responsible for this mess, he felt sure that there was something that the younger boy still wasn't telling him.

Frowning, he decided to forego breakfast in an effort to corner the inventor alone. Striding to the door, he opened it, only to come face to face with the last person in the world that he would have expected to see.

"Good morning, Kanda," Linali said, her smile slightly strained. Taking in his almost.. disheveled appearance, she briefly wondered if Allen had already spoken with him. Determined to casually probe for answers, she carefully phrased her next words in an attempt to seem uninformed.

"Have you seen Allen-kun this morning? I need to give these to both of you." She showed him a pair of familiar brown folders. Noticing a slight flinch at the white haired boy's name, she decided to question him further.

"May I come in? I can go over this with you and then tell Allen-kun at breakfast." She smiled brightly, willing the sullen exorcist to let her in.

Nodding slightly, he moved aside, indicating the lone chair for her to sit. She lowered herself into it, smoothing her skirt beneath her. Opening the folder with the swordsman's name printed on it, she handed him the sheaf of papers within.

Glancing over the top of the mission report, Kanda eyed her warily. Linali almost never personally delivered a report, she only summoned the required exorcists when her brother needed to see them. There was something altogether suspicious about her presence here, and Kanda wondered if that idiot Lavi had already broken his word to keep silent.

Sensing that Kanda was onto her, Linali decided to get straight to the point. "You're probably wondering why I'm here, hm?" Seeing his slight jerk of acknowledgement, she continued. "Nii-san is a bit... indisposed at the moment, so I'm taking the liberty of distributing all the mission requests that he had pending."

Kanda frowned, wondering how he could approach the subject of Komui's whereabouts in a subtle manner. "This is unacceptable." He stated, returning the papers to her as he stood. "I must speak with your brother immediately."

Linali also rose, her eyes wide. Kanda had never refused a mission, there must be something going on. "What's wrong with the assignment?" She asked, her eyes narrowing in readiness for battle. She'd picked this particular mission with Kanda and Allen in mind, hoping that the two of them would find time to talk things over during the long stay.

Kanda eyed her cooly. "That is a matter to be discussed between your brother and I. Where can I find him?"

She shook her head, annoyed at his stubbornness. "If you must know, he's unconscious." She answered, smiling grimly. 'Time for the big guns.' She thought.

"Allen-kun told me about his little... experiment yesterday, and I had a talk with 'Nii-san about his lack of common sense."

Smirking against his will, Kanda felt a moment of satisfaction at the mad scientist's expense. Though he'd never personally experienced the power of the girl's Innocence, he'd seen it's effects numerous times. Komui had obviously had a very painful and well deserved 'discussion' with his hot-tempered younger sister.

Seeing his reaction, Linali smiled. "I thought that it was appropriate. Allen-kun was really upset, afterwards. Didn't you notice?" As the boy's eyes flashed dangerously, she went for the kill.

"He said that you saved him, but I figured that he must be mistaken, since everyone knows that you don't like him." He only grunted in reply, annoying her even more. So, he wasn't going to talk?

"Are you still angry with him, Kanda?"

He blinked, staring at her as if she'd grown a new head. "How.. Why would I be angry at the Moyashi?" He spat, hoping to deflect her current line of questioning. 'Damn that Lavi,' He thought, 'Why did he tell her, of all people?'

She feigned disinterest, picking at an imaginary piece of lint on her jacket. "Well, 'Nii-san's machine did cause him to kiss you like that, didn't it? Of course you wouldn't be angry, it wasn't Allen-kun's fault."

His angry expression failed to deter her as she continued, blushing slightly as she remembered the astonishing scene. "Did it bother you that much, Kanda?" She asked, her voice quiet. "Because it upset Allen-kun very much. He cried when you left, you know."

Averting his face, he tried to ignore the brief flash of pain that the image evoked. Sighing, he turned to face her, knowing that the question was unavoidable. "What else did he tell you, Linali?"

She frowned, expecting any reaction but this. Shaking off her surprise, she replied. "Everything, but I was there for the kissing part..." She trailed off, her powerful blush returning full force as his eyes widened.

"You mean, you really were hiding with Lavi?" Kanda said, thinly masking his astonishment. 'No wonder he was so willing to keep silent,' he thought, smirking. Seeing the girl's blush, he smirked again. "So, what were the two of you doing down there in the first place?"

"No-Nothing! And that has nothing to do with this!" She cried, her face scarlet at his insinuating tone. Regaining her composure, she returned to the offensive. "Well, I'm assuming that you two have talked about it," She said, her face serious. "Are you going to hurt him? Because if you are, so help me.." She scuffed her foot threateningly as Kanda barked out a harsh laugh.

"Hurt him? Are you stupid?" He asked, rudely. Seeing her shock, he leaned closer, invading her space. "If anyone is going to be hurt, I won't be the one doing it." He leaned back, shaking his head. "The Moyashi is doing just fine. He doesn't want me."

She stared at him in open disbelief. "When I saw him last, he was agonizing over how to explain himself to you! He was afraid that you were upset, not him, but you!" Taking a step back, she tried to pull herself together. 'Confronting him like this isn't going to do Allen-kun any good,' She thought, frowning.

Kanda was relieved that the girl seemed to be done yelling. 'If that bigmouth Lavi hasn't told everyone about this, then she just did,' He raised an eyebrow at her silence. "If I cannot speak with Komui, then may I ask you some questions?"

The sudden change of subject startled her. "Yes, but about what?"

"That machine, what exactly was it supposed to do? The Moyashi explained some of it, but he was rather.. vague about some things."

She gestured to the bed, returning to her seat. "You might as well sit, this may take a while." Nodding, he sank onto the bed, waiting for her to begin.

"How much do you already understand?" She asked, "That will make it much easier to explain."

He frowned, recalling what Allen had told him the night before. "He said it affected the brain, causing a person to have certain feelings. I gathered from his actions that it was.. uncomfortable for him." Sighing, he continued. "Also, he told me that Komui called it love, but it was more like lust."

Flushing red again, Linali fanned her face, remembering. "Yes, is that all?" He nodded. 'He's not going to like this', She thought, steeling herself for the tall boy's reaction. "'Nii-san explained it to him, just before he ..met you yesterday." Looking away, she continued. "Allen-kun told me that when he asked 'Nii-san about undoing it, he said it would take special circumstances for the effects to go away."

Kanda nodded. "He also told me that there may be a way to reverse the effects. He just didn't say what it was."

Wincing in anticipation, she spoke. "Yes, Allen said that 'Nii-san claimed the effects would go away.." She paused, judging the distance to the door. Seeing the path was clear, she finished. "When they became real." She readied herself to move, warily eyeing his face. When he failed to react, she was surprised. "Kanda?"

He couldn't believe it. Why had Allen not told him that? "Was there anything else, any other alternative?" He inquired tightly, his head bowed. She nodded mutely.

"'Nii-san told me while we were.. talking.. that if he could re-build part of the machine, it may be able to restore Allen-kun to the way he was before." She sighed, wondering again what exactly had transpired between the two when they'd had their own conversation.

Kanda's head snapped up, causing her to squeak. "The way he was before? And any.. previous feelings he may have had, they would be unaffected?"

The intensity of his stare alarmed her. 'What's he getting at?' She wondered. Then it hit her. "Oh my God, you want to know if he had feelings for you already? I mean, you.. you like him?"

Seeing his discomfort, she lowered her voice, leaning closer. "You love him, don't you." It wasn't really a question, he noticed. When he didn't reply, she moved to sit beside him on the bed, cautiously embracing him. "I'm so sorry, Kanda," She whispered. "Would you tell me what happened between you? I swear, I won't say a word."

He sighed, knowing that he needed to do something. 'I still can't believe he didn't tell me,' He thought, fighting down a moment of sadness. "I saw him again, after that first time." He stated, "He tried to hide from me." He smirked at the memory.

"I followed him, and when he went into a room, I waited for him to come out. Then I grabbed him and pushed him back in with me." He wondered if he should tell her everything. Deciding that some things should be omitted, he continued. "We talked for a time, and then we were... intimate."

Seeing her wide eyes, he rushed to correct her assumption. "Not like that! It was only kissing, and.. and.." He trailed off, helplessly. There was no way he could tell her what they'd done, the girl was already shocked beyond belief. "No one lost any clothes." He finished lamely.

Shaking her head, she smiled. "Well, after no one lost any clothes, what happened?"

He frowned, telling her about Lavi's sudden appearance, and their conversation after he had left, ending with Allen's painful reminder that his feelings were, in fact, not real.

Her eyes widened in sympathy. She never would have believed it if Kanda himself hadn't told her, but he was obviously suffering. Patting his arm comfortingly, she looked at him. "And what are you going to do about it?" She asked, finally.

Startled, he replied. "I don't know. I had intended to ask your brother about that blasted thing of his, but after that..."

She nodded. "Do you want to just let it end, Kanda?" She asked, softly.

"No," He replied, clenching his fists. "I don't want that, but if he isn't willing, what else can I do?"

She smiled, reassuringly. "If you truly want to be together with Allen-kun, you'll have to make him see that what you feel is worth taking the risk."

"I just don't understand why he won't even try." He muttered quietly.

"I think it may be that he's afraid for you." She said, glancing at him as she spoke. "He may feel that it would be wrong to let you be with him, and then discover that he has no real feelings for you."

The thought pained him. "He would do something like that, wouldn't he." He sighed. "Thank you Linali." He said, smiling slightly at the thoughtful girl beside him.

Linali knew that while there was very little she could do, but at the very least she could try to explain Kanda's feelings to Allen. Turning to the brooding exorcist, she smiled. "I know that I said I wouldn't tell anyone," She said, "But would you mind if I tried explaining things to Allen-kun? I need to tell him what 'Nii-san said anyway." She looked at him hopefully.

Kanda thought a moment, and nodded. "I don't mind, Linali," He said, rising. "Just.. don't push him, if he doesn't want to talk."

She shook her head quickly. "I won't, I promise." She was amazed at Kanda's concern for Allen's feelings. Had he always been this way, she wondered, so considerate of the cursed boy? She felt a twinge of guilt at the thought. 'No one ever noticed, not even Allen,' She mused.

Linali wondered just how long Kanda had been in love with Allen before he'd realized it himself. Shaking her head, she pushed the thought away. 'That really doesn't matter now,'. She smiled at the troubled swordsman one last time as she left, heading in the direction of her next target.

As she walked, she tried to think of a way to help the two without making things worse. She knew from experience that Allen was a master of diversion, smoothly changing the subject whenever someone touched on a sensitive issue. Convincing him to hear her out would be difficult, but she was determined to try, for Kanda's sake.

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Reaching her destination, she took a moment to gather her thoughts before knocking softly. From within the room, she heard a muffled reply, and knocked again in case the words had not been meant as an invitation. Footsteps approached the door, and she leaned forward expectantly as it opened to reveal a haggard Allen Walker. Judging from his red eyes, he was probably just as upset about the situation as Kanda, but for different reasons.

Taking note of her appraisal, Allen sighed.

"Linali," He greeted her, "This really isn't the best.." He trailed off as she frowned. Brandishing the folder with his name on it, she raised an eyebrow in speculation. Smiling faintly, he stepped aside to allow her to enter. She turned to face him as the door swung closed behind her.

"I have a mission request for you, Allen-kun," She said, brightly. He motioned towards the room's only chair in a mute invitation for her to sit. As he sat across from her on the narrow bed, she took a better look at her pale friend. The dark markings under his gentle eyes spoke volumes about his night, and she winced in sympathy for the pain she knew he must be feeling.

Keeping her voice low, she began to speak. "Are you all right, Allen-kun?" At her gentle tone, his eyes widened. "Yes, I just didn't get much rest." He replied, somewhat warily. Surprised at his almost suspicious tone, she frowned.

"I wanted to tell you, I spoke with 'Nii-san yesterday about his... invention. He had some interesting things to say." Seeing his startled expression, she smiled. "He told me that if he rebuilds part of it, he thinks he may be able to return you to normal." His eyes widened further.

"Really?" He asked, his tone relieved. She nodded. "As soon as he wakes up, I intend to personally see that he starts working on it." Raising an eyebrow at her statement, Allen remembered the scene he'd encountered the previous night. A quiet snicker escaped him, and he cleared his throat before speaking.

"That's wonderful, thank you Linali." Noticing her questioning look, he sighed. 'I really should tell her what happened,' He thought reluctantly. Steeling himself, he continued. "The mission isn't the only reason you're here, is it?" As she flushed guiltily, he smiled. "It's all right, I want to tell you some things as well."

Before he could say anything more, she held up a hand. "I.. I also took a copy of the request to Kanda, before I came here."

He drew in a sharp breath, closing his eyes tightly at the mention of the samurai. Her voice gentle, she continued. "Why didn't you tell him the truth, Allen-kun?" His eyes flew open as he stared at her in alarm.

"The truth? What do you mean?" His voice was laced with panic. "What didn't I tell him?" She leaned away, her eyes narrowing.

"The truth, Allen-kun, all of it! He deserved to know, didn't he?" She frowned as Allen spluttered indignantly.

"What did you tell him?" He finally asked, his voice shaky.

"Well, he asked me about the machine," She replied, "What it was supposed to do, and about how to reverse what it did to you."

He sat back numbly. "And you told him everything." He whispered, feeling his eyes dampening. "What did he tell you, Linali? Did he tell you that I'm a horrible ass? Because I feel like one."

She shook her head. "He didn't say anything like that at all!" She allowed her voice to sharpen slightly. "What he did say is that he isn't going to hurt you." Allen glanced down at the floor.

"I know," He whispered, forcing his voice to remain steady. "But if he told you that, then he must have told you what happened." Seeing her slow nod, he closed his eyes. "He.. I.. It isn't fair to him, Linali." He finally spoke, emotion seeping into his words as he dropped the mask he'd been trying so hard to keep. "He told me.." He choked, and she moved to kneel beside him, giving him the time he needed to answer. "He told me that he loved me!" He finally sobbed, the words reawakening the memory of the older boy's voice in his ear as he'd held him so close...

Wrapping the shaking boy in her arms, Linali whispered to him. "I'm sorry, Allen-kun. I wish that there was something I could do to make it better, but the only thing I can really do is tell you what I think."

His tears subsided, and he sniffed. "That's more than enough, Linali. None of this is your fault."

Gently raising a hand to his face, she lifted his chin until she could see his face. "Do you believe that he loves you? I've known him for a long time now, Allen-kun, and I think he really does."

Shaking his head, he closed his eyes again, the feeling of self loathing apparent on his face. "That's why I had to send him away, Linali." He said, the tremor returning to his voice. "He told me more than once, but I can't just use him like this!" She tightened her hold on him as he shuddered.

"But when I explained that the ... feelings I had were not like his, he still.." Blushing, he shook his head. Surely Kanda hadn't told her everything, he thought. Seeing her own awkward expression, he gasped. "He.. He told you about.. that too?" Her nod stunned him. 'Oh, how embarrassing,' He shuddered again, and laughed quietly.

"The point is," He paused, attempting to push down his discomfort as he resumed speaking, "I could have fought him, but I didn't even try, Linali. I let myself get caught up in the moment, and when it was over, he said he loved me, and it hurt so much.."

She relaxed her embrace, and smiled. "He was very interested when I told him what 'Nii-san said, about helping you. When he heard that, the first thing he wanted to know was if any feelings you might have had for him before all this would still be there."

He gasped in disbelief. "He said that? After what I did, he still cared about that?"

Her smile widened. "That's when I figured out that he was in love with you, Allen-kun." She said, wiping his cheeks. "And you know, he also told me that he doesn't want to just give up."

He shook his head as her words sank in. 'He told me that he wouldn't forget,' He thought, 'I can't just give up either!'

Turning to face her, he made a decision. "I have to talk to him, don't I?" He said, not waiting for her to reply. "I'm afraid, Linali. If I see him, I might.." She shook her head, stopping his train of thought.

"He already knows what might happen, Allen-kun," She said, frowning. "If you see him and you can't ignore what you're feeling, then tell him so."

He stood abruptly, beginning to pace.

"What if I'm still not able to control myself, Linali? I don't want to lead him on, not at all. I thought about it for a long time last night, but I still don't know how I used to feel about him." He stopped, his back to her. "There was something there, I know that," He muttered, almost to himself. "I just don't know what it was. I can't tell him, or just let him believe that it was love, because I don't know.." He trailed off, gesturing helplessly.

Linali thought she understood. "Haven't you ever been in love with someone, Allen-kun?" She asked suddenly. He shook his head slowly.

"No, not like that. I loved Mana, but that wasn't like what I remember feeling for Kanda." He sighed. "I don't know if I can do this."

She fought down a laugh. "Could you describe what you think you felt, anything at all?" He returned to his seat, his face pale.

"I suppose I could try," He admitted, "But it doesn't really make sense, even to me, so I don't really think it will help."

She waited eagerly as he spoke.

"I remember that I wanted to know him, and that I wanted to be closer to him. When he was here, I thought that." He frowned, struggling to recall the things that confused him the most. "When he was gone, I worried that he might not come back, and I'd never have another chance to.. to.." He stopped, jumping to his feet.

Alarmed, she stood as well. "Allen-kun? What is it?" She said, reaching to touch his arm as he stood like a statue.

"To look at him.." He whispered hoarsely, his eyes wide. "I remember seeing him one night, when you and Lavi were gone. He was outside on the roof." He turned so quickly that Linali gasped. The look on his face was almost awed.

"There was no moon that night, but I could see him. And when he looked at me, I just stood there, staring at him like an idiot." He took a deep breath, his face heating up. "And I thought that he'd kill me if he knew, but I remember thinking to myself that he was so beautiful.."

Covering his mouth quickly, he turned away from the girl in embarrassment.

"And again, after we.." He blushed deeply, forcing himself to continue, "I felt so happy, so peaceful. I was with him, but I didn't feel the same compulsion as before. He tried to let me go, but I didn't want him to. I kissed him again, and I...". He stopped, and his face almost glowed with the brightness of his smile.

He turned, walking quickly to the door.

"Linali," He gasped, "I'm sorry, but I have to go. Right now." He didn't wait for her to reply. As the door slammed behind him, she sank onto the bed, her eyes wide.

"Well, I guess that takes care of that." She whispered, smiling.

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Kanda sat on his bed, wishing for the hundredth time that he'd tried harder to make Allen understand. 'Why did I push myself on him?' He though, angry at his lack of restraint, 'I knew that he needed time, but I still..' His thoughts were interrupted by the sound of someone running down the corridor.

Wondering irritably who could be making so much noise, he walked to his door. As he grasped the handle, the footsteps slowed, and he could hear the harsh breathing as the person tried to catch their breath. Frowning, he jerked the door open, the angry words he meant to speak catching in his throat as a black and white blur crashed into him.

Gripping the figure's arms, he thrust them away from him roughly. "What the hell are you.. Moyashi?" He stared, taking in the wide grey eyes and flushed face of Allen Walker. Closing his eyes, he released his tight hold on the boy, absently closing the door before turning to face him.

"What happened? Why are you crying?" He asked, narrowing his eyes at the recent tracks on the boy's cheeks.

Allen stared up at him, his breathing still ragged.

Kanda grew increasingly alarmed at the expression on Allen's face. "What is it? Allen!" He shook him lightly, careful not to hurt the smaller exorcist. Just as he decided that something must be horribly wrong, Allen blinked, and raised his arms.

Cupping his hands around the taller boy's face, he stroked a thumb across the skin of Kanda's cheek, wincing as he noticed the dark circles beneath those wide blue eyes. "I'm so sorry," He whispered, sliding one hand down to rest on the confused swordsman's neck. Tightening his grip, he tugged gently downwards until they were only inches apart.

Kanda shivered, feeling his breath catch as he stared at the boy's upturned face. The rush of his blood in his ears almost drowned out the quiet sound of Allen's voice as he spoke. "Please don't hurt anymore."

Closing his eyes, Kanda tried to control his suddenly racing heart. Drawing a sharp breath, he looked again at the source of his pain. Allen didn't flinch, allowing him to study the boy's face more thoroughly.

Seeing the lingering sadness there, he frowned. "What is it, koi?" He mumbled, his voice low. "I'm not angry with you, so if that's what this is about.." He trailed off, unsure of what to do.

Allen shook his head, slowly closing the distance between them. "You're so beautiful, Yuu.."

Astonished, Kanda could only watch as Allen raised himself to press completely against him, his hands clenching into the fabric of his shirt. "I can't believe I didn't know what this was." He whispered, his eyes hazy as he smiled.

"What didn't you know?" Kanda choked out, their lips brushing as he spoke.

"That I loved you." Allen murmured, slipping a hand back up to pull them together as Kanda's eyes widened.

With a low groan, he pulled back, his control strained to it's limit. "You don't have to do this, Moyashi," He growled, averting his eyes. "Don't say something that you don't mean."

Allen sighed, refusing to release his grip. "I do mean it, Kanda. When I thought about the way things used to be, I didn't understand what I was feeling then because I had nothing to compare it to." He lowered his voice. "But what I feel for you couldn't be anything else. I see that now."

Kanda shivered at the sound of his voice. He had to force himself to look away, before he did something they would both regret. "How can you be sure, Moyashi? You told me before that it wasn't love that you felt."

Allen blushed at the memory. "I know, and it wasn't." He said, his voice steady as he moved to face Kanda again. "That wasn't real love, it was just the physical urge." He smiled. "This isn't like that. Not entirely, anyway."

Kanda gasped silently as Allen released him. "What.. what is it like, then?"

Allen frowned, searching for the right words to convey his thoughts. "I still feel somewhat like I did before," He said, his face warming, "But it isn't overwhelming, like it used to be. There's something else there now."

He wanted so badly to convince Kanda that he was sincere, but he didn't know what to say. "Please, Kanda," He said, willing the other boy to understand, "Let me show you that it's not like it was."

Nodding, Kanda allowed himself to be enfolded in the smaller boy's arms, his breath shallow as Allen pressed his lips to the side of his throat. "I'm sorry I bit you," He mumbled, moving his mouth over the small mark. "You felt so good, I just couldn't help it."

Kanda groaned at the memory, his hands clenched tightly at his sides to keep from grabbing the other boy. "Moyashi.." He said, warningly.

"But you did, Kanda." Allen trailed his lips along Kanda's cheek, his breath warm against his ear as he whispered. "I still can't believe how good you felt, moving like that.."

Kanda gasped in surprise at the feeling of Allen's hands running up his back as he spoke. "Don't you notice anything different this time, Kanda?"

Nodding slightly, he cleared his throat. "The last time, I was the one doing the tempting." He managed, and frowned at the slight crack in his voice.

Allen chuckled, the vibration tickling softly against the swordsman's face. "And you did it very, very well," He whispered, his hips nudging against Kanda's as he smiled. "Only this time, I have much more patience."

Growling, Kanda gripped his waist. "But I don't, Moyashi. If you don't stop that.." He let the warning hang between them, giving the other exorcist time to pull away before things got out of hand.

Allen smiled as he moved his hands lower. Leaning up to reach the taller boy's ear again, he repeated his own words back to him.

"I won't stop. Not ever."

Kanda's hold on his waist tightened almost painfully, bringing their bodies together as he turned his head to the side and kissed the startled boy fiercely. A second later, it was his turn to be surprised when Allen moved against him, one hand stroking his back while the other slipped down the outside of his thigh.

Opening his eyes, he broke the kiss, holding his breath as Allen's hand traced lazy circles over the material covering his leg. Sensing his intent, Kanda seized his wrist, stilling the motion as he exhaled. "Be very careful, koi," He said, his voice husky with tension.

Allen whimpered, his eyes closed as he used his other hand to pull their lower bodies together teasingly. "Please let me touch you," He pleaded, sliding his gloved hand underneath the other boy's shirt. "I need to feel you, please Kanda."

The feeling of the cloth against his skin was unspeakably erotic, and he allowed his hold on Allen's wrist to slacken. "Are you sure, moyashi?" He asked, giving the boy one last chance to reconsider. "I don't want any more regrets."

Allen shook his head. "I told you then to never regret what we did, Kanda." Freeing his hand, he smoothed his palm over the curve of Kanda's hip, his gloved hand leaving the back of his shirt to loosen the tie that held back the swordsman's silky black hair.

Threading his fingers into it, he pulled their lips together again, his other hand resuming it's pattern on Kanda's leg, bringing a ragged moan from his lover. Drawing a deep breath, he shifted his focus to the inside of the boy's thigh, inching upwards as he brushed his tongue slowly over Kanda's.

Kanda backed quickly towards the wall, carefully pulling Allen along with him. He could feel the warmth of the boy's hand very clearly through the cloth of his pants, and he arched forward into his palm when he finally cupped him gently, gasping at the sensation that his light touch produced.

Amazed at his reaction, Allen lifted his head to watch as Kanda's eyes squeezed shut in pleasure. Shaking with the force of his arousal, Allen marveled again at just how beautiful this man was. Sliding his hand more firmly against Kanda's erection, Allen shivered as the boy moaned softly, bucking his hips forward at the increased pressure.

Kanda's legs shook as he ran his hands over the boy before him, memorizing the feel of his skin beneath his palms, the firmness of his muscles as the other boy continued to stroke him. Dropping his head to Allen's shoulder, he mumbled softly into his hair as he nuzzled against his neck.

"God, Allen, that's good.."

Smirking slightly, he bit down on the pale skin, laving his tongue over the resulting redness as Allen hissed softly. The feeling of Allen trembling beneath his fingers unleashed a flood of memories, and he let his hands roam over the spots that he knew to be the most sensitive.

Feeling Kanda's need for him made Allen bolder, his own hands leaving their former positions as he pushed his knee between the panting boy's legs. Running his hands teasingly over Kanda's hips, he gripped him tightly, experimenting with a slow rolling motion that he remembered from before.

Kanda cried out hoarsely, arching his back to meet the other boy's movements with is own. Allen smiled at the sound, slipping his hands into Kanda's back pockets. Using the angle of their bodies, he pulled himself forward sharply, earning another cry of pleasure.

Swaying his hips, he slid up to Kanda's ear, speaking quietly as he kissed the damp skin just below it. "How does it feel, Yuu?"

Acting quickly, Kanda wrapped his arms around Allen's body, pulling him against his chest to halt his movements as he shivered. "Too good," He replied, closing his eyes as he tried to calm himself. Glancing over the shorter boy's shoulder, his eyes fell on the bed. Kissing him slowly, Kanda urged him backwards until his knees bumped the edge, holding him tightly to keep him from falling.

Gently lowering him to the bed, Kanda saw the first twinge of apprehension in his Moyashi's grey eyes. "Please don't be afraid, Allen," He said, stroking his love's flushed cheeks. "I would never do anything to hurt you." Supporting his weight on his elbow, he leaned over him, nuzzling his face softly as he whispered into Allen's ear.

"You've had your fun Moyashi, but now it's my turn."

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Haha! I know you all just want to KILL me for ending it there, but I have to save a little bit for later don't I? Please review, and remember! Keep your eyes peeled for the upcoming Chapter 7, to be titled, "You've Got It All Wrong!" in which, Komui recovers, Kanda has his fun, and Lavi slips up!

Hontou ni, arigato gozaimasu for reading! Ja ne!