D. N. Angel Fan Fiction ❯ Gay Sanctum ❯ Immuring the Heart’s Desires ( Chapter 7 )

Chapter 7:

 

“Immuring the Heart's Desires”

 

(Daisuke's POV)

 

Behind the curtains my classmates and I shuffled into our prearranged positions. It was the Christmas concert, and as part of the choir, we were to sing several Christmas songs consisting of popular children's songs to pop. I had sent out invitations to everyone I knew, and of course, more than half of the audience was comprised of the Niwa's and Harada's, because they all reserved prior to everyone else. I wasn't even sure if Dark managed to get a spot, but I hope he did, because I wanted him to be here more than anyone else. Isn't that funny? I wanted a guy to be here for my concert. “One minute `til curtain!”

 

I took a deep breath and crossed my fingers. I might not spot him right away, but by the end, I will have.

 

On the other side of the merry, red curtains, our principal announced our choir, and instantaneously, the curtains rose. On the other side, flashing indicated that families were already taking pictures before the performance even started, and small red lights indicated that camcorders were filming. Besides that, it was too dark to discern between the many faces. I should have told Dark to give me a signal. I sighed, and our principal made the announcement.

 

Our first song was the oh-so-commonly-known song, “Jingle Bells.” And so, we began.

 

(Dark's POV)

 

“But I have a ticket!”

 

“I'm sorry, Sir, but our hall has reached its maximum capacity. To allow another person in would be illegal by law.”

 

“But I have a ticket.”

 

“Well, you should've arrived earlier. Our seats were filled long before the concert.”

 

Daisuke was not going to be happy about this. I promised him that I would be there. Just then, a light bulb flashed. No little man blocking my way into the hall was going to stop me. There are always other ways of getting in. “Sorry to take up so much of your time,” I slipped away with the biggest grin on my face.

 

I ran around the building, where I knew there was a stepping ladder that led to this balcony that over saw the entire hall. I would have the best seating in the hall! As I looked around, I eventually spotted the ladder, but I didn't remember it being that high. I shrugged. It wouldn't be that much of a problem. All I had to do was get a running head start, then I would surely reach it.

 

(Daisuke's POV)

 

We had finished a total of four three songs, and still, no sight of Dark. “Our next song will be `Come Oh Ye Faithful'.”

 

As the announcer vanished behind the curtains, the orchestra began playing, and we began singing, “Oh come all ye faithful. Joyful oh triumphant! Oh come ye, oh come ye to Bethlehem…”

 

Where are you, Dark?!

 

(Dark's POV)

 

Damn, I forgot about this window…Just when I made it up the ladder, I ran into the one thing I should have expected, but forgot about. The one thing that will block me from attending the concert I promised I would attend. Curse the man that gave it a lock.

 

I hoisted myself onto the ledge, then set my eyes on the window. I pushed my hand against it, and when it didn't open, I looked through the glass to see if there was anyone inside. Just my luck. No one's there. I pushed against it harder. Ramming my body forcefully against it, and after a few sturdy poundings, the window burst open. Immediately, the sound of the choir's songs flooded into my ears. “Hmm…,” I gently hummed to myself, “Daisuke's voice is so distinct.”

 

I stepped down and onto the wooden floor where I walked a few feet until I ran out of curtain to hide my whereabouts. I gradually turned my head and looked in front of the curtains, and immediately spotted Daisuke. “Hehe. He's wearing a suit;” I tilted my head and sighed, “That suit so does not suit him. Too much material.”

 

I leaned my face against the curtains, waiting for Daisuke to see me. I knew that if he didn't spot me in time, then he would become upset and claim that I never came. He sounds so beautiful. If only he didn't think our relationship was only for display, then maybe he'd allow me to take things a few steps further.

 

A few moments later and another song end, only for another to be announced. Daisuke sang with such passion, such devotion, that I just wanted to take all his exertion and swathe myself with it. Instantaneously, I wanted all his devotion directed at me. I wanted his undivided attention. I wanted him to sing for only me.

 

(Daisuke's POV)

 

He's not here. I knew he wouldn't come…With my anguish came my broken voice and not a single person missed it. “Daisuke, are you Ok?” asked the girl next to me while the others continued singing.

 

I wanted to say `no' because my lover had not shown. Lover…However, I just shrugged it off as `something in my throat.' The girl frowned, but went on wit her singing. I turned back to look towards the audience, instead of our instructor. I allowed my eyes to glance over all our attendees, then I settled my eyes on something hidden behind the curtains just opposite of the stage. There was someone behind it. As I tried to focus my vision on the person, I realized who it was. Dark! You came! You really came!

 

(Dark's POV)

 

So, he finally spotted me. About time. I smiled to myself as Daisuke's eyes settled on me, and only on me. Don't look away, Daisuke. Keep your eyes on me. Suddenly, the sides of his lips formed a smile as he sang. Just wait `til after the performance, Daisuke. I'm going to kiss you until you lie breathless in my arms. For the remainder of the performance, I kept my amethyst eyes locked with Daisuke's ruby eyes, feeling like everything he sang was just for me.

 

(Author's POV)

 

As soon as the last word of the final song was sang, Dark made a run for the stairway that led down into the hall. Daisuke took a bow with the rest of the choir, then the students were dismissed. He came! Daisuke blushed and exclaimed in his mind. If it weren't for all these people here, then I'd run into your arms and kiss you. Just as Dark was heading up the center aisle, he spotted Risa and her family as well as Daisuke's family. Daisuke followed Dark's eye movements, and noticed that he was looking over at his family. Is he going to make a move? Slowly, Daisuke came to a halt as he stood a few feet away from Dark. He took another glance at his family, then nodded, “Just nothing too obvious. I want them to play guess before we do anything… intense.”

 

Dark closed the distance between himself and Daisuke as he hugged him tightly then whispered, “I won't rush you into anything,” he breathed into Daisuke's ear, “but if we take too long, then you may end up being married to Risa.”

 

Daisuke didn't have to force himself to blush for there to be a sign of definite intimacy. Risa immediately spotted the two and intentionally interrupted them, “Ahem,” she pretended as if she was clearing her throat, “Daisuke, your singing was beautiful. Please tell me that you sang every word just for me,” her eyes sparkled into Daisuke's.

 

Without releasing each other from a tender embrace, Dark whispered into Daisuke's ear, “No, tell her if was meant for me,” his arms tightened, “Just for me.”

 

Risa raised her brow, “Do you mind letting him go?” she directed her question at Dark.

 

“Oh, how can I? He's just so adorable in his little suit,” Dark teased while rubbing his cheek against Daisuke's.

 

Risa then stepped forwards and squeezed herself between Dark and Daisuke, wrapping her arms around Daisuke, “Well, he's mine, so butt out!”

 

“Daisuke,” said Emiko, “It's time to go,” she said while taking a good look at Dark.

 

“Actually,” Daisuke interrupted, “I was wondering if Dark could spend the night,” Daisuke pulled away from Risa and smiled.

 

Emiko frowned, “Daisuke, I'm sure his parents wouldn't allow him to come on such a short notice.”

 

“I'm staying at the school. My parents couldn't careless where I am as long as I'm alive,” Dark came beside Daisuke, and furtively intertwined their fingers behind their backs.

 

Daisuke, in response, gasped and blushed while grasping Dark's hand. Risa didn't miss Daisuke's blush. “I don't think that would be a good idea,” she looked at Emiko.

 

“Actually, I'm fine with it,” said Daisuke's dad.

 

“Ok,” said Emiko while she glanced between Daisuke and Dark. She suspected that there was more to this little game of charades, but decided not to warrant attention. If she only knew.

 

However, before Daisuke and Dark could make it to the door, the Haradas spoke, “Now, now, this isn't fair to Risa,” said Mrs. Harada, “The whole purpose of our staying is for Risa and Daisuke to bond.”

 

Daisuke's father nodded, “True, but there's no harm in giving Daisuke one night to hang out with his friend. After all, it's not like Daisuke's going to grow that much closer to Risa.”

 

The Haradas appeared hostile to the, what they understood as, daft idea. Nonetheless, they remained silent with bitter faces. “Daddy,” Risa whimpered while pulling on her father's sleeve, “I don't want Dark to stay the night.”

 

What a whiner! Dark thought as he began tapping his foot anxiously. Daisuke quickly noted the act, and leaned against Dark in response. Dark couldn't be the only one playing this game of charades. But are we really pretending? Daisuke quickly repressed the thought as his eyes noticed something better. His mom. She was glaring at him again. Daisuke smiled innocently, feigning that he was oblivious to his actions. After a moment, Emiko looked away and whispered to Daisuke's father, “I'm not sure if letting him spend the night is such a good idea. I'm getting the feeling that there's something Daisuke isn't telling us.”

 

“It's Ok, Emiko. Daisuke's a good boy,” Emiko frown. Had he also been ignorant of the boys' displays?

 

“Dark,” Daisuke whispered while his parents talked, “Let's go, otherwise, you may not be able to stay the night,” he looked up at Dark while leaning his body closer against his.

 

Dark kept his hand firmly intertwined with Daisuke as the two slipped away from the arguing adults. Once outside, Dark took Daisuke around the corner where he had climbed that ladder, and pressed Daisuke to the wall. “Is this too much for you, Daisuke?” Dark asked with concern.

 

“What? You mean what we are doing?” Daisuke asked.

 

“Not what we are doing at the moment. What happened with the adults is what I'm referring to. Do you think… I took it too far?”

 

Of course not. You just possessively embraced me and refused to let me go until Risa broke us up, you held my hand behind our backs while the adults looked at us suspiciously, and you led me outside while they had their backs turn. “It's for the better good.”

 

Is that all you have to say? Dark pressed his forehead against Daisuke's, “Do you want them to catch us like this?” asked Daisuke. Because I want them to.

 

“That would probably end the arrangement quickly,” Dark responded.

 

“I don't want that…,” Daisuke suddenly gasped as he realized his choice of words were probably not wise.

 

“Don't want what? For the arrangement to be over fast?” Daisuke took a breath of relief, that was, until Dark spoke again, “Or us?”

 

Us…“I don't know,” Daisuke responded too quickly.

 

Dark took a moment to examine Daisuke's gesture, and then said, “If you don't want your engagement to Risa to be over too suddenly, then just say so, Daisuke,” he leaned in to whisper his next words into Daisuke's ear, “But if you don't want us to end too quickly, then…”

 

Oh… god…“I'm not like that,” Daisuke interrupted, but immediately regretted afterwards.

 

“Is that so?” It sure doesn't seem that way. Dark took a step back, allowing Daisuke some space.

 

In response, Daisuke kept himself against the wall, wondering why there was a sudden void between himself and Dark. Daisuke wrapped his arms around his waist. Don't leave me, Daisuke suddenly thought. What am I thinking?

 

“Daisuke, Dark?!” Emiko called.

 

Dark was the first to respond. “We're coming.”

 

Daisuke followed soon after. “Dark,” addressed Emiko, “We have a room you can stay in if you wish to stay at our home.”

 

“Sure. Where?”

 

Of course, Dark didn't expect for it to be practically on the other side of the mansion. Dark stared, quite a few minutes later after they arrived at the Niwa's mansion, at the room he will be staying in during the night. “It's a lovely room, no?” asked Emiko, “And it has a great view of the pond. So, when will you be leaving tomorrow?” asked Emiko with a wide grin.

 

“Whenever Daisuke kicks me out I guess,” Dark looked at the clock hanging over the drawer.

 

“Oh… Ok…,” Emiko dashed out Dark's room, and he had a good idea where she was heading. Off to see Daisuke? Dark smirked.

 

Daisuke stared at his mom, “You want me to ask him to leave as soon as the sun comes up?” asked Daisuke.

 

“Yes. It's bad enough that he is even here. How could you just invite him without my approval? It's completely rude to Risa and her family.”

 

Daisuke crossed his arms and rolled his eyes. He couldn't believe he was having this argument with his mother. Can't he ever have a friend stay over just once? “Mom, Dark's my friend. We get along great. I love hanging out with him. I'm also probably the only companion he has most of the time.”

 

“Oh? Well, tell me more. What makes Dark so great?”

 

“He's… loyal (I hope), he loves playing games with you (or on the priests), he's always there when you need him (and he needs you), and like I said, he's really easy to get along with (as long as you have the right body),” Daisuke mentally sighed.

 

“Sounds like a pet to me,” said Emiko. Daisuke and Dark can't be playing dog/servant and master. Who's dominant? “Well, as long as he doesn't do anything disrespectful to you, or kidnap you, then I guess he's Ok.”

 

“So, can't he stay a little while longer?”

 

“You mean `til breakfast?”

 

“No, I mean until I kick him out.”

 

“Which will probably not be until Risa and her family leaves.”

 

Oh, I wish! “Not that long. I was thinking until… well, maybe until an hour after lunch.”

 

Emiko sighed. She didn't want to succumb to Daisuke, but did. “Ok. Just make sure he goes to bed early. It's already eight.”

 

With that said, Emiko left.

 

Daisuke laid on his bed, patiently waiting. He knew that Dark was going to pay him a visit. A few moments later, and he heard a knocking on the door. Daisuke ran to get it, “Dark?”

 

“Yo.”

 

Daisuke pulled Dark into his room, and into an embrace, “I'm sorry,” Daisuke grabbed onto Dark's clothes. This is ridiculous. I can't be this weak. I can't want him this much.

 

“Daisuke, are you going to be sleeping in your room, or mine?” Dark asked.

 

Daisuke scrutinized the halls and motioned for Dark to follow. “So my room it is,” Dark had one of his trademark smirks lingering on his face.

 

Along their way to the bedroom, Daisuke's mind was riddled. He wanted to be with Dark in a nonsexual way, but at the same time he wanted that obscene relationship. He didn't want their “relationship” to end, but if it didn't end soon, then he was afraid that he might end up falling too deeply for Dark that he wouldn't be able to recover from the rejection. Daisuke was inclined by his yearns for Dark to accept his kisses and other tender, affectionate displays, but he didn't want others to be in on it, and sometimes, he felt nauseated with the notion. This is insane.

 

Daisuke laid on the bed next to Dark. His mind was still going through a state of dilemma. He's just here to help me. Dark doesn't really love me. I don't love him. I'm a guy, I like girls…Right? Right… Daisuke turned on his side as he looked longingly into Dark's eyes. I'm not gay, I'm not gay, I'm not gay. He tried to convince himself, immuring his heart's desire. It's just my hormones… I just want relief. Daisuke closed his eyes. That's all… I just want someone who would be easy.

 

“Daisuke, you look pale,” stated Dark, “Maybe I should get you some water while you wait here.”

 

Daisuke nodded. Maybe a little space would help him clear his thoughts.

 

When Dark left the room, he hadn't even completely shut his door before someone was there to check up on him. “Out for a late night stroll?”

 

Dark jerked, then turned around, “Spying on me, are you?” sarcasm was fluent in his tone, “Perhaps you thought that by coming to see me, you would get something out of it?”

 

Risa blushed, “You pervert! I'm here because I wanted to make sure that you aren't sneaking off to Daisuke's room.”

 

She's almost like a guard dog. “I'm just off to get some water,” Dark walked past her, hoping that she wouldn't follow, but by the devil's luck, she did.

 

Maybe if I ignore her, she'll leave me alone.

 

While down in the kitchen, Dark took a glass, plopped a few ice cubes in it, filled it with water, and headed back up stairs, yet still Risa did not lay off. It wasn't until Dark was back in front of his door did he realize that maybe Risa might peek into his room and spot Daisuke sprawled out on his bed. “If you don't mind, I'd like to be left alone now.”

 

“Why so nervous? Is Daisuke in there too?”

 

“Yes,” Dark smirked, “He's on my bed, sprawled out like a helpless doll just waiting for me to jump him.”

 

Risa narrowed her eyes. “Open the door.”

 

“Jeez, mind your own business, Risa. Daisuke's in his room, and I want to go into mine, but I have this thing about people prying their noses into things that don't concern them.”

 

Risa leaned against the opposite wall. “Shouldn't you be monitoring the other hall? No one is here besides you and me, now, go away,” Dark made little hand gestures, “Shoo, shoo.”

 

Risa was infuriated. How dare Dark talk to her as if she was some animal or child? “That's it. I know you have someone in there,” she stomped her way over to the door, but Dark got there first, and tried to block her way, “Move!”

 

“You're going to wake the whole house! Poor people! How do they ever get any sleep around here? How does poor Daisuke ever sleep?”

 

“For your information,” Risa replied angrily, “Things around this place are usually pleasant.”

 

“I seriously doubt that!” Dark just managed to push Risa off, but then she came at him, and kicked him in the shin.

 

Dark nearly bad-mouthed her out, but was in too much pain. He grabbed his lower leg, and just as he did, Risa opened the door. No one was there. The bed appeared like it hadn't even been touched. Everything was in neat order, and there were no signs of other life… besides Dark. Risa frowned. She was sure Dark was hiding someone away. “Whatever,” she said while turning to leave. Finally.

 

“Good night,” Dark said in a cheery voice, despite his throbbing patella. “I'll get you back one day or another,” he hissed.

 

Dark then turned his attention to his room. Where had Daisuke gone? Dark limped back into the room then clambered onto his bed while looking around for Daisuke. “Dai-Kun? It's ok. Risa's gone.”

 

Out of the closet popped Daisuke's head. He looked around and then settled his eyes on Dark, “Is she really?”

 

“Yeah. Did you hear us outside? I was worried she was going to bust in and spot you.”

 

“I'm not dumb,” said Daisuke as he climbed onto the bed, “I heard you two arguing outside. I knew I had to hide in case Risa managed to get inside.”

 

“Yeah, well, let's hope she doesn't try to barge into your room.”

 

“It's Ok. I'll just pretend that I was walking outside. No one should suspect anything.”

 

That's what you think. Knowing your parents, they probably have body guards sleeping outside your bedroom door. Dark laid back on the bed with his hands behind his head. He just wanted to go to sleep with Daisuke contiguous to him. Daisuke at first just sat by Dark and watched. It wasn't until Dark motioned for Daisuke to sleep did Daisuke finally move. He aligned his body adjacent to Dark's then surprised him by placing his hand on Dark's chest. Dark smiled. He felt like he was a necessity that Daisuke couldn't go without.

 

“If you're not gay, then why so possessive?”

 

Daisuke blushed. Could he really give a reason for his demonstrative actions if he himself didn't even know the reason for it? “I don't know. It's just… I…”

 

Dark decided to save Daisuke from humiliation. “Ok. Don't hurt yourself,” he gave Daisuke a pat, “Just as long as you are always with me.”

 

Daisuke nodded while pondering on what Dark meant by that. Just as long as you are always with me. Just as long as you are always here. Daisuke fell asleep with a smile on his face.