Death Note Fan Fiction ❯ Resolute Angel ❯ These Tears I Waste. . . ( Chapter 1 )

Death Note fanfiction

Author's note: Well, this is my first L/Light it continues after book 7. . . Feel free to comment. Go easy this is my first story since. . . Well, in a while. ^-^ Enjoy!

 

Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note. . .

Pairing: L/Light

Chapter Warning: Spoilers! Foul language may be involved. . .

 

Chapter 1: These Tears I Waste. . .

 

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L had been dead for three years now. . . Or so most people thought.

 

L sat alone watching from the cameras he owned. . . Yes, he had even fooled the doctors of his death. They had pronounced him dead. But no one knew that he was in exisistance other than himself. He never expected Rem, the other Shinigami, to actually kill Watari. L already knew Light was Kira and he knew that Rem had extended Misa's life. He figured out everything there was to know about this Death Note. He sat staring at a screen showing Light Yagami, the first person he'd ever fallen in love with. His eyes were rimmed with tears and darker then what they usually were. He could remember when he told Light that he was his first friend. L ignored the fact that he was craving sweets. He was paler than usual and his lithe, slender body was even more slender.

 

L saw Light was alone. Misa was gone. She'd died recently by an accident. L wiped away the tears he felt were wasted. “Yagami-kun, why do you make me feel this way?” He murmured to no one in particular. L stood. He hadn't eaten in some while. His eyes averted to the sugar cube stack. He picked a cube up, popped it in his mouth and roamed out of the room he'd isolated himself to for so long.

 

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Light wrote in some more names in his notebook. “Ugh! Why do you constantly fill my thoughts?!” Light screamed throwing his pencil and notebook across the room. “Damn you Ryuuzaki!” Light sneered. He picked up something else and was about to fling it across the room when he heard a light knocking at his door. He huffed a bit then composed himself before opening his door.

 

Ryuk chuckled, but when he saw a familiar face. . . He gasped in shock. “Light, is that . . .?”

 

Light stared blankly at the boy that was only an inch shorter than him. Long, pale fingers reached out to touch Light's shoulder. “Yagami-kun. . .” The reflection of the moon showed those dark eyes of L's. Light's eyes widened at least an inch or two.

 

“L. .?”

 

L didn't say a word. He looked at his bare feet and rocked onto the balls of his feet then rocked back.

 

“C'mon in. . .” Light said pulling L fully into the room. `He doesn't look different other than his reflection is paler and his eyes are darker than before. . . He's still wearing that same outfit he always wore: blue jeans and a long sleeved white shirt. . .' Light thought to himself. Light himself was wearing a nice, long sleeved black shirt with cream colored pants.

 

“Yagami-kun. . . How could you?” L asked, keeping his eyes hidden from sight.

 

“What ever do you mean L?” Light threw on an innocent look.

 

“You're under arrest. . . Kira.” L handcuffed Light to himself. “I know you're Kira and you won't leave my sight now. I may not have the complete proof. . . Yagami-kun, but I know you are Kira.” L silently shed more tears.

 

Light almost smirked, L, the one he'd thought he'd outsmarted, was now on his case again.

 

 

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L sat in his regular position: his knees hugged tightly to his chest as he huddled over his knees. Light sighed. “So, you aren't going to turn me in? You're just going to keep us locked in your apartment? No one, not even the dead Watari knowing of your exisistance? Or maybe. . . Watari isn't dead?”

 

L started to tremble. “Yes! He is! Your stupid Shinigami, Rem, killed him!” He shouted. It was very unusual for L to ever shout.

 

Light was taken back when L shouted.

 

“You are my only friend and you don't even act like my friend. . . But Yagami-kun no matter what. . . You are always my friend. I'm not telling anyone of my being on this planet alive because then they would all ask me many questions they are in the way. . . I can not have them in my way. You, Yagami-kun will have been known to have run away because I am going to solve this case. . .” L spoke quietly and started typing on his computer: L will make sure that justice will prevail.

 

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Light stared at the now sleeping boy, L. “Sugar overdose.” Light said stifling a laugh. He paused as he stared down at the peaceful boy. “I am glad you aren't dead, strangely enough.” Light finally decided to lie down beside L and pulled the boy toward him trying to make sure that the chain wouldn't hurt him from being to distant. “Good night. . . Detective.”

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L was awake in the midst of the night. He leaned over watching Light. “Yagami-kun. . .” He cooed.

 

Light sat up. “What is it?” He rubbed his temples.

 

“Get up; we're going to the kitchen.”

 

“L! Why are we going to the kitchen?” Light asked getting frustrated.

 

“Cake.” L answered with a shy smile, hoping Light would get up.

 

“Ugh, whatever!” Fortunately for L, Light finally got up and groggily walked into the kitchen with him. L ate his slice of cake with delight.

 

The two boys traveled back to their room and crawled back into the bed. Light fell asleep in only minutes. L, on the other hand, could not sleep with all of his thoughts.

 

By three in the morning, L had finally drifted to sleep with his bothersome thoughts.

 

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Light and L were both working on their separate lap tops. Light tugged the chain between them purposely trying to make L mad. L ignored this though and began typing again.

 

Yank.

 

L glanced at Light who yanked on the chain again. L's eyes followed the chain up to Light's face. “Yagami-kun. . .” He murmured with an annoyed tone while Light smirked.

 

“Yes, Ryuuzaki?”

 

“Stop.”

 

“Why should I?”

 

L raised an eyebrow at this. “Why shouldn't you?” He challenged and Light growled and stood.

 

L ignored Light until Light pounced on him. “Immature brat!”

 

“But Yagami-kun you are the one pouncing on me.” L pointed out causing Light to cringe.

 

Light pinned L's hands and snarled. “Okay, listen up you ignorant little. . . I came here because of you forcing me and I haven't complained once.” L tried to sit up and Light straddled his hips, making it harder for L to move. “Nuh-uh L, not this time! You will listen to me! Got that? I go with you and don't even protest against not seeing family and then you act like some punk and say I'm Kira and shit you know what? Fuck you.”

 

L winced at the words. He pushed Light off of him with all of his strength and hugged his knees. He felt tears stream down his face, but no sound came as if he were crying. “You are Kira. Don't lie. You wrote in those fake rules on the back of that note book. You killed Misa since Rem couldn't stop you anymore for killing Watari to strengthen Misa's lifespan. You did it Yagami-kun.”

 

Silence fell to the two boys. Light stood and sat back in his chair, as did L. It was silent like this for two hours.

 

L stood and said, “Come Yagami-kun, we're going to watch a movie. . .”

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Light blinked and rubbed his eyes over and over, unsure of what he was seeing. “L, why are we watching . . . A gay anime video?”

 

“Well, it's called shounen-ai and it is good to understand love more.” L shyly retorted.

 

“Yeah, but gay love?”

 

“Yes, what is wrong with that?” L gave a small glare to Light. Light snorted.

 

“Prick.”

 

L's eyes widened and he faced Light. “What did you say Yagami-kun?”

 

“You heard me, I called you a prick.”

 

“. . .” L had never been called such a name especially from his one and only friend. He bit his lip and shied back to the television.

 

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An hour passed, L was still thinking about Light's last words. “Yagami-kun, gay love is the sweetest, most caring, tender, sensitive love.”

 

Light made a barfing noise. L glared back at the boy.

 

“Your lack of faith disturbs me, Yagami-kun.”

 

“Your gay side annoys me.”

 

“Yagami-kun, who said I was gay?”

 

“You didn't have to.”

 

“Kira is gay.”

 

“No he's not.”

 

“Denial.”

 

“L!” Light shouted.

 

“Yes, Yagami-kun?” L asked in a tone laced with sweetness.

 

“Don't act all sweet!”

 

“Well, sorry.” L said sarcastically.

 

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The screen to the television was now blank. The movie was over. Night had already come.

 

“Yagami-kun.” L softly cooed.

 

“Ugh! What is it?”

 

“Cake.”

 

“L!”

 

L had gotten his way and was now savoring the taste of a delicious, strawberry cake.

 

The two headed back to the room with a frustrated Light and a pleased L. They crawled in bed and once again fell asleep. Well, Light did. L, on the other hand, had once again not fallen asleep.

 

L once again fell asleep at three in the morning. `Insomniac. . .' He thought to himself mockingly before he'd drifted into the warm arms of sleep.

 

Light woke up from his dream at exactly three in the morning, when L had fallen asleep. Light watched L. “I had a dream about kissing him? Bleck!” Light paused and thought for a moment. He sighed and lay back down again. He drifted into slumber.

 

The two sleep peacefully, hugging each other without noticing it.

 

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L awoke to Light shaking him. His eyes wouldn't open though and his body wouldn't move.

 

“L! Wake up! Get up!”

 

L felt his chest tighten and he stopped breathing.

 

“L? L? Wake up!” Light shook the boy.

 

L let himself slip into the darkness, exhausted.

 

 

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L awoke many hours later. “Yagami-kun, what happened?”

 

Light softly stroked L's hair. “You stopped breathing.” He replied calmly.

 

L didn't seem like it really bothered him. “Oh.”

 

Light frowned. “What do you mean `oh'?”

 

“Oh, as in I see or a passive way of understanding.”

 

“Passive, eh?” Light pushed L away and left him confused.

 

“I saved your damn life for nothing.” Light snorted, but when he felt L's lips upon his cheek he felt otherwise.

 

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Two months had passed. Ryuk hadn't hung around since Light was taken with L. Light knew it was for precautions for if L were to know where the note book was hidden.

 

L was standing on his balcony just outside of his room.

 

“L, get in here.” Light said as he tugged on the chain linking them. L ignored him and stared down upon the city. He wiped a stray tear that had formed away and turned toward Light.

 

“L, were you crying?”

 

L paused for a moment. He wanted to tell Light that he'd been crying because he was wishing that Light never had found that stupid Death Note. But he decided not to.

 

“Yagami-kun, what would make you think that

? Let's go get a slice of cake.” L quickly changed the subject which threw Light off completely.

 

Light watched L delicately nibble at a slice of cake. This made him give a subtle sigh. `Maybe if I seduce him then I'll get off the hook. . .' Light felt a lust toward L. He quickly shook it off trying to tell himself that nothing was wrong with him that he was just frustrated sexually since he was barely able to do anything. He even had to shower with L. `Not that I mind showering with that sexy. . . What the hell is wrong with me!?' Light slammed his head against the wall over and over again causing L to look at him while taking the last bite of his cake.

 

“You okay Yagami-kun?”

 

“Yes.” Light hissed through his teeth.

 

L stood and popped in another shounen-ai video.

 

Light's eye twitched when he felt a tug on the chain to pull him down in the sit next to L.

 

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Light's fist was bunched up once he heard L coo his name.

 

“What?” He hissed.

 

“Cake.”

 

Light pushed L off the bed. Causing Light to jerk forward a bit when L hit the ground.

 

“Oof.” L made a small whimper.

 

“What?” Light asked as his frustration grew.

 

“It hurts. . .” L whimpered.

 

“What does?”

 

“My ankle.”

 

Light stood and strode over to L. Sure enough, L had fallen wrong and twisted back his ankle. Light bit his lip and hugged the boy. “I'm sorry L.” He murmured lightly.

 

L felt himself being picked up bridal style and he rested his head on Light's chest. Light couldn't help, but to feel guilty.

 

Light delicately placed an ice pack to L's ankle. “Are you going to be okay?”

 

L nodded his head to show he'd be fine. “I thought so.” Light murmured and whispered once more, “I'm sorry L. . .”

 

L was silent. “Please, Yagami-kun don't keep giving me these strange, warm feelings. It's like these tears I waste. Futile. You don't want me to feel like this.”

 

 

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Author's note: Well, hope you enjoyed. Please leave your comments, but please no flames. It's not like I told you that you had to read this. ^-^ Well, buh-bye for now.