Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ I Love You, I Love You Not ❯ Carpe Diem ( Chapter 3 )

Disclaimer= too tired to write one right now…read the first chapter

Teti= hiya, did you miss me? sorry for this enormous waiting, but I have been *so* busy with school and stuff…I got my results two days ago and they were good! Surprising even math!

I had lost my inspiration for writing, but now, re-reading your exquisite reviews, I've come to term to write again. Or, at least, to try to. It's 11.30 at night, so don't expect a masterpiece from this chapter, okay ^__^? I don't know how much a seminar lasts, so I am making it up for the story.

About the Taito/Jyouto, I think the conclusion I had chosen wasn't right for this. I'll explain more when the chapter is finished.

Warning: THIS PART HAS LIME!!! I love lemons like the next person, but I'm not able to write graphic, sorry.

Now enjoy!

I Love You, I Love You Not

~Chapter Three~

One week had passed since that day. So happy and joyful for two people, and so grievous for another. There was a third being, a watcher, who said nothing about the whole situation. She knew what were the feelings between the three of them, but couldn't bear to express them to the direct interested. Those were problems they had to solve by themselves. Under the apparent stillness and merriness, there was a thin layer of tension and uneasiness, of whom neither Matt, Joe, nor Tai ever spoke a word about. That atmosphere of restlessness, yet, was still fluttering upon the guys, getting heavier and heavier with the passing of the time.

Mimi, with her concern, was stuck in the middle. Why did those things always happened to her?! She seemed to have an attraction for getting involved with other people's sentimental lives. It was a natural gift.

One Saturday evening, the room was oddly quiet. It looked as if there was nobody inside, so peaceful and quiet as it was. There were, by contrary, three full of life guys inside, whose vitality was only dozed for a little. Two of them were sitting of the couch, with their hands entwined together, and a blonde head leaning on the other's shoulder. The third person was spread on his bed, apparently watching some silly TV show; actually he was more watching the two lover birds, or better, one golden-haired lover bird, while his heart was sinking and his soul crashing once again.

Thoughts of him, thoughts of them, they were driving him mad. He couldn't get the picture of Matt and Joe kissing out of his head. The shock, the anguish and the complete desperation he had felt in those little fragments of moments had left their marks. Invisible, ever-present marks.

A sigh came from the living room, were the object of his secret affections was resting. With Joe.

He heard the sound of someone getting up, and went to join his friends to see what their were doing. Or what he hoped they were not doing.

Joe was the one standing tall, while Matt was still sleeping peacefully. Joe and Tai looked at him with desire; he was so unearthly gorgeous, his beauty was breathtaking.

"I have to go, Tai" Joe announced his friend suddenly, who almost didn't hear him, too hypnotized by the blonde sleeping.

Tai was slowing to answer and this worried Joe. His friends wasn't acting like himself at all lately; he just hoped he wasn't jealous of his relationship with Matt.

"Why are you telling me this?" Tai said "shouldn't you warn Matt before?" he asked, a little vexed.

"He already knows, I was just advising you that I must be out of town for two weeks; I've got to go to a seminar in Kyoto, and I won't be back until then" Joe explained quietly, knowing this wouldn't please his roommate.

"What?!" Tai yelled, then lowed his tone to not wake up Matt "I'm your best friend, Joe; or at least I hope I still am" he added, resentful "maybe we're not as close as before, but I think it's my right to know that you've got to be away for two, three, four days or even more! When were you planning to tell me this, the second before you'd leave? And how would you have told me, with just a "hey Tai, I'm going to Kyoto, take care for the room", kisses, hugs and nothing else?! You've deluded me, Joe Kido" he blurted out, a whisper the last part

Joe didn't know what to say; he felt guilty, for what his friend had told was true. It was just that…that…that he didn't believe Tai anymore.

Since the morning of his confession to Matt, he had feared him, he was afraid that Tai would have stolen his blonde koishii from him, sooner or later. And the prospective of being far from home wasn't helping any, so he had let time pass by, waiting the day of his departure.

Matt didn't know why Joe hadn't told Tai yet, but, seeing as the blue-haired youth was uneasy with the situation, didn't mention it again. He just thought that between Tai and Joe there had to be some tensions. He just hoped it was not because of him.

Tai took the silence the wrong way, or better, the right way. His friend did not trust him anymore. The truth hit him full force and he stared speechless at Joe. How could he, how could he?!

The younger boy didn't say a word, he just turned and went back to his bed, locking the door behind him.

Joe sighed sadly. Tai had all of the reasons to hate him now. He had broken their friendship. When he left the room to finish his trunk, he noticed two piercing blue eyes glaring at him, puzzled. He turned to his boyfriend and, putting on his best fake smile, he reassured him:

"Don't worry, it's just a little quarrel; he will get over it soon, trust me" he grinned. Trust me, these words stung him like a needle.

Matt nodded, but didn't look too convinced yet. He didn't believe him; this time, it was a serious matter.

*~*~*~*~*

"Have you taken everything you may need?" a troubled Matt asked Joe, while looking for possible forgotten things; he was maniacal when it came to such a matter like a departing or anything related with arranging and cleaning up, like Tai and Joe had learned at their expenses.

"Yes, I have my toothbrush, my toothpaste, my comb, my pijama, my socks, shoes and slippers. There are six pairs of underwear, and some jeans, shirts and a suit as well; can I go now Mummy?" Joe smirked innocently, while the blonde patted him jokingly on the head, leaned over and stamped a light kiss on his lips. He then looked at Joe in the eyes and, very quietly, he whispered him he would have missed him; his voice trembled slightly.

Joe hugged him lovingly. "I will miss you too" he reassured his fiancé, "every single second away from you will be like an eternity for me"

"Oh, please" a very annoyed Tai Kamiya snapped "you will be in Kyoto for just two weeks , and you make it looking like two years!"

"Thanks for killing the mood here, Kamiya" Joe mumbled sheepishly. Matt made a funny face, half amused and half embarrassed, for being discovered showing such affection. Tai just grinned.

Suddenly a chestnut girl stormed in the room, falling on top of a very flushed Joe.

"Oh my God, sorry Joe! I was running like a mad for fear of missing your departure, I did not want to crash in the room this way" she excused herself cheerfully.

"Now, if you would only get off of him ,we would all be very happy, Mimi dear" Matt ordered, falsely jealous and irritated, smirking in a malicious way.

Mimi faked a hurt look. "What, do you think I would steal him away from you, Lover Boy?" she asked chuckling, sticking out her tongue to him.

Joe and Tai laughed noisily at the comic side of the situation. These two ere always teasing each other, just like brothers and sisters.

Joe sent a look at the clock and noticed he was in a tremendous delay and sprang up unexpectedly.

"I'm late for the plane! I have to run off!" he exclaimed troubled. He said farewell to everyone, dwelling more upon Matt, who hugged him and wished him luck. He then left the room and ran towards to exit of the university, were a taxi was waiting for him to arrive.

Matt sighed, he was already missing his koibito. It is just two weeks, he repeated himself; but he felt something very bad was going to happen. He hoped it was just a feeling.

*~*~*~*~*

Kyoto was unspeakably beautiful, with its amazing old gardens, parks and temple, a paradise for every art lover; Joe was enjoying himself there, but he missed his boyfriend terribly. Hw wondered what he was doing in that precise moment…

…

"Achoo!" Matt sneezed. Someone was thinking about him.

"Bless you!" Tai exclaimed from the kitchen. Matt murmured a "thanks", then went back to studying.

Tai stole a look at the blonde. Aw, how he wished he was his. Joe very incredibly lucky to have such beauty for himself. He couldn't stand it anymore, he had to do something about it, had to make Matt forget Joe. At least for a night.

The blonde, in effect, felt alone without his blue-haired beloved near him. Yes, Tai was certain a good friend, and Mimi was always there to cheer him up, but he still felt loneliness. And it had only been two days. He did not know how he would have survived two whole weeks.

The brunette had made his decision. He would make Matt his. The problem was, how? The lithe youth was certainly loyal to his lover, and would not betray him so easily. Tai had just one weapon to use, loneliness. And loneliness would be his winning card.

For the next four days he tried to get closer and closer to his blonde more-than-a-friend. He talked to him often, he joked and laughed with him, they made tricks to Mimi together and together they ran away from her. The girl, in fact, was still in the university, enjoying too much her life there and asking for a prerogative of her staying.

A Sunday afternoon saw two friends sat on the couch together, watching some action films and eating some junk food. Or better, a wild haired boy was eating junk food, the other one found it unhealthy and untasty.

Tai's heart exulted. Those had been the happiest days of his life; he had never felt so linked to anyone and this closeness was almost too great to stand. His desire for the blonde was unbearable, suffocated too much and now going to explode. This was the perfect moment for the last part of his plan: Mission Almost Possible Yamato part III. He was proud of that name.

He closed the distance between him and Matt, unnoticed by the slender boy. Tai breathed deeply, then turned his head, to find the said blonde staring at him, with a weird and mistakable expression written all over his godly face. Tai blinked, and looked away. Matt returned his staring to the TV. Now, however, there was an unnerving silence. The brunette had lost all of his courage looking into those amazing blue pools. He sighed, trying to gain again his bravery to perform that last, desirable act.

He turned again to Matt, who this time was not looking at him at all; Tai put an hand on his shoulder, making Matt staring at him confused. He leaned over and kissed the blonde passionately on the lips, while the other hand remained still on Matt's hip.

The blonde froze. No, no, no, this was not supposed to happen! Thoughts of Joe crossed his mind, yet his body did not obey him anymore. He felt himself respond eagerly to the kiss, wrapping his arms around Tai's neck, who smiled in the kiss.

He was betraying Joe, but why, oh why this felt so right? He had always thought that Tai was rather cute, a rough cuteness, very appealing, yet he did not feel attracted to him other than that. These past four days, still, had changed a little his mind. Tai was a great companion, funny and nice to be with. Joe was always so serious…

During this week he had gotten to know Tai better, and found him a charming person. He indeed felt drawn to the brunette, but he did not know what this was. A crush? An infatuation? Or something deeper?

These were the thoughts that crossed the mind of Matt Ishida, while Tai Kamiya was still kissing him, now harder.

The blonde thought about how much he had felt alone without Joe, and how Tai had helped him through. Live in the present, he heard someone yelling into the depths of his mind. And he gave in.

Tai smiled at his surrender. He knew Matt would have reacted this way. So confused and then so accomplishing.

He pushed him hard on the couch and went on top of him. Matt had his eyes closed in pleasure, savouring every moment of this. Tai attacked his exposed neck, biting the creamy skin and marking him. Matt groaned and pulled Tai's head closer to him. The brunette withdrew briefly, shutting Matt's protest with a tender but forceful kiss. He asked for permission with his tongue and the blonde opened with reddened lips, letting him. Their tongues battled into Matt's cavity, who moaned in his throat.

Tai's hands found their was through the blonde's shirt, opening every button and caressing the soft chest. Matt broke the kiss, in need of air, and helped Tai taking away the cloth. He was getting dizzy. The brunette undid his belt, then got rid of his jeans. Matt remained still, then freed Tai of his own clothes. They were now just in their underwear, ready to consummate everything laid between them.

*~*~*~*~*

Tai woke up the morning after feeling a hot body next to his. Firstly he was confused, but then he remembered the events of the previous night, and smiled. Matt slept deeply, with his head on Tai's tanned chest on his arm around his stomach.

Tai was grateful, he finally had obtained the blonde's affection. He still felt his warm friend gasping beneath him, begging Tai to do something to him; he still remembered how right Matt had felt around him, enveloping him whole with his hot cavity. He now possessed him heart, bodu and soul. Or at least this was what he hoped.

Little he did know that Matt's last thoughts before falling asleep were direct to Joe.

~tsuzuku~

Teti= finally finished. I had to split this chapter in two because it was getting long and I'm tired of writing now.

I want, uhm, at least ten reviews before continuing it, for I have very little time and I have to know my work is appreciated ^__^

Now, about the major pairing. In the next chapter there will happen something that will decide how this is going to end. It still follows my idea, but jut until a point. If I do not decide before writing it, you can vote. If you do not understand this babbling, you'll find out in chapter four