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Losing Myself

Part 1:Losing Hope

by ladybird2223

a/n: hello readers. this is a story that i have been working on for a while in my free time when i can. this is a very dark story with a lot of character death and i put this first chapter of L.M. out today on my birthday. so as a birthday presant you can please leave a review.

also. each chapter will be from another characters p.o.v. there will be many different relationships mentioned in this story. some of them will include takari, mimato, taiora and whatever else comes up. like i said before, this is a very dark fic and has major character death and i don't want you to be flaming me about how your precious person is dead. i leave you with this warning so if you don't like this type of story than don't read or you can read and just don't flame me. you have been warned and now on with the show

A/N: OK I MENT TO POST THIS CHAPTER YESTERDAY INSTEAD OF TODAY SO MY BIRTHDAY IS ACTUALLY ON JUNE 17 NOT THE 18TH ALL ELSE IS CORRECT

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I'll never be the same. I can tell people are worried about me but it doesn't matter anymore. I lost part of myself that I'll never get back. Sure we all were hurtbut I was the only one there when it happened so they weren't hurt as deeply as me. You would think that family would be worse but in this case, no.

I can still remember that night as though it were yesterday(a/n: i know that saying is overused but it works;D )even though it all happened a few months ago. I never completely healed. I've even had councelling but it still won't go away. It never will.

Flashback to a few months ago

T.K. Takaishi and Kari Kamiya were heading to the movie theater after just eating at the pizza parlor. The two had finally admited their love for eachother two weeks ago and were spending as much time together as possible. The group thought it was perfect. Light and Hope which would in time equal Faith. Atleast thats what was supposed to happen.

Even though they were both only sixteen, T.K. was planing on asking Kari to marry him. Not anytime soon ofcourse. He was going to pop the question while going through the park to get to the movie theater.

While they were walking through the park as planned, T.K. stopped."Kari, hold up a sec. Let's sit down on the bench."

"T.K., we'll be late for the movie if we stop." the angel said while trying to be strict even though the laughter in her eyes gave her away.

"Don't worry, it'll be worth it."Using one of his brother's famous smiles before kissing her on the cheek.

"What was that for?"Kari asked.

"Just come here and sit with me ok. Will you do that?"

"Yea, I guess. T.K. your acting strangly. Do you wanna talk about something?"

"Ye....Ye...Yes. I mean no."Man this is harder than I thought it would be."Ok, Kari, I've loved you since I first laid my eyes on your beautiful face. So I don't want anything to take us apart."

Oh my god!!!!Is he getting ready to ask me what I think he is. Kari thought to herself.

Kari never found out as she was knocked to the ground before hearing T.K. cry out in pain.

"T.K. what's................SHIT!!! HELP ME!!!"Those were the last words he would hear her say as he was knocked unconscious.

When he finally woke up,T.K. found he was still in the park. He looked at his watch and found he had only been out a couple of minutes. He was still groggy until he heard a familiar voice screaming.

"KARI!!!!!"With that he got up and ran in the direction of the screams.

When he got there, he saw something he never wanted to see. 2 guys had Kari pinned down on the ground.

"Nobody hurts Kari and gets away with it."

As he lunged at them one of the guys ducked and the other grabbed him from behind. The guy that ducked had put his foot on Kari to keep her held down then punched T.K. until he was bleeding all over and was starting to spit up blood.

Still being held back, T.K. was forced to keep awake and watched in horror as Kari, who was to frightened to scream now, was raped.The guys took turns with hoding T.K. back and using Kari. By around two a.m. T.K. finally slipped into unconciousness with one final try to get to Kari.

T.K. was beat awake and was forced to watch as Kari was beaten worse than he had been. He saw that she had stopped breathing or if she was, not noticebly.

They stopped beating Kari when they noticed this and turned to T.K. but the suddenly backed off.T.K. was dropped and he turned to see why the guys had started running.

"MATT!!" he weakly called out to his brother."HELP!!!"

"T.K.!!!!! What the fuck happened ?

Ignoring Matt's question, T.K. ran to Kari's body trying to find a pulse but couldn't find one.All he could do was cry while he pulled out a little black box and threw it to where Matt was standing talking into his cell phone. With that gesture he passed out next to his love.

END FLASHBACK

My only reason for life dead. I may be only 17 but I know that without her, my life is pointless. I have no reason for living. Mom and Dad? HA! They only pretend to care for me. I can see it in their eyes. I don't know when the last time I saw Dad was anyway.

Matt would be my only reason but lately he's been almost like all the rest. So I plan on ending it when mom goes to get groceries. I'll write my note now so that I won't forget to.

Whoever finds this note, let all my friends and family know that this wasn't their fault. It was ment to happen. Don't worry, you will have Faith soon enough. Just let Hope and Light be together again.

Love and goodbye,

Takeru(T.K.)Takaishi

Well since mom has left I better get what I need. The medicine from the bathroom. Check. Couple of bottles of sake to wash them down with. Check. Bottle of chlorine to mix with sake. Check. Ring. Check.

Ring, oh the ring. Matt found the ring after the shock of the sight berore him that night months ago. I had put the ring in another box the same size except this one here has a lock on it and only Matt and I know where the key is.

The reason I have the ring? So Matt can understand or more likely have Matt help everyone else understand why I am about to do this.

I have to write one more note before I go to work.

Yamato, I would like to thank you for helping me the past couple months. Just don't think this is your fault. In fact, if it hadn't been for you, I would have done this sooner. I would like to let you know that there has been a legalized will for me. Pick it up at the court house. Don't worry big bro, i'll be much happier now.

Love always,

Your lil bro,

T.K.

Well goodbye world. I'll be with my love soon. The blackness comes now and I must go to it. Such sweet bliss.

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As Ms. Takaishi walked in with the groceries, she fainted. Yoeli and Cody saw her and ran to help. When they got to the door the called 911,and the other chosen inlcuding Matt.

a/n: I told you this was a dark story and this is only chapter one. hope you enjoyed it and review.

oh yea one more thing.

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me

happy birthday dear mee

happy birthday to me