Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ More Than a Baka ❯ Chapter 1: ~Heartbeat|Heartbreak~ ( Chapter 1 )
More Than a Baka
By: InsanoFreakChild
Chapter 1: ~Heartbeat|Heartbreak~
Disclaimer: I do not own Digimon or any of its characters
Taichi sat against his wall, banging his head against it. 'Baka, baka, baka...." Taichi couldn't believe his own stupidity. He threw his soccer ball across the room in frustration. 'Now, he won't even be my fucking only friend. I'm nothing without him... He was my only real friend. I was just someone to lead them all into danger. Now that our destiny was fulfilled, I'm not needed, they don't even talk to me anymore.' Yama was the only one who cared what happened to Taichi.
Taichi's parents hardly even bothered to say a distracted, "Hi." When alone with his father, the older might beat on his son, especially when Mr. Yagami's job wasn't doing so well. Allowance was a far-off dream that never would come any closer to Taichi. Hikari, on the other hand, made five dollars a week just because she 'helped out' around the house all the time. What about Taichi? He took care of the lawn, washed cars, and sometimes made dinner. Shouldn't that worth some? Nooo.... it's the man's job around the house.... No money for Taichi doing man's job while his sister gets money for doing the girl's job.
Sora had once been his friend but had ended up wanting only one thing. Something Taichi would definitely rather kill himself than do. That bitch never gave the fuck up.
"Taichi, I love you sooo much!!!! Why don't you come over to my place tonight??!!" Sora would bitch somewhere along theses lines.
"No." Taichi would state firmly and coldly.
"But Taichi!! Why don't you give love a chance??!!!" Sora would retort, fake sadness showing on her face.
"I have!!! Three times already! And that's enough to figure out there's nothing between us, whore!" Taichi might scoff at her.
Taichi didn't give the slightest fuck about Sora anymore. He didn't care if she fake-cried like she nearly always did upon sight of him.
'To think, I once thought of her a trustworthy friend...." Taichi thought bitterly. Sora used to be his best bud, but she turned out to be a loathsome person, like everyone else he knew. Even Hikari had become a self-centered jerk. Only Yamato had stayed genuine. Only Yama remained selfless. Only Yamato was lovable in a cold, harsh world. Taichi thought he was like that, that he was good enough for Yama. Taichi thought he had a chance, so being the baka bearer of courage he risked everything and lost it all.
~The Previous Night~
Taichi's POV
Yama came over for a sleep over at my house around 7:30. When the doorbell rang, I felt my heart skip a beat. This was it. Tonight. Tonight I would tell him. Tonight he would realize the love he's had for me all along when I make my confession. Tonight, I'll be able to live again. Tonight will be perfect! *DiiiingDoong DingDongDingDongDing Dong!* "BE THERE IN A MINUTE!!!! HOLD YOUR FUCKING HORSES!!! Geeez.." I thought Matt was supposed to be the patient one... I glanced at my reflection.... Everything would have to be perfect. I ran a hand through my hair and it went through smoothly. I had spent an hour getting it untangled, clean, and soft. Yama was pounding at the door. "TAICHI!!! OPEN UP ALREADY!!! I'M NOT GOING TO STAND OUT IN THE COLD ALL DAY!!!!"
I dashed to the door and yanked it open. Yama, who had been in mid-pound on the door, fell forward onto me. We scrambled apart, red tinges apparent on our cheeks.
"Eh.. Gomen..." Yama muttered quickly and dashed into my room to dump off his stuff. When he returned he acted as though nothing had happened. "So.... what have you got planned for us, Taichi-sama?"
I grinned from ear to ear. "Whatever you want, Yama-kun."
We spent hours and hours playing video games, watching movies, eating, and going TPing. We got Daisuke's, Sora's, TK's, Ken's, Koushiro's, Jyo's, and Yolei's places. We completely trashed Sora's house. Heh... what a mess. Too bad we couldn't see the look on the bitch's face when she found what we had done to her yard.
"C'mon, Yosh-butt! Get movin' already!!"
"Damn, Peach! the stupid dinosaur can't beat you..."
Yoshi sped past Peach at the last moment beating her yet again.
"Awww.....damn...." Yama pouted.
"Rematch?" I cockily asked, Yama had only managed to beat me a few times out of at least a hundred races.
Yama sighed, "Why not?"
|Later|
Yama's POV
"Taaaiiiichhhhiii......?" I whine.
"What do ya the fuck want?" Taichi answers *warmly*
"Mmmm....." _you_? my mind supplies but I quickly push the thought away. Where the hell did that come from?!
"Whatisitthatyouwantalreadyyoubastard?" Taichi sat down beside me. I felt a blush creep up my cheeks. I turn to hide it but Taichi places his hand on my shoulder and turns me to face him. He looked into my eyes and searched my face. I look into his eyes briefly to see that he had put all joking aside. A look of determination crossed his face and he opened his mouth as to say something. Then he looked as though he changed his mind and simply asked, "You okay?"
"Yea, of course, it's just... what do ya got for supper?" I say, willing my blush to calm down.
Taichi beamed which made something inside me melt. What exactly was going on here? "C'mon into the kitchen, and I'll make you something real fucking yummy!"
"Y...y..you?" I stutter in horror. My Taichi attempting to make food? If he cooks like his mother.... I shuddered at the thought. Wait, did I just call him my Taichi? I don't have time to deal with this. "Where are your parents? or your little sister?"
Taichi pouted, "I can too cook! My parents flew off today for Hawaii for winter break and Kari's going on a camping trip with a few of the younger kids in the Digital World."
"Oh, we've got the house to ourselves?" I smile dreamily. "Do you have any idea what kind of mischief we can get into?" I smirk happily.
"I've got a few things in mind...." Taichi trails off and licks his lips. After a few moments he comes back down to planet earth. "Oh, where were we? Food? What do ya want?"
|Midnight|
Taichi's POV
"Taichi...." Yama said softly taking another bite of the fudge I made for us. "Taichi.... I take it all back. This food is =wonderful=...." my tenshi trailed off. I wore a mask of casuality, of the calmity I did not have. I was soo damn nervous inside... I had told myself repetitively that all this would work out. But I'm soo afraid now. I don't want to lose my best and only friend, but if I don't do this, it will be more painful to never know. I swallowed hard which caught Yama's attention. He stopped munching on the fudge and set it down, looking into my eyes, my soul. I lowered my eyes for a moment, trying to find the words I lost when my angel looked at me like that. I looked back up at him and cleared my throat. This was it.
Yama's POV
Taichi cooked and baked wonderfully, it turns out. This was better than any restaurant had to offer. Where'd he learn to cook? His father? Cuz it definitely wasn't his mother, that's for sure. I took small bites, savoring every bite Taichi had made for me. I glanced at him, something was going on here, right under Taichi's skin. I return to my fudge blissfully. Taichi swallowed hard and I stopped munching my fudge and set it down. I looked deep into Taichi's eyes, into his soul. I saw something there that my mind did not name, but my heart lept with joy. Taichi looked down for a moment, deep in thought, and when his eyes met mine again they looked glassy. Taichi looked as though he was about to cry. My heart and sympathy went out to him. Something was wrong and it hurt me to see him like this. Tears welled in his eyes and slipped down his face. He tried to wipe them away, but they wouldn't stop flowing. He cleared his throat and spoke the words I would never forget.
Taichi's POV
It all came down to this. Tears were spilling down my face because the fear of rejection had already risen drastically. It was too late to go back now so a began to speak through my tears, the toughest words I'll ever have to speak. I cleared my throat and started.
"Yama, these tears on my face are for you. Yama the friendship between us is for you." I grabbed the dozen roses from their secret hiding place and held them out to my koi. "These voilet roses are for you. My life, my soul, my heart is for you, Yama-chan. And most importantly, my love is for you. I love you Yamato....." I trailed of seeing the stunned look on his face which was quickly turning to a look of disgust. "Everything that is me was meant to be for you..." I whisper. I turn away. The tears were threatening to become full-fledged sobs. After a few moments without response, I ran into my room, threw his stuff out and looked the door behind me. My blood was boiling in anger and agonizing pain. It was hard to breathe. "GO!! GO AWAY AND TAKE YOUR STUFF!! DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED EVER AGAIN, DON'T HURT ME MORE!!!! I'M SORRY, SORRY, I'M SO SORRY!!" I holler and dive into my bed and fall into a fitful sleep so I wouldn't have to deal with this anymore.
~Present~
And here I am still banging my head on the wall, hoping anything might save me from this misery. No such hope...