Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ No Wings To Fly ❯ 9. Weakness ( Chapter 10 )

9. Weakness

A month went by since Taichi caught me that school morning. I kept with Kay, but things weren't going so well now. I didn't really wanted to admit it, but since that day my feelings for Tai only grew stronger and the ones I had for Kay, if they had ever existed, had fade away.

School was over and I had found a job in a cafe for the summer vacations. I worked there at day and at night I worked in a bar. It was a decent bar, with a disco, nothing like prostitution or something like that.

I hadn't heard from my mom, since the day I left and I was kind of worried, though Mimi had told me that she was fine, but sad after I left. I didn't believe it. My mom would never miss me.

It was a summer night and like the other nights I got ready to go to work. I dressed my outfit, a pair of black pants and a yellow top with the logotype of the bar. I was ready to leave when the door opened and Kay entered.

"Where are you going?" he asked. He smelled really bad like he had been drinking or something. That was one of the things that I had found out about him that I didn't like it. He drank and it wasn't few.

I ignored his questions and picked one of my cigarettes, one of the things that I got addicted to. I started smoking. "To work, where else?" I said. He glared at me. His eyes were strangely red. He slammed the door closed and headed towards me. Unfortunately I couldn't guess what was coming next, because if I did, I had got my ass the hell out of there.

Though he was completely drunk he still was stronger than me. He grabbed my writs and pulled me to his room. "You're not going anywhere?" he said. His voice had changed from the sweet and playful melody that I knew to an angry and mad yell.

"But Kay, I can't." I said. But too late. He locked his room door. Then he went to his drawer and picked something. I couldn't see what it was, because he had his back on me, but I could almost guess it.

"Kay, please don't." I said. He turned to me. He had a syringe on his hand and I knew what he was going to do. In a few seconds my mind drifted to two weeks ago.

---Flashback---

"What is that?" I asked as I saw Kay warming something. He didn't pay attention to me. His eyes were fixed on the spoon where a liquid bubbled. He smirked. Then he picked a syringe from his drawer and put the contend of the spoon inside it.

In that moment I knew what it was. Cocaine. It was a wild guess, but according to the many movies I had seen it could only be. He smiled again and turned to me. "Wanna try?"

I shook my head. Hell no, and get addicted. I knew the danger and I wasn't ready to waste my life like that. "Then try this." E said and threw me a small package with pills. Right them I didn't know what that was, but I found out once I ingested one that night.

I can't quite remember what happened next. I just know that I lost all the sense of reality. Life was beautiful and nothing besides me mattered. The effect was even more real than with the joint, but the consequences were too.

I remember perfectly of wake up the next morning. It was the most painful wake up ever. I looked around me. Lamps on the floor, broken glass everywhere and clothes. Yeah, clothes. I tried my best to remember the last events but my head hurt like hell, like I had drank, and in fact I had. I was on my underwear only. I stood up and fell. I couldn't stand up. I crawled to Kay's room. He was wearing only his boxers and was lying on the floor.

For seconds I feared the worst but he was alive. I crawled to him and shook him. He moaned and opened his eyes. His room was a mess too. "What happened?" I asked as I lied next to him.

He smirked. "You gave a party in here, Sor?" he asked. I launched him a confused look. "Well, I guess, ecstasy is not a thing that I should give you." He laughed. I let my head drop on the floor.

Only one thing was worrying me. "Did we…, you know, had…?" I coughed. Kay laughed a little more. "Not that I remember." He said. I looked at him. "Calm down. Look at the evidences. You're in you underwear, so am I, and you woke up in the living room. I think if we had had sex, we would be together, naked. Don't you think?"

Yeah, it made sense. I sighed. Once again I tried to stand up but I couldn't and I fell. Kay was not as bad as I was. He quickly sat and grabbed me before I hit the floor. He glared at me and smirked. "I had never seen you in underwear."

---End of Flashback---

I swore to myself that that had been the only time in my life that I had consumed a drug. But it wasn't that easy. I liked the sensation and in a few days I did it again. Then it was just a vicious circle. At least, I was only consuming ecstasy, but Kay, he had passed to heavier drugs like cocaine and hashish.

That was a day that I wanted to forget but that kept in my mind. It was the day that I really got my addiction to drugs.

I was brought back to the present by the touch of Kay's hand. He had this maniac smile. He pushed me into the bed and grabbed my arm. I tried to fight back, but he was too strong.

I had fought against my will to drug myself for a few days now, but Kay couldn't fight against it. I think he got mad because I could resist and he couldn't. Besides, he could be some kind of revenge.

I got really grumpy and aggressive when I was without drug myself and once I hit him with a lamp.

---Flashback---

I was lied down on the couch. I was shaking from the abstention of ecstasy. Kay approached me from behind with the fucked drug. "Come on Sora. Don't do this. It's worst if you don't take it." He said.

I hit his hand making the pills fly to the other corner of the room. Kay sighed. He sat by my side. I was wearing shorts and a short top. It was hot like hell, but I was cold, very cold. I remember that quite well.

Kay put his hand on my leg, under the blanket that covered my cold body. I could feel it pretty well, cause to me his hands were burning like fire. In an attempt to warm my self up, I hugged him. But I guess I did it wrong and made him take wrong conclusions about my act.

He kissed me. His lips burning and melting the cube of ice that I felt. I kissed back, still trying to get warmer. I felt his hands come from my legs up. He touched me and put his hands under my shirt. I stopped.

"Kay, don't do that." I said. He pushed me into the sofa and started kissing me again. We started making out on the couch. But I guess that wasn't enough for him. I guess he wanted something that I didn't feel ready to do.

He put his hands under my shirt and started pulling it off. "Kay, stop." I said louder. But he didn't so I just grabbed the nearest thing and it him on the head.

---End of Flashback---

I was going to dye, I knew it. He had filled the damn thing with heroin for sure, because ecstasy is not used in syringe. I started shaking. I had only tried heroin once and I had stopped. Besides I heard it was dangerous to mix ecstasy and heroin together.

"Stop it Sora." Kay yelled trying to grab my arm. "After you try this, you won't want anything else." He smirked.

"Kay, please don't do it." I cried. He stick the syringe in my arm. I could feel the fluid running in my veins. I felt defeated on his bed, holding my arm. Kay sat too watching. Though my vision was getting blurred, I could see Kay's eyes and he was crying.

"I'm sorry, Sor. But you gave me no chance." He said. "I did… n't… do… any…thing." I managed to say. He laughed and approached me. I shot my eyes close, afraid of what he was going to do with me. I felt his body over mine. I opened my eyes to see his own staring at me, right over my head.

"Do you know what you said that night, Sor?" he started. I shook my head. What night was he talking about? "The night you hit me with the lamp? I guess not, because after that you couldn't stand the anxiety anymore and grabbed the pills I had given you. That night you got more decontrolled then ever." He continued. I could only watch. "Well, I guess it was a bigger dose than the usual. I sat on the couch, with my head hurting and the will to kill you, but I couldn't cause I loved you. After an half hour you came back. You were too excited and started talking about nonsense's things. You started talking about Taichi."

In that moment I could feel what was coming next. Mixed pieces started appearing in my puzzled mind about what happened that night. I could see pain in Kay's eyes.

"I asked you… how you felt about him. And you said you love him, Sor. You said you love him. You broke my heart, Sor." He bent and kissed my lips. I started feeling weird all the sudden. My head seemed ready to explode.

"But now, you'll never leave me. Not if we have something to connect us. I'm sorry, Sor. I didn't want it to be this way." He started unbutton my pants. I could feel his hands on my waist and the cold breeze whispering in my legs. I wanted to get out of there, to yell for help, but I couldn't.

My eyes were closed. I felt Kay's lips kissing me. "It doesn't have to be this way." He said. I could feel my body temperature decreasing. I felt cold. The last thing I remember was Kay's voice. "Are you okay? Sor?" Then all went black.

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I'm sorry for not putting Taiora on this one palls. Well it goes like this. I needed Sora to realise what a jerk Kay was after all, so I thought: why not Kay trying to rape Sora, she would definitely not want anything more with him. But how? Sora was too strong for him to do it without she being drugged. So I drugged her. Oh, and don't worry. He didn't manage to, you know, really have sex with her.

Other thing. I don't know about the effects of ecstasy in abstention so I made it up. I tried to investigate but I didn't find any conclusive things. But I do know that ecstasy makes people very happy while under his effect and hyperactive. They talk a lot and if you ask them questions they were certainly tell the truth.

So, I'm sorry for doing this to Sora but it was needed. About what happened to her, you'll see in the next chapter. Kisses. ^_^

Oh, almost forgot. About the rape, there are a lot of women that made sex under ecstasy effect and don't remember so be careful. Ecstasy decreases men's sexual appetite and put them momentarily impotent, but that doesn't happens to women, okay? I guess it's all. Be careful it comes with all kinds of colours and he can be mixed with a drink, you won't notice it.