Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ Ore Dake no Kotoba de ❯ Prologue

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What have I done


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What have I done?



He was one of the very few people that believed in me. But, in my current state of mind, I let my
desires take control. I've probably
scar him.



I can't believe I did it to him. I was so foolish. I…I
truly did love him. Demo, how could I
hurt him like that? I'll never forgive.
I'll never be able to forgive myself.
If I hurt him, I know I'd feel the pain. We're two of a kind.
We're like a pair that belongs together. We're like Ike and Tina.
Ok, that went a little too far.
I'm letting my mind wonder.



I just can't help but think, would he ever forgive me?



I hope so. I
severely hope so.



***



I wake up screaming.
That dream again. The vivid
images are replaying in my head. I know
he didn't mean to. He didn't mean
to. I know he didn't. The evilness of him made him do it. But, I still feel violated.



One part of my soul tells me he can't be trusted
anymore. And the other part tells me
that we both need to comfort each other.
I'm not sure which part to listen. He…he violated me and used me, but he's my friend, through all the
tough times.



***

Ore Dake no Kotoba de

By Chibi Michi

***



My name is Motomiya Daisuke. Age 11. Grade 6. I'm a young boy, who has been given his
destiny too early for him to deal with it.
I've been through a lot. It's
given more maturity, and has taught my what fear really is.



I had faith in him.
I never expected him to do this to me.
I was talking to him. And then,
a second later…it…it happened.



***



"Ken, I know you still have good in you. Stop this.
Stop being the Kaiser"



Ken cracked his whip, as if trying to intimidate
Daisuke. "I will not. I will not stop till every digimon is my
slave. I will not stop until you are
my slave as well, my Daisuke"



"I will never be your slave" objected Daisuke.



"Oh, we'll see about that" purred Ken.



Daisuke looked through the sunglasses, and into Ken's
eyes. He didn't like what he saw.



"I won't ever give in to you" repeated Daisuke.



Ken put his arms around Daisuke, his hand resting gently on
his cheek. "You said that already"
whispered Ken softly. Ken's lips claimed
Daisuke. The kiss was not filled with love,
and tender like Daisuke had always dreamed his first kiss would be. Instead, it was forced, and harsh.



For Daisuke, everything after that was a blur. Soon, he found himself on the ground, under
Ken. Ken grinned. Ken's fingers played with Daisuke's
shirt. Soon, Daisuke's cloths were
gone, as were the Kasier's cloths.



"Ken, dame"



"Don't tell me you don't want this. You know you do Dai. I'm just giving you what you want"



***



You can guess what happens next. I was so confused. I
still don't know if I let him do it. I
just don't know anymore. We never talk
to each other as much. It's strange, I
was the one who told everyone to trust Ken, and slowly they did. But now, my doubts are resurfacing. I thought if Ken had become one of us, it
would be easier to talk to each other.
But, I guess I was wrong. I'm
always wrong.



I had always admired Ken for all of his skills. He was the exact opposite of me. He is what I want to be. So, why has fate twisted us in such ways.



Everytime I think about what happened, I look at myself in a
different way. I feel dirty. I feel used. Yet, at the same time, I fell refreshed. Ken, I can't stop thinking about him. Even before the incident. I just can't get him out of my mind.



Is this love? Or is
it lust?