Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ Soccer star ❯ Dying Inside ( Chapter 7 )

Holy shit, I FINALLY got my computer back. And first off is Soccer Star, hope this lives up to the others. The song is Five for Fighting - Dying. There will be another release soon after this, this is just a interval to let you know I'm back and it's got a bit of angst to help you along.

Chapter Seven - Dying inside.

Usually I don't talk about my feelings or talk about myself in general for that matter. I usually act them out, or at least I do most of them. I used to always express my feeling when I met her, but now, it just doesn't work that way. Hell I pretty much don't even have time to relieve myself, so finding someone else was pure out of the picture, especially since I took this "new" job on. But after awhile I've finally found a healthy release. Writing, and not just any writing, I'm writing lyrics. Yeah, I know, doesn't seem like me, right? Well, shit, I can't write novels or anything like that, that Tk can, but as long as I have my son and V-mon in my life, I think I can manage life. But there's one thing that's still killing me, Kari. I'm dying to live without her in my head. I'm dying knowing I can't have her, she's his and I'm sure they're happy.

I'm Dying, Dying to wake up without you, without you in my head again
I'm Dying, Dying to forget about you, that you ever lived
There's a shade come over this heart that's coping with laying down to rest
I'm Dying to live without you again

I'm Dying, Dying to find a distraction, get you away from me
I'm Dying, Dying to reach a conclusion, so that the world can see
It's the same old story of love and glory that broke before it bent
I'm Dying to live without you again

The first time I left I said goodbye
Now there's not a prayer that can survive

Dying, Dying to die just to come back so we can meet again
Dying, Dying to say what I always, always should have said
It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again

It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...

I'm Dying and I can't live without you
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again

That's all I can think about as I turn the lamp off and lie down on the bed, it's her that's in my mind. Her that I wake up to, her that I fall asleep to, her that I always think about, her that I know, I cannot have..........and I'm dying inside because of it. Then again, I'm already dying inside because of what I've become......