Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ Somewhere in Between ❯ Losing Sleep Over This ( Chapter 1 )

A/N: You have stumbled into my first Tamers fic. This fic has several very bad things happen to the characters (especially poor Jen-chan), so it requires a bit of a warning. There IS a rape (nothing graphic, only shown in flashbacks and dream sequences), some nasty violence, and a bit of yaoi (that should be an obvious, considering who the author is ^-^;;;;). The reason I'm actually warning about the yaoi is because of WHO is being yaoi (and how they are going about it o.O). *ahem* ^_^; Let's just say it involves Yamaki-san, and split personalities. *cackle* Also, everyone is 18 (minus Yamaki who's like 30 o_o), and in their last year of high school.

The title is the name of a Lifehouse Song. You can find the lyrics here: http://www.lyricsstyle.com/l/lifehouse/somewhereinbetween.html.

Also, the dream sequences are in italics. So are thoughts, but since the two never happen at the same time, it shouldn't be confusing. It also has a shifting POV, but its always Li or Yamaki, and its chapter by chapter, rather than in chunks. This won't be an outright romance, but Reiko and Yamaki are seeing each other. She'll play a fairly important role in this at some point. She's too cool not to have her in here. Besides, who else is going to realize Yamaki is..er, not all there?

Li Jenrya (Henry)

Takato (um, Takato o_O)

Ruki (Rika)

Hirokazu (Kazu)

Kenta (err, Kenta?)

Reiko (Reilly ^^;)

Yamaki-san (Yamaki ^_^)

Disclaimer: Nope, I don't own Digimon Adventure/Tamers/Frontier. Not that I WANT to own Frontier. Nor do I own Yamaki-san, as much I wish I did.

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Chapter 1

Hands. Cold, uncaring hands touching me. Hands I thought I knew and could trust. I could taste blood in my mouth from when he had initially knocked me down. The darkness of the ally made it near impossible for me to see anything, much less his face. I only knew who is was because of the small amount of light reflecting off of his sunglasses. He pulled away for a moment, licking his lips, before thrusting himself onto me again, this time pushing me into the wall so hard the bricks were cutting my face. He started kissing me, and putting his hands in places they didn't belong. I whimpered I bit, I think.

"Oh, shut up. You know you like it."

I started to cry. He smiled and worked his hands down my body. I'm sure some unevolved, primal part of me was enjoying this, but the rest of me was stiff with fear. He must have noticed that my body was unresponsive to what he was doing.

"Don't play games."

He slapped me, hard, across the face. Then he grabbed my right arm, turning me around and back into the wall in one violent motion. He must have broken my arm, because it went numb and hung limp at my side. He forced himself unto me again, but my knees buckled under his weight, and I fell backwards into the wall, hitting my head on the rough bricks. He didn't seem to mind. He smiled. I turned my face away from him; I don't he appreciated it. He grabbed my chin and turned my head sharply to face him.

"Now, now. Is that really any way to behave? You know, the more you fight, the more it will hurt."

I started sobbing uncontrollably. His hands had found their way under my shirt, and were feeling around my chest. Without thinking, I turned my face away from him. He either ignored it, or didn't notice; I guess he was too involved with what was below my neck at this point to care about what my head was doing. His hands were moving down to my crotch; one fiddled with the zipper pull while the other was touching my backside. He pulled the zipper down and start touching what was underneath it.

"Please...no...stop- "

I sat up with a jolt. I rubbed my eyes and looked at the clock next to my bed. 3:30 AM. I wonder if-

"Li-kun?"

Yep.

"Oha, Takato-kun."

"You were having a nightmare weren't you?"

"You could tell?"

"It was pretty obvious. You were shaking and crying. I almost woke you up, but the nurse wouldn't let me."

"Oh." I looked down at my hands. "I feel like such a loser.."

"Li, you have absolutely no right to feel like a loser."

"Yes I do."

"No, you don't." Takato sat down in one of the visitor chairs next to the bed. "Not only were you raped, but you were raped by some you knew and trusted. I'm amazed you're not completely mental."

"I still feel like a loser. I mean, I practically let him lead me into the situation."

"You only followed him because you thought you could trust him."

"..." I sighed and look out the window past him.

"Li-kun.."

Before I could say anything, there was a loud noise, like someone had dropped something. Out side the door, someone was arguing with a nurse, trying to get her to let him see a patient.

"What the hell is going on out there?" Takato stood up, and stared at the door.

"I dunno," I replied as the door opened to reveal an all-too-familiar face.

"What on earth is wrong with you people? I was told friends and relatives could see him."

"Yeah, FRIENDS and RELATIVES." The nurse replied. "I don't think that the person who put him in this state is welcome, however."

"Just what hell are you talking about?"

I just stared at them, too scared to even think. Takato looked about ready to kill them both.

"Well, the kid seems to think that you did it." The nurse stated.

He just stared at her. "What do you mean, he thinks I did it?"

"Just that, sir. Now I'm sorry, but until your name is cleared, you won't be allowed to see the patient."

He stared at her again, dumbfounded and unable to think of a good comeback, it seemed. He was either feeling really guilty, or really clueless, I think. He stood there for a moment, then turned sharply and left. He was clearly mad.

Good. I hope he's mad, upset, torn up inside over what he did to me. Not that he could feel a tenth of the pain I'm in..

"Li-kun?"

"Huh..oh."

"He's gone. You can open your eyes now," Takato smiled amusedly at me.

"Oh," I looked past him, at the door, which was now closed. "I wonder what he wanted.."

"You actually want to know?"

"Well, I'm a little curious.."

Takato shook his head in mock sadness. "Yare, yare, Li-kun...:"

I smiled, though it felt like a sad kind of smile. But it still felt good to know that I could still smile. Takato noticed.

"I didn't know you could smile," he was teasing me now.

"Shut up, Takato-kun."

"Ouch," he winched melodramatically. I sent him dirty look.

"I'm not in the mood," I turned my face down towards the sheets. I wasn't sure if I wanted to laugh or cry. It was a sick kind of feeling, knowing that I wanted to both laugh at my ill fate and cry over it. I looked back up at Takato, who was now gazing at me concerned and anxiously.

"I'm sorry, Li-kun," he whispered. "I guess I still haven't realized that I have absolutely no idea how much pain you're in."

"At least you realize you stepped out of line," I stared up at the ceiling, then glanced back at him. I blinked in surprise; his shoulders where trembling a bit and his face was screwed up like he was working hard at not crying. "Takato-kun.."

"Don't worry about me. I'm just worried bout you, that's all."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes," Takato looked down, his expression softening into a thoughtful smile. "Stop acting so selfless. Its starting to piss me off."

I stuck my tongue out at him. "Stop giving me orders."

He chuckled, and shook his head again. "You're hopeless."

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A/N: Well, there ya go. Chapter 1 is finished. I hope it isn't TOO disturbing. I don't plan on the dreams ever being more graphic than that.