Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ A Thought Like No Other ❯ Chapter 2 ( Chapter 2 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

I stare at his expression. It's a look I have seen before. It's a saiyan look. It's cold and intense, eerie and powerful. The way he stares makes me feel like what I'm about to say will mean something to him. He seems so eager to know the person. I wonder if I tell him it's him, would he be so intrigued? Would he look at me with such intensity then?

" I've thought," I hesitate then I finally blurt out, " I've thought about you."

The look on his face. Man, it's terrible. He is staring at me like I've spoken another language...Like he doesn't understand. How could he possibly understand? I've just confessed to him that I want to fuck him! Of course, he is going to look at me like I'm a complete idiot. Fuck, I am! I really am! I definitely have lost it!

" You are not funny, Kakarot," I watch as he turns away from me; his arms cross over his chest. " If you were not willing to tell me the truth, that is fine, but don't say ridiculous things to me!"

I notice he is flying away. I let him. I don't know why but I let him go. That's the thing about Vegeta, he never takes me seriously. He always thinks I'm too stupid. Or I'm worthless except when it comes to my fighting skills. When it comes to fighting, he envies me. He literally hates my guts but I stopped caring about that. I really have. I've learned to accept the fact Vegeta will always dislike me for my strength. What I wish is that he'd come to like certain things about me. The things about me that I know Chi-chi hates but maybe he would enjoy. Crap, crap, crap! I'm losing it again. I am!

I instant transmit home like I normally do after my battles with Vegeta. Flying home just doesn't do it for me anymore. Can you imagine when I come home, Goten and Chi-chi are at it again. When I left, Goten was getting an earful from Chi-chi about studying. All my son wants to do is go outside and play with Trunks. Trunks and him are best of friends. They are still very young and full of life. Goten reminds me so much of myself. He's always happy and really enjoys everything. I love him so much. Both my boys, they mean the world to me.

"Goten, you get back upstairs, young man. You have too much to do. I can't have you growing up to be like your father! You have to learn a trait. Not everyone can be a fighter!"

This is like her. Yes, tell our son not to be like me. What is so wrong with me? I have saved the world countless times. If not for me, this planet would have blown up a long time ago. Yes, but she always forgets about my accomplishments. She thinks all I'm good for is defeating the bad guys and driving her insane. She doesn't know how hard it is to even be me. All I want sometimes is for her to accept who I am. I'm a saiyan not a human. My sons are not just humans, they are part saiyan, too. Why can't they be like me? Why won't she allow them to be strong as I am? Is it so bad?

" Daddy, please, please, please, can I go to Trunks' place. I swear I won't stay long! Please, daddy. I worked so hard!"

When he calls me daddy, my heart just melts. I love him to death. My son. My brave, strong son. I wish I could give him everything. All I want is for him to be happy and what makes him happy is being outdoors. He wants his freedom. The saiyan side of him wants to be free. So, who am I to tell him no?

" Okay, Goten but not too long," I pat him on his head and ruffle his hair a little.

" Oh, no! Goku what are you thinking? Goten has math and science to finish. He isn't going anywhere. Goten, you get back upstairs NOW!"

Chi-chi is always yelling so loudly. Sometimes I can't bare it and I know Goten can't either. What can I do about it? She is my wife. I have been with her for so long. I don't think I could imagine ever leaving her. For the sake of my sons, I just wouldn't but everyday is a struggle. It wasn't always like this, you know. In the beginning, we were happy. Both of us. But then things began to change. I had to leave her alot and she had to raise our two sons on her own, sometimes. I guess I can't really blame her for yelling at me. I wasn't the best husband. I wasn't the best father, either. Maybe the only thing I am good at is fighting...but I hate to think that's my only gift.

"Chi-chi, he just wants to play with Trunks. He'll be back soon."

I watch her face turn bright red, then she shrieks, " I said NO, Goku. You can't turn Goten into a brute like you. Gohan was lost to that crazy fighting you saiyans do, but I won't allow Goten to be a fighter! He deserves better!"

"Will you just calm down, please, Chi-chi. Let him go play," I have to raise my voice at her. Speaking kindly just won't do it because she's beyond reasoning.

She storms upstairs and slams the door. I look down at Goten who is frowning sadly. I know my son understands what is going on. He knows me and Chi-chi don't always get along. I want to protect him from the reality of me and my wife's relationship. At his age, he shouldn't really be exposed to such bickering.

"It's okay, Goten. Just go to Trunks' house and don't stay too long."

He hugs my leg because he's too short to give me a proper hug. Energetically, he runs to the front door and immediately, flies into the air toward Trunk's home. I stare at his fleeing figure for a moment and then finally, I walk upstairs. I know Chi-chi will not want to talk to me but I'm fed-up with her. I am. I really am. I care about her and I don't want to hurt her, but I need to feel like I matter. I need to feel like someone instead of a nobody. I'm tired of being her nuisance.

I spot her sitting on the bed. She has her head down; her hands are covering her eyes. She isn't crying but I assume she's frustrated. I walk over to my wife and sit beside her on the bed. She scoots away which causes me to feel like the worst person ever. Do I disgust her that much?

"Chi-chi, please, stop yelling at me in front of Goten. I'm his father and I just want you to respect me in front of him."

She lets her hands fall from her face. She stares at me with narrowed eyes. " Father? You haven't been a father to Goten. All you have done is baby him. You let him go where ever he wants without thinking about his future!"

"I think about his future, Chi-chi. I think about it alot. I know you don't want him to be a fighter but allowing him to just play, isn't going to make him like me."

Chi-chi's eyes appear like thin slits; she is more than furious. " You just make sure he comes back in an hour! You let him go, so you be his father, and get him to come home!"

She lifts from the bed and I can only watch her depart. I know she hates me. I just know it. She doesn't even have to tell me. I can't make her happy and I haven't even had the chance to be intimate with her. It's been two years. Two years. Two years, I have been just by myself. It's not so bad. Chi-chi was never really good in bed, anyway. She complained alot about me being too rough and too big. She doesn't know, I have an appetite for sex. I do. I think about it every single day. The only thing I can manage to do to suppress it is by sparring with Vegeta. Vegeta distracts me from everything. He literally is my life-saver. When I am with him, all my worries and doubts melt away. For at least seven hours of my day, I am, for once, being useful to someone. Vegeta really makes me feel like he needs me...well, at least my fighting skills. At least he finds something in me that's suitable. With Chi-chi, I'm just a brute.