Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Flames in the Rain:Returned ❯ Feelings Gone ( Chapter 4 )

A/N** PWP, Yaoi, mild language. Italics are thoughts. Bold are memories. I'd also like to remind everyone that this fic is dedicated to c0nfu3ed! I know it took me awhile to get this posted, but Lifes been handing me lemons, so I've been making lemonade! Lol. Yeah, Thursday I head back to school, so my posting will be slower, but I'll still write, I jut wont get it typed nearly as soon. This is slightly angst filled! R/R PLZ!

Flames in the Rain: Returned

Sequel to Flames in the Rain

Chapter four-Feelings Gone

Trunks lay covered in mud and blood. Nothing is worth the pain…nothing is. The wind blew forward, leaves tossing and turning in the raging storm. Lighting filled the darkened sky as thunder shook the Earth. I've loved and lost…but I'll never love again. Yes, he was depressed. Yes, he was angry. Yes, he was hurt. Sure, he cut himself, letting his blood pour into the very river that he told Goten his feelings. Yes, he had cut himself, over and over wishing death to open her vixen arms. He had every reason to end is life. Goten was my life…I worked to keep him in his luxury…He was my life… As he lay, the rain beating upon his hurting, slipping life, his blood mixing with the water to pool around him. He welcomed the nothingness and he thought only of Goten. Memories flashing before his shuteyes. Goten was flashing his loving and vibrant smile as he ran his hands through the unruly black hair loving every minute they spent together… He was looking upon sea, it's waves lulling the shore in a serenade as they left their foot prints in the soft sand as they held hands running into rolling water… They were at their wedding, their friends and family surrounding them with toasts of everlasting love and happiness…An open meadow, the season bidding the flowers to bloom… The leaves taking bright colors as the wind brushed gently over their skin…Goten holding him…Goten whispering his love to him…Goten…. Goten saying his name, pleading to him, and shaking him…crying…Goten…

Trunks opened his eyes slowly, gritting his teeth as the pain that ran up and down his body. Where am I? Scanning the room, he gasped as his eyes fell upon a sleeping Goten who sat slouched in a chair beside the bed. I can't look at him…hurts… He looked away. Why am I not dead? That's what I wanted? Can I not have one thing that I want? I couldn't have Goten…and I can't have death? What do I get? He remembered vaguely being lifted as he slashed himself to near death. How long ago was that? Was it last night? He clenched his hands into the satin sheets. I still love him…but I can't trust him…I'll never trust him… Bulma walked in. "Sweetie!" she shrieked planting kisses across his plaint face. "Mother…" he whispered. "Shh, baby, I know…I know." She cooed as she held him against her. "It hurts…mom…it hurts…" he sobbed out, tears rushing down his face. How can I cry over him? "Shh…" "I loved him so much…Why did it have to be like this? When I loved him so much…Did I not love him enough?" Bulma held his tear-stained face in her hands. "I ask myself that question every day Trunks, and I've yet to find an answer. All I can say is that I made my decision. I love Vegeta enough that I'll stay by his side, no matter how many times he strays, because he loves me too, in his own way. Goten loves you, that much is true, yet he neglected you…you did nothing wrong, so don't put the blame on yourself." She said soundly, wiping his tears away. "Fallow your heart." As she whispered the words a choked sob had them looking over at the now wide-awake Goten. He hiccuped as he tried to talk. "I'll leave you two to...umm…talk." Bulma said closing the door as she left.

"Trunks…I…" Goten bit his lip as Trunks turned his back to him. "I don't want to talk Goten." He said, hurt evident in his voice. "I…I know," Goten said shakily. "But, I've waited a week to say this." He protested. Trunks shook his head rudely. "I'm so sorry you had to wait!" he said harshly, the hurt gone and sarcasm dripping from his words. Goten fidgeted. "I…No words can explain…" Trunks cut him off. "No, words can't explain, but your actions sure as hell can! I saw you two! Both of you! Going at it like…animals." Trunks buried his face in his hands. "Trunks, I never meant to hurt you." Goten said lamely defeat written across his features. "Then what did you mean to do?" "I…don't know. It was just… I love you one way…and I love Vegeta another." "Just what do you mean by that? I supply you with the life and Vegeta supplies you with the pleasure? Is that it?" Hurt slipped back into Trunks' voice as the images of his father fucking Goten came spinning back into his mind and he fought the urge to gag. "It was suppose to be a one time thing." He whispered to Goten. "And It was…but, with you, it was love that would never leave…with Vegeta…it was like a lust that had to be fulfilled…it's unexplainable," Goten thought for a moment. "I guess I love you both so much, I can't choose between you." Trunks sat up in bed. His eyes portraying his feelings. "Let me make it easy for you," he paused. "I still love you, Goten, and I always will…but our love is not longer a love that will never leave, because it's already gone," he spoke calmly and slowly. "So you can take your lust and Vegeta and let him shove it up your ass!" his anger and hurt exploded as he glared at the one person he loved his life away. Goten stared shocked at his words. "Now, you don't have to choose between Vegeta and I, because I'm not for you to choose any longer." Trunks bit out. Goten nodded, a tear slipping from his eyes, to slide down his quivering cheek. "I…see…" he forced out as he fled the room. Trunks punched the bed his tears falling once more down his face as he silently begged Goten to not leave. If he really loved me, he wouldn't have let me push him away. Trunks growled as Vegeta walked into the room. "What did you do brat?" his voice echoed in the room. Trunks narrowed his eyes, but said nothing. I can't believe mom stays with you… he recalled her words. And after a second he said "I made a decision and it didn't follow moms path." Vegeta's body became taut as Trunks mentioned Bulma before he left the room, the door rattling at his quake.

*TBC*

A/N* BETTER LATE THEN NEVER! I say. Lol. I didn't mean to take so long posting this, but I was extremely busy! I but I'm still writing…I feel bad for Goten…but he brought it upon himself! He did! Honest! I hope you enjoyed this chapter! R/R PLEASE!