Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Forced Beginnings - Black Flowers ❯ Vixen.... ( Chapter 10 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

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This fic is a tribute to one of my best friends in the whole world, Mistress_Vixxen, or known to us as Vixen.

…A week ago, Vixen took her own life. I loved her so much… But her pain was too great. She'll always be in my heart, dreaming forever.

When I started really getting down to writing this fic, Vixen was my muse. I ran my ideas by her, and she helped me decide parts of the plot. Without her, this fic would be far less crazy, because she used to get so excited each time I came up with a newer and crazier twist to the plot! She was so supportive, and I was writing it for her.

She so much wanted to marry Tristian, Goten and Pan's son. She had read all my future notes and scenes from later in the fic, and she was so obsessed with Trissy. She always said she would marry him, and how cool he was.

To everyone out there… Please, as my plea, never believe you're dead inside. You're never dead. No matter how small, that spark is there inside. Sometimes it can be hard to see, but it's THERE. There's always hope. You are alive, that spark, no matter how small, keeps burning inside of you forever…

I'm talking as a friend who has lost the other half of her soul. That's what Vixen was to me. I thought I was dead inside too, but now I know I'm not…

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Vixen… I'm carrying this on in tribute to you. I love you so much babe. You always loved this fic, and I'm going to carry it on for you. I'm going to be strong like you would have wanted me to be, and I'm going to live a full life. I'm determined to live, no matter what.

We always said we would get through this together. We shared the same pain, you an I. We used to say we were soul sisters, we were that close. We were going to both get through, both survive. But you went away. You're gone…

Vix, you were one of my best friends in the entire world… I love you so much, and it hurts so much now. Me, you, Sam and Phil… we were a square, we said. Four best friends. But now we're three.

I miss you so much! You saved me in so many ways… But I couldn't save you.

We tried to light candles at the beach the day you died. But each one, no matter how much we sheltered it from the wind, flickered out. Sam and I, we held each other and cried so long.

Vixen... you carved our names into your arm… we wrote your name into the sand, and screamed for you into the waves…

That's how much you loved us. We loved you just as much. You were alive! No matter how much you thought you were dead inside! You're never dead. That spark was there, burning inside you so brightly. You never could see it, but we all could, Vix. You were so alive, so beautiful.

Vixen, I'll always love you, to the ends of the earth. Until the day we meet again my friend…

Love ya babe,

kisses, Klara xxx

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