Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Holding On ❯ 5 ( Chapter 5 )

She flew quickly against the wind and the rain, which started to fall lightly after she left. Now the rain was practically pouring down in sheets that struck her face and burned her eyes. But she noticed none of this. All she coud do was dwell on thoughts running throuhg her head.

"Dead? No no, he can't be dead can he? But he's my friend...It's just not fair. Why couldn't I have been hit? Why did it have to be him?"

By the time she reached the window to Trunks office she was soaking wet, shivering, and crying in soft sobs.

She opened the window and stepped into the 20th floor office. Blinded by the bright light and shivering from the cold air she blinked a few times before looking around.

"Trunks?" she chocked out looking around the office. 'Where is he?'

That's when she remembered that Trunks usually showered in his office before returning home because Bra was usually in the bathroom for hours and there would be no hot water left. Pan walked across the room sniffling and dripping water on the floor. When she reached the corner she came face to face with a closed door and the sound of running water.

"Great, he's in the shower. He's as bad as his sister about that, and that means I'm going to have to wait hours," she sighed and turned around walking back towards the window.

Her clothes were still dripping on the carpet as she walked over to the window and peered outside. Her eyes caught the first star she saw and in remembrance to an old nursery rhyme her eyes closed and she began to speak, "Starlight, star bright, first star I see tonight. I wish I may, I wish I might, have the wish I wish tonight..." she kept her eyes closed and concentrated on a wish that she had on her mind.

She sighed and opened her eyes, staring directly into the same star. "I'm counting on you star, please grant me my wish."

"What did you wish for?" Pan turned around and saw Trunks standing there. No it wasn't th right Trunks, it was Mirai Trunks.

Pan smiled despite her sadness, but it was obviously fake, "If I tell you, then it won't come true."

Mirai just nodded, keeping the same emotionless expression on his face. "What's the matter?" he asked noting her red cheeks and and puffy eyes.

"It's nothing big, really." she sniffed and shivered when he wiped a tear from her eyes.

"It's obviously important to you because you are so upset. Come on tell me, we're friends aren't we?" he gave her a smile and urged her to sit down.

Pan nodded and looked back out the window. She sat down on the windowsill and leaned against the wall quietly, just staring blankly at the stars.

"Are you going to tell me what happened? It helps to vent, you shouldn't keep it to yourself" He asked quietly.

'I wanted to talk to Trunks, he has a way of making me feel better, but maybe Mirai will understand better. After all Trunks has never known someone who died, but Mirai has lost a lot of people.' she thought, finally deciding to open up to Mirai.

"You know my ex-boyfriend I told you about?"

"You mean the guy you're good friends with? Yeah, what about him?"

Pan looked down at her hands as if suddenly realizing how wonderful they were.

"He, he's dead." she said quietly, feeling the tears coming back to her eyes and cursing herself when she couldn't will them away.

Mirai Trunks felt his heart skip a beat. He wasn't expecting something that bad. The room fell back into silence and Pan wiped her eyes furiously trying to stop the tears.

Mirai carefully searched his brain for the appropriate thing to do and say. He knew that the Saiyan pride was strong, and she wouldn't like the idea of crying in front of him. He looked back into his past to the times where someone close to him died and tried to remember what exactly comforted him, and what just plain agitated him.

"I'm sorry," he said quietly, even though he knew that it wouldn't make much of a difference.

Pan bit her bottom lip trying to hold back more tears. "It's ok, it's not YOUR fault."

Mirai was startled at how she accented the word 'Your.' He wanted to ask what happened but decided against it. If she tried to explain she would probably break down crying. 'She probably blames herself for some reason.'

"It's not your fault either you know." he said soothingly.

"How would you know?" she snapped back angrily, but immediately felt regret when she saw his hurt look.

She turned away from the window quickly and slipped her feet on the floor so that she was now facing the room.

"I'm sorry," she murmured barely audibly.

Mirai sat next to her on the windowsill. "You don't need to be sorry... but you do need to know that it isn't your fault."

Pan sighed, "I know it isn't my fault on one level. But," Pan bit her lip but the tears flowed anyways "...there is still the part of me that hates myself for not staying in the car for 5 more minutes." She forced a sharp intake of breath so she could finish explaining before she broke down crying. " If I could have kept him there for 5 more minutes then he wouldn't have been there at that moment and he would be alive."

Putting a comforting arm around her shoulder Mirai let her cry. He knew what she was going through by blaming herself; he used to do that all the time.

"Pan...Pan listen to me." He waited for her to stop crying and watched her wipe tears away from her cheeks.

"Pan, you shouldn't blame yourself for what happened. Believe me, it will tear you apart inside. Pan he may not be living on Earth anymore, but he is living in your heart and nobody and nothing can take him away."

Pan nodded her head; trying to take his advice but not sure if she would be able too. She was still shivering and Mirai stood up, pulling her to her feet.

"Let's find you some dry clothes before you get sick." he said tilting his head to the door.

Pan nodded and walked with him out of the room.

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In Bulma's lab...

"Great, I work for 48 hours straight, don't sleep, and as soon as I think that I have the vaccine finished, I find out that it only immunizes up to 78%. I need to make it 100% sure that no one will get sick. "

She cleared the test tubes off the desk and grabbed her head. "What a time for a headache."

Walking over to the computer she sat down and stared at the large lists of numbers and letters in the equation. With a sigh she started to search for the missing part in the equation. She didn't get far though, because soon she couldn't tell the 3's from the 5's, and everything else seemed to be moving across the screen. 'Why does everything always blur together when you need to concentrate the most?'

'That's it; I need to find some way to wake up. I'll go fight with Vegeta. Arguing with him usually makes me wake up.'

She walked out of the lab and stared at the coffee pot running in the kitchen. 'Ok, so maybe coffee is a better solution to keeping me awake'

She poured her 3rd cup of coffee and walked back to the lab. 'Life is not easy for a genius.'



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After Pan had changed into some clothes she always kept at Capsule Corp in case she crashed there at night, they went to Mirai's room to talk some more.

"Are you sure you're going to be ok?" he asked, still worried.

"I don't know, but can we talk about something else?" She wanted to change the subject before she cried again.

Mirai nodded his head and sat down on the couch.

"Why were you in Trunks' office?" she asked, sitting on the couch as well.

"I was sort of watching the storm and I saw you fly over there so I just let the curiosity get to me." He smiled "Why did you go to him to talk rather than your parents, or Bra?" he asked nudging her shoulder.

Pan blushed unconsciously "I really don't know, I wasn't really thinking and I just flew there on accident."

"You and I both know that it wasn't an accident. You love him, and wanted to be near him."

Pan opened her mouth to object but couldn't find words to say. She sat silently for moment thinking before she sighed. "Yeah, I think I do love him."

"Why are you sad about loving him?" he asked noting her sad tone.

"I'm afraid that it's a one-sided love," she admitted.

The two friends talked continuously all night from subjects ranging from Trunks, Marron, parents, and school.

Neither was aware that after his shower, Trunks looked out the window and saw them asleep together on the couch. And neither of them witnessed the jealousy and pain in his eyes.

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In the morning Pan and Mirai woke up on the couch in his room. "Ow, that really hurt my neck," complained Pan as she got up.

The two mumbled 'good mornings' and then went downstairs. Mirai beat Pan to the kitchen and sat down at the table.

"Just in time for breakfast I see" started Bulma when she turned around and saw him reach the table in 2 seconds flat.

Pan walked in and smiled sheepishly at everyone. She sat down next to Bra in an attempt to avoid their surprised faces. "Pan I didn't know you stayed over here last night." said Bulma with a smile that barely covered her curiosity.

"Yeah I was talking to Mirai Trunks and then the storm hit and I didn't feel like flying home."

Pan licked her lips and grabbed her fork to start eating.

Bra was busy wondering why Trunks wore such a serious expression on his face but decided not to ask him.

"What was so important that you talked about?" she asked curiously. She was beginning to wonder if Mirai Trunks and Pan liked each other, but dismissed the idea because she knew that Pan had major feelings for (GT) Trunks. Bra couldn't really see either of them with someone else. In her mind they were destined for each other.

Pan bit her lip, hoping that she wouldn't cry when she explained, but thankfully she didn't have too.

"She found out that her ex boyfriend, a close friend of hers died, and wanted to talk." Mirai Trunks explained, taking another bite of toast.

"Jeremy died? Oh my Kami, I'm so sorry Pan."

"Oh Pan, I'm sorry"

"I'm sorry to hear that Pan." Said Trunks, 'Why did she go to him for comfort and not me? He thought sadly. "Are you going to be ok?"

"Yeah, thanks," she murmured, hoping that the subject would change. Bulma was about to yell at Vegeta for not saying anything when Bra, sensing her friend's discomfort, changed the subject.

"How is the vaccine coming along, mom?" she asked remembering that Bulma had pulled another all nighter.

Bulma sighed, "I think I'm almost done, but I'm not sure how to distribute it." (If you have any ideas on how to distribute vaccine to the entire population of earth with out causing widespread terror by telling people that there will be an epidemic please give me ideas in your reviews!!!!!)

"I'm sure we'll think of something" assured Trunks.

The family continued to eat and talk. Pan glanced at the clock and got up quickly. "Thanks for the food Bulma-san. I have to go before my father kills me. Ja ne."

She quickly left the kitchen and flew home.

"Hi Mom, Hi Dad" She walked in and smiled at her parents.

"Hey honey. How are you?" asked a concerned Videl.

"I've been better, but I should be fine." she said hoping she sounded sincere. She didn't want everyone to worry about her.

"Honey, your mother and I have had reservations for a two week cruise that leaves tomorrow but if you don't want to be left alone then we..."

"No Dad" she interrupted "You two deserve a vacation, and have been planning that cruise for months. I will be fine here, and I can always go to the Briefs if there is a problem."

After about 15 minutes of "Are you sure?"s and reassurances Videl and Gohan went to pack.

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Bra waited after Breakfast to make sure that the coast was clear. 'Well Mom will be working on the vaccine so she won't notice..."

Bulma walked over to the kitchen sink and turned on the cleaning bots to take care of the mess at the table.

Bra looked towards her father and smiled when she saw him dragging Mirai Trunks to the gravity room grumbling something about how weak he must have gotten over the years. 'Well, that's two more people I won't have to worry about...'

She looked up at smirked when she saw Trunks trying to sneak out the back door. "Not so fast young man" yelled their mother.

Trunks stopped in his tracks and turned around with an innocent smile on his face. The smile didn't fool his mother. "Trunks, you know that the annual budget reports are due Thursday right? You need to work on them..."

Trunks walked out of the house. 'Another person not to worry about...' thought Bra who got up and walked upstairs. She had to make a phone call.

Bra sat impatiently waiting for the phone to stop ringing on the other end. "Ring ring. Geez how long does it take for him to answer the damn pho...."

"Moshi Moshi"

"Hey, Goten. When do you want to meet?"

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Ok, I'm not really happy about this chapter. I'm starting to run out of inspiration but hopefully that will change soon.

Ok, what will happen in the next chapter? What is Bra planning? When are Mirai Trunks and Marron going to talk? (Hehe, Jen knows all about that one...) What will Pan do alone in the house while her parents are out of town? Poor Trunks, How will he get out of the budget report thing? How will Pan handle Trunks jealousy about her friendship with Mirai Trunks? When do Bra's flying lessons start? Find out in the next chapter.

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