Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Life Through the Looking Glass ❯ I Could Fall in Love ( Chapter 7 )

Chapter 7: I Could Fall in Love

You know that feeling right before you change? That feeling like you're trapped? You've lived your life one way and then you are forced to turn around and go against all your morals just to please them. That feeling as if you've been betrayed, but you always end up reminding yourself that they were never on your side. The pain inside your chest is unbearable. The heartache. Even though you know that what you are doing is wrong, you feel as if you have no choice. Everyone around you is watching you and you cannot run, you cannot hide, and you feel as if you are alone. There is no one around that can feel your pain, no one that can see your pain. You have lived your life and now you are forced to live someone else's. A life of silence and solitude. Nobody sees and nobody looks as you continue to cry those silent, emotional, unperceived tears that everyone cries.

-From the Diary of Son, Pan

I couldn't help but think of the way Trunks looked at me. As if he didn't recognize me. I knew that he had never seen me without my black make-up and clothing, and I know I looked very different without it on; but was I that different? Then again, he had never really looked at me before. But the look in his eyes I couldn't describe. It was almost as if it was...lust.

It had been about two hours since the introduction and Trunks and I had been forced together all evening. We were to eat dinner with our parents and many of the executives. All they talked about was the future merging. I remained as silent as possible. I didn't want to draw attention to myself. I hated these people. They wanted the merging. They wanted me to suffer. None of them ever bothered to ask me what I wanted or how I felt about the merging. I never wanted to take over the company. I never even thought that my parents wanted me to take over the company.

Trunks and I had remained pretty much silent throughout the dinner. Him and I never wanting to speak. Both knowing that neither was liking this ordeal. But what I found very strange was that every time during the dinner that I looked at him, he was always staring back. He sat across from me. Every time our eyes would meet, he would blush and look down. It was like he almost liked me. Yeah, right.

I had talked to many of the executives and they seemed nice, but I know why that is. I was their future boss. They had no choice but to be nice to me. That was, if they wanted to continue to feed their families. Trunks and I had barely spoken a word. Every time he called me Carina. Not once did he call me by my real name. I didn't know why, but I thought that maybe because everyone else was calling me Carina, he thought it be best to call me that as well, or maybe he was just still in denial that him and I were to be married. I would have to talk to him about that later.

Dinner had ended not long ago and many were starting to go back to the dance floor. Trunks stood next to me looking nervous. He obviously didn't like the position he was in. He didn't want me and I didn't want him, but again he was starring at me. I couldn't stand the tension. I was about to say something when I saw my mother and father walking up to us. She was smiling as if happy to see me in such misery.

"Hello Carina, Trunks," my mother said, acknowledging the two of us.

"Hello Mother, Father," I said with fake pleasantry, and a fake smile.

"Good evening Mrs. Son, Mr. Son," Trunks said as he bowed slightly to them out of respect.

"Just Videl and Gohan is fine," I heard my father say. What he said next almost made me wince. "After all, you will soon be family."

'Not if I have anything to do with it,' I thought to myself.

"Why don't the two of you have a dance?" My mother asked the two of us. I wanted to yell at my mother for suggesting such an act.

Trunks looked at me with mischief in his eye as he asked me, "Would you like to dance, Carina?" he asked me as he offered his hand. I was shocked to say the least. I expected him to laugh in my mother's face. But then again, we were at a company function and everyone around us would soon be our employee. He didn't want to seem rude in front of them. That was probably why. I didn't want to seem rude either, so I simply nodded and took his hand.

He led me to the dance floor as he put his arms around my waist. At first I was a little skeptic, but hesitantly, I put my arms around his neck and the next song started. He looked at me amusedly as we started to sway to the rhythm of the music.

I could lose my heart tonight

If you don't turn and walk away

'Cause the way I feel I might

Lose control and let you stay

'Cause I could take you in my arms

And never let you go

"I won't bite."

I could fall in love with you

I could fall in love with you

"What?" I asked.

I can only wonder how

Touching you would make me feel

But if I take that chance right now

Tomorrow will you want me still

So I should keep this to myself

And never let you know

" I said, 'I won't bite.'" Trunks looked at me, a small smile forming on his lips.

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

"What's so funny, Trunks?" I looked at him.

"Nothing, you're just so beautiful." Trunks responded with a hint of lust in his voice.

And I know it's not right
And I guess I should try to do what I should do
But I could fall in love
Fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

The look in his eye I couldn't recognize. Nobody had ever looked at me like that before. It scared me at first and my heartbeat started to speed up. His eyes were looking into mine and I couldn't hide the blush that crept up my face.

Siempre estoy soñada en ti
Besandos mis labios, acariciando mi piel
Abrazadome con ansias locas
Imaginando que me amos
Cómo yo podia amar a ti

He smiled at me and I felt my entire world spin. No, I can't be falling for him. He has a girlfriend. I have to keep reminding myself that.

So I should keep this to myself

And never let you know

He hates me anyway; just as much as I hate him. What would the people at school say if they knew what was happening? What if they already knew? I hadn't been to school in the last week. Maybe he even told Marron about this? No, he wouldn't do that. Why would I even care? It's not like I want him to care about me. As soon as I get him alone I would talk to him. The truth will come out. Then we'll talk. We'll get out of this soon.

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love
I could fall in love
With you...

The music faded away as Trunks took my hands and led me out to one of the open, empty balconies. We were all alone and it was late at night. Stars littered the sky as he held me around the waist. He took me to the edge of the balcony as he removed his hand from around my waist. He took my hands in his and this was my moment to speak. I looked at him and noticed that he was smiling at me.

"Trunks, you don't want this." It wasn't a question. I saw how he tensed. He stopped looking straight. He turned to look at me with a little fear evident on his face.

"Carina, I don't want to lie to you. At first, when my mother told me that I was going to marry you, I told her I wouldn't go through with it." I knew it. He didn't want to marry me. That was good, now we would find some way out of this. But what he said next made me tense. "But now I'm not so sure."

"Why would you want to marry me? You never take a glance at me and all of a sudden you want to marry me?" I looked him straight in the eyes. I was angry. I was pissed.

"What do you mean a glance? I just met you two hours ago. Did I meet you before tonight? I'm sure I didn't." Trunks looked at me in confusion. That's when I realized it. He didn't recognize me. He didn't know it was me. He really thinks I'm Carina. He thinks my real name is Carina. He doesn't know I'm Pan.

"No. I'm sorry. I'm just a little nervous at the moment." I lied. Well, part of it was a lie. I was nervous; but I wasn't sorry. If he didn't know it was me, then I could play this game. I could find out what he really wants. Why he wasn't telling me what was going on. He had Marron so he wouldn't want to marry me. What did he want?

"It's alright. I'm a little nervous too." Trunks smiled at me. That smile made my knees go weak. If I said he wasn't attractive before, I was lying. He was attractive. But I wasn't falling for him. He was just attractive. And those eyes. His deep blue eyes. No! I'm not falling for him. I refuse to!

"What changed?"

"What?"

"What changed? You said at first you didn't want to marry me. What changed?" I looked at him questioningly.

"I met you tonight. You're beautiful." I smiled and blushed. I couldn't help it. Nobody had spoken to me like this. As I said, he was attractive. Too bad he wasn't my type. "And you're smile is beautiful."

"What else? Is it just my body?"

"No, it's not just your body..." Trunks tried to continue but I cut him off.

"Then why would you want to marry me? Is that the type of guy you are? All you care about is how I look? Well, I refuse to marry someone so disgusting." I turned and started to walk away. I hated him for it. I knew there was something. Just wait until he found out who I really was.

Before I could take two steps he grabbed my arm, spun me around and his lips landed on mine. I was shocked. Too stunned to move at first but slowly, I started to respond. I had never really kissed anyone before so I wasn't very experienced but I couldn't help but kiss him back. It was slow at first as our lips moved together. My eyes slowly closed as I let the pleasure of his lips on mine envelope me. His hands moved from my arm to around my waist. I was too wrapped up in the kiss to know what I was doing but I moved my arms around his neck as I deepened the kiss. It was like paradise. I couldn't think as I felt his tongue lick my bottom lip. It was then that I pulled away. I wasn't ready to do anything else. We were both breathing a little heavy. I opened my eyes to see his eyes already on mine.

"How rude of you," Trunks said still breathing hard but with a sarcastic smile. "Next time let me finish my sentence alright. Will you let me do that?" he was looking me straight in the eye and I simply nodded my head. "I was going to say that it isn't just your body, and that I know I don't really know much about you...but I want to get to know you. Will you let me do that?" he asked me as he gave me another quick kiss on the lips. I couldn't speak. Trunks was actually a descent guy? Something had to be up. All I did was nod my head.