Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Life Through the Looking Glass ❯ Carina or Pan? ( Chapter 28 )

 

Chapter 28: Carina or Pan?

My voice is no longer my own.

-From the Diary of Son, Carina

My heart was pounding as he sat next to me. Our eyes never left each other. I don't know how long we stared, but by the time I knew it, all the late students had entered the class, and the teacher had started his lesson. I didn't care, I wasn't even paying attention. My eyes, my mind, and my body was focused completely on Trunks. No words were spoken between us, and I stopped noticing all the stares I was still getting from my other classmates.

Trunks turned away, not wanting to look at me anymore. I could tell he was embarrassed, but what was I to say? I was waiting for the chance to talk to him, and here I had my chance, but what was I going to say? Honestly, I had thought too much on whether or not he would be here and I wasn't prepared. I turned my head and looked forward. I couldn't meet his eyes anymore. How could I? How could I look at the man that I loved, that turned from me? I started to feel tears form in my eyes as I bowed my head. Quickly, but carefully, removing them, trying not to ruin my mascara. My make-up was to always look perfect. That was what he wanted after all.

Somewhere in the back of my mind, I heard the teacher start taking role. Not really paying attention to what he was saying. My heart was pounding, I didn't know what to do. When Trunks' name was called, my mind came back to reality. And that didn't take too long considering his name started with a `B'. At that time, my mind hardly registered that Marron was not in class today. I was quietly paying some attention, my head still bowed. I was waiting for it. When my name was called, Trunks would know. Or, at least I hoped he would understand what the hidden meaning was behind it.

I slowly, little by little, raised my head as the teacher got closer and closer to my name. Closer and closer, more and more, my heart was pounding. I didn't know how he would react, yet again I would be taken by surprise. It was funny how he was the one to always surprise me. I could read everyone else, and they were so predictable. I knew their reactions, I knew what they were gonna say, and I knew what they were thinking. But Trunks was a complete mystery. It was then that I heard it.

“Son, Carina?” the teacher asked.

Of course he already knew I was here. Of course he knew who I really was, but he still asked. I don't know if he was reading my mind and knew what I was thinking, if he knew what was going on, or if he was calling everyone's name, but he asked for me. And part of me wanted to scream. `That's not my name. That's not who I am.' But that was who I am. Now, and forever. As long as Trunks saw fit.

“Here!” I said, my head completely raised. Every head in the class turned to me, looking at me strangely. I wasn't looking at them though, I was looking at Trunks. The look on his face as one of almost shock. As if he couldn't believe what he was hearing, or even what he was seeing. But he was. I can promise him that. I just wish he was seeing things, and hearing things. But this was my life now. I had little choice.

As the teacher continued to call role, the other students, one by one, turned to face the front of the class again, or to turn and talk to a few of their friends. But Trunks and I continued to look at each other, our eyes never leaving. I didn't speak. Just waiting for him to break the silence the came over us. I knew he had a lot to say, and a lot to ask, but what could I say? I didn't really have much to say except, `Here I am. I love you. Will you please take me back?' But that was something for later. I knew he had questions, and I knew that I needed to give him those answers that he seeked before there would be any decisions made. A few minutes later, after the teacher had started the review for the final, he finally asked his question. One word that spoke volumes of confusion.

“Why?” One simple word, spoken so softly, I almost didn't hear it.

What was I to say to this? There were so many questions that could come from this one word. I decided to go for the simplest answer, but the most complex to understand.

“Because I love you,” I whispered back to him. At this moment, I almost started crying again. I didn't know what to do, and I was too afraid to look away, as if he would disappear if I lost sight of him. So I did the only thing I could do. Throughout the entire class period, I never looked away, and neither did he.

Alright, I've got some stuff to say, so here I go. A lot of reviews people asked if I was okay and they hoped I would be alright. I thank you all for your concern. For now, all the doctors know that it is not life threatening. The pain actually came back, but it isn't so bad that I'm screaming out for morphine anymore. Right now it's just kind of stiff. I'll be fine, and I'll be alright. If I do end up getting surgery, then that will give me more time to write more chapters. Life Through the Looking Glass is almost over, so yeah.

Another thing about the reviews. I've been getting this since I started writitng this story and it isn't getting annoying, but it is getting repetative. People asking for longer chapters and faster updates. I can't do that people. I tried to do that this past year and ended up failing three classes because I was too busy working on the next chapter to take notes and study. It should be easier this near thoug, I have a lighter load. I took so many extra classes my freshman and sophmore year in high school, and even though I failed three classes last year, I still got to drop a class, and my schedule is set up in a way that I only go to school between 6:30 and 9:35 in the morning. How cool is that? But I am getting a job. Maybe. So all of this is just a long way to say, I'm busy, I'm trying, and I will keep trying. However, I do not have the attention span to sit and write 30 pages in word all at once. I'm lucky if I can get one page done. I usually only get a few sentences or paragraphs. So please, no more of that. As I said, I'm not angry with anyone. It doesn't piss me off in any way. I just get it every time.

Now that I'm done making everyone feel bad, I have good news. Last night I decided to just start writing out ideas for the sequel to this story. I don't have too much, but I do have some. I just started writing anything no matter how cliche it was. I came up with some twists, which releived a lot of pressure off of me for this story. I now don't feel rushed to finish up some of the problems, as I have decided some of them would make an excellent twist in the sequel. So it will be in there. Look in my profile, read the summary, and let me know what you think.

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