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Chapter 2: Need

 

 

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I`m leavin` my life in your hands
People say I`m crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance

 

He was already missing her. Just one day it had been. Was he that weak? Couldn't live without the woman for a day. He should've left the planet when he had the chance goddammit! Now look at him! What was left of the warrior he once was. Nothing. He had been right. This planet does have a influence on it's people. It even effected him. Prince Vegeta. Vegeta laughed bitterly at that thought. Prince. He scowled. Prince of what? No kingdom, no people and now even whitout a mate.

He was nothing. He was of no worth. Maybe that was why the woman called so much to him. When he was with her...gosh when he was with her! She made him feel worthy, powerfull. She made him feel like the prince he was, like the man he was.

Vegeta sighed and sagged against a tree. Always, always had he been alone. Yes, Nappa and Raditz had been there with him, but they weren't really company. In his mind, in his thoughts, he had always been alone. But now...now he knew her. Now he had probably gotten used to having her around. Questioning his mind, interfering his thoughts. All the time. It had bothered and irritated him incredible. To the point of him losing control and blowing himself up in that dammed machine of hers.

But at some point he started to apreciate it. For the first time in his life somebody actually cared about what he thought, was interested in his past and motives and fascinated about his moves. And for what ? Not because he was strong and powerfull, not because he was a prince but because she...cared. Vegeta closed his eyes. Who was he fooling ? Had he sunk so deep that he was trying to fool himself? He wanted that onna. Because she was everything that he had ever had and he knew he will never have somebody like her again, if he didn't get her back.

But still....was she worthy? Was she worthy enoygh for him to lower his pride so much to come back to her like a....like a what? Weakling? Vegeta growled. He may care for that woman...but he was no weakling!!! But how will he convince her to take him back then?

 

And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can`t get you out of my head
Don`t care what is written in your history
As long as you`re here with me

 

Had she done the right thing by throwing him out? Trunks was without a father now and she...wasn't she feeling worse then she did before? Shouldn't she have demanded those answers from him, in order to make him stay? But then....he had said that he had used her, that he didn't care about her son and herself. Would she have wanted to live with such a man? The most suprising was that Bulma didn't know the answer to that. True he had never shown any feelings towards her but...at least he had been here, with her. And Trunks at least knew his father, even though his father hardly paid attention. Bulma turned around in her bed so that she was lying on Vegeta's now cold side of the bed. Had she truely been blinded? She had thought that somewhere in his dark heart he had cared for her and their son. Had she been wrong?

You shouldn't let a worthless piece of shit like that hurt you this much onna! Get the fucker out of your head and make me food!! She smiled. Vegeta's way of comforting someone after she found out that Yamcha had cheated on her once again. But you hurted me now Vegeta, she thought. And I can't forget about you, now can I? I've a mini-you lying in the next room. Bulma lifted her head a little as she heard a soft song playing. She laughed without real humor at the lyrics of it. It fitted so well. Softly she sang a little bit along.

 

I don`t care who you are
Where you`re from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you`re from
Don`t care what you did
As long as you love me

She sighed, picked his pillow and pushed it in her face. Taking in his masculine scent. Tears once again clouded her vision and she burried her head even further in the pillow.

Why didn't he care? Had she done something wrong? Fuck him! She had done everything for him!! Everything! Even while he didn't deserve it at most times. She had never confronted him about his past in a really bad way, she had never hold on to tight on him and she had never asked for his love!! Never!! He should've been thankfull. The others had questioned him so many times. About his past, his moves, but she had always defended him!! All she wanted was him to give a shit about her!! And if he couldn't manage that, then at least about Trunks. Trunks adored his father. Needed his father. When Vegeta said he didn't care she had snapped.

But had she done well? Now Trunks was without a father and she was a mess.

I just want him back. Kami knows I need him as much as Trunks. I love him. Still and always will. But can I live with him if he really doesn't give a shit...?

 

Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it`s deep within me
Doesn`t really matter if you`re on the run
It seems like we`re meant to be

 

Get your fucking ass out and never, and I say never, ever return!! Vegeta closed his eyes, trying to block the words out. They had hurt. He had never thought that she had been capable of throwing him out. And when she proved him wrong...it had hurt.

He couldn't believe it at first, but her eyes! She had meant it. Her eyes had told him so. I won't let me be used by you! No more! How could he have said that he had used her!? How could she even believe his words? But Vegeta knew himself well and knew that his face had been a mask of stone. Used her. Kami, he wished that he had just `used her'. Then he wouldn't have to mind this shit. Then he wouldn't care.

Vegeta flew down to his sons window and looked inside. There laid his son. He was so much like him and yet, so much like his mother. Vegeta lied when he said that he didn't care, like he had lied about everything. Vegeta hang there in the air for about a half an hour, fighting with his thoughts. He knew that keeping away from the brat and the onna wouldn't work. He couldn't be alone anymore. She had cursed him with that. He needed them now. Running wouldn't stop that. He snorted. He was a warrior, he didn't run! But then again, it wasn't like he was trained for this!

Vegeta closed for the last time his eyes, took a deep breath and tried to get himself under control. It didn't work though. He knew that as soon as he entered her bedroom she would see the regret in his eyes. But will it be enough?

 

I`ve tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
As long as you love me