Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ The Downward Spiral ❯ Chapter 3 ( Chapter 3 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

DISCLAIMER: explicit drug usage/ explicit cheers references
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she was crying I held her close to my body "hey hey everything's gonna be OK everything's gonna be ok just tell me whats happening don't be afraid just talk to me please" I need to get her somewhere quieter so we can talk in peace I can here gohan and goku talking in the kitchen from here "come with me" she followed me to gohan and videl's room I sit down and she sit's next to me god those eyes she was still trying to hide her sobs "just let it all out tell me everything i'll just listen" I try comforting her "I can't do this anymore OK" she finally said "do what?" "this trying to make everyone think I'm so hard that I have no emotion i can't be here anymore you people are just reminding me how alone I truly am" she got up to leave I grabbed her arm I knew I couldn't let her "trunks, please" "you don't have to be alone D you don't I didn't want to say this yet but I really...like you, I don't want you to leave please give us all a chance let us into your big heart and let someone else care about you I know you think these people just murdered your father but honestly goku never met him before, he just shows up kidnaps kidnaps his son and threatens to kill all people on earth including his wife now if that was you would you have held back I know that just knowing why he was killed can't help you deal with the loss of your father but we are here for you I am here for don't just run away from your feelings anymore embrace them" she looked at me trying to let all that I told her sink in "but... wait you like me?" "more than you could imagine D and if you let me I will always be their for you" she continued staring at my eyes like she was trying to find out if I was lying.

and if you let me I will always be their for you" I just looked at him I wanted to know he meant what he said I don't know if I have any feelings for him but their is only one way to find out I guess just let go I pushed him onto the bed he looked at me quizzically I have to admit he is pretty cute, and i've never seen a man with lavender hair I jump on the bed on top of him "what are you doing?" he asked I sighed then I began what I had planned to do I curved myself down to him I tilted my head he did the same then our lips met my eyes were closed he seemed a bit tense his lips are so soft i nibble the bottom lip just a bit till he opened his mouth slightly giving me my opening i shoot my tongue through his lips and ran it along his tongue he finally relaxed moving his tongue around my own it was intoxicating as our tongues danced around each other I had my answer I had feelings for him as well for the first time in my life since I was little I didn't feel alone if only for this our lips parted we each were panting heavily on each other "D! I- uh I" "I know trunks I think I like you too" "really!" "not if you get that excited" he pouted it was kinda cute I laughed maybe this planet won't be so terrible after all " hey are you guys up here? ohhh" suddenly I noticed im still on top of trunks I quickly get off and so does he "what were you guys doing on our bed?" trunks spoke before I could say something "sorry videl I guess I didn't notice this was your room" she shrugged " well at least you guys didn't do it in pan's room ready for dinner" both of our saiyan appetites made us agree in unison, I think I'd like to get to know trunks a little better but for now I haven't eaten in over a day which for a saiyan even a female saiyan is not good.

Christ did she kiss me or did I subconsciously kiss her? either way it was amazing I can't believe I've only known her a week it feels like i've always known her it could be that her blood is similar to goku and goten but I think it's deeper than that I'm in love with her and I know she is at least beginning to feel the same about me. I feel as though my heart is filling a hunger that went unnoticed for all these years a hole slowly closing I cant even describe. She can eat almost as much as goku probably due to her being a full blooded saiyan even shoveling food in her mouth she was amazingly alluring and beautiful, we were talking about something small dinner talk i guess I wasn't even paying attention I couldn't stop thinking about the kiss I can't wait until we're alone again I can't wait to tell goten.

It was raining but I kept walking down the sidewalk of a West City street my face wet from rain hiding the tears I couldn't help but continually shed a dirty old man walked up to me "If you buy me a 40 I'll tell you a joke" "no thanks" I keep walking I finally reach my destination Paul's it wasn't the nicest bar in the city in fact it was a bit of a shithole but it was quiet for a bar which may not be great for paul but it's perfect for me I sit down at the bar and the bartender gus comes over to me "hey norm how you doin?" I don't like to give out my name and I was a fan of the show cheers so I tell them that is my name "you look like shit norm you want a drink on me?" "White Russian" "sure now tell me whats up you look like you've been crying norm? are you ok?" "I'm ruining my life gus and I have no control over it" "damn here you go buddy so what happened?" " I fell in love" "well what's so bad about that?" "Well first off gus I fell in love with my best friend who is also a man OK that's whats so bad about it" "damn well son i don't know much but I do know this the heart is the strangest organ and it knows what it wants if your heart is telling you something you have to go for it even if it doesn't work unless you try you'll always know you tried If you don't you will always wonder what if and even if he rejects you you wont have to wonder what if for the rest of your life, you understand norm?" "I think so gus" as I downed my 2nd white russian "can i get another, but anyway if he rejects me hes my best friend I don't want to lose him?" "well norm that's just something you have to decide either live your life holding this big secret in your heart about your best friend only for it all to blow up in your face or get it out of the way sooner either way if what you told me about him is true you'll be hurt either way but you never know he might love you back he might be going through the same thing you are now just a though. here you go" handing me another glass I down it "well I've got a lot to think about gus I'll see you later" I threw some cash down on the bar well more than enough "Thanks Mr. Peterson and good look" I shot them the peace sign the old drunk looked at him "later norm" and he fell back asleep on the bar.

Yes I listened to gus but I can't go through with it not yet it's painful enough as it is without him in my life at all I don't know if I could deal with it I remembered something suddenly and got out my phone I dialed went down the list there it is James I called him "Hello?" "Hey Bro" I said into the phone "Shit ten man how you been Christ I aint seen you in a while whats up" "You wanna hang out man?" "sure thing you still party?" "No but I wanna get back into it what you got?" "come on ten its me what don't I got" "right ill head over their now" "sure thing man later" before I hang up I hear him sniff really loud then grunt I hear "MMM YEAH" then I head over their maybe a little dro will help me relax and not think about it at least I hope.i look around and then fly off down to a small suburb of west city where james lived and landed, James has become sort of a party animal since high school where he trunks and i used to expand our minds in the woods he now did anything he could just to get high, true I thought it was pathetic yet I to was now walking to his how to drown my aching heart with chemicals to ease the pain, to give up finally.

I opened the door "Look at this motherfucker" "SHIT Goten bro how you been" he gave me a hug it had been along time jeffrey as always was sitting on the couch eyes glazed over he probably moved the most I've seen in years as he lifted his arm up a bit and said "yo" I'll get him up "Hey jeffy" I sit next to him and kiss him on the cheek "fuckin dick goten god fuckin cocksucker" that did it I just laughed he was storming towards the kitchen lightin' up another bowl "well that got him up finally you know ten i haven't seen him move like that since highschool" we laughed reminiscing of our high school days "so I see you guys haven't changed much james what's new with you?" I can't stop laughing I haven't even had my hit yet but it felt good not thinking about me and just catchin up with old friends "hey jeffy-poo gonna pass that?" I haven't stopped teasing him since highschool he's such a homophobe I mean neither of them know I'm really gay well I think they don't at least but I'm just messin with jeff like always "uggh now I remember why I stopped smokin with you ten here" he passed me the bowl and the lighter "Ive just got resin", "well we will fix that jeff pack the bowl for your boyfriend" he put extra ennunciation on boyfriend me trunks and james do it to him, jeff is a great guy he's just so easy to mess with you know "been a while james what is this it smells great is this dank?", "no I'ts some widdow fresh to try it you'll be blazed in no time" I smiled then I winked at jeff he just frowned, I grabbed the freshly packed bowl from jeff, then the lighter I pressed down igniting the lighter fluid as i held the flem to the green in the bowl my mouth gently on the end and i inhaled deeply so much deeper than I had in years my eyes rolled into my head I was in pure bliss ecstasy i put down the bowl and I feel the smoke in my mouth I breath in deeper let it all in and smiled "You still got it ten got it all in one hit" I passed him the bowl and the lighter and I looked at him you know he's kinda cute

I started giggling we go through the rotation till we were all blazed out of our mind took me 3 hits, Jeff well It took him 4 hits and he lit his bandanna on fire accidentally, It took james 3 hits he finally said "you know guys were just like energy ya know? just like cells and molecules and shit but it's all energy just moving energy right?" "I guess" "Well yeah what if like all the energy is just connected right and we're all just part of a much larger being and our realities were just like put over our eyes so we don't see we're energy?" "like the matrix?" jeff said eyes half closed "exactly what if we just open our eyes one day and just realize our lives were just a lie and we were just like dreaming?" "I don't know man this is some good shit" "I grow it in the basement" "wow you is talented not as talented as Jeffy though" I start kissing and licking him he just gets up and storms over to the stairs "godd can't you guys let me enjoy this one thing" he goes up to his room me and james just look at each other and start cracking up we didn't stop laughing all night around 4 am we both fell asleep on the couch with a plate of cookies between us I really felt like baking cookies and some purple koolaid we made...

They finished their dinner around 9:30PM and walked next door to their home as I walked to the threshold I began noticing things about their home their we're pictures of my uncle and a woman I've not met yet everywhere I'll ask him tomorrow about but I'm to tired to think right now I go up to gohan's old room which I called my own and notice trunks following me I smile at him and flirt a bit "hmm what do you think your doing mister?" "Uhmm well I uh" "wow what an eloquent reply trunks" I've still got it "well i uh just thought you know it's so late and all" I was to tired to keep toying with him "hmm OK you can stay with me tonight but don't you even think about doing anything or you will regret OK" he nodded "YES MA'AM!!" we turned out the light and slept together for the first time nothing more we just slept, I've never felt more comfortable with anyone let alone any man in my life I sleep in his arms and feel as though my life might not be so empty after all maybe their is hope for me yet.. I sure hope so I can finally see myself spending my life with someone I hope it works out between us...

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