Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ To Live Is To Die ❯ Episode One: The Unforgiven ( Chapter 1 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

By: froop

To Live is to Die
Episode One: The Unforgiven

Scott 'Gord' Ryan

Disclaimer: I do not own Dragonball Z or any of its Characters. Any Spelling mistakes or Grammatical Errors are purposefully made that way.

Version History:

** 1.0 - 1/9/02 **
Original Release

** 1.1 - 14/12/02 **
1. New Story Format
2. Omake
3. Story Tweaks and Tunings
4. Revised Author Notes
5. Added Lyrics for Chapter Song

New blood joins this earth
And quickly he's subdued

*Dead, there all dead…it's all my fault, everything, if it wasn't for me everyone would be alive…I…I can't do anything right, why did everyone count on me, I am such a failure* thought Gohan as he dropped from his third stage of Super Saiyajin. As he sat on his hands and knees Gohan began to sob as he remembered the few minutes that had just passed.

*Flashback*

"Do it Gohan, release all your power now" Goku cheered his son from the other world as Gohan was locked in a fierce power struggle with cell.

"haaaaaaaaaa" screamed Gohan as his blast over took that of Cells and disintegrated the once mighty creation of Dr. Gero. Exhausted Gohan dropped from his Level 2 Super Saiyajin form and fell to the ground where all of his friends rushed to congratulate him.

At this time, the only thing floating through his mind where thoughts of his now dead father.

"Dad! Why'd you have to do it dad, why?" "It's all my fault, I should have killed Cell when you said dad, I am such a fool" Gohan sobbed as Krillen placed a comforting hand on his shoulder

"That's it Gohan, let it all out".

But for the second time in the fight, a fierce wind whipped up, and everyone's head snapped around to find Cell, with a cocky little smirk as he and everyone else there realized that the didn't have a prayer of defeating him now with another boost to his power.

Time seemed to move in slow motion as Krillen hit the ground, with a hole much the same as the one in Trunks through his stomach. It happened so quickly that Krillen didn't even have time to give a yelp as death had claimed him. Quicker than anyone other than Gohan could see, the Z-Senshi fell, Vegeta, Piccolo, Tien and finally Yamcha. Cell smirked and turned to taunt Gohan.

"So what are you going to do now boy? All your friends are dead and next will be this miserable planet".

Gohan didn't reply to Cell's taunting, anger burned through him as he looked at the bodies of all his friends, that's when he heard his father's voice.

"Gohan, use your feelings, you have all the power you need, get him for us, everyone knows you can do it, make Cell pay for everything he has done to us".

Gohan's rage began to soar; he could feel it building inside of him, similarly to when he ascended last time, but much faster and more powerful. Then he snapped, with a scream of pure rage his power level began jump. All this time Cell watched amused as his power level still exceed the boys.

Gohan's muscles began to bulge, his hair started to grow down his back, his forehead protruded more his eyebrows vanished, his power level soared, the whole earth began to shake, windows all over the globe shattered, people screaming that the world was coming to an end, people cowering under anything they could find, and then with a final scream the transformation was complete.

Cell was taken back by the boy's new form, it made him look all that much more menacing, and the power level, Cell involuntarily shuddered as the boy slowly moved towards him. Then he smirked to himself, *if things get out of hand, ill blow this place up like I meant to before*, but before he finished his thought the boy was in his face.

"No more games cell, its time for you to die"

Faster than Cell could follow Gohan swept out his legs and kicked cell high into the air. Gohan then began to chant his father's famous line.

"Ka"

Slowly a flicker of bluish light appeared in his right hand.

"Me"

Gohan pushed more and more of his ki into the ball.

"Ha"

Cell tried desperately to halt his momentum as he was propelled out of earth's atmosphere.

"Me"

Gohan felt the rage of his father's death, and the death's of his friends push itself into the ball

"Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"

Gohan released a kamehameha wave about 10 times the size of the one used in the power struggle, all of his new forms energy was poured into to huge wave of energy, it engulfed Cell, who barely had time to scream before every last one of his cells were disintegrated.

*End Flashback*

With the memory still clearly playing through his mind Gohan laid on the ground and began so sob and shake unnaturally until he finally passed out on the ground, the last thing to run through his mind being, *I am so worthless, I let them all die*.

By this time the reporter had managed to crawl back and see that Cell had been defeated, and the young man who had been fighting him had collapsed in a fit of sobs. The reporter looked around to see the bodies of the young boy's friends, all lying motionless.

Slowly the reporter moved towards the young boy who he had thought saved there lives, as they made it to him they peered down at him, and from this close he didn't look so menacing, actually he looked rather helpless, with one arm covered in blood and hanging limply from his side.

This was about the time Hercule made an appearance and declared that when the boy had almost been killed, he had stepped in and killed Cell saving the boys life, after congratulations from the remaining people there it was broadcast to the world that Hercule had defeated Cell and everyone was safe thanks to him.

While the reporter was announcing all of this, Hercule looked down at the boy and realised that he couldn't be any older than his young daughter, and as he didn't see anyone coming to help the boy, he slowly bent down and picked him up to take him to receive some medical attention, he placed the boy carefully into his copter and began to fly back to Orange Star City.
Through constant pain disgrace
The young boy learns their rules

Hercule decided that before he dropped the young boy off at the hospital, he would pick up his daughter Videl on the way there; she would most likely be worried about him, especially after she would have seen him hit that mountain and also after the serious pain inflicted onto him via his "stomach ache".

The boy hadn't moved since he was placed in the copter, they were now over Orange Star City and readying to descend onto his roof to pick up his daughter. As soon as it touched down, a young girl of age 11 raced to meet her father, her long black hair pulled into to pony tails and her blue eyes sparkling with happiness as she seen her father step out of the copter.

With a leap she jumped into his arms and gave him a big hug

"Daddy, are you ok?" questioned Videl.

"Yes sweetie, but we need to head over to the hospital for awhile, would you like to come?" Videl gave her dad a peculiar look and remarked

"Why do we need to go to the hospital daddy?" Hercule responded swiftly

"because Videl, the young boy who fought Cell is in pretty bad shape, lucky I stepped in and saved him when I did, waahaaahaaaaaahaaaaaaa", Hercule laughed as he talked about his "saving the world" performance.

Curiosity spiked, Videl cautiously approached the copter, and what she saw made her gasp. A young boy, no more than her age laid on the copter floor, his left arm covered in blood and hanging limply, but what made her shocked her most of all was the incredibly haunted look on the young boys unconscious face. She quickly dashed back inside tell her father she would be right back. Moments later Videl emerged with a small medical kit and quickly made her way to the copter and the small boy's side. Slowly she began to clean up the boy's arm in an attempt to stop a chance of infection between her residence and the hospital.

As the copter drew near the hospital, a small groan was heard from the boy which made Videl jump, before moving to his side. The boy mumbled something about it all being his fault, and that he needed to get to the lookout to see Dende and summon the Eternal Dragon. Videl looked at the boy quizzically before shrugging it off as something that had to do with his current state.

Then she pondered something and looked over at her father.

"Daddy, wasn't his hair gold before?"

"Yes Sweetie, but it was some cheap trick they used, and now he is hurt, he can't use the trick anymore"

Videl looked at her father sceptically, but went along with his theory

"Ok then daddy"

The rest of the trip was travelled in relative silence, with Videl studying the young boy, hoping that he would awaken.

With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong

As they landed at the hospital, Videl hurried her father up to get the boy into the hospital as quickly as possible while she quickly followed after him. She couldn't help but feel pity for this boy, no older then her, he went head to head against Cell and lost all his friends while doing it.

"What happened to him??" a nurse exclaimed as she watched Hercule carry in a young boy covered in blood.

"This is the little boy who lost fighting Cell" Hercule replied arrogantly

Videl gave her father a glare before following the nurse off with the young boy. She was planning on being with him when he woke up so she could get some information out of him, and also so he would have someone there for him until they found out who he was and find some of his family. Hercule entered moments later and glanced at the boy before turning to his daughter.

"Ok Sweetie, its time to go home now, he is in good hands now"

"No, I will wait until he at least wakes up daddy, he's all alone at the moment, he's going to need a friend"

"But Sweetie"

"No Daddy, I am staying at that's final"

"*sigh* Ok, but call me when you need me to come and get you ok?"

"Sure thing Daddy"

And with that Hercule left the hospital to go tackle the hardships of being the 'saviour' of earth. Videl glanced down at the boy and pondered how long he was going to be out for, before settling back into the chair and falling into a light doze.

Deprived of all his thoughts
The young man struggles on and on he's known

A few hours later, Gohan awoke from his restless dreams and looked around, it didn't seem familiar at all. He felt a smallish power sleeping beside him so he thought maybe his mother was here, slowly struggling to roll over he noticed that it wasn't, it was some strange girl with black hair who seemed to be about his age. But he had no time to figure out who it was watching over him, he had to get to the lookout, he had to try and save his dad and friends.

Slowly Gohan hauled himself out of his bed and moved to the window and opened it, it made a screeching noise that awoke Videl. She looked at the bed to find the young boy gone, frantically she whirled around looking for him and spotted him climbing out the window.

"Wait!!"

Gohan slowly looked over his shoulder, his eyes full of sorrow "I am sorry, I don't even know who you are, but thank you for watching me, but I have to go, I am sorry"

And with that Gohan shot out the window and off towards the lookout, with a very stunned looking Videl looking at him leave.

*I didn't even get my answers, he just flew, that was no trick, something about my dad's story doesn't add up, but I can't prove anything without him*

A vow unto his own
That never from this day
His will they'll take away

Gohan raced through the air as fast as he could, with the little power he had regained from the few hours he was out, he had to get to the lookout *there has to be a way to bring everyone back, there just has to*

10 minutes later Gohan arrived on the lookout, to be greeted by Dende and his mother and Grandfather.

"Gohan, where the hell have you been?" screeched Chi Chi until she noticed the state Gohan was in.

"Oh my poor baby, what did they do to you?"

Gohan was about to answer his mother until the flight to the lookout caught up with him and he collapsed into a pile on the ground, Chi Chi quickly rushed to his side wherein she tossed Dende a menacing glance.

"Well don't just stand there, heal my poor little baby!!"

"Um yes ma'am" Dende managed to squeak out before he knelt next to Gohan and his healing aura surrounded earth's young saviour.

As the process started, a plane landed upon the lookout which carried Bulma and her young daughter Trunks, quickly she hopped out of the plane and made towards the others that were there. Upon making it she gasped as she saw the condition Gohan was in, but slowly his wounds began to close, and his energy restored. After a few minutes Gohan finally awoke to hear Bulma speaking.

"Where is everyone Chi Chi?"

"I don't know Bulma"

At this Dende looked at the ground with a sad looking passing over his young features, he was about to speak up when a small voice made its way from Gohan's throat.

"Dead" Gohan explained simply

"What was that sweetie?" Chi Chi asked

"There all dead, everyone of them, its all my fault"

Gohan then started to sob. Chi Chi tried to comfort her heartbroken son while Bulma just stood still staring in shock. Then it hit Gohan like a bolt of lightning, the Namek Dragonballs!

"Dende summon the dragon, we can wish everyone who was killed by Cell back to life, that will revive Trunks and most other people, then for the second wish I will ask the dragon for the knowledge of the Instant Transmission technique, then I can get the dragon radar, go to Namek and wish everyone back, its brilliant" Gohan rattled off quickly and excitedly.

"Ok Gohan, ill do it right now. 'Eternal Dragon by your name I summon you forth, Shenron!'"

After the words were spoken, the sky became dark, as if it had instantly became night, a golden column of energy burst from the Dragonballs and slowly began to take the shape of the Eternal Dragon until finally the dragon was formed looking down at everyone.

"You have disturbed me from my slumber, speak your first wish now" spoke the deep voice of the dragon

"I wish for everyone killed by Cell to be bought back to life" spoke Dende

"It has been done, name your second wish"

"I wish for the knowledge of the Instant Transmission Technique" requested Gohan

"It has been done, I must go now, Farewell"

"Oh wow, I can feel Trunks is on the way, she is so going to flip when she finds out my plan"

"Hey guys!" exclaimed Trunks as she landed on the lookout "Where is everyone?"

All present hung their heads "There all dead Trunks, but we are going to Namek to wish them all back"

"Oh my precious Trunks, you're alright, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING GETTING YOURSELF KILLED YOUNG LADY??" rambled Bulma

Trunks flushed at her mother's behaviour "Well mom, I really didn't mean to die, and I'd rather not do it again, but I am ok now, by the way Gohan, I am going to come to Namek with you, I want to see Porunga too"

"Alright!!" exclaimed Gohan "All we have to do now is grab the radar and head for Namek"

"Hey, don't we get a say in this?"

"Dad?" exclaimed Gohan "is that you?"

"Yes son, it's me, hey everyone!"

"Why are you holding us up for dad, we could on Namek getting ready to wish you all back?"

"Well son, we have all decided not to come back just yet"

"………WHAT!!!!!!!" screamed everyone on the lookout in unison

"ummm, well we are all going to stay dead, you're so strong now Gohan, you don't need our help anymore, so we are going to train in the otherworld for a few years, then we might come back, but hey, I guess we will see how things turn out"

By this time both Chi Chi and Bulma had fainted and Trunks's mouth was open in shock. Gohan stood there for a few seconds before exploding in anger.

"What the hell do you mean I don't need your help anymore, I might be stronger than you all, but I am still just a boy, I don't want the responsibility of protecting the world, I never wanted it, NEVER!! I still need you Dad"

"Sorry son, I think its for the best if I don't come back, just about every evil being that has attacked earth over the years has been after me, so I think it might be safer if I stayed dead anyway"

Gohan looked shocked before his anger started to bubble "Fine, stay dead, I don't care, who needs you anyway" he then blasted off the lookout headed for somewhere were he could think for awhile. By this time Trunks had managed to pull herself out of her stupor to hear Gohan's words and watch sadly as he flew off. She then heard the fading words of Goku

"I am sorry Gohan, but this is for the best"

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown

After about an hour of flying around, Trunks finally came upon Gohan sitting on the edge of a cliff staring out over the land. Trunks landed quietly beside him, following the his gaze to see what he was staring at.

"My Dad and me used to fish there" Gohan mumbled.

It was a beautiful lake, surrounded by trees and wild flowers, with a small, swift running waterfall that continuously ran into the small lake.

"I know, in my time you used to bring me here when I was upset, it used to help calm me down, and I would talk to you about what was bothering me, sometimes even cry"

Gohan turned and gave Trunks a small sad smile that almost made her heart break "I come here to think, it's so calm, and I understand now why my father is staying dead, I wouldn't want to be around a failure of a son either, I killed everyone, I am a murderer, he made the right decision to stay dead, its all my fault, everything" Gohan sobbed out, his eyes glazing over as he turned to gaze out over the waterfall again.

"Oh Gohan, none of this is your fault, if it wasn't for you then Cell would still be alive, and everyone else on earth would be dead, you saved the earth, and everyone is grateful for that" whispered Trunks as she pulled him into a tight hug, and let the smaller version of the man she grew up with, and learned to adore sob out his problems into her shirt.

After a few minutes, Gohan's crying eased off and became nothing more than light sniffles. Slowly he raised his head to look at Trunks's face.

"You're going back soon aren't you?"

"Yes, after I get a good rest, but I promise Gohan, ill come back to visit after I destroy the androids and things start getting back to normal"

Gohan gave her a small smile "I'll miss you Trunks, but I know you can do it, be careful though"

"I will Gohan, I will"

Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been

5 Months Later

Bulma glanced over at Chi Chi *She doesn't look so good, she seems to be getting really thin, that cant be good for the baby or her…… or Gohan, if he loses his mother as well, who knows what he might do. Oh well maybe watching Gohan compete in this Gyosan Budokai might get her out of her depression*

"So Chi Chi, how is Gohan these days?"

"As well as can be expected I suppose, he still blames himself for Cell, and has been a little depressed, but he still keeps up with his studying and training, though I wish he'd stop training, but well he is to much like his father, but he gets all his studying done, so I guess I cant complain. Anyway, I hear Trunks is back and she's competing aswell?"

"Oh yes, my little Trunks is competing, if she has to face Gohan unfortunately I do doubt she will win, but from what I have heard, the last 4 competitors don't actually fight each other, it's a race, then they fight one of Mr. Satan's students, and the first one to the elevator gets to fight Mr. Satan for 1st place. Finally someone will get to put that no good fraud in his place"

A few rows back, a young girl with black hair and blues eyes managed to overhear this conversation *They seem to know something about my father being a fraud, that could only mean the Cell Games, I'll have to keep an eye out for this Gohan and Trunks*

"I was also thinking Chi Chi that when you get closer to the end of your labour, you might want to stay at Capsule Corps with me, its closer to the hospital and there will always be someone to keep an eye on you"

"That would be wonderful Bulma, I am sure Gohan wont mind, it means he will have access to the Gravity Room, though I will make sure that boy studies"

What I've felt
What I've known

"So Gohan, you ready for the eliminations?"

Gohan turns and looks a Trunks funny "Ummm, Trunks, I don't mean to sound to rude, but there isn't anyone here that can beat me, except maybe you"

"*giggles* Well I tend to forget sometimes we are quite a lot stronger than everyone" Trunks says sheepishly

"Anyway, good luck Trunks, its about to start"

"Same to you Gohan"

Gohan enters his ring, which is levitated high off the ground surrounded by water. Surrounding him is about another 20 competitors all fighting for the single advancing position. Gracefully he drops into his fighting stance, which is a mixture of both Piccolo's and his Fathers.

"Go Gohan, you can do it!!"

A small blush creeps up onto Gohan's face as his mother calls out to him.

"Ok Ring 4, is everybody ready?"

After everyone gives some signal that they are indeed prepared for the ensuing battle, things get under way.

"Begin!"

19 of the 20 fighters all glance around nervously to see who will make the first move. Gohan tires of this quickly and phases into the middle of the ring before anyone can blink. With a swift powerup the winds created blast the remaining 19 competitors from the ring.

"And Son Gohan of Ring 4 Advances"

In the stands the young Videl finally spots the boy and gasps *It's him, the boy from the Cell Games, I have to meet him after this, and talk to him, what power he must possess, he won his ring so easily.

"And Trunks Briefs of Ring 1 Advances"

Videl glanced across at Ring 1 to see who else could clear the ring that quickly, what she saw was a lavender haired girl *She was the girl from the Cell Games, I have to speak with one of them* thought Videl. She watched both Gohan and Trunks utterly annihilate both of their next opponents until ti was time for the race.

"Ladies and Gentleman, its time for the last event before we get to see the worlds saviour in action, Mr. Satan. This event consists of a race, before each competitor must face one of 4 extra terrestrials (Mr. Satan's Students). If the succeed in defeating them, then the first fighter to this elevator will travel to the top were they shall face the great Mr. Satan in a 1 on 1 battle to determine the champion of the Gyosan Budokai"

There was a slight pause as everyone was loaded into the capsule type vehicles that would take them to each of there destinations.

"And it looks like we are ready folks, let's get the show on the road"

The 4 finalists were fired of to there destinations as the race began. After a few minutes of travelling, all of the remaining competitors arrived at their destinations. Trunks at field of flowers by the ocean, while Gohan was at what seemed to be a giant child's play area.

Trunks bent down to smell the flowers "What a beautiful fragrance" until she noticed something out of the corner of her eye. Swiftly taking to the air, she narrowly missed a ki beam that flew past where she was kneeling moments ago.

"What the hell is wrong with you, this is a game, not a war"

"How wrong you are" replied her opponent before swiftly pulling out his sword to which he swung at Trunks.

With barely time to do much else, Trunks pumped her arm full of ki and used it to block the sword, this only cause her opponent to push even harder. While this was occurring Trunks sensed around and counted another 4 high ki's that should not have been there.

"Gohan might be in trouble and need my help" growled Trunks "but I am going to need to be rid of you first" powering up to Super Saiyajin Trunks stuffed her fist through her opponents abdomen. He fell quickly, and did not move again. But mere seconds later trunks felt something hit the back of her head and fell into the a world of blackness.

Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free

After seeing the death of 2 competitors and one knocked unconscious, the crowd started to panic and piling out of the stadium, only a select few where still seated.

"Trunks!!" Bulma screamed "what the hell did the monster do to my baby"

Chi Chi gazed on worriedly but tried to assure her friend "Bulma, its ok, Gohan is there, he'll teach those bastards, and you know he wouldn't let any hurt come to Trunks if he could prevent it"

"I hope your right Chi Chi, I hope your right"

2 rows back Videl had worried thoughts of her own *the 2 that weren't at the Cell games are already dead, and the girl from it is unconscious, I hope the boy can do something or we are all in a lot of trouble*

Never me
So I dub thee unforgiven

Gohan's head snapped up and his eyes narrowed, Trunk's ki just dropped to the point she was either sleeping or unconscious, and he knew she wasn't sleeping. Then he felt 4 reasonable sized ki's surrounding hers, quicker than anyone could see he was blasting through the air to stop whoever the hell wanted to hurt his friend.

As Gohan drew near her ki, something stopped him. As he looked down he noticed small beams of energy shotting around him, and the more he struggled the tighter they got and the weaker he felt. He didn't even have time to power up, and then he heard a low menacing voice.

"So you come to save your friend huh? Well to bad small fry, because you have got to die"

In the next second he was in the mans arms having the life squeezed out of him, he couldn't even power up as he was weakened by the previous attack which drained his power, all he could do was scream and spit up blood.

They dedicate their lives
To running all of his
He tries to please them all

All Bulma and Chi Chi could do was watch in horror as Gohan had the life squeezed out of him. Chi Chi heard her sounds agonising scream before passing out. Bulma was to stunned to even move. While Videl who was still a few rows back covered her mouth in horror as this poor boy once again had the life squeezed out of him like Cell had done.

She then heard chants, and listened to see if she could understand them "Satan, Satan, Satan" screamed the crowd and Videl rolled her eyes, she knew her father couldn't beat these guys, she only wished he could.

This bitter man he is
Throughout his life the same
He's battled constantly

Mr. Satan strolled out to the announcer to see what all the chanting was about.

"Thank god you're here sir, the competitors desperately need your help, 2 are already dead one is unconscious and the little boy is having the life squeezed out of him"

Mr. Satan glanced at the monitor before turning pale *it's the boy from the Cell Games, if he is losing, I can't do anything, I need to pretend I have that stomach ache again*

But before he had the chance he was stuffed into a little capsule and blasted off to fight and defeat these evil beings, for he is the saviour of the world.

This fight he cannot win
A tired man they see no longer cares

Then pain was excruciating, he couldn't feel his ribs anymore, all of them shattered. *What a crummy way to die, I couldn't even power up and give him a fair fight*

Then he saw her, Trunks's bloody unconscious body, while some of these creeps' colleagues kicked and punched the body. His rage boiled, his body felt like it was on fire, and suddenly the grip didn't seem so tight anymore. With a primal roar energy blasted from the young 11 year old, his hair flashed gold before finally settling on the colour, his eyes burning with hatred settled for a blue colour, lightning crackled around him before a massive torrent of energy blasted the one now known as Bojack away from him. He landed on his feet, energy oozing from every part of his body, his eyes filled with a burning rage and hatred, Bojack was going to die, everyone one of them that hurt his friend was going to die, no mercy. Slowly he took a step forward before blasting off towards them.

The old man then prepares
To die regretfully
That old man here is me

Videl gasped when she saw what happened, the boy he just exploded, his scream filled with so much anguish it almost broke her heart to hear it, his hair changed colour, lightning had crackled around him, then all of the cameras had been destroyed by some unknown force, she knew then that whoever those people were, they were now in serious trouble, for it seemed the power that she believed had taken out Cell had awoken.

What I've felt
What I've known

1, 2, 3…. Faster than Bojack could blink his 3 colleagues were dead, he shivered in fear, he knew he had lost, but he wasn't going down without a fight. Then the boy stopped, maybe he was going to let him live? But no, he cupped his hands beside him, a pulsing blue energy gathered in between his palms, then Bojack felt a burning sensation and then nothing but blackness.

Gohan dropped from his Super Saiyajin 2 transformation before swiftly flying to Trunks and picking up her limp body, she was still breathing and he sighed with relief, before he took off to find his mother and Bulma, he then need to go get some senzu beans, he couldn't stand to see Trunks in pain, and now he thought about it, all of his ribs were broken and he was in quite a bit of pain.

Never shined through in what I've shown
Never be

"You're leaving again?" asked Gohan with a small frown on his face

"Yes" Trunks replied as she gently cupped his cheek "and remember, none of this is your fault, ok! I'll be back someday ok, when the time is right" she then gently placed a light kiss on his cheek before turning and climbing into her time machine, leaving a furiously blushing Gohan behind.

*What did she mean 'when the time is right'* thought Gohan, but shrugged it off.

Never see
Won't see what might have been

3 1/2 Months Later

Chi Chi waddled in to Bulma's lab to see her tinkering with some of her gadgets, she coughed to grab Bulma's attention, but she was to involved in her work to notice, so Chi Chi coughed once again louder this time, it had the desired effect as Bulma jumped then whirled around.

"Oh hi Chi Chi, what's up?"

"Oh nothing much, except I think its time"

"Oh ok…..WHAT!!! Oh my god, ummm, you head to the car, ill grab Gohan and well get to that hospital in a jiffy"

Bulma ran over to the intercom and pushed for the Gravity Room, when a very sweaty Gohan appeared on it.

"Gohan, its time, get to the car"

"Eek, ok Bulma, I'll meet you there"

With that Bulma grabbed her keys and headed for the car to which both Chi Chi and Gohan were waiting at. Chi Chi looking quite calm and Gohan running around frantically asking if she was ok and if there was anything he could do.

"Everybody in and lets go"

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown

After they arrived at the hospital the rushed in with Chi Chi, they placed her in a wheelchair at the nurse's request as she went to get a doctor.

*I hope Chi Chi will be ok during this labour* though Bulma *she hasn't been the same since Goku died, I just hope she is well enough to deal with this, I don't think Gohan could take to much more, he has lost so much in his life, and at such a young age*

Bulma and Gohan were forced to wait in the waiting room for news. Bulma sat quietly in a chair while Gohan paced backwards and forwards.

"Gohan, you're going to wear out their floor"

Gohan grinned sheepishly before sitting down next to Bulma, who placed a comforting hand on his shoulder and gave it a little squeeze.

"She's going to be ok kid, she's tough"

Gohan nodded, but the small creases of worry on his forehead told Bulma he thought otherwise, in all actuality she herself though differently, but didn't let it show to worry Gohan even further.

Hours passed and Gohan went back to pacing until he heard footsteps coming his way, just as he looked up the doctor pushed his way through the swinging double doors. Gohan moved swiftly towards the doctor.

"How is she?"

The doctor looked down "Son, she was very weak, so…"

Gohan cut him off "How is she? How is my little brother or sister?"

The doctor gave a sigh "I am sorry son, neither of them made it through the delivery"

Gohan froze, he couldn't think, he couldn't breath, he felt like he was dying, first his father now his mother and younger sibling, he killed them all, it was all his fault he though as tears began to well in his eyes. He finally felt himself being pulled into a hug by a sobbing Bulma, he let himself be hugged, then it occurred to him, he didn't deserve this, he needed to be punished. Swiftly he pulled away from Bulma.

"Gohan, what's wrong?"

"What's wrong? WHAT'S WRONG? I killed my father, now my mother and unborn sibling, I don't deserve to be hugged, I need to be punished!"

More tears sprang to Bulma's eyes "Gohan, it's not your fault"

"But it is Bulma! Why did my younger brother or sister die? Because mother died giving birth! Why did mother die? Because she was depressed over dad being dead, she never recovered! Why did dad die? Because I killed him that's why!" tears now freely flowing from his eyes.

"Oh Gohan, please don't blame yourself, they don't"

Gohan then turned and started to leave. "Where are you going Gohan?"

"I'll be back in 1 day Bulma, I am going somewhere I can punish myself without hurting others"

"Gohan come back!"

But Gohan ignored Bulma's pleading and continued out of the hospital. He took to the air and headed to the lookout. As he landed Dende came out to greet him.

"Hello Gohan"

"Dende, I am going to use the Room of Spirit and Time"

"Is everything ok Gohan?" asked a concerned Dende who could see the tears in Gohan's eyes.

"Everything is just fine, ill be out in about 1 day and 3 hours, I have that much time left"

As Gohan headed out towards the ROSAT (Room of Spirit and Time) he thought to himself *Its about time I learned how to control these next to levels of Super Saiyajin anyway, and maybe I can beat myself enough, I can start to make it up to everyone I have killed, or maybe I should join them……"

As he walked into the room, everything finally caught up with him and he let out a tormented scream……

Never free
Never me
So I dub thee unforgiven

Exactly 1 day and 3 hours later, Gohan emerged from the ROSAT. Dende's eyes almost popped out of his head when he sensed Gohan's energy, it was so huge, yet he was still only in his normal form.

"So how was your training Gohan?"

"Fine"

"What happened in there?"

"I'd rather not say"

"Ummm ok Gohan"

"Say Dende"

"Yes?"

"You know how to create clothing and weights like Piccolo don't you?"

"Yes Gohan, do you need some?"

"I want you to teach me, please"

"Sure, it's not hard"

After an hour or so of showing Gohan what to do, and letting him practise, Gohan finally had it down a left for Capsule Corp after thanking Dende. He arrived a few minutes later and timidly knocked on the door, to which Bulma answered it. When she saw him she swept him up into a hug.

"Oh Gohan, are you ok now?"

"Feeling a little better thanks…… ummm, Bulma?"

"Yes Gohan?"

"You wouldn't mind if I stayed here from now on would you? Its just well I don't want to go home without mom anymore" Gohan said sadly as he looked at the ground.

Bulma almost broke down crying then at the broken boy Gohan had become "Of course you can Gohan, you're almost like a son to me, and I am sure little Trunks would like an older brother"

A faint smile almost broke out on Gohan's face at the mention of little Trunks.

You labeled me
I'll label you
So I dub thee unforgiven

6 Years Later

Time moved on at Capsule Corps, Gohan moved into his own little world, he didn't really say all that much and the only things he did beside Study and Train were sleeping, showering, and eating, even that had started to become quite a bit less then the boys old ravenous appetite. The only person who seemed to be able to get through to Gohan was little Trunks, who now at the age of 8, held her 'Big Brother' Gohan as one of her hero's. She regularly trained with him, and was very powerful for her age.

"Gohan" whined Trunks "Why haven't I become a Super Saiyajin yet?"

Gohan smiled fondly at the little girl "Trunks, don't worry about it so much, just try to keep getting stronger. Becoming a Super Saiyajin isn't about want, its about need. When the time is right, you'll make the transformation, and then you'll be glad you worked really hard on your normal for as you'll be even more powerful in your Super form"

A small smile tugged across Trunks's face "Ok Gohan" she chirped happily. Then the intercom flicked on, scaring both Trunks and Gohan.

"Gohan can you come here for a few minutes, I need to speak to you"

"Ok Bulma"

Gohan turned to Trunks "Keep working on your forms, I'll be back soon ok"

"Ok Gohan"

Gohan the exited the Gravity Room and headed to were Bulma was currently located, which seem to be her Study.

"Yes Bulma?"

"Ahhh Gohan, I have been thinking, isn't it about time you went to school….."

Omake Theatre

** Omake 1 **

"So what are you going to do now boy? All your friends are dead and next will be this miserable planet".

Gohan didn't reply to Cell's taunting, anger burned through him as he looked at the bodies of all his friends.

"Yes, that's it boy, the hate is swelling in you now! Take your Jedi weapon! Strike me down with all of your hatred, and your journey toward the dark side will be complete!!"

** Omake 2 **

Time seemed to move in slow motion as Krillen hit the ground, with a hole much the same as the one in Trunks through his stomach. It happened so quickly that Krillen didn't even have time to give a yelp as death had claimed him. Quicker than anyone other than Gohan could see, the Z-Senshi fell, Vegeta, Piccolo, Tien and finally Yamcha. Cell smirked and turned to taunt Gohan.

"So what are you going to do now boy? All your friends are dead and next will be this miserable planet".

Gohan glanced around quickly before replying.

"I'm gunna get my white ass outta here"

And with that Gohan left abruptly.

** Omake 3 **

The intercom flicked on, scaring both Trunks and Gohan.

"Gohan can you come here for a few minutes, I need to speak to you"

"Ok Bulma"

Gohan turned to Trunks "Keep working on your forms, I'll be back soon ok"

"Ok Gohan"

Gohan the exited the Gravity Room and headed to were Bulma was currently located, which seem to be her Study.

"Yes Bulma?"

"Ahhh Gohan, I have been thinking, isn't it about time you went to school….."

Gohan lifted his hand and blasted Bulma to the next dimension before she could blink.

"School Woman? I dont need no stinking school!"

** Author Notes **

Firstly Trunks is a girl in this and WILL be staying that way! If you have a problem i would kindly ask you not to read and following chapters and not to complain. Secondly I am working on chapter 2, but i am a bit stuck on the direction to take it through the high school/buu sagas which will make up the next chapter. I have plenty of ideas for the following chapter but i want my high school/buu sagas to be at least a little original while still working its way through. Hopefully I will have it knocked over soon and i can start moving onto some of my own sagas.

Cheers
Gord

** Original Author Notes **

Alrighty, this would happen to be my first Fan Fiction, so be easy on me. Anyway I would like to apologise if this chapter was a little slow, I have plenty of ideas for the fic, but most of them involve Gohan being older, like from starting school on, and I didn't want to just go straight into that like 'Gohan beat Cell…… 7 Years Later'. I wanted to build an idea of how Gohan will be the way he is, because he is going to be different personality wise to Gohan of the series, but he's not going to be some ass that thinks he's to good for everyone either. He going to be very quiet and withdrawn, but he wont allow people to attempt to hurt himself or others physically or mentally, he will stand up for himself and others.

As you also may have noticed, Trunks is a girl. You might see why later on ;)

I have a few plot twist in store, but I have a little way to go yet, also I am a pretty lazy kinda person, so don't expect chapters to come out extremely fast, I tend to write when I am bored, which is quite often, but sometimes writing is almost more boring, its all about my mood, but anyway, sorry for the long authors notes, but as it's the first chapter, and my first fic I thought it might be helpful.