Fan Fiction / Zoids Fan Fiction ❯ Shattered Reality ❯ feelings ( Chapter 5 )

"Van, please wake up. The longer that I see you in this state, them more I think I am going to lose you. That is something that I really don't want to happen so will you please just wake up," whispered Fiona sitting by his bed only this time she did take some breaks, not many but a few and they were always short. She reached out a hand and lightly brushed her hand across Van's cheek.

"Is there any change?" asked Moonbay as she walked up behind Fiona carrying a blanket. "Here, take this. You will need it since I don't think you will want to go anywhere, but try and not overdo things like you did last time," said Moonbay as she unfolded the blanket and threw it over Fiona's shoulder. Moonbay then walked next to Moonbay and took a seat.

"No, he is the same way he has been for the past few days," said Fiona, "Why won't he wake up Moonbay? I mean he wasn't hit in the head. He shouldn't be this way," said Fiona as tears threatened to flow down her face, yet Fiona forced them back because she didn't want to be weak when she felt that Van needed her the most.

"The cut that he got might have been small at first Fiona, but with all the running and movement that you two did, it just forced it open more. It is most likely from the loss of blood that he is the way that he is. Just give him a little time and I am sure that he will get back to full strength," said Moonbay placing a comforting hand on Fiona's shoulder.

"I just wish that he would wake up," said Fiona taking her hand and lightly brushing it against Van's cheek once again as she laid her head down. "What if he doesn't wake up Moonbay? What if he remains like this for the rest of his life?" asked Fiona kicking herself mentally for being so negative about Van's strength.

"You really shouldn't be thinking like that. Van is very strong. I am sure that it is only a matter of time before he finally wakes up. When that happens, you two should really talk, it might be able to settle some of the negative thoughts that you have been having," said Moonbay as she stood up and slowly walked towards the door. Moonbay stopped as she reached the door. "Whether or not you believe this is not my choice, but you should know that Van cares for you greatly, more than he does for the rest of us. He wouldn't want to see you being so negative about all of this," said Moonbay before she walked out of the room and once again leaving Fiona alone to her thoughts. `He doesn't just care for you Fiona, he loves you whether he may realize it or not,' thought Moonbay before she started to walk down the hall.

*****

"Does Fiona really feel that strongly for me?" asked Van when he somehow heard a small amount of the conversation that had just gone on between Moonbay and Fiona. However, he wasn't able to hear all of it so some of the parts were a bit of a blank.

`What? You just noticed this. Fiona is always around us and gives us the most attention out of any of our friends. How could you have not noticed this before?' asked the voice to the quiet Van

"She really doesn't say too much on how she feels. She is usually very quiet and sometimes a bit withdrawn. Even if she does care for me, it doesn't exactly tell me how deep it is that her feeling for me really are," said Van after a moment of thinking to himself.

`What about all the signs she has unknowingly given you. You can't tell me you never really noticed those. What about the time that you went to face the deathstinger and you barely got back before she basically threw herself on you. She didn't say hello, to you or Irvine but she went straight for you,' said the voice trying to convince the very dense Van.

"I knew that she cares for me but I never really knew how much and I still don't. I wish that I would talk to her but as long as I am stuck here that isn't really an option," said Van in a disappointed tone.

`You just never even bothered to realize it. Sometimes you were too into your job with the guardian force to give her the time of day to say some of the things that she most likely wants to say,' said the voice quietly.

"I guess that is correct. I really should have paid more attention to her," said Van burying his face within his hands. "Sometimes I just threw her off like it didn't really matter because I became so obsessed with doing something like fighting Raven. I feel so bad about it now that I think of it," said Van as he laid back and stared upwards.

`The question that I am sure that we both want to know is what you are going to do now? Another question for you is do we love Fiona, or just think of her as a mere friend?' asked the voice waiting for van to reply.

"I care for Fiona greatly. That is why I put myself in danger for her, that is why I am currently here having a very strange discussion with my own mind," said Van with a slight laugh although he really didn't find it to be all that funny.

`Do you know yet what is your choice going to be when it comes to Fiona?' asked the voice already knowing the answer that was going to come but he needed to hear it comes out of Van's mouth

"I-I guess I do. I do love Fiona," said Van a little startled to hear it come out of his mouth yet at the same time it brought about a type of easiness to have said it that it was like nothing else matter at that moment. `I love her. Wow, I never would have thought that I would say that,' Van thought to himself with a small smile on his face.

`That is what I thought, and I am glad to hear it,' said the voice in a happy tone. Suddenly a bright light showed up again and surrounded Van. It blinded him and he could no longer see anything around him, not like he couldn't see anything as it was because the place had been completely dark since he first appeared there.

*****

Fiona felt herself growing tired. She had sat by Van's bed the whole day since she woke up that morning and she planned on staying there until he woke up from his very deep sleep. Although his wounds had long since healed, Van remained in a comatose state and there didn't appear to be any sign that he was going to wake up soon. "I am so sorry that this happened to you Van. I would do anything for you to get better. So please get better as soon as you can," said Fiona in a whisper as she carefully moved a piece of hair that had fallen into his face.

Fiona let out a loud and deep yawn meaning that she was growing tired because by that moment it was just about nighttime. She felt herself growing very tired and she was prepared to go to bed when she heard something coming from Van. It started out as a strange noise coming out of his throat but soon Fiona knew that he was muttering something. "Van, are you awake?" asked Fiona, as she got closer to hear what he was saying.

She then heard him mutter in such a soft tone that it would have been hard to hear if she had not been so close to him at that moment, "Fiona," Van muttered very weakly as his face scrunched up a bit. It didn't look like he was in pain but there was another look, it looked a little fearful.

Fiona didn't know if he might have been muttering in his sleep or if he could have woken up and was saying those things but he was asking for her and she planned to help with whatever he needed at that moment. Fiona took his hand in hers and held it there. "Van, Van are you awake?" asked Fiona as she watched him closely he made no movements to show that he heard her but all he did was keep muttering more things that she couldn't hear at that moment, "Hold on Van, I will go and get someone and then I will be right back," said Fiona hoping that he had finally woken up.

Fiona stood up intending on getting a doctor but the grip on her hand grew a little bit tighter. She then heard him muttering, "Please don't go Fiona," he muttered as he gripped her hand even harder meaning that there was no way that she could get away because she couldn't escape his grip.

Fiona couldn't help but feel a tear fall down her face. "Don't worry, I am right here Van. I won't leave here until you have woken up," said Fiona, as she got comfortable again and continued to watch his now peaceful face.

*****

Moonbay came into the room after a while to make sure that Fiona wouldn't end up getting herself sick again. What she saw when she entered the room made her smile though. What she saw was that Fiona had fallen asleep in the seat with her head on the bed with her hand tightly gripped around his. `How cute,' Moonbay thought with a smile before she turned around prepared to leave.

Moonbay left the room and came back a minute later carrying a large wool blanket, which she carefully wrapped around Fiona to keep her warm and comfortable. `Rest Fiona, you definitely need it,' thought Moonbay before she walked out of the room once again.

*****

Fiona found herself once again in the same room that she had in her past two dreams. "No, Not this again," Fiona muttered to herself although she did admit that it was still making her a bit scared. She tried to shut her eyes so that she wouldn't have to watch but her eyes continued to remain open forcing her to watch the scene before her.

There he was again preparing to attack her but Van once again jumped in the way to save her life again taking the hit for her. Fiona bit back the scream that threatened to erupt from her throat and ran to where Van was falling to the ground,

"No, this is a dream. This has to be a dream, that is right just a dream," said Fiona as she fell to the ground with the bleeding Van in her arms. She forced herself to believe this but she had a feeling in her gut that told her that she was wrong, yet she tried her best to ignore it.

Suddenly everything went dark and she found herself in the middle of it. Van disappeared from within her arms and she looked around for the source of the strange change in her nightmare. "This is new," said Fiona a little scared about what was going to happen to herself next.

Suddenly a mirror image of herself showed up in front of Fiona. "You are wrong, this is not a dream," said the image as its identical blonde hair blew within a small breeze that was blowing within her mind. The eyes that Fiona knew as her own looked at Fiona with an unflinching stare as the two could merely look at each other, yet no words could be spoken.

"Yes I am, and when I wake up all this will be just a dream," said Fiona suddenly being able to find her voice again. She continued to deny what she knew her mind was well aware of. It didn't mean that she couldn't try though.

"This is not a dream. This is in fact more of the future. Van will continue to protect you like he did in that park and he will suffer because of it," said the image with an emotionless face, "He will end up dying because of you," said the image trying hard not to show any emotions.

"Van has protected me many times and he has yet to be killed. So there is no possible way that he is going to get killed," creamed Fiona clutching her hands over her ears not really wanting to listen to what her mirror self had to say..

"He will end up being killed and you need to realize that before it is too late to possibly save him. So for once why don't you try to protect him," said the image. It made sense to Fiona but she still didn't like what she was hearing. "Please, we love him, so we need to be the ones to protect him from what is to come," said the mirror Fiona before the image faded away.

*****

Fiona bolted upright from the position she was in. `She is right I can't keep putting Van in danger like this or else he will die trying to protect me,' thought Fiona, `I just can't put him through that,' thought Fiona as a tear rolled down her face. Fiona felt something though and it caught the tear when it was on her face. She looked up to see Van staring at her. "Van, y-y-y-you're a-awake," stuttered Fiona with tears running down her face as she gave Van a tight hug.

"Yeah, I woke up when you were asleep Fiona. You were resting so peacefully that I didn't feel I had to wake you up. Plus you looked very tired that it would be a shame to not let you continue to rest," said Van with a small smile as he looked at the woman that he loved, "What's wrong Fiona? You don't look too good," said Van with worry laced throughout his voice.

"Van, I am sorry. I am so sorry for putting you through all of this," said Fiona as she wrapped her arms around Van and cried into his shirt to rid herself of all the despair that she had been feeling over the past few weeks.

"Don't be sorry Fiona. You don't have to say something that you are not responsible for," said Van a little confused but he held Fiona a little tighter to him so that he could feel her warmth and smell her beautiful scent.

"But you were hurt because of me. I am responsible for having them come and hurt you," said Fiona as she backed away from Van's embrace while looking at the ground. A few tears came down the side of her face and she just couldn't control herself.

"I wasn't hurt because of you, I was hurt because of them. You may have been their target but you shouldn't blame yourself for it," said Van not understanding how Fiona could continue to put all of the blame upon herself, "You had nothing to worry about. I will continue to protect you from them," said Van as he tried to take a step towards Fiona but she had a look of fear upon her face that stopped him in his tracks.

When Van said this Fiona remembered the part of her dream where Van was stabbed through the stomach. This just caused Fiona to break down in tears and run out of the room as fast as she could before Van had a chance to stop her.

"Fiona, wait," yelled Van after her. She didn't stop so he carefully got out of the bed and was amazed that all of his wounds were already completely healed. He immediately walked after Fiona as fast as he could.

Fiona just ran down all of the halls as fast as she could. `I can't put Van through it. I can't stay around him having him put his life in danger just to protect me,' thought Fiona, `I am going to leave. That way he won't be able to put himself in danger protecting me,' thought Fiona.

She ran into her room and started to collect some things that she felt she would need. She felt like she was ready when a voice from the door startled her. She knew who it was so she didn't turn around or say anything to Van

"Going somewhere?" asked Van in a soft tone so as to not startle Fiona. Van couldn't understand why she was not accepting his help. He knew that something was wrong yet wasn't sure because of the fact that Fiona was trying her best to not talk about it. Now he found her packing things up like she was going away.

Fiona didn't look at him as he walked into the room. "You should be in bed resting Van," said Fiona her eyes downcast and hidden behind a few strands of her hair. `How can I face him with what I am about to do?' Fiona asked herself as she kept her back towards him.

"You haven't answered me Fiona," said Van in a serious tone, as he stepped up right behind her nervous form. He noticed her twitch slight but he continued to talk to her. "Are you going somewhere Fiona?" asked Van as his voice softened and he placed a hand on her shaking shoulders.

"I have to do this Van. So please don't try and stop me," said Fiona with a tear running down her face. She was using all of her self-control at that moment to not blurt out all that was on her mind but she knew that Van wouldn't be able to help her even if her knew.

"You can't just run away from your problems Fiona. I want to be able to help you, so will you please just tell me what is going on?" said Van to Fiona who was still facing away from him and by the looks of it she was intentionally doing that so as to not show him what it was that she was feeling at that moment.

"Van, you don't understand anything about this," said Fiona finally turning around looking at Van. However once she did she regretted turning around. She saw the look of hurt on Van face when he saw what she was doing. Her heart clenched inside of her chest but she tried to keep up a strong look.

"You are right I don't understand because you won't tell me Fiona. Why is it that you won't tell me," said Van with a bit of anger rising in his voice. He tried his best not to yell or it will only make things even worse for the two of them.

"There is a reason for that Van," said Fiona trying her best to stop more tears from falling by looking away from van but his hand caught her chin and he gently turned her head so she was looking up into his eyes. She saw an angered look within his eyes that she knew she couldn't escape from.

"Then why won't you tell me Fiona," Van nearly yelled at her. He saw her get a little angry that he was not letting up on his question and before he knew it she shoved out of his grip and took a few steps back.

"Because if you keep protecting me the way you have been, then you will be killed," Fiona yelled back before she realized what she said. Her hand went straight to her mouth but it was too late.

*****

Moonbay walked into the medical wing with intent on getting Fiona to go sleep in her room when she noticed that both Van and Fiona were gone. "Where could they have gone," Moonbay asked herself. "I bet that Fiona is glad that Van is finally awake," said Moonbay.

She walked out of the room with intent on going to her room this time but as she past Fiona's room she noticed that the door was open and both Van and Fiona were standing very quietly inside. `Those two need some time alone,' thought Moonbay as she quietly shut the door before the two noticed that she was there.

*****

Van didn't know what to say. The silence had gone on for a few minutes. Fiona tried to walk by him attempting to leave but Van grabbed her arm before she had a chance to get far. "What did you mean by that," Van asked softly but in a tone of shock.

"I can't tell you that Van," said Fiona in almost a whispered. The next thing that Fiona knew Van pulled her into a warm embrace. She struggled for a second and let off a small whimper when she could get out but part of her didn't want her to.

"Fiona please I want to help you but I can't as long as you are acting like this. Please just tell," said Van softly as he held on tightly so she couldn't escape like she had last time.

"Van please, please stop," begged Fiona trying to get out of his embrace but failing. She stopped struggling and fell deeper into his embrace, a mistake that she felt would cost her so much courage from the little amount she had left to try and do what she had originally planned to do.

"You said I would be killed Fiona. For me though, should you leave it would be a fate worse than death. I just don't think that I would be able to that. So please don't do this," said Van as he buried his face within her lovely hair and inhaled her lovely scent.

Fiona looked up into his eyes and saw all of the worry that he held for her. This just made her start crying once again. `How am I going to be able to do this if my feeling for Van are constantly trying to interfere,' thought Fiona as she shook with suppressed tears.

"Don't cry Fiona. Those tears don't look very good on you," said Van wiping away the tears that fell down the side of her face. His heart ached with every tear that fell down her face.

Fiona once again looked into his eyes and the two just seemed to be locked in that position. Suddenly Van's head started to move towards Fiona's until his forehead touched hers and their mouths were only inches apart.

Fiona couldn't help herself even though she knew it would only make things worse. The last of the distance was closed as they met in a passionate kiss. It only got more passionate and the next thing that they knew Van was lowering Fiona down onto the bed.

Each caught up in their own world as they lay there passionately kissing one another. Fiona's mind was in a complete rush trying to figure out this strange turn of events. It was like an endless battle was starting to brew within her yet her body was feeling none of it like it had a will of its own. Her mind just couldn't seem to control her but her heart was willing her to go on.

`Stop! You don't know what you are doing,' her mind yelled to her trying to make Fiona stop. `The pain will be far worse this way than if you were to just stop now and leave. Please, I am trying to help you,' it continued to scream.

`Stop thinking so much. You need to do what is right for you,' her heart told her as it seemed to have all the control in this situation. `If you love him then show it to him, now is your chance because if you were to leave then it is all over and you lost your only chance to feel true love,' it said pleading to the side of her that wanted to stay at that moment. `It is time for you to decide how the rest of your life is going to turn out so make the choice you feel is best,' her heart told her.

The two were contradicting each other and it was starting to give Fiona a bit of a headache. Fiona knew what she wanted though so she went with her heart. Even if it was for a mere moment of happiness, then Fiona felt she would be willing to risk all that her mind was telling her shouldn't be happening. She gave into the longing that she had been feeling for Van for so long.

Van's mind was also in a complete rush in trying to figure out what was happening. Van had no idea how their arguing could have led to something like this but he didn't care at that moment. He only cared for the Fiona in his arms. The taste of her lips was so addictive that Van became hooked instantly. Her hair fell slightly into his face leaving a tingling sensation wherever it touched.

Van was dashed from his thoughts when he felt a slight tugging upon his shirt. He broke this kiss very reluctant and looked at Fiona to see that she was the one that was tugging at his shirt. Van was a little surprised but quickly gave in when she un-tucked his shirt.

Fiona took the bottom of Van's shirt within her hands and carefully pushed it up to reveal his well-chiseled chest. She pulled the shirt over his head and then threw off to a place that she didn't even look at. Fiona's hands trailed across his chest and stopped at a light pink area where not to long ago the cut that put him in his comatose state was. It wasn't very large so it healed pretty quickly during that time that Van had been in a coma.

Van grasped Fiona's hands as they traveled over his wound and just as quickly brought his mouth down hard upon hers. Van never wanted to give up this one moment that he was having with Fiona to anybody. Tonight Fiona would be his, despite what would happen later on which he would be more than willing to do whatever it took to help Fiona with her current problems. Van wanted Fiona so badly that he knew how this would end up.

Van reached both of his arms out and placed them upon Fiona's shoulders. Very carefully he slid them down her arms, and her waist until her reached her waist and her belt to her usual pink outfit. He wasn't completely sure if she wanted him to go on. When she reached up and kissed him it was all the reassurance that he needed before he quickly removed the belt and discarded it to the floor.

Fiona's top part to her outfit became loose. Fiona pulled away for a second and raised her arms into the air as Van grabbed it and pulled it up revealing more and more of her beautiful skin. With one last tug it came off over her head and Van threw it off to the side. All that was left on Fiona now were her shorts and the bra that she currently had on her.

Van pulled Fiona to him again so that they started to kiss once more. Van wrapped his arms around Fiona and allowed his hands to roam a little. Her skin was silky smooth and quivered under Van's mere touch. Van's hands traveled from her stomach and up a little until they found her firm breasts. The thing about them was that they were not too small, yet not too big either. They were just the perfect size for Van's hands as he cupped them carefully within his hands. The low moan that escaped Fiona's mouth continued to encourage him.

Just the mere feel of Van's hands upon her was enough to make Fiona gasp. She had never once in her life felt things like she was feeling at that moment. Fiona whimpered a little when she felt his hands leave but they just circled around her to straps in the back of her bra. With one small movement the bra loosened and was thrown away. Fiona, being the modest person that she was quickly covered herself up.

"Don't, let me see you," whispered Van in a soft voice that sent shivered down Fiona spine and she became helpless to his will. Her hands dropped with a slight blush adorning her face, which only gave her a more beautiful and majestic look in Van's eyes. `She is more beautiful than even an angel,' thought Van with a smile. His hands now roamed over the uncovered skin of her breasts. Van's fingers brushed across her nipples, which seemed to cause them to harden under his touch. Van's head lowered and took one of her nipples into his mouth. While his mouth dealt with one of her breasts, one of his hands moved to the other one so as to give it just as much attention.

Fiona trembled as a pleasure that she had never felt before surged throughout her body. Fiona whimpered again as Van once again pulled away but when she looked into his eyes she saw a grin unlike anything she had seen on him before. She was curious as to what he was grinning about until he moved down to her shorts. Now she was really blushing as she took them into his hands and pulled them down along with her underwear to show her full glory.

Van went back up so that he was eye level with the madly blushing Fiona. Van kissed Fiona before moving down again laying a trail of kisses down her chest past her waist and stopping just before her womanhood.

Van did something that Fiona never thought that he would do. He went in and started to lick her. What Van had done before was nothing compared to the pleasure that Fiona was feeling at that point. It was something that she didn't want to stop so her hands reached down and her hands brushed through his hair also keeping him from getting up. `So good,' thought Fiona with another gasp. Something continued to build up within Fiona that it made her feel like she was going to explode at any point.

Van continued to kiss, lick, and occasionally nibble on the center of Fiona womanhood. He was very satisfied with the result he was getting by trying to get Fiona to feel a little more comfortable about the situation. It was definitely receiving the type of effect he was currently going for.

It hit Fiona hard and fast as a wave of pure pleasure swept through her body. Her back arched greatly and she practically screamed out in pure pleasure. She was starting to wonder what it would be like for the real thing.

Licking up the last of her delicious juices, Van got up with a smirk at the now panting Fiona as she tried to regain her composure a little after what he had just done to her. `I am guessing that that was her first orgasm, that would mean that she was still a virgin. Then this will be the first time for the both of us,' thought Van liking the thought a lot.

Fiona didn't know what had possessed her but she quickly took the initiative. Grasping Van by the shoulders, she flipped him over so that this time she was on top and her was the one underneath. Tucking a piece of hair behind her ear, Fiona leaned down and kissed Van on the lips. Just like Van had, she let her kisses trail down his body. She stopped when she came to his wound. Van was lucky because it didn't look like it was going to scar. She paid close attention to it as she kissed all around it trying to sooth what little pain might be left in it.

Van bit back his groan of the feel of her soft kisses on his tender flesh but definitely wasn't going to complain about it. It was just too much of a good feeling for him to want to give up. Fiona then stopped and looked up at Van with eyes of raw emotions.

Fiona felt bad that Van was doing so much for her yet she couldn't really do anything for him at the moment. She wanted to repay him for everything that he did for her. Fiona reached down and grabbed his belt and made quick work of it. She could faintly see his arousal at that moment. She undid the button and the zipper of his pants after throwing them off and tossing them to the side, Van was only left in his boxers, which were becoming tight under his arousal. Her hands had a mind of their own at that moment as she made a bold move and reached into his boxers and clutched his manhood receiving from van a groan. She knew she had control over him at that moment. She slid his boxers down his legs and past his feet leaving Van completely nude just like her. Fiona looked down at Van's manhood and saw that it was pretty big. `Oh god,' thought Fiona with a small gasp. Fiona took a deep breath before she moved down to his already hardened member. She first started out with just laying small kisses on the tip of it and occasionally licking the tip as well. Swallowing the lump that was forming within her throat she slowly started to take it into her mouth.

Van had never felt something like this in his life. The warmness of his manhood in her mouth was close to too much for him. His hands reached out and brushed through her hair as she took him completely within her mouth. Van felt Fiona pull back for a moment before she went back down. She repeated this motion many times and Van felt like he could explode at any second. Just before Van was going to release he grabbed Fiona by shoulders and pulled her up. He did not want to end it before it even began. Van flipped Fiona back onto her back as he hovered over her. He looked at Fiona and saw a bit of fear in her eyes.

"Um, Van. I-I never really," said Fiona but she didn't need to finish because Van cut her off with a passionate kiss to her mouth. `Of course I am scared. I have always heard that the first time really hurts,' thought Fiona trembling a little but Van's kiss seemed to calm her down greatly.

`So I was right,' thought Van with a subconscious grin. "Don't worry. Neither have I," Van whispered into her ear. He carefully took Fiona's legs and spread them out a little so he could get positioned inside. Very slowly so as to not hurt Fiona, Van started to slide in until he came upon the source of her virginity. Van knew what he had to do to go on. He leaned over Fiona's ear and quietly whispered, "I'm sorry," before he thrust in fast and quick breaking Fiona's barrier but not before he covered Fiona's mouth with his own to stifle a scream that would more than likely have erupted from Fiona mouth.

Fiona had felt the pain surge throughout her body when Van broke her virgin barrier. She definitely would have scream if Van had not covered her mouth with his lips. Her nails clutched onto him and broke into his skin a little. A tear rolled down her face, which Van wiped away since he didn't like to see Fiona cry. The pain only lasted for a few moments before it seemed to be replaced by unexplainable pleasure. Fiona let a moan escape her mouth as she wrapped her legs around Van and gave him a signal to continue.

Van knew what she meant and pulled out slightly before he plunged back in deeper than before. Her inside stretched out to fit him in completely as Van moved slowly through her slick and tight insides. Van went slow at first but continued to gain more and more speed while trying to drive Fiona mad with pleasure. Van felt Fiona's wall tighten a little around him and he let of a groan of pleasure but he was not going to release until Fiona climaxed at least.

Fiona's arms wrapped tightly around Van as she tried to keep it as close as possible. Except for the pain she felt in the beginning, Fiona was feeling so much pleasure that she didn't want it to stop. Her moans started to become louder and louder as the speed of his thrusts continued to increase.

Van was barely holding on by a thread that was threatening to break at any moment. He continued to thrust as he felt Fiona coming close as well. At one moment every bit of restraint broke within him as he felt her walls clamp tightly around him and Fiona screaming of his name as she climaxed. Just the sound of his name in her mouth and the clamping of his walls drove him over the edge and he dug himself deep inside and released his load. Van collapsed breathing heavily and rolled off to the side so as to not crush Fiona under his weight.

Fiona was in a very similar state as she laid her head down upon Van's chest. She felt complete as she closed her eyes with content. She felt Van's arms wrap around her waist as she snuggled up to his warm body.

Van had fallen asleep very contented but Fiona's eyes seemed to shoot open as if a bunch of bricks had been dropped upon her stomach. `W-what have I done? How could I have done this to Van?' Fiona thought as realization caught up to her. Her mind was in control once again. `Can I actually leave after all that Van and me have gone through now? I-I don't know what to do,' thought a very scared Fiona. She closed her eyes hoping that a little sleep would help her decide.

*****

It was now really late at night and Fiona found herself still awake even though she tried to get a little sleep. She had the dream again while she was sleeping and her fears once again took hold of her. `No, this wasn't supposed to happen; I shouldn't have let it get that far. This will only make things even harder for us. Why did I have to let my emotions get the better of me?' Fiona asked herself. `I really don't want Van to get hurt but now I don't know what to do after what just happened,' her thought continued.

Fiona got out of the bed and got dressed. `Van may think that losing me would be a fate worse than death, but I would lose my whole world if Van got killed,' thought Fiona as she looked over his calm features as he slept very peacefully.

`I can't let this stop me from leaving. I am doing this for Van,' thought Fiona trying to reassure herself. She quickly wrote down a note for Van when he woke up. "Please forgive me for what I am about to do Van," whispered Fiona in the quietest voice that she could possibly use. She then walked out the door without looking back so that she wouldn't end up deciding to not leave and continue to put Van in danger.

*****

Thomas who was up late working on his dibison was a little confused when Fiona walked into the hanger. `I wonder what she is doing up so late at night. I am not one to be talking but I had a reason to be up by working on the dibison,' thought Thomas as he watched Fiona walking towards the doors. He hopped down from the dibison and called out to Fiona. "What are you doing up this late miss Fiona?" asked Thomas.

Fiona was taken by surprise that he was there and jumped when he called out to her but she tried to remain as calm as possible but it didn't help that she was scared that Van might wake up and would stop her before she could have a chance to get away. "I…I couldn't sleep. Nothing really big," said Fiona as calmly as she could. It wasn't really a lie because she couldn't due to all that had just gone on.

"Would you like me to walk you back to your room? I was just about to head off to bed," said Thomas trying to be as nice as possible. He noticed Fiona fidget a little and got curious as to what she was so frightened a little at that mere comment.

"No thank you," said Fiona quietly as her eyes skimmed the place expecting Van to suddenly pop out of nowhere and stop her from leaving, "I just want to be alone right now. I will be just fine though," said Fiona trying to give off a confident appearance but she felt that Thomas would catch on because he was supposed to be smart.

"If you wish," said Thomas as he walked out of the hanger towards his room. Leaving a slightly shocked Fiona because she was pretty sure her nervous composure would give her away.

`So much for smart,' thought Fiona laughing a little despite the situation she was currently having. When she was sure that he was gone she quickly tried to get away before anyone else could find her. She made a quick dash for the doors to the base but stopped very abruptly when a certain silver organoid lying on the ground just in front of her.

Unfortunately Zeke woke up upon hearing her and he came to her side. He sensed that something was wrong with Fiona and tried to comfort her in ways only an organoid could. He sensed something but refrained from mentioning it to Fiona.

Fiona gave off a small smile and patted him on his silver nose. "Please Zeke. Stay here with Van, will you? Protect him to the best of your ability because I am not going to be here to do this," said Fiona as she pulled away from his nose. Zeke seemed a little confused. "I am leaving but I want you to stay here with Van, and please don't tell him which way I went," said Fiona quietly as she took a step away from Zeke.

Zeke didn't want to but he followed orders and watched as Fiona walked out of the base and away from the lives of all of the friends that she had made over the years, out of the life of the man she loved and had given herself to completely. She never looked back as she moved further away from the place not knowing where she was going to go or how she was going to get there by walking but she felt she had to at least try and she hoped that Van would eventually forgive her.

`I love you with all my heart Van but even with what happened between the two of us I have to do this or else it will make it harder by postponing the inevitable,' thought Fiona sadly as the last traces of the base disappeared from her view and she walked into the dark unknown.

*****

When the morning came Van found himself alone. "Was it all just a dream," Van asked himself. `If it was then it was the best dream of my life,' thought Van with a small smile. He looked around and saw that he was still in Fiona's room. "No it wasn't a dream. It actually happened but where is Fiona?" asked Van as his eyes skimmed the room yet he found no sign of her there except for all of her things.

He got out of the bed and got dressed. He was about to walk out of the room when he noticed the note that Fiona had written for him that night. It was taped right to the door so it was very hard for him not to notice it.

He pulled the note off the door and read it carefully. The more that he read it, the more he seemed to grow in despair, anger, sadness, and depression. When he was finished reading it he clenched the note in his hand and ran out of the room. He knew that he had to find Fiona soon or else she would be gone from his life.

He ran as fast as he could until he saw the first person he could ask about it, which happened to be Moonbay. Van knew that If anyone knew where Fiona was it would have been Moonbay because the two were best friends. "Moonbay," yelled Van at the top of his lungs because she was turning down a further corridor from him. He noticed her stop and he caught up quickly.

"Van it is good to see that you are better," said Moonbay with a small smile. Moonbay then saw the disturbed look upon Van's face and it worried her a little. "Is something wrong Van? You look a little troubled," said Moonbay as she looked into his face to try and get an explanation for it.

"Whatever. Listen have you seen Fiona Moonbay?" asked Van with urgency in his voice. He was in no mood to just stand around at that moment so he just got straight down to the point.

"No I haven't. In fact, I was looking for her to ask her something. I haven't seen her at all today which is unusual since she is usually one of the first people up. Why do you want to know where she is?" asked Moonbay suddenly figuring out that Fiona's disappearance must have been the problem.

"I found this note from Fiona. It says that she is leaving," said Van showing Moonbay the crunched up note. His hand was shaking slightly but he did his best to try and keep as calm as possible but he felt like he was just going to end up collapsing out of fear that Fiona had actually left.

"Let me see that," said Moonbay quickly taking the note out of shock and disbelief that Fiona would actually do something like that. She grabbed the note and then read over it very quickly but what she was seeing was not something that was very assuring to her.

`Please Van I have to do this. I know how you said it is like a fate worse than death but it would be far worse for me than that if you were get killed. I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me but like I said I have to do this. Please don't follow after me. I am begging you not to,' that is what the note said.

"Fiona left? How can that be possible. She never even spoke of leaving at all. She almost always seemed to want to stick to with you at all times. This showed when you were unconscious and she wouldn't leave you side for most of it. I can't believe that she would just leave," said Moonbay in an unbelieving voice.

"That is the way it looks. I can't believe she would just do that when..." said Van but he quickly shut up before he gave away more information than he would have been comfortable with. He noticed Moonbay raise an eyebrow but he blushed and turned away very quickly. "I found her last night attempting to leave and I tried to stop her. I thought I might have managed to convince her to stay but I guess that I wasn't able to," said Van.

"Are you going to go after her?" asked Moonbay as she looked at Van wanting to know what he was going to do and how it was going to affect the rest of them. She hoped that he would go after but she also wondered if it would be right for them to do that since she seemed pretty adamant about them not following her.

Van thought about it for a minute and then said, "No. If she is going to come I want her to come back on her own. It wouldn't feel right for me to force her back here," said Van as his sight was cast downwards. `Even if I do love her a lot,' thought Van with a depressed sigh.

Moonbay watched him sadly. `I guess he does realize his own feeling for her but now she goes and does something stupid like this. It must be really hurting him right now. I feel so bad for him,' thought Fiona as she looked at her friend sadly. "Please don't get so down Van. Maybe she will come back," said Moonbay in a comforting tone.

"I really hope she does because I didn't even…" said Van but he forced back the tears that were threatening to fall. `Strange for a man like me to be crying,' thought Van as he tried to toughen up a little but it wasn't doing too good. `Please come back soon Fiona,' thought Van looking very depressed.

*****

Fiona found herself alone and scared. She really didn't know what she was going to do now. "I have to learn to do things on my own from now on or else all that has happened will be for nothing," said Fiona as she hung her head. Fiona looked around, and she found herself in a nice village. There were people all around going on with their business with smiles on their faces. "I can do this," said Fiona as she walked deeper into the town.