Fan Fiction ❯ Everlasting Sacrifice ❯ Cure that which was never ill ( Chapter 13 )

Disclaimer: I wish I owned Snape…*tears up and cries* I wish I did! But I don't…so deal.

A/N: I HAVE A BIGGER FOLLOWING! I can't believe it…More people like this story. I thought it might though…people's curiosity getting the better of them when they see the length of the story…and such. I hope this chapter is as good as the previous one… and the one before that…etc. Anyways, enjoy!

Cure that which was never Ill

Crystal

Ohh, ohh

So much for my happy ending

Ohh, ohh

So much for my happy ending

Second competition and Remus was with me again, I had expected him to be though. Fred and George were with us as well. They didn't exactly tell Remus that they knew, about who I was supposed to be and such but Remus seemed to figure that out after the first 10 minutes of sitting with them and threatened to bite them if they ever told anyone. Of course, he had also heard about what happened after the Yule ball, how he found out though, was beyond me.

"So Harry has to rescue Ron…" George explained, "And Hermione has to be rescued by someone too…I couldn't figure out who it was!"

"And I think Cho is being rescued by Cedric," Fred said, "And Fleur is rescuing her sister I think, if we overheard it correctly."

"Something's not right about this," I said solemnly, "I mean, it's very dangerous. Its one thing to endanger the champions, but it's another thing to endanger the lives of others!"

"But it makes it so entertaining," Fred said and I glared at him, "Sorry, forgot…"

"Way to go Fred…" George said jokingly.

"Can you three keep it down? Harry's just arrived, so now they can start!" Remus said and I rolled my eyes. I didn't know how Harry was going to be rescuing Ron, but I knew he would find a way. I had seen him studying many a night to try to figure out the water. But…something still didn't seem right.

"Yeah sure," George said, "Ex-professor…" I couldn't figure out why George was teasing but I wasn't about to get involved on either side.

"I may not be a teacher anymore but that only means I can attack you without fear of loosing my job," Remus said and grinned wolfishly.

"…" I smiled slightly and continued to watch the competition more than the antics of Remus, Fred and George.

"How long have they been under?" George asked.

"Not too long," Remus replied. I sighed and looked around the stadium of spectators. I saw Severus in a booth near the stairs; he was sitting amidst some of the teachers from school and a few Slytherins as well. I couldn't help but think of the Yule ball and so I smiled inwardly and felt his gaze seem to find mine. I looked away as quickly as he could before he thought I was giving him any `funny' looks.

Let's talk this over

It's not like we're dead

"Okay, so it's been a half hour…what's the time limit again?" I asked.

"One hour…" Fred and Remus said at the same time. I had been asking questions like that for the past half hour it seemed and Remus, George and Fred seemed to want to shut me up. I smiled again; it was fun to annoy them a little.

"Oy, its Snape!" George said, "I didn't notice he was there until now…"

"Are you going to ask him to dance?" Fred asked, giving me a nudge.

"Don't go there," I said softly clenching my teeth, "You better not go there…"

"You have to admit, the way it happened was pretty romantic…" George said.

"If not for the fact Snape threw up!" Fred replied.

Was it something I did?

Was it something you said?

"Just stop it!" I said, "I mean, sure I told you all the details, but could you please now let it drop?"

"Fine…fine…" George said reluctantly, "Hey, I think that's Cedric coming up!" I looked to see Diggory coming up out of the water carrying a wet female, who I assumed was Cho Chang.

"How long has it been?" I asked.

"One hour, one minute and he's the first to come up," Remus said, "I hope Harry is alright." I sensed something again, something I had felt before the champions had arrived. I wasn't too sure of what it was, but the word Danger seemed to flash through my mind again and again.

"That's a good thing…right?" I asked and Remus nodded, "I mean, at least to know Diggory is okay…"

"Harry's probably fine, as are the other champions…" Remus said.

"I sure hope so!" I said and smiled. Remus smiled back.

"Crystal, hey…" Fred said.

"Snape keeps looking over here…" George said, "I think he may know who he danced with!" I turned bright red and looked over towards Severus. He was focusing on what was going on in the lake; he wasn't looking over at me!

"Just shut up!" I said and looked down onto the grass near the lake.

"Oh look, she's blushing!" Fred said. Remus leaned close to whisper in my ear.

"They are in a way, acting like James and Sirius did, teasing you because you were in love…" Remus said and grinned when I glared at him. I seemed to glare a lot, mostly because I was at a loss for a retort.

Don't leave me hangin'

In a city so dead

"Hey look, it's Krum!" Remus said, "And he has Hermione!" Fred and George laughed a bit at that, and I giggled slightly. Hermione must be very embarrassed right about now…or she would if she knew what was going on. She looked okay right now.

"There's Harry!" Fred said, "And he's got more than one person with him!"

"That looks like a little girl; it must be Fleur's sister!" George said, "I think Fleur is over there…how come she didn't finish?"

Held up so high

On such unbreakable thread

"Maybe something happened…do you wanna go down and congratulate Harry? He's now tied for first," Remus said, "I mean…well…"

"Sure!" I said, "Fred and George, do you guys wanna come?"

"Nah, we're heading back to the common room, we have business to take care of," Fred said.

"Nothing big, we just have to take care of it," George said, "We'll see you later." The two of them filed out with the rest of the people from the stands. I headed down and Remus said he'd see me later. I was heading towards Harry when I sensed something again and I couldn't figure out for the life of me what it was.

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

"Hey Crystal!" Harry said, greeting me with a smile.

"You look a bit shaken up there Harry," I said, returning his smile with a grin.

"The water was cold," he replied.

"So long as that was the only problem…" I said with a cocked eyebrow and Ron looked at me and let out a relieved laugh.

"Yeah, I was pretty sure Harry was being thick…I'm glad the judges saw it otherwise," Ron said.

"I was worried about not making it to the surface in time…" Harry said, "But I did it."

Severus

I made my way towards the water, feeling something call out to me. I couldn't help it, I felt so drawn to it.

You were everything, everything

That I wanted

I didn't know why I was going. I mean, there were people around still, and yet the call was strong enough that it overrode my natural instincts. I had been feeling a little lost since the Yule ball for some reason and this call seems like…

We were meant to be, supposed to be

But we lost it

I looked into the water. It was crystal clear and blue and shimmered in the light of day. Cat had loved the water, she always wanted to go swimming in it or throw someone into it.

All of the memories so close to me

Just fade away

All the time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

I leaned forward a little bit, thinking I could see something amidst the waves.

Bring Me to Life Reprise

Crystal

Save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life

I looked around to see Severus staring at the waves that gently splashed about the shore. His eyes looked different though, searching, blank. I couldn't figure out what he was doing.

"Professor?" I asked, moving away from the group towards Severus. Everyone else was ignoring me, probably because they were still so happy for Harry and such. Severus leaned over the water further.

I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside

Bring me to life

Frozen inside without your touch

Without your love darling

Only you are the life among the dead!

"Cat…" he murmured and fell face first into the freezing water.

"Severus!" I cried and ran towards the edge. I saw him sinking, sinking down into the depths, doing nothing to try to stop himself, nothing to try to come back to the surface. Little air bubbles came to the surface and I panicked.

"What's the problem?" Harry shouted over as I began to remove my cloak and any heavy clothing items on me. I couldn't let this happen. I couldn't let him die. This must be the bad feeling I had; there was something in the water! I wasn't myself anymore, I felt like someone else!

"What are you doing?" Remus shouted from the stands, "Crystal!"

"Severus…" I murmured and dove into the water.

All this time I can't believe I couldn't see

Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me

The water didn't seem so cold to me, in fact it felt warm and swimming into it felt like the most natural thing in my life. I swam hard and eventually caught a glimpse of Severus. He didn't have any air bubbles coming out of his mouth anymore! No, he couldn't be dead, he just couldn't! I reached him and wrapped my arm around his waist. I had to get him out of the water.

I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems

Got to open my eyes to everything

I felt weighed down with him but I wouldn't let him fall. I swam as hard as I could, the water seemed to want to keep me in its elegant depths but I wouldn't let it. I had to save Severus, I had to save Severus. I saw Merfolk in the distance and they seemed to be laughing at me, but I ignore them. The only thing that ran through my head was I have to save Severus.

Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul

I can't let him die, not here, not here.

Don't let me die here

There must be something more

BRING ME TO LIFE

I broke out of the water holding a limp body in the crock of my arm as best as I could. People on the shore, the few people that had remained, the trio and Remus were the only ones left. I dragged Severus out of the water, Severus's body being helped out by Remus.

"He…he…fell into the water…" I said as I pulled myself out, "And I don't think… he… knew…"

"He's not breathing!" Remus said. Wait, I knew how to do this, I knew CPR…I think… was this my other self acting now?

Wake me up

Wake me up inside

I can't wake up

Wake me up inside

SAVE ME!

I breathed into his mouth, forcing his lung to rise and fall and eventually I head coughing and Severus turned to his side and he began to hack and cough until he spat up water. I should've felt ashamed…it was almost like an indirect kiss of sorts…or something like that… but…

Call my name and save me from the dark

Wake me up

Bid my blood to run

I can't wake up

Before I come undone

Save me

Save me from the nothing I've become

"What just happened?" Ron asked and Hermione motioned for him to hush. Severus turned towards me, looking at me, Remus and then the trio.

"What…?" he asked, "What are you looking at?" This he was directing at the trio, who took it as a cue to leave. At least, I think Remus was looking at them the same way and they left out of respect to Remus.

Bring me to life

I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside

Bring me to life…

End Reprise

"You had fallen into the water Severus, and Crystal rescued you," Remus explained simply and Severus glared at me.

"You did?" he asked.

"You were staring into the water so intently…and you looked like you were lost or something…" I said, "And then you fell into the water, a blank look on your…face…" He sat up and placed a hand upon his forehead.

"It must've been Dark Poison…I'll have Dumbledore do a search of the lake…" Remus said, "I better see to it now…"

"Dark poison?" I asked.

"It's a little bit complicated. It has too many properties to talk about in a simple manner," he said and headed off towards Hogwarts.

"Are you okay Professor?" I asked, turning my attention back towards Snape.

So much for my happy ending

Ohh, ohh

So much for my happy ending

Ohh, ohh

"What did I say?" he asked, "Did I say anything before I fell into the water?"

"You murmured the name `Cat'," I said softly, "And then you fell, why?"

"Damn," he muttered, "Go away Miss Riyusaki."

"Fine way to treat someone who saved your life!" I exclaimed, and was grateful that I felt like myself again.

"It won't help you in class…" he said, "So why'd you do it?"

"There was something…something in your eyes…" I began, "It spoke of deep suffering…I could see it… I've felt that way sometimes…"

"How could you know?" he asked angrily and stood up slowly, "How could you know of deep suffering? You're just a child, you know nothing of suffering?" I felt hot and wet tears flood to my eyes but I refused to cry.

You've got your dumb friends

I know what they say

They tell you I'm difficult

But so are they

"I do know what it's like!" I defended, "I don't know what I suffered, I hardly remember…anything!"

"Poor memory does not suit a witch," he said with bitterness, and then murmured, "Cat had brilliant memory…cursed to never forget…"

"What was she to you? This Cat person, what was she to you?" I asked. I was afraid for a moment, afraid he might realize that I could possible be his wife, minus the memories I had lost.

"None of your business and if you mention this to anyone I shall make sure you regret it," he said and brushed past me, "You don't know what suffering is until someone dies in your arms…"

But they don't know me

Do they even know you?

All the things you hide from me

All the shit that you do

He walked past me without a second thought, brushing me off as if I were nothing. I did know suffering… I did know pain. As soon as I saw him a safe distance away I knew something I wanted to say, but I couldn't say it to him.

"How about being the one that died in the arms of someone they loved?" I asked and let the tears I choked back fall like rain, "How about being the one that broke a promise…?" Why…why me…why was I the only one without my memory? I felt like a lost angel, a broken soul.

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

Severus

I was rescued by a girl, by Crystal Umi Riyusaki. I felt weak right now, if that was dark poison, which it most likely was, Remus, as much as I hated to admit it was never wrong on those things, it had drained me, tearing at my core. I felt like an emotional wreck.

You were everything, everything

That I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be

But we lost it

All of the memories so close to me

Just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

I collapsed on my bed drained and tired. I didn't feel like I could do anything. I thought though… for a moment I saw my wife in Miss Riyusaki, but it only fluttered there for a moment in her eyes when she told me she did know what suffering was and then it was gone in the blink of an eye. She had saved me for no apparent reason at all, just she seemed like she felt she had to. Death would have been a release for me…

It's nice to know that you were there

Thanks for acting like you care

I could've sworn I heard my wife talking to me as I sunk. `Don't die on me love; don't die on me, please…' I must be going crazy, it was almost like that night at the Yule ball, when I though I had danced with my Cat… Merlin knows I really did miss her…

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were done

Crystal

I headed straight to bed, I felt embarrassed and ashamed for crying and I didn't want anyone to see me, I felt so weak right now. I didn't know what to do. I lay down on my bed and wept. I gave up, why was I trying, I didn't want to do what I was doing, but a part of me was controlling the whole and causing trouble…or saving lives… or doing something!

He was everything, everything

That I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be

But we lost it

All of the memories so close to me

Just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Were we even meant to be together ever again? I couldn't bear it if we weren't. I didn't know why but I felt empty now being away from him… what the hell was wrong with me?

You were everything, everything

That I wanted

I sobbed harder, I couldn't figure out what was going on. The part of me taking control refused to show itself. It refused to come into the light and feed me the memories it might be hiding from me! I didn't like this; I didn't want to be away from him. It was hurting me, killing me even!

We were meant to be, supposed to be

But we lost it

I wanted to remember… I wanted to realize what was going on…was anyone there…

"Someone please help me," I murmured, "Please someone help me!"

"Crystal, are you okay?" a soft voice asked and I felt someone sit down next to where I lay on the bed.

"Hermione…is that you?" I asked, trying to sit up a little bit and brush my tears away.

"Are you okay?" she asked, "Do I need to get Professor McGonagall?"

"No…" I said and then flung myself into her embrace and she held me.

"Crystal, what's so bad? You can talk to me if you have something going on… you know that, right?" she asked, "I mean…we may not have talked in the past… but these past few months you seem like you need a really good girlfriend…. What's the matter?" I sobbed into her shoulder and she held me gently.

"Do you know what its like to not remember… to be in love but not remember it?" I asked after a long pause.

"No, I can't say I do…" she said, "Is that what's wrong…you're in love…but you don't remember it?"

"Uh-hu," I said and nodded.

"That's an odd situation…I don't know… but if it helps, just cry okay? Just cry and let it all out…" she said, "A good cry can do good sometimes…as long as it's followed by a good sleep…"

"And you would know?" I asked with a tearful laugh.

"It's what I've read," she said in a huff, "Now just calm down…" She held me while my crying and sobbing gently subsided and then she pushed me back onto the bed and spread a few blankets over me. I felt warm.

"Thanks," I said, "I really…needed that…" I fell asleep; maybe it would be good for me…

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Hermione

I didn't understand her problem but I could tell it was something big to her. I felt almost motherly as I had held her and she calmed down after a while. I wondered what had happened to her, I wondered what was happening to her that made her like this.

"Sleep well Crystal," I said and then got ready to slip under my own covers. Crystal was an odd person, a really odd girl. I couldn't help but feel sorry for her. There seemed to be a lot going on in her life she didn't think she could deal with. She'd need a friend, and I guess I fell into that category. I already had dealt with weird things in the past, so why not help her out now. If it was just a problem with love…it'd be easy enough to conquer. But if it was something else then I guess it would take a bit more work. I was used to that though…and I'd be willing to help. I hated to see people like Crystal suffer over something. I don't know why but I didn't like that.

Ohh ohh ohh ohh

So much for my happy ending

Ohh ohh ohh ohh

Crystal

My sleep was comfortable, no restless dreams, no blood curse…I felt at piece. Hermione had helped me and I was really grateful. But still, as I slept, I kept thinking why me…why me, why am I the one to suffer like this? Why am I the one to have pieces missing…? Why can't I be with the one I love?

So much for my happy ending

Ohh ohh ohh ohhhhh

TBC

A/N: Well, what did you think? Like it? Hate it? Isn't it getting better? I absolutely love doing this story! Please review and let me know what you think!

This chapter goes out to a friend of mine who's not exactly doing to well. Please recover (even though it'll take time). Get well soon! (Physically and Emotionally)

Note I did not mention a name!

(Don't ask who it is please, it is not for me to say)

As always, any flames will be used to roast marshmallows and make S'mores for those people who like my stories.