Fan Fiction ❯ I'll Be ❯ Chpater 11 ( Chapter 11 )
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By: DamDariram18 
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 08.07.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.9K | Visits: 201 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 08.07.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.9K | Visits: 201 | Status: Completed
Disclaimer: If I owned Teen Titans, there would have been a fluffy scene between Robin and Starfire at the end of “Revolutions”
I’ll Be
Chapter 11
Raven’s POV
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I find myself finding it hard to sleep. I try my best to not toss and turn so I don’t injure Beast Boy more. I can’t stop thinking about the events that happened earlier. How he saved my life. How he’s lying here, dying because of me. I finally feel like I have the ability to finally sleep peacefully, when something happens that makes me forget all about sleep. Beast Boy’s heart monitor goes flat.
I bolt out of the bed. I’m about to use my powers on him, when Dr. Haevert with two other nurses coming bursting in. They rush right next to me, pushing me aside.
“Miss you’re going to have to leave right now.” Dr. Haevert says, his face drained of color.
I nod mutely, slightly angry that he wouldn’t let me heal him. But I’m mostly terrified that Beast Boy isn’t going to make it. The last thing I see before I leave the room is the doctor pumping Beast Boy’s stomach to get his heart beating again. I enter the waiting room, my knees buckling. I hit the ground, and start sobbing hysterically.
“Raven what’s wrong?” Cyborg asks urgently, coming to my aid.
“B-Beast Boy’s flat-lining. The doctor is trying to save him.”
“What does that mean?” I hear Starfire ask in confusion.
“It means BB’s heart has stopped.” Cyborg says in a cracking tone.
I hear Star gasp. I continue sobbing. Please don’t leave me, BB I think to myself. Please pull through. For me. My heart is pounding against my chest like a drum. I vaguely hear Robin enter the waiting room.
“What happened?” I hear him ask.
I want to glare at him for taking him so long to come here, but find I’m in too much pain to do so. I hear Cyborg answer “BB’s heart stopped. The doctors are trying to save him.”
Suddenly the door opens. I stand up quickly, praying with all my heart that he pulled through. Please say he pulled through, please I think to myself in desperation. The doctor walks out. I can’t tell by the look on his face. He takes a deep breath.
“The good news is, Garfield Logan pulled through. The bad news is, he’s still comatose, and I still can only allow one of you to see him.”
I see great amounts of relief wash over Robin and Cyborg’s faces. Starfire continues to cry, perhaps in happiness. Starfire attempts to follow the doctor, but I glare at her making her back up. Instead, I go back to Beast Boy’s room. I sigh in relief as I hear his heart monitor beeping again. I lay back beside him and hold him close to me. “You scared me, you know. But thank you for not leaving me” I whisper into his ear as I fall instantly back to sleep.
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Beast Boy’s POV
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I open my eyes taking in the sight before me. It’s completely dark. I can hear machines beeping around me. I figure out I’m in the hospital. I feel a figure lying beside me, her head on my chest. My heart leaps when I realize it’s my Raven. I feel so happy that she hadn’t abandoned me. My body still hurts from the books landing on top of me, and all the pain I encountered when Slade had me captured. But I choose not to think about it. Instead, I wrap an arm around Raven, enjoying having her beside me.
Suddenly she starts thrashing around in her sleep, her hands swiping at an invisible figure. “No, Robin Don’t!” she screams. “Leave my Beast Boy alone!”
I am unsure of what I should do. Careful not to wake her, I start stroking her hair, whispering comforting words. She calms down, not waking up. I kiss her lightly on the forehead. “I’m right here, Rae, and I’m not leaving.” I whisper. I fall back to sleep. I smile as Raven enters back into my dreams.
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Raven’s POV
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It was the middle of the night. I had just came back from the bathroom and was about to
go back into Beast Boy’s room. I didn’t think anything of it that his door was closed. That is until I noticed the door was locked. Fearing Beast Boy might be in trouble, I blow away the door. I almost gasped in horror.
Robin was standing beside Beast Boy’s bedside, a switchblade in his hand. “No, Robin. Don’t!” I cried. “Leave my Beast Boy alone.”
I tried to use my powers, but nothing happened. I watched in horror as Robin cut off Beast Boy’s life support. “Nooo!” I cried out.
Robin ran out the door, and for some reason, I didn’t stop him. I ran over to Beast Boy. His face was losing it’s color all over again. He was gasping for breath, the heart monitor going crazy. I slipped beside him, wrapping my arms around him tight. “It’s okay, Rae. I’m right here. It’s okay.” He said, stroking my hair. Though he was dying again, his words were somehow comforting,, my fears calming down. That was until the heart monitor went flat again.
I wake up in a cold sweat, my heart pounding. Was it just a dream? I ask myself. I find myself still lying next to Beast Boy, my head still on his chest. I remember how his heart stopped last night, and Dr. Haevert was able to save him. I freak out slightly, wondering if he really did survive. I sigh in relief when I hear his steady heartbeat. I sit up and stretch, realizing it’s morning. “Good morning, Beast Boy.” I say, leaning over and kissing his lips, not really expecting much of a reaction. To my utmost surprise, I feel him kissing me back. After a moment, we break apart.
“Good morning, Rae.” Beast Boy says sleepily, his green eyes shining.
“You’re awake!” I say happily. “How are you feeling?”
“Still hurts, but I can’t complain. Just as long as you’re here, I’m fine. What were you dreaming about last night?”
I flush. I must’ve woken him up. On the other hand, that is a good thing. I decide to tell him my dream, leaving Robin out of it. “That you left me, you died and left me alone.” I say, tears rolling down my face.
“What does that have to do with Robin?”
I frown, realizing my first plan didn’t work. I decide to change the subject. “You heard me last night, didn’t you?” I ask.
He smiles at me, nuzzling my neck. “I did.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Nah. It was nice to hear your voice when I woke up.”
I blush. I remember last night. “I was so scared that I had lost you forever.” I whisper. “Your heart stopped beating last night. I was so scared, so scared.”
He grins at me. “I thought you didn’t do fear (Eps. Fear Itself).”
I glare at him. “Death is not something to joke about.”
He wraps his arms tightly around me. “I know. I’m sorry. I told you, you’ll never lose me.”
“I love you,” I whisper, kissing him.
“I love you, too.” he says.
“I’m going to tell the others that you’re okay, and maybe then they can come in since you’re awake.” I say, about to get off the bed, when Beast Boy’s voice stops me.
“No!”
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Beast Boy’s POV
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“No!” I suddenly shout. I can feel her eyes on me. I look away, in effort to hide the tears.
“Why not?” she asks. “They have to know that you’re alive.”
“You can tell them I’m alive.” I say quietly. “I’m just not ready to see them yet, Rae. The pain is still so unbearable. I know they don’t really care.”
I can still feel the hatred they have for me. The disgust they show me whenever I’m around. I can still feel the emotional pain. I don’t want to see their pity. I don’t want to see their hatred.
“Believe me, Beast Boy. They care. Starfire was practically sobbing when your heart stopped. Even Robin came by, took him a while, but he did. Cyborg was extremely upset. How can they show how much they care if you won’ t let them?”
My mind is swirling. Did Starfire actually cry for me? But why would Raven make something like that up? Do they really care? I still feel like I can’t trust them. Not yet. “I need time, Rae.” I say, my hand running through her hair.
She nods and snuggles next to me. I close my eyes, trying to think of something other than the physical and emotional pain that still flows through me.
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Raven’s POV
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About an hour later, I walk into the waiting room. I can see the anxiety of the others’ faces. “How is he?’ Robin asks, tightening his hold on Starfire.
I hesitate. “He’s awake.”
After saying those words, I find myself in a tight embrace with Starfire. “Oh glorious! I shall go right in now and tell him how sorry I am!” She’s about to leave the room, when I grab her arm.
“He’s not ready to see any of you yet.”
Star looks back at me. “Why not? We’re his friends, he needs to know we care!”
“He’s still in a lot of emotional pain. The way you guys have been treating him has caused more damage to him than you can possibly imagine.”
“We understand. We realize what we’ve done to him.” Cyborg says, taking a step towards me.
“No. You don’t.” I whisper. “You don’t understand at all.”
I feel like I need to show them what they had done to Beast Boy. I feel in order to help Beast Boy, I need for the others to truly understand. They need to understand the anguish, the hurt, the lonliness. I close my eyes. I decide to use my powers to send Robin, Starfire, and Cyborg back to a couple of days ago...
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I’ll Be
Chapter 11
Raven’s POV
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I find myself finding it hard to sleep. I try my best to not toss and turn so I don’t injure Beast Boy more. I can’t stop thinking about the events that happened earlier. How he saved my life. How he’s lying here, dying because of me. I finally feel like I have the ability to finally sleep peacefully, when something happens that makes me forget all about sleep. Beast Boy’s heart monitor goes flat.
I bolt out of the bed. I’m about to use my powers on him, when Dr. Haevert with two other nurses coming bursting in. They rush right next to me, pushing me aside.
“Miss you’re going to have to leave right now.” Dr. Haevert says, his face drained of color.
I nod mutely, slightly angry that he wouldn’t let me heal him. But I’m mostly terrified that Beast Boy isn’t going to make it. The last thing I see before I leave the room is the doctor pumping Beast Boy’s stomach to get his heart beating again. I enter the waiting room, my knees buckling. I hit the ground, and start sobbing hysterically.
“Raven what’s wrong?” Cyborg asks urgently, coming to my aid.
“B-Beast Boy’s flat-lining. The doctor is trying to save him.”
“What does that mean?” I hear Starfire ask in confusion.
“It means BB’s heart has stopped.” Cyborg says in a cracking tone.
I hear Star gasp. I continue sobbing. Please don’t leave me, BB I think to myself. Please pull through. For me. My heart is pounding against my chest like a drum. I vaguely hear Robin enter the waiting room.
“What happened?” I hear him ask.
I want to glare at him for taking him so long to come here, but find I’m in too much pain to do so. I hear Cyborg answer “BB’s heart stopped. The doctors are trying to save him.”
Suddenly the door opens. I stand up quickly, praying with all my heart that he pulled through. Please say he pulled through, please I think to myself in desperation. The doctor walks out. I can’t tell by the look on his face. He takes a deep breath.
“The good news is, Garfield Logan pulled through. The bad news is, he’s still comatose, and I still can only allow one of you to see him.”
I see great amounts of relief wash over Robin and Cyborg’s faces. Starfire continues to cry, perhaps in happiness. Starfire attempts to follow the doctor, but I glare at her making her back up. Instead, I go back to Beast Boy’s room. I sigh in relief as I hear his heart monitor beeping again. I lay back beside him and hold him close to me. “You scared me, you know. But thank you for not leaving me” I whisper into his ear as I fall instantly back to sleep.
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Beast Boy’s POV
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I open my eyes taking in the sight before me. It’s completely dark. I can hear machines beeping around me. I figure out I’m in the hospital. I feel a figure lying beside me, her head on my chest. My heart leaps when I realize it’s my Raven. I feel so happy that she hadn’t abandoned me. My body still hurts from the books landing on top of me, and all the pain I encountered when Slade had me captured. But I choose not to think about it. Instead, I wrap an arm around Raven, enjoying having her beside me.
Suddenly she starts thrashing around in her sleep, her hands swiping at an invisible figure. “No, Robin Don’t!” she screams. “Leave my Beast Boy alone!”
I am unsure of what I should do. Careful not to wake her, I start stroking her hair, whispering comforting words. She calms down, not waking up. I kiss her lightly on the forehead. “I’m right here, Rae, and I’m not leaving.” I whisper. I fall back to sleep. I smile as Raven enters back into my dreams.
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Raven’s POV
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It was the middle of the night. I had just came back from the bathroom and was about to
go back into Beast Boy’s room. I didn’t think anything of it that his door was closed. That is until I noticed the door was locked. Fearing Beast Boy might be in trouble, I blow away the door. I almost gasped in horror.
Robin was standing beside Beast Boy’s bedside, a switchblade in his hand. “No, Robin. Don’t!” I cried. “Leave my Beast Boy alone.”
I tried to use my powers, but nothing happened. I watched in horror as Robin cut off Beast Boy’s life support. “Nooo!” I cried out.
Robin ran out the door, and for some reason, I didn’t stop him. I ran over to Beast Boy. His face was losing it’s color all over again. He was gasping for breath, the heart monitor going crazy. I slipped beside him, wrapping my arms around him tight. “It’s okay, Rae. I’m right here. It’s okay.” He said, stroking my hair. Though he was dying again, his words were somehow comforting,, my fears calming down. That was until the heart monitor went flat again.
I wake up in a cold sweat, my heart pounding. Was it just a dream? I ask myself. I find myself still lying next to Beast Boy, my head still on his chest. I remember how his heart stopped last night, and Dr. Haevert was able to save him. I freak out slightly, wondering if he really did survive. I sigh in relief when I hear his steady heartbeat. I sit up and stretch, realizing it’s morning. “Good morning, Beast Boy.” I say, leaning over and kissing his lips, not really expecting much of a reaction. To my utmost surprise, I feel him kissing me back. After a moment, we break apart.
“Good morning, Rae.” Beast Boy says sleepily, his green eyes shining.
“You’re awake!” I say happily. “How are you feeling?”
“Still hurts, but I can’t complain. Just as long as you’re here, I’m fine. What were you dreaming about last night?”
I flush. I must’ve woken him up. On the other hand, that is a good thing. I decide to tell him my dream, leaving Robin out of it. “That you left me, you died and left me alone.” I say, tears rolling down my face.
“What does that have to do with Robin?”
I frown, realizing my first plan didn’t work. I decide to change the subject. “You heard me last night, didn’t you?” I ask.
He smiles at me, nuzzling my neck. “I did.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Nah. It was nice to hear your voice when I woke up.”
I blush. I remember last night. “I was so scared that I had lost you forever.” I whisper. “Your heart stopped beating last night. I was so scared, so scared.”
He grins at me. “I thought you didn’t do fear (Eps. Fear Itself).”
I glare at him. “Death is not something to joke about.”
He wraps his arms tightly around me. “I know. I’m sorry. I told you, you’ll never lose me.”
“I love you,” I whisper, kissing him.
“I love you, too.” he says.
“I’m going to tell the others that you’re okay, and maybe then they can come in since you’re awake.” I say, about to get off the bed, when Beast Boy’s voice stops me.
“No!”
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Beast Boy’s POV
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“No!” I suddenly shout. I can feel her eyes on me. I look away, in effort to hide the tears.
“Why not?” she asks. “They have to know that you’re alive.”
“You can tell them I’m alive.” I say quietly. “I’m just not ready to see them yet, Rae. The pain is still so unbearable. I know they don’t really care.”
I can still feel the hatred they have for me. The disgust they show me whenever I’m around. I can still feel the emotional pain. I don’t want to see their pity. I don’t want to see their hatred.
“Believe me, Beast Boy. They care. Starfire was practically sobbing when your heart stopped. Even Robin came by, took him a while, but he did. Cyborg was extremely upset. How can they show how much they care if you won’ t let them?”
My mind is swirling. Did Starfire actually cry for me? But why would Raven make something like that up? Do they really care? I still feel like I can’t trust them. Not yet. “I need time, Rae.” I say, my hand running through her hair.
She nods and snuggles next to me. I close my eyes, trying to think of something other than the physical and emotional pain that still flows through me.
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Raven’s POV
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About an hour later, I walk into the waiting room. I can see the anxiety of the others’ faces. “How is he?’ Robin asks, tightening his hold on Starfire.
I hesitate. “He’s awake.”
After saying those words, I find myself in a tight embrace with Starfire. “Oh glorious! I shall go right in now and tell him how sorry I am!” She’s about to leave the room, when I grab her arm.
“He’s not ready to see any of you yet.”
Star looks back at me. “Why not? We’re his friends, he needs to know we care!”
“He’s still in a lot of emotional pain. The way you guys have been treating him has caused more damage to him than you can possibly imagine.”
“We understand. We realize what we’ve done to him.” Cyborg says, taking a step towards me.
“No. You don’t.” I whisper. “You don’t understand at all.”
I feel like I need to show them what they had done to Beast Boy. I feel in order to help Beast Boy, I need for the others to truly understand. They need to understand the anguish, the hurt, the lonliness. I close my eyes. I decide to use my powers to send Robin, Starfire, and Cyborg back to a couple of days ago...
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