Fan Fiction ❯ I'll Be ❯ Chapter 12 ( Chapter 12 )
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By: DamDariram18 
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 08.07.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.6K | Visits: 202 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 08.07.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.6K | Visits: 202 | Status: Completed
Disclaimer: If I owned Teen Titans, Starfire would have kissed Robin to see if he was real or not in the episode “X”
(A/N: I apologize for the corny joke later in this chapter. )
I’ll Be
Chapter 12
Starfire’s POV
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I’m sitting beside Cyborg in the waiting room, neither of us speaking. It’s been several hours since Beast Boy had been brought in and only an hour since I had yelled at Robin. We wait anxiously to hear about the condition of our friend.
Suddenly the door opens revealing Raven. My heart drops as I look at her face. Tears are running down her cheeks, her body shaking. I watch as she falls into a chair and starts sobbing. Cyborg and I rush towards her.
“What happened?” Cyborg asks urgently.
“B-Beast Boy’s flat-lining.” Raven manages to choke out.
I feel confused. “What does that mean?” I ask.
Cyborg turns to look at me, his face pale. “It means BB’s heart has stopped.” He says in a cracking tone.
I feel as if my sister has taken over Tameran again. I feel like I’ve lost everything. I know it’s all my fault. I throw my arms around Cyborg and start sobbing hysterically. This is all my fault I think to myself over and over again. Suddenly Robin’s urgent voice breaks through my thoughts.
“What happened?”
I glare at him, knowing he should have been here sooner. I am too mad to tell him. Cyborg speaks instead.
“BB’s heart stopped. The doctors are trying to save him. They don’t think he’s going to make it.”
I continue sobbing until I hear the door of the waiting room open and a young doctor walks out. We hold our breath, not daring to look at each other.
“The good news is, Garfield Logan pulled through. The bad news is he’s still comatose and we can only allow one person to see him.”
I let go of Cyborg and attempt to follow the doctor, but stop when I see Raven glaring at me. She follows the doctor out of the waiting room. I feel my heart leap with joy, knowing that Beast Boy is alive. The joy doesn’t last long as I remember how I treated him. I can’t believe I acted like such a clorbag to him. I can’t believe I treated him so badly. Suddenly, I feel a hand on my arm. I realize it’s Robin. I feel like I should pull myself away from him, but can’t find it in my heart to do it.
“Star, could we please talk?” He asks in a pleading voice. I reluctantly follow him to the other side of the waiting room. We sit. I am refusing to look at him. After a few moments of silence, he speaks.
“Star, I know you hate me right now, and I can’t blame you. I hate myself for what I did to Beast Boy. You’re right. I have been treating him horribly. What you don’t understand is I wasn’t just trying to protect the team by making you stay away from him. I was trying to protect him as well.”
He pauses. I continue to look at my hands. He takes a deep breath then continues.
“I was so afraid that the antidote wasn’t going to work. I was afraid that the Beast was going to take over him again. I told you to stay away from him, not just because I was afraid he’d hurt you. I didn’t want him to unintentionally hurt anyone. The last thing I ever want to do is put my friend in jail.”
I look at him. I see tears running down his face. “Did you say ‘friend’?” I ask.
Robin takes my hands in his. I want to pull away, but I can’t bring myself to. “Yes. I didn’t mean what I said before. He’s always been my friend, always will be. Starfire, could you possibly find it in your heart to forgive me?”
I glare at him, my anger still present. “Not until Beast Boy does.” I say quietly.
“Star, I don’t deserve his forgiveness. Butt like you said, we need to support him. We need to support him together. As a team. So please, for Beast Boy’s sake, just forget your anger. Just for right now.”
My face softens. I feel sobs escaping my throat as I think about Beast Boy. Robin pulls me into his arms. I sob into his shoulder, unable to pull away.
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The next morning, the door opens revealing a tired Raven. We stand up, facing Raven. “How is he?” Robin asks in a shaky voice.
“He’s awaken.” Raven says.
I feel the joy fill my heart again. I grab Raven in a hug. “Glorious!” I say, almost back to my regular self. This is the perfect opportunity to apologize to Beast Boy for everything I’ve done. “I shall go now and tell him how sorry I am.” Raven’s arm stops me.
“He’s not ready to see any of you yet.”
“But we’re his friends!” I protest. ‘He must know we care.”
“The way you all have been treating him hurt him worse than you could possibly imagine.” Raven says quietly.
I stare at her. Cyborg says exactly what I am thinking. “We understand. We realize what we have been doing to him.”
“No, you don’t” Raven whispers. “You don’t understand at all.”
Raven pulls her hood up and chants softly. “Azarath...Metrion...Zinthos...”
I feel as though wind is blowing me away. I cannot see anything. I feel cold. The next thing I know, the feeling stops.
I open my eyes and find myself back in Titan’s tower. I can’t help but wonder how I got here. I figure out I’m in the middle of the hallway, in front of Beast Boy’s door. I am about to knock when the door opens. “Beast Boy! You are well!” I say in delight, throwing my arms around him. I am shocked when my arms pass right through him. What the-.
He walks right through me. I realize I must be in the past. I follow Beast Boy down the hall and into the kitchen. I can feel emotions of hope. “Hey Star.”
I follow his gaze and see a perfect replica of myself, making the pudding of doubt. “What is it, my friend?”
I cringe as I hear the false sweetness in her voice. I continue to listen, trying to remember. “I have a joke for you,” Beast Boy says. “If your mother is from Iceland and your father is from Cuba, then what are you?”
“What?”
“An ice cube!” He says, giving my replica an almost forced smile.
I laugh, unheard by the others. I remember now. I found the joke pretty funny, actually. Even if I didn’t understand it. I am horrified by my replica’s response.
“Good one.” she says in a falsely sweet voice. Did I really say it like that? I ask myself in horror.
Beast Boy turns around, facing but not really seeing me. I am horrified by the look on his face. Extraordinary pain. I suddenly can feel emotions surround me. Emotions of hopelessness, loneliness. I can feel his misery, his pain. I clutch my head as the pain gets more intense. Trying to ignore all the emotions surrounding me, I follow Beast Boy out of the kitchen and back into the hall. As I follow him, I can hear him muttering to himself.
“Don’t know why I even bother. I should just give up. All my life is pain.”
We end up in his room. I stand by the door of his room, unable to take my eyes off of him. I watch as he reaches under his pillow and pulls out a razor blade. I can see tears running down his face. I watch in horror as Beast Boy pulls up one of his sleeves, and drags the razor across his forearm, cutting the skin. I feel pain flowing through my entire body. I feel as though he had cut me as well. Emotions of physical and emotional pain are swirling around the room. I close my eyes, not wanting to look at the blood running down his arm. Please stop I think to myself in pain. Please get me out of here.
Suddenly I feel a hand grab me around the waist and I feel myself being pulled through a portal. I figure it’s Raven, returning me back to the present. As I return to the waiting room, I can’t get the image of Beast Boy cutting himself out of my mind. His emotions are still swimming around me. I can’t stop thinking about what I had just seen and how it is all my fault.
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(A/N: I apologize for the corny joke later in this chapter. )
I’ll Be
Chapter 12
Starfire’s POV
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I’m sitting beside Cyborg in the waiting room, neither of us speaking. It’s been several hours since Beast Boy had been brought in and only an hour since I had yelled at Robin. We wait anxiously to hear about the condition of our friend.
Suddenly the door opens revealing Raven. My heart drops as I look at her face. Tears are running down her cheeks, her body shaking. I watch as she falls into a chair and starts sobbing. Cyborg and I rush towards her.
“What happened?” Cyborg asks urgently.
“B-Beast Boy’s flat-lining.” Raven manages to choke out.
I feel confused. “What does that mean?” I ask.
Cyborg turns to look at me, his face pale. “It means BB’s heart has stopped.” He says in a cracking tone.
I feel as if my sister has taken over Tameran again. I feel like I’ve lost everything. I know it’s all my fault. I throw my arms around Cyborg and start sobbing hysterically. This is all my fault I think to myself over and over again. Suddenly Robin’s urgent voice breaks through my thoughts.
“What happened?”
I glare at him, knowing he should have been here sooner. I am too mad to tell him. Cyborg speaks instead.
“BB’s heart stopped. The doctors are trying to save him. They don’t think he’s going to make it.”
I continue sobbing until I hear the door of the waiting room open and a young doctor walks out. We hold our breath, not daring to look at each other.
“The good news is, Garfield Logan pulled through. The bad news is he’s still comatose and we can only allow one person to see him.”
I let go of Cyborg and attempt to follow the doctor, but stop when I see Raven glaring at me. She follows the doctor out of the waiting room. I feel my heart leap with joy, knowing that Beast Boy is alive. The joy doesn’t last long as I remember how I treated him. I can’t believe I acted like such a clorbag to him. I can’t believe I treated him so badly. Suddenly, I feel a hand on my arm. I realize it’s Robin. I feel like I should pull myself away from him, but can’t find it in my heart to do it.
“Star, could we please talk?” He asks in a pleading voice. I reluctantly follow him to the other side of the waiting room. We sit. I am refusing to look at him. After a few moments of silence, he speaks.
“Star, I know you hate me right now, and I can’t blame you. I hate myself for what I did to Beast Boy. You’re right. I have been treating him horribly. What you don’t understand is I wasn’t just trying to protect the team by making you stay away from him. I was trying to protect him as well.”
He pauses. I continue to look at my hands. He takes a deep breath then continues.
“I was so afraid that the antidote wasn’t going to work. I was afraid that the Beast was going to take over him again. I told you to stay away from him, not just because I was afraid he’d hurt you. I didn’t want him to unintentionally hurt anyone. The last thing I ever want to do is put my friend in jail.”
I look at him. I see tears running down his face. “Did you say ‘friend’?” I ask.
Robin takes my hands in his. I want to pull away, but I can’t bring myself to. “Yes. I didn’t mean what I said before. He’s always been my friend, always will be. Starfire, could you possibly find it in your heart to forgive me?”
I glare at him, my anger still present. “Not until Beast Boy does.” I say quietly.
“Star, I don’t deserve his forgiveness. Butt like you said, we need to support him. We need to support him together. As a team. So please, for Beast Boy’s sake, just forget your anger. Just for right now.”
My face softens. I feel sobs escaping my throat as I think about Beast Boy. Robin pulls me into his arms. I sob into his shoulder, unable to pull away.
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The next morning, the door opens revealing a tired Raven. We stand up, facing Raven. “How is he?” Robin asks in a shaky voice.
“He’s awaken.” Raven says.
I feel the joy fill my heart again. I grab Raven in a hug. “Glorious!” I say, almost back to my regular self. This is the perfect opportunity to apologize to Beast Boy for everything I’ve done. “I shall go now and tell him how sorry I am.” Raven’s arm stops me.
“He’s not ready to see any of you yet.”
“But we’re his friends!” I protest. ‘He must know we care.”
“The way you all have been treating him hurt him worse than you could possibly imagine.” Raven says quietly.
I stare at her. Cyborg says exactly what I am thinking. “We understand. We realize what we have been doing to him.”
“No, you don’t” Raven whispers. “You don’t understand at all.”
Raven pulls her hood up and chants softly. “Azarath...Metrion...Zinthos...”
I feel as though wind is blowing me away. I cannot see anything. I feel cold. The next thing I know, the feeling stops.
I open my eyes and find myself back in Titan’s tower. I can’t help but wonder how I got here. I figure out I’m in the middle of the hallway, in front of Beast Boy’s door. I am about to knock when the door opens. “Beast Boy! You are well!” I say in delight, throwing my arms around him. I am shocked when my arms pass right through him. What the-.
He walks right through me. I realize I must be in the past. I follow Beast Boy down the hall and into the kitchen. I can feel emotions of hope. “Hey Star.”
I follow his gaze and see a perfect replica of myself, making the pudding of doubt. “What is it, my friend?”
I cringe as I hear the false sweetness in her voice. I continue to listen, trying to remember. “I have a joke for you,” Beast Boy says. “If your mother is from Iceland and your father is from Cuba, then what are you?”
“What?”
“An ice cube!” He says, giving my replica an almost forced smile.
I laugh, unheard by the others. I remember now. I found the joke pretty funny, actually. Even if I didn’t understand it. I am horrified by my replica’s response.
“Good one.” she says in a falsely sweet voice. Did I really say it like that? I ask myself in horror.
Beast Boy turns around, facing but not really seeing me. I am horrified by the look on his face. Extraordinary pain. I suddenly can feel emotions surround me. Emotions of hopelessness, loneliness. I can feel his misery, his pain. I clutch my head as the pain gets more intense. Trying to ignore all the emotions surrounding me, I follow Beast Boy out of the kitchen and back into the hall. As I follow him, I can hear him muttering to himself.
“Don’t know why I even bother. I should just give up. All my life is pain.”
We end up in his room. I stand by the door of his room, unable to take my eyes off of him. I watch as he reaches under his pillow and pulls out a razor blade. I can see tears running down his face. I watch in horror as Beast Boy pulls up one of his sleeves, and drags the razor across his forearm, cutting the skin. I feel pain flowing through my entire body. I feel as though he had cut me as well. Emotions of physical and emotional pain are swirling around the room. I close my eyes, not wanting to look at the blood running down his arm. Please stop I think to myself in pain. Please get me out of here.
Suddenly I feel a hand grab me around the waist and I feel myself being pulled through a portal. I figure it’s Raven, returning me back to the present. As I return to the waiting room, I can’t get the image of Beast Boy cutting himself out of my mind. His emotions are still swimming around me. I can’t stop thinking about what I had just seen and how it is all my fault.
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