Fan Fiction ❯ Poems Galore ❯ Forgive me ( Chapter 17 )

 

Forgive me

 

Crying… it may be healthy, but I don't want to do it, I refuse to breakdown in front of people.

I must be strong.

Keep moving.

Don't think.

Don't speak.

If I do, I will loose my hold, I will break down in front of everyone, I don't want that to happen… not when I have been doing such a good job at holding it all in.

Stay away from me please.

I can't look at you anymore, I am not disgusted… just selfish.

Please forgive me.

I miss you already.

But there is nothing I can do.

You will be gone.

I will cry.

I will remember.

Always I will remember, don't forget that.

Always I will think about you.

Always I will cry inside, if not out.

Always I will scream at myself for being selfish.

But what can I do… I am only human…

I miss you already, and you haven't gone.

If I could muster the strength, I would come down and see you.

But I am selfish… I will stay hidden in the open… so I don't break down.

Selfish… that is what I am being… I cannot help that and for that I am sorry Bailers I love you.

You better not forget that.

Even if you don't see this.

I will always love you.

Will always mourn you.

And you will always be on my mind.

Someday I will be able to speak your name with out wanting to cry but until then I must not say it.

I am sorry…

Please

Forgive me.