Fan Fiction ❯ So this is love ❯ The Shocking Truth ( Chapter 3 )

The rest of my week in the dorms went by quickly it was time to say goodbye to all of my friends. I started to pack up and head out to my friend Caroline's. I was staying at her apartment until I could find a more permanent place to stay. I had so much fun dragging all of my crap downstairs. Yep floor thirteen. Great times. I had a chair a mini fridge a microwave and a big ass TV. I am such a clutter bug and threw all of my tons of junk into huge black trash bags. Maybe when you move as an adult or a little kid you get boxes, but me as a broke college student good old black bags. I was exhausted when I finally got everything moved in but I logged on to the computer as soon as I could. Chris had emailed me the following.

-Hey Dorina

I miss you. I hope you got all move out and found a place. Can I get you new number? Talk to you soon.

Chris

I emailed him back and explained my wonderful lack of a house phone but I would try to call him on one of my friends' cell phones. Almost every other night after nine I would call him or he would call me. We also kept in touch on ims. We actually had little dirty phone calls and ims to keep our spirits up. I missed him a lot but I didn't know what he really did miss about me. He called one day an I yet again brought up the lack of us being official yet again. For once he actually got really pissed off and told me to stop pushing him. He said that we might as well just stop speaking if I wanted to be so pushy and not let him breathe. I was really sad and upset after we hung up. And I sat on the couch next to my friend John. John was having relationship problems too (can't really say too cause it wasn't a relationship). He hugged me as I broke down in tears.

-John why won't anyone love me? Why is it wrong for me to want to be his girl…friend?

-Because sweet people like us have to have it rough…don't think too hard you are only 19 and you have a while to worry about it.

-Thanks…John.

I cried in John's arms and then cried myself to sleep yet again. On ims the next day Chris apologized and said that I wasn't pushy at all. I was still upset in general but

We were again back to where we had started. After about a week of avoiding it I sort of hinted to the fact that I loved him when we were talking on ims. The next day we talked on the phone and it was really awkward. I told him I loved him and he said that he didn't feel that way but it meant a lot to him. That hurt more then anything else. I just felt all alone. I spoke to Chris online everyday and he called every once in a while. I didn't want to think about my feelings for him so our conversations were usually just hot and heavy. After a week and a half with Caroline I had to move out on my own but I was totally broke and as usual my dad didn't do what he said he would. Luckily my friends Erin and Bridget took me in for the month of May. I had been searching for a job but wasn't finding anything. Chris said that he would visit around the end of May but he said he missed me and would try to come that week.

Chris and I were talking online and I showed him an email Leigha had sent me.

-What would you do if every time you fell in love with someone you had to say good-bye?
What would you do if every time you wanted someone, they would never be there?
What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?
What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?
So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.
I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.

And after I entered that in the im he typed "I love you too". And my first reaction was wtf!! I had no idea what to do. Did he slip up or what? Then he finally typed again.

-I was going to wait until tomorrow when I visit you to say it in person but there may not be a tomorrow.

-I love you too.

-Geez Chris that was romantic.

-Chris you worry too much.

-I love you see you tomorrow Dorina.

-I love you too. Bye

Mmmmm

mmmmmm

So this is love,

Mmmmmm

So this is love

So this is what makes life divine

I'm all aglow,

Mmmmmm

And now I know

The key to all heaven is mine

My heart has wings,

Mmmmmm

And I can fly

I'll touch ev'ry star in the sky

So this is the miracle that I've been dreaming of

Mmmmmm

Mmmmmm

So this is love!

So this love? Well, it isn't over yet. It has only just begun.

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