Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction / Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Touched ❯ Melodies of Life ( Prologue )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

Somethings we miss one day, and forget the next. Somethings we miss forever, even in death, and our future lives, we remember, like a sad burden that never leaves. Loves lost falls into that category I guess. It does for me.

What does one do?? When the one you've loved so much, finds his comfort in another? When it's not only one person, but two you loved, and they both don't need you in the same way they need you??

It would hurt, I guess. I think it did for me. I can't remember right now. I'm numb, from the top of my head, to the soles of my feet. Numb. I can't feel anything. Not wind, or rain. Heat or cold. Day or night.

Love or hate.

I can even tune out the pain of loneliness now. I guess it's just a reaction, my mind has turned itself off. Shock, I guess. Maybe I still dont' want to accept it. All around me, things die, loose their luster and shine and beauty. I am walking death. That's the only proper thing to call something without love.

Sure, I have my "parents". But their never around. Always on business trips. a good way to forget about the child they think they created that sits at home alone, the only thing comforting her is silence. I have friends too, but they never come around anymore. Jouno and Yugi are in the throes of a new relationship, so happy together. Yami and Seto are the same way, both elated in the new finds they make each day within the other. Shizuka and Honda are very happy together too, they even have Jouno's blessings. Maii is now the queen of the DM world. She has risen to the top, and all the things she desired, fame and fortune, are now hers. Malik and Isis are back in Egypt. Malik and Bakura are happy with each other. Isis is content with her work. Everyone is happy now, things are settling down, and futures are being made.

Except mine.

I don't know why I became as attached as I did. I was only to come here to look for something...anythig that could help us fight the revival of Terra's ghosts. I thought I had found potential in the Shadow Games, Millenium Items, and the God cards. As soon as I found my niche, I made friends with Yugi Mutoh, altered dozens of memories to fit myself into his life. Like I had always been there. But...the first time he looked at me, those brillant amethyst eyes sparkling, I was trapped. Trapped by my own aching heart. A heart that was so alone, missing my home, my true parents, my everything. I found myself clinging to him, his kindness soothing the ache.

But the morphine is gone, and the pain is back, doubled now. Not only have I lost the first, and perhapse only men I had loved, but I failed to utilize the powers of the Millenium Items like I should have. I should have dragged the whole lot of them to Gaia long back. But love clouded my senses.

Mother, Father, I failed. I do not deserve anything. My Summoner's Gift, my genome heritage (Uncle Kuja would be furious with me), nor the throne of Alexandria. I touched the still bleeding gash on my head. I had purposely ripped my Summoner's horn from my forehead. Ironic, I had used every trick I knew to hide it, as well as my tail, but when I realized what I had done....I done away with it. Only honorable Summomer's deserved their horns. I didn't deserve my tail either, but ripping it out would be lethal, caulk it up to Genome anatomy.

Now, the only thing for me to do was to go home, and face judgement. If home was even there anymore. Terra's ghost has most likely ravished the planet totally by now. I cursed myself again. I looked around, the red sun hung, half exposed in the west. The sky was deep red, like blood. Like passion. Blood and passion. The only thing I had, and everything I lacked. Shutting off those meandering thoughts, I lifted up the only thing that I had to be proud of, Alexander's Crystal. My only link home. Once the silver Pendant, Memory Earring, Desert Star, and Falcon Claw were united, they became Alexander's Crystal. Mother gave it to me, several reasons backing it.

One, it would keep it out of enemy hands if I took it with me. Two, mother was sure that Alexander's spirit would travel with me and protect me. Three, Alexander couldn't be summoned anyways. Not without the Sword being renewed. It still stood, proud, but shattered, in the castle. It was slowly healing itself, but it would be centuries before it was whole again.

A whisper of words. Nothing more would be needed to take me out of this misery I put myself in. But going home would thrust me into shame and scrutiny. Also terror and war. But it was better than the wallowing in the self-pity I created for myself. Raising the barely opaque orb above my head, I wished.

For those of us who seek to find.
Some way to leave this world behind.

To the place with golden angel wings,
And all familiar things.

Bleeding blood, screaming battle cries
Take me now, to my home beyond these skies!!


Reality vanished into white brillance. Blinding white light. Harsh, blinding, but purifying. I could feel the weight of the sins I accumulated here vanish. Shadows of the dark magics I had touched burned in Alexander's holy light. Yes, Alexander, my guardian angel. The guardian of Alexandria's royal family. He had been the only ear to hear the truth of what I had done here. And he would keep my secrets for all time. Voices joined in my mind with his, as he sung a lullaby that I heard so long ago...a melody. The melodies of life.

And love's lost refrain....


Authors Notes:
my friend Irana. This is the world you always wanted. Mostly for Nick. My inspiration, and the best Midnight Pyschologist on this damned planet. Aishiteru, 1-4-3.