Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ DiArY of NiGhTmaReS ❯ TorMenTeD ViSionS ( Chapter 2 )

AnoTHEr PiEcE Of thE:

DiArY Of NigHTmaReS

So this took a little longer to get out then planed cause my damn Computer Broke….pissin me off…well.. it may be a while till I get another chap out, but I'll try my best. Got a new job and got to relocate to the city…pain in the ass…ahhh well the warnings is still the same as before as if ya didn't know, but if ya wanna reread em go to ch1 cause I'm too damn hung over to do this….

R: I told you ya drink too fuckin much.

HD: didn't ask you

C: hehehe so ya hung over huh?

HD: shut up C.

V: ya know I'm really getting sick of takin shit.

HD: maybe if ya bitch a little more like a fuckin sissy I'll give ya some balls. Hehehehe OW! What the fuck! (C's holding rubberband in the striking position.)

C: write fucker write..

HD: I'm gonna fuckin kill you…uuuuhhhnnnn….okay after my head stops pounding I'm gonna fuckin kill you…Sephiroth kick C's ass for me.

S: I have no time for your two idiots.

HD: what the hell you think you gotta do. You do nothing till I tell you…I own all of you. OW! (C attackin HD again)

C: who owns who…..

V: Enough of this just let them get on with the chapter where I'm the main character…

HD: Oh yeah it's all bout you……

CH2: TorMenTeD ViSionS

"Don't know." He smiled. "It don't even matter now. Lets go have a drink and greet all yer guests." I rolled my eyes at him as he placed an arm around me and dragged me to the kitchen.

I had to wonder how it was possible for so many people to get into my house. Reno and Rude I didn't mind, but it went from two to six and that was four too many. I sighed feeling the brandy beginning it's work on me.

Tifa and Cloud were sitting across from each other at the kitchen table and Yuffie was still on the ground. Cloud was leering at me as we walked in, while Tifa smiled up at me. I went to the fridge detesting them all.

"What is all this?" I hissed seeing more than the bottle of mayo, mustard, hot sauce, and beer I kept in the fridge. It was overflowing with food.

"Well, I thought since we were all here, I should get us some food."

"You're first mistake was much like Cloud's, thinking." I grumbled as I pulled out a beer. I shut the door and glanced at Tifa who was giving me an innocent smile. I tried to restrain myself, though I knew it was impossible, hence why I hated most everyone.

"Don't look at me with such innocents woman. You are nothing more than a whore, desperate for any attention your feeble insecurities can cling to." I watched as her eyes welled with tears.

"Vincent, why do you have to be such an asshole?" Cloud asked as he moved to comfort the woman.

"Why are you still in my house?" I countered before Reno placed his hand over my mouth and pulled me into the sitting room.

"Christ Vincent, you really don't like people do ya?" I flipped Reno off as I opened my beer.

"They come into my house uninvited then want to tell me how I treat them inappropriately." I snorted into my beer before I started guzzling it.

"I don't." The sultry voice purred in my ear. I spat out half the mouthful of beer from the shock. I glared at the too close face.

"Why do you torment me?" I asked feeling my head start to ache.

"Is that what you think I'm trying to do? No Vincent, it's nothing such as that. I just want to be near you." He said rubbing his hand along my cheek letting his fingers run down my lip gently pulling the bottom down.

I smiled at Sephiroth tilting my head to the side leaning my face towards him. I watched his eyes flutter shut and his lips part. A sadistic grin took my face as my clawed hand crushed into the softness of his gut. His face fell past mine to rest on my shoulder as he coughed and wheezed there.

"I am not a fag. That is Cloud. Now leave me alone." I growled pushing him away from me and taking down more of the beer.

"Shit!" I looked over to a cackling Reno. "Damn dude, you almost had me with that shit. I thought you was gonna, ya know, butya...." Reno couldn't go on as he laughed. Rude had his fist rocking, along with his body, showing I had got him too.

I looked back to Sephiroth. He was curled on the floor holding his stomach. His eyes slowly rolled open looking up at me as he smirked fading into the floor. I focused on my beer for a moment then forced the rest down my throat trying to forget what his eyes conveyed to me.

"Reno. Don't let me get too drunk tonight." Reno nodded to me as he finished his beer.

"I got yer back Vincent. You know that shit. That motherfucker may think he's invincible, but a shot to the fuckin head and his ass'll be down." I could hear the deadly seriousness of Reno's voice. Rude held up his fist nodding in agreement. It was good to know, though I never did anything for Reno or Rude, they both had my back.

The night went on without a hitch. Reno, Rude, and I drank all the liquor in the house and made Cloud get us more. Needless to say, Reno didn't keep me from getting wasted. All the others stayed away from the three of us, which made the night run so much smoother for me. Reno and Rude both ended up passing out before me. I opening another beer feeling the world spin as I stood up.

I stumbled my way towards the crypt passage not wanting to stay in the sitting room after what had happened the previous night. I opened the passage and laughed when I saw the spiraling staircase.

"This should be interesting." I said taking a drink and beginning my slow decent. I finished my beer tossing it off the steps. I heard it shatter on the ground and groaned. I was only half way down. I thought of just passing out on the steps when I lost my footing and rapidly made it to the bottom. I through my head back in laughter as I laid my back on the cold floor. I was sure it would hurt tomorrow, but at that point I wasn't feeling anything.

I wove my way down the hall. I grabbed the handle opening the door tripping over my feet into the room and landing on my face losing myself to laughter again. I pushed myself up chuckling every once and again. I leaned against the wall surveying the room.

"So you came to see me?" Sephiroth said looking above the book he was reading in the library.

"This isn't my room." I snorted turning from the room confused on how the hell I even got there.

"Where the hell am I?" I asked myself as I walked down the hall using the wall to keep me on my feet. I closed my eyes bringing my other hand to my head hoping it would stop the spinning.

I was pushed against the wall. I held my hand up to the blurring, spinning face as my cheeks puffed out, unsure if I was going to puke or not. I sighed out a breath looking into the bright new growth green.

"Are you alright dear Vincent?" The voice was smooth as velvet.

I let out a grunt as I thought about it. "I am totally fuckin wasted." I stuck my tongue out laughing.

"Wait." I said putting my hand on the other's shoulder and closing an eye. "Yep, completely fuckin wasted." I grinned.

"Where are you trying to go?" Sephiroth's breath was hot in my ear as his tongue licked along the lobe. I felt his body press against mine and sighed resting my head against the wall closing my eyes.

"What the fuck are you doin?" I asked looking over at him pulling my ear from the reach of his tongue. His hand slid up my shirt taking its time moving to pinch a nipple. I took in a sharp breath from the feel. He forced my head to the side with his as he began the assault on my ear and neck.

His hand moved down my stomach to the waistband of my pants. His fingers slipped under it tickling the sensitive skin of my lower abdomen and awakening my cock. Sephiroth kept working on my neck, licking along the center and moving to the opposite side, while his hand undid the fastenings of my pants.

I half moaned as his hand slipped into the open pants and grabbed my hard member. "Dude, I'm not a fag." I grunted as I pushed his hand away from my exposed penis. Sephiroth brought the hand to his lips taking each of his fingers in his mouth. I watched, my blinking like the wave at a baseball park, unsynchronized.

He gripped me again with intent. The warm liquid on his sliding hand making me groan. His mouth covered mine as his body pressed against me, the only thing holding me up.

Sephiroth placed his other hand on my chest holding me tight to the wall as I watched his upper body drop. I stared down at his smirking green eyes. I watched him take me in his mouth. I thought to say something, but my eyes squeezed closed as I leaned my head back on the wall thrusting into the warm opening. My mouth hung slack, the breath rushing out of it as the head hit the back of his throat. He slowly pulled my dick from his mouth twirling his tongue around the head.

I moaned as my hands slid into the silken silver, forcing him to take all he could hold of me. I had to put one hand on the wall as I felt my knees buckle and I let loose years of pent up frustration in the deep warmth. He sucked every last bit from me. He stood up grabbing my shoulders before I fell.

I had never really had the chance to masturbate during the time I was with Cloud and crew and I sure as hell didn't get one off before I went into that dark slumber. I suppose I could of, but usually my mind was full of the past and I couldn't keep it up. There were also the times I was just too drunk to try.

I felt my body lifted as my eyes closed riding the releasing wave. I didn't think I would ever come down from the feeling. I didn't want to come down because something inside me knew it was the closest to Heaven I would ever get.

Words filled my mind with wavering visions. I dreamt of Sephiroth and his arrival. The things he spoke to me and the way he had touched me. The night swirled in my mind. Faces, places, moments receded back in time.

I dreamt of the Turks, of Lucrecia and the things I hoped would happen between us. The hope died in me as I felt the pain in my side and saw Hojo standing above me licking my blood from his finger. I recalled busting into his lab and yelling at him for the atrocity he had committed to Lucrecia. She told me he had injected their unborn child with Jenova cells. I was blinded by rage and hadn't expected him to have a gun. The shot had taken me in the side. As I crumpled to the floor he injected me with something that had rendered me unconscious.

I glared at him, his black hair falling into his green eyes. I was strapped on a metal experimentation table. I had seen them many times, but never thought I would be laying on one.

"Finally your awake, dear Vincent." He sneered as his hand brushed along my cheek. "I wasn't sure how much longer I could wait, but I wanted you to know, to be awake. I wanted you to always remember the day when you lost your humanity. And all this because of Lucrecia." His tongue ran over my lips as he finished his speech. I snarled at him pulling on the straps that kept me on the slab.

"I don't understand what you saw in her. I would have given you so much more, but all you ever cared about was that woman. Though, because of it, now Sephiroth will be born." Hojo said as he forced his lips against mine. I felt him climb up on the table to lie on top of me. The feel of his body was disgusting, his hard penis pushing into my leg.

I turned my head from him. "You're a sick bastard. No matter what you do to me I will never think anything different of you. If you want to test Jenova cells test them on yourself. You're nothing but a worthless shell of a man." His hand took me hard across the face as he crawled off of me.

"The pain Lucrecia felt is nothing compared to what you will endure."

I watched Hojo's lips move not able to understand the words he spoke. I knew it was some kind of summoning spell, but as a Turk I didn't need magic, I had a gun. My back arched from the table as I felt something slam against it. I choked on the scream feeling dull nails tearing away the skin from my back. My teeth grinded together as another set of hands started tearing below the first. A third joined in seconds after the previous two and my eyes squeezed shut as I felt the slow progression of digging flesh, tissue, and muscle from my back by the three.

"Does it hurt Vincent? If it doesn't yet, it will." Hojo purred in my ear. It finally stopped and I could feel the warmth of my blood on my arms and legs. I knew it had to be spilling off the table from the holes the things had carved into my back as they slipped into my body. My head rolled towards Hojo who brought up a handful of my blood in a cupped hand. I lost sight of him as he walked around the table chanting something.

My mouth opened in a silent scream as the raw cuts in my back were torn wider like the thing was trying to gut me from the spine. I knew my eyes were open wide, but I couldn't see anything through the agony. I yanked on the restraints that bound me to the everlasting hell.

"Would it help if I freed an arm?" I heard Hojo ask as the whirl of a running operating saw filled my ears. I screamed like a man getting his arm cut off without anesthetic. I felt the left side of my upper body become free, but didn't have the energy to move as the thing entered into my back. I could feel the four entities moving inside my body as Hojo seared the wound he inflicted by cutting of my left arm.

My body shot up knocking the lid from the coffin as I screamed. The dream made the scars burn from the memory. I felt my head brought against the warmth of a chest as the hands held me in a comforting embrace. I had been like this before. When Hojo had finished with me he had held me like this and told me I was his most beautiful creation. I was his.

I looked up to the other that held me. The hair was different, but the face similar to Hojo's and the eyes were a dead match in color, though Hojo's pupils were round, while the ones I looked upon were slitted like a cats. The look they held was the same cold distance and wonder. My maddening cries grew desperate as I tried to pull away from the man. I used the metal hand to claw at him, anything to be free from the monsters grip.

My back cracked on the floor silencing me. I laid there blinking stupidly at the ceiling trying to recall what was going on. My hand ran over my face feeling the sting in my throat. I pulled it away seeing Sephiroth peering at me over the coffin rim. I met his eyes and crawled away from him to the wall. I brought my knees to my chest wrapping my arms around them, resting my head on them, and rocking. He haunted me. Hojo would never let me rest.

"Vincent?" I looked up to the too soft voice of Sephiroth. He was out of the coffin reaching a hand towards me.

"This is my imperfection." My voice was cracked and quivered as I shied away from the outstretched hand. Sephiroth's form lost its solidness as he slipped into the floor. I looked to him as his head disappeared into the worn rock. The look on his face made me sigh. It was the same as Reno's when he first dealt with me awakening from the nightmare. Though Reno I explained it to.

Reno had seen what was left from the end of my humanity, the thirteen scars that filled my back. I had five on each side of my spin from shoulder blade to waist, where the last demon had tore into me, and three that crossed those long scars. I had one at the top of my spin, another to the bottom, and the last in-between, where the lesser three had found their new home.

"Just a dream." I tried soothing myself. I hated the feeling of complete hopelessness I was left with. I had spent thirty years reliving Hojo and Lucrecia, but they seemed to want more. They seemed to want forever.

I wasn't going to let it take me. I wasn't going to let anymore of them see the weakness in me. I pushed myself up and made my way to the crypt door. I smiled as I saw Reno passed out in front of it. I crouched down shaking him and calling his name. His eyes slowly cracked open as he rolled to his back rubbing the sleep out of his eye with the back of a hand. He looked up at me.

"Oh, hey man. I was worried bout ya, but couldn't make it down them stairs. That shit was too..." His words trailed as he studied my face again. "You have that dream again?" He asked seeming to already know.

"Is it a dream if it really happened?" I countered as I stood from him.

He looked away from me as he got up not knowing how to answer the question. Hell, I didn't even know how to answer it and knew it was wrong of me to pull him into it. I shook my head as I walked away from him. I went through the house, out the front door, and down the walkway a little stopping to tilt my head up to the infinite blackness.

"I want to go back there. I want to stay in that emptiness. The eternal sleep." I said to the presence that crept to me still staring into the darkness.

"All the time in the world won't make it go away. Forgetting won't make it go away. But if you keep living in the past you'll never truly know if you're awake. It's your choice Vincent. Do you want to live in your memory forever?" I turned to Reno who was looking at me.

"Sometimes I wonder if all I am is a memory." Reno's attention moved from me to the night sky.

"It seems easier to drift in the emptiness then face the world around you. I can't say I know how you feel, but I know loneliness and guilt. It turns your heart black." I watch him force a laugh as he looked to the ground. "It eats away at you until you can't even face who you are. I've been there. At some point you have to move forward." He smiled at me. "Eventually you get sick of drowning."

I stared at Reno letting his insight seep in. It was a different side of him. One I rarely saw. He was always laughing and joking, but deep inside he had his own nightmares. That was why I could be around him. Beneath it all, he and I were a lot alike.

"Oh my Goth." The voice was a deep gravel sound. Reno and I both turned to see Rude in the doorway shaking his head at us. Reno and I looked at each other.

"I didn't even know he could talk." I said with shock on my face.

"Did he just fuckin say oh my Goth?" Reno was already starting to laugh. Rude was holding up his fist and shaking with laughter.

"The guy never talks and when he decides to he says oh my fuckin Goth. Ha. I'm gonna use that on you Vin." Reno said throwing his arm around my neck and dragging me into the house.

"Oh my gawd Vincent! I'm so happy to see you!" The side of my lip started to tick and my right eye twitched at the sound of the high-pitched sequel. Yuffie was running towards me like she was going to give me a huge hug. My clawed hand covered her smiling face. I threw her across the room and grinned as I heard the hard slam of her delicate frame and back of her head cracking against the wall. I watched her body crumble unconscious to the floor.

"Damn Vincent." Reno breathed.

I let out a long sigh. "Well, I feel much better." Reno shook his head at me as he pushed me through the sitting room and into the kitchen.

"Ass, you let me get trashed last night, so now you can make me some coffee, and no damn brandy in it." I said as I sat at the table. Reno turned to me smiling like the psycho he was, giving me the thumbs up as he started to brew the coffee.

"Where's the tart and his wench?" I asked as Rude sat across from me.

"Are you talkin bout Cloud and Tifa or Sephiroth and Cloud?" Reno asked looking serious. I couldn't help but laugh at him. "What?"

"Cloud and Tifa."

"Oh right Seph would be ass fuck." Reno laughed at himself. "I think this is a record for the longest time he's left you alone." I gave Reno the finger. I rubbed my hand over my eyes as I thought of Sephiroth. I couldn't figure out how he'd gotten into my coffin. I stared at the dark oak of the table tracing the black lines in the wood with my finger letting my mind wander.

My eyes went wide and I slowly looked up as an image gained clarity in my mind. Rude's head tilted to the side in question from my opened mouth shock. I brought my shaking hand to my head trying to blink away the image and calm my racing heart and shallow breath.

"That couldn't of happened." I barely breathed to myself. Rude's head straitened and his eyebrows furrowed.

"Why do you say that dear Vincent?" I launched from the chair falling over the table and stumbling to my feet as I turned to Sephiroth. He smiled at me as my back hit the wall behind Rude. I could usually sense where everyone in the mansion was. After sleeping in the crypt for so long I learned how to feel people's essences in the mansion, but I was so lost in thought I hadn't even felt him sneak up.

The fear and shock were swallowed by anger and malice as I stared at his smirking lips. I pushed off the wall closing the gap between us in milliseconds. I grabbed him by the opening on the sides of his black coat.

"Tell me that didn't happen you sick fuck." I spat the words at him and I brought his indifferent face close to my fury.

"I have no idea what you're speaking of." Sephiroth said like he was as clueless as Yuffie

"Don't fuck with me Sephiroth. Last night. Did it happen?" I growled shaking him. Trying to force him to speak.

"Hm. I don't recall the events from last night that clearly. Maybe if you were a little more specific." He said with a dark smile as he looked down at me.

"What the fuck's goin on Vincent?" I heard Reno ask behind me. I ignored him focusing on the man in front of me. The one who knew the truth of the events. The one who was toying with me.

"Damn you Sephiroth. You know what I'm talking about." I had to cringe away from him as the image of his head between my legs and the knowledge that I had enjoyed it filled my mind. I let go of him with one hand, holding it to my aching head. All the emotions and anger were getting to be too much. Sephiroth's hand grabbed my chin tilting my head up towards his. I met his eyes.

"Do you mean..." His words trailed off, but my head was filled with the actions of the previous night between the two of us. I fell to my knees as it ended, my hand still grabbing his coat as it slid down with me.

"Your kisses taste like death, but the rest of you tastes so full of life." His voice was filled with arrogance and just loud enough for only me to hear. It was hard to breath. My head felt like it would crack open any moment. Sweat dripped from my face and a chill took my body. I had to wonder if this was what it felt like to die.

"What's wrong Vincent? Are you so upset that it happened or is it that you can't believe how much you enjoyed it or the fact you're actually entertaining the idea of doing more with me?"

Sephiroth whispered into my ear as he crouched next to me.

"G-get a-away." I said feeling things moving inside of me. My voice had that strange gurgling to it like it was only half mine and half one of the beasts that resided in me. My spine wasn't hurting so I didn't think I would change, but my whole body was shaking.

"Get away from him!" I heard Reno yell as he came sliding to my side. "You okay man?" He said as his hand rested on my shoulder. "Holy shit dude. Calm down man. You're going to change if you don't. Rude help him." I felt Rude grab hold of me and heard Reno move from me.

"What the fuck did you do to him? If you fucked him up, I swear you won't live through this night you piece of shit. He's got enough shit goin on without your ass here. Take the fuckin hint and get the hell out of here. Go find someone else to fuck with!" Reno words were full of threat.

"Don't presume you can order me around human. He will be fine. He is stronger than you know and he certainly doesn't need your care. You seem to think you help him, but all you're doing is trying to escape your own misery through his. Deep in your heart you see his suffering and it makes you feel better to know that your life isn't as horrid. You see him like a broken child and treat him as such. He is no child and he is beautiful the way he is. You-"

"Shut your fuckin mouth! Don't try to lecture me about him. I know him better than anyone. I don't see him as a broken fuckin child. That would be you. You wanna give me a fuckin lecture. Ha! You could never understand Vincent and you don't know shit about his strength. All anyone has ever done is use him as a tool. Yeah, I have my own shit to deal with, but I don't compare it to Vincent's. Seeing him suffer doesn't make me feel good, being around him makes me feel good because he's a friend. He's not a tool. He's not some fuckin monster. He's a goddamned man. And I don't give a fuck if he doesn't need my care he's going to get it. Now I'm not going to tell you again. Get the fuck out." I heard the gun cock.

Hearing Reno let loose his anger seemed to calm me. Rude helped me up and I saw Reno holding his gun inches from Sephiroth's head. Sephiroth looked to me expectantly. I don't know if he expected me to help him or back up Reno, but I only had one thought in my head.

"I just want some coffee." I murmured as Rude sat me in the chair he had been in and went to get me some coffee. Rude and I were acting as if the two in front of us weren't in a stand off.

"If it is what Vincent wants, then I will go." Sephiroth said. I looked up at him.

"My wants are insignificant. If I said yes would you actually go?" Sephiroth held my gaze, but said nothing. "As I thought. You won't leave until you get what you want." Rude set the cup of coffee on the table. I grabbed it looking down in the swirling darkness. "Reno you can put your gun away. Even if you take the shot you won't hit him." Reno sighed as he holstered his gun.

"Well, what the fuck does he want?" Reno's voice was full of irritation as he slammed his fist on the table looking over at me.

"Me." I said into the cup as I drank it. I let out a coughing breath turning to Rude who was holding a bottle in his hand.

"I said no brandy." My voice full of mock anger towards Rude. He held the bottle so I could read that it was whiskey. The laugh started small, but it grew and grew till it was bellowing through the mansion.

I couldn't get my thoughts in line. It seemed better to laugh than to endlessly scream. Too many things had happened in such a short time. I had lost myself somewhere along the way. I didn't have anything to hold onto and all I could think of were Reno's words from earlier. They repeated in my mind as I laughed and laughed. `Eventually you get sick of drowning.'

The laughter ceased and I looked at the three men. Rude was leaning on the counter drinking from the bottle. Reno was standing across from him leaning on the other counter staring into his coffee mug. Sephiroth was standing behind the chair I had originally been sitting in, gazing out the picture window that was next to the table. None of them would make eye contact with me.

They seemed uncomfortable, but they didn't want to leave me on my own. Even with the three in the room I felt alone. I heard the laughing voices as the door opened. The new arrivals went quiet when they realized we were there.

I looked over to see Cloud and Tifa with another load of groceries. Well, Tifa had groceries. Cloud had a case of beer and some bottles of liquor. Tifa looked between all of us. Her gaze rested on Sephiroth and I watched her eyes slightly widen as she mouthed his name. Cloud was staring at me. He set the bag and case on the ground as he rushed over to me.

"Are you okay Vincent? You look pale. Do you need food or something? We just bought some stuff. I could cook you something." He worried as he reached a hand to feel my forehead.

"Don't...touch me." There was no malice in my voice; it was more sorrow filled desperation.

"Vincent?" Cloud questioned as his hand lightly touched my forehead. He gently brushed the hair from my face as he leaned down to look in my eyes. "Is there anything I can do?" Cloud asked in a soothing voice.

"I..." I stopped, hating the sound of my saddened lathered voice. I forced myself to finish the thought. "...don't know." I leaned my head back on the chair away from Cloud's touch looking up at the ceiling.

"I feel like I've just watch my life go down the drain and no matter how desperately I tried to cling to it, I couldn't keep it from slipping out of my gasp. It's like I'm trapped in a world I'll never understand." I said. The ceiling began to waver as the water filled my eyes.

"I'm dying here again." I forced the water back as I closed myeyes. That's what it felt like. I had killed the person I was by sleeping the years away and now the person I had become was slowly being devoured. I knew it was just starting and I had to get away from all the people. I shot up from the table pushing Cloud from me. I grabbed the bottle from Rude as he was lifting it to take a drink. I went down to the crypt shutting the door behind me. I walked over to one of the other coffins that filled the room. I looked at the dirty white skull letting the tears fall freely.

"If only you knew how lucky you are." My clawed hand crushed the bone to a fine dust. I pushed the coffin over stomping on it. Hojo had made me immortal. He'd given me eternity in this body to suffer. If I could've found a way to end my pitiful existence I would've in a second, but I knew Hojo took that information to the grave with him.

I screamed wordlessly as my hands began cracking and crushing the bones that fell out of the coffin. Thoughts rushed through my head. How long was I going to let him rule me and now I was letting his offspring control me. Why did I have to be Hojo's first experiment?

I fell against the wall, resting my back on it as I sat on the floor. I poured the whiskey down my dry throat. I leaned my head against the wall panting, the water still falling from my eyes. I kept drinking hoping it would stop. Hoping everything would stop.

I looked down at the almost empty bottle with burning eyes wondering how many hours had passed. My head was numb and the tears had finally dried. I didn't even feel real as I sat there. I was like a hollow statue watching the years pass by.

My clawed hand lay lifeless on the ground. The other hand barely gripped the bottle that sat between my outstretched legs. My head was leaning to the left as I stared at the dust coated rock wall across from me not actually seeing it.

I heard the door open and didn't even react to it. I felt the hand grab the bottle away from me and saw the blur in front of me. If I focused my eyes I would have been able to tell who it was, but I didn't want to deal with reality anymore.

"Vincent." Sephiroth's voice was smooth as he grabbed my chin forcing me to see him. I got a glimpse of his empty face and closed my eyes. I felt my body pulled into an embrace.

"I won't let you go." His voice wavered in weakness, like a desperate plea. I blinked there for a minute as my chin rested on his shoulder and he held me tight burring his head against my neck.

"What?" I said in a distorted tone. He let me fall back against the wall as he kneeled in front of me. His hand reached out to brush along the lines left by the tears.

"What could hurt you so?" He asked letting his hand fall. I studied him not sure of his intent. There were a lot of reasons not to trust a dead man, especially one who had died twice and somehow kept returning. He was impossible to read. His body language and face expressed a general concern, but his eyes only held that cold distance. I looked away from him just wanting to tell someone.

"I don't want to feel anymore. I don't want to be this. I'm tired of life." I rubbed my hand over my face trying to explain something I never had. "I hate what I've become and I can't escape it. I can't escape him. I can't escape her." I looked at Sephiroth. "I can't escape you."

Sephiroth moved to sit on my right against the wall. He turned towards me, eyes searching my face.

"Why would you want to escape me? I mean you no harm dear Vincent" I glared at him pushing off the wall and getting to my feet, swaying for a moment at the quick movement.

"Don't call me that! He called me that! I should've known. You're just like him. You just want to destroy me. Why can't you leave me alone?! Why can't all of you leave me alone?!" I yelled the last hoping it would reach everyone in the house. Sephiroth was on his feet reaching for me. I stumbled away from him.

"Don't touch me. Don't ever touch me." I snarled falling against the opposite wall. Sephiroth was still approaching me. I swung at him with the clawed hand. He gripped it by the wrist pinning it to the wall. His other hand wrapped around my neck and my other hand around that wrist. He glared down at me.

"Why do you think you're the only one suffering?" He growled at me. I could see the pressure from him clenching his teeth as he closed his eyes. I watched his face calm before his cheek rubbed against mine and his voice was a sultry whisper in my ear.

"I suffer every day I'm without you." His body pressed into mine. "You're such a part of me. I cannot believe it's real." He groaned as his tongue licked up my cheek. He smiled as he looked me in the eyes. "Don't you see that dear Vincent?"

"I'm nothing like you!" I snarled trying to push the other away from me, but Sephiroth was stronger than most anything on the planet. He slammed me against the wall squeezing my neck in his black-gloved hand cutting off any other words I may have had.

"You are exactly like me Vincent. Everyone fears you because you aren't human. Even the one's around you keep weapons on their person. The ones you trust with your life would gun you down if need be. You are alone Vincent. There is no one that can understand the pain you've endured, but I. I know everything Hojo did to you. He showed me the video. I've seen the pain you've suffered. The scars that cover your back. I'm the only one who can fill the emptiness inside you Vincent. I'm all you have dear Vincent." Sephiroth leaned back from my ear. I closed my eyes before I could see his face. His words seemed to float into my ears and constrict around my brain. I couldn't believe that. I couldn't let myself believe him.

The scars on my back burned as they tore open. It felt like Cloud's sword had just split my forehead. I could barely get in enough breath to let the pain roll from my mouth like a falling angel spiting those casting it out. Sephiroth stepped away from me as his eyes narrowed and his lips began to move.

I couldn't hear him as the blood rushed in my ears and I could feel Chaos trying to tear out of my body. His claws ripping down the scars. I felt the black wings unfold from the skin he had separated on my back. He cried out through my mouth. It was the ear shattering cry of a demon tasting the breath of freedom only to be cast back down to hell before being able to take it's revenge. I felt Chaos forced back into the seal that held him within me.

"Impossible" I wheezed over a mouth full of blood and fell to my knees trembling in agony.

*****HD: ha yeah something impossible in what I write…

C: good place to end it ass. OW!

HD: hehe shouldn't of put the band down bitch.

S: Will you two nock it off. Like two fuckin children. Can't leave you unsupervised for even a second. Fuckin heathens.

HD: oh shut up ya fuckin silver haired freak

C: who the hell you callin a freak look at you…OW fuck!

V: I don't even know why you write me here I never get to say anything you always ignore me. Am I nothing to you? Am I nothing to anyone? Always alone.

HD: Oh don't even start that shit uber Goth…

C: hehehe HD called you uber Goth.

S: this is just stupid (Wacks HD and C in the back of the head knockin them out.) Finally some fuckin piece and quite.

R: LETS GET WASTED!!!!!!!!!!! Hey what the fuck are HD and C doin on the floor. Aw don't tell me the fuckers already got wasted. Damn assholes I should fuckin…(S knocks Reno out.)

S: don't say a damn thing V just relish the silence….ahhh…..