Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ It Couldn't Be True ❯ Bewildered ( Chapter 10 )

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Title: It Couldn't Be True

Pairing: Seifer x Squall
Warning: Yaoi, Lemon, Angst, POV, Language (should have put that one in a long time ago! ^^) more will be added...
Rating: NC-17
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It Couldn't Be True

Bewildered

I didn't know what to think when I went into one truck, that Dagen ushered me into, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw what seemed like Seifer hurrying into the other, that we were originally on before.

I wanted to speak to him on the way back but I could not get off of the truck as it pulled away immediately.

I know... I messed up back there. If I didn't freeze up when Seifer was on top of me, everything would have been fine. I should have just acted normal and just shoved him off, for there was an animal running around the house, but I didn't. I let this..fear and all these emotions out that I got so, scared. I should have just...What does it matter? Why am I thinking like this and all this shit about him?

Why? I never let my emotions out and clearly think things through before I ever act. I always,

"Squall?" I looked up and glared to whomever decided to talk to me. I was in the middle of my thoughts, the least they could do is let me be.

"Squall?" Dagen. The man didn't move.

"What?" I said irritably, but the man sat down next to me and showed clear concern. What was he worried for?

"Are you okay?" I automatically narrowed my eyes slightly.

"I feel fine."

"You look very pale. Here, drink some of this. It should make you feel better." He held out a glass and I took it just so I wouldn't have to talk to him more and have him babying me or whatever. Wait...

"Where's the report that Seifer and I were suppose to do?"

The truck sped up suddenly and still feeling light-headed, I lost some of my balance. Arms wrapped around my shoulders and my head snapped up at Dagen.

"Are you alright?" I sat up straight and shrugged his arms off of me.

"The report?" I noticed the slight anger appear in his eyes. Why is he getting so close to me all of a sudden?

"It's finished. You do not have to worry about it any longer. Drink up. The nurse said it would make you feel better." He flashed a charming smile and I looked away.

"Whatever." He stood and moved up to the front of the truck while I was in the back, looking at the liquid splash around in the cup as the truck hit some rough terrain. I tentatively put the cup to my lips and sipped it.

The taste was fairly sweet and warmer than I thought it to be. I took another sip and soon I found the small cup empty. It had a funny aftertaste but I ignored it.

I looked up to see some of other members of SeeD laughing and enjoying their time before we returned to Garden.

My thoughts returned with a vengeance, never letting me leave questions unanswered.

Why would Seifer say those things about me? I thought that, despite his normal teasing and the little fights we get into, that we were slowly developing a good friendship. I...I would never think to be in a relationship with him, but those dreams...

Why am I having dreams about him? Seifer, in the dream, telling me to tell Seifer how I feel? But that's ridiculous...

Wait...could it be that I'm...attracted to him? But if I were, then that would mean I like guys, but I don't find any other male, like Seifer, attractive...

Shit. I can't believe I'm actually thinking like this. Seifer...

I stood up to throw the cup into the trash, stepping in front of others to get there. I was near the front when the truck hit a nasty pothole and the driver swerved, hard. I went sailing into the equipment and my hands did not come up fast enough to protect myself.

Why is this shit happening to me?

I held my head as it started throbbing and I suddenly felt very hot, uncomfortably hot. I moaned in pain and could not hear much as it sounded like everything was blending in together. My sight was going blurry and I felt arms wrap about my waist, jerking me upward. I looked over to see Dagen...or was it? I couldn't tell as I forced myself to keep my eyes opened. Everything was jumbled and it felt as though, besides the aching in my head, I was drugged or there was something running in my system. It didn't make sense and I couldn't keep my thoughts collected as I started to feel my eyelids fall with great heaviness.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

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