Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ Dancing Rain ❯ Midnight Confessions ( Chapter 4 )

Dancing Rain

By Hatori's AnGeL

A/N:

Thanks for the review Tsukitani-san! *hugs* whew, that chappie with the lime took me days to write. I kept on revising and revising it coz it just won't sound right. Thank Kami that my muse finally straightened it out for me, or else I would have given up and scrapped that chapter all together now… Anyway, I know I made Akito a bit feminine there but since it was Hatori's dream-its just his idea or concept of his subconscious mind on how would Akito would act if Akito would indeed seduce him. Ok, about the omission on Hatori's measurements, well, to tell you honestly, Hatori won't let me measure it as well… *sigh* He says that a man is measured not by his *cough* length but by his *cough* ability. And you know Hatori…. He dislikes boasting about stuff like that. Anyway, if he won't, than I will. *grins* Let's just say that Hatori is very well endowed and very good in and out of bed (*whispers* like on the sofa *wink wink*, in the kitchen, on the carpet & table of his office…*cough cough, blush*) And yes, he prefers boxers… I think I know what Shigure meant coz I asked Hatori about briefs before and he mumbled something about it being too damn tight *giggles* well I better run off now or I'd be in bigger trouble than before if Hatori found out that I've been telling tales outta bed… and oh yeah, I'm sure you'd like this chappie coz your darling inu is in it… enjoy!

ALSO: thanks to my other reviewer FAITH for taking time to read my fic and rated me!!!! *hops up and down with glee!* I've got a new fan! YAY! I hope you will continue reading my fic… and don't worry… you'll see more of Akito in the ff. chappies… I've got a lot in store for him and my beloved Tori-san… *laughs head off…* NOW, to the story!

Disclaimer: All the Fruits Basket characters belong to the great Takaya-sensei… if I owned just only Hatori *crosses fingers* … I would die happy… *grins*

Warning: Expect slight OOC from the characters…

Chapter 4: Midnight Confessions

It was nearing midnight. The rain was still falling, but gently this time. The howling wind, the crashing thunder, and the fury of the rain was spent earlier this evening. Tired and nearly drained, the rain dwindled down to a soft pitter-patter that could be heard on the roof of Shigure's house. Inside the house, the air barely stirred. Most of its occupants were already lulled to sleep by the rain's sweet lullaby. The only light that could be visible in the house was the lighted dining room. The breathing of its three occupants would indicate that they were still all awake. The tension in the room thickened as the clock slowly tick-tock to midnight…

-----* The Dining Room *-----

Shigure had his face buried in the nook of his arms that were resting on the table. His shaking shoulders betrayed his feelings while Ayame, uncharacteristically quiet, sat silently in between him and Hator-who was sitting stiffly at his place, glaring at the laughing inu. Shigure glanced up at him and couldn't help smirking then howling in laughter again as he remembered the recent events that has occurred in his home…

~ flashback: Shigure's study ~

Shigure had found Hatori in his study earlier in the evening in this shocking state of undress and in quite a *mess*. Hatori had dreamlessly fallen asleep in exhaustion still on a kneeling position on the couch with his head buried in it when Shigure woke him up, smirking and snickering at him. Shigure then stated perversely how dangerous his *position* was because someone could have just walked in on him (just like he did) and witness his state of *ahem* undress. Shigure has never seen Hatori in such a "careless" state before… he has always been so damn perfect and an immaculate control freak that it always drove him crazy. But now *this* changes things quite a bit… hmmm… good ol' Hatori… He searched his mind wondering what could have caused Hatori to behave so... and in his study at that of all places. Unable to keep such a juicy tidbit to himself, Shigure immediately related it all to Ayame. He couldn't help snickering as he described to Ayame in perfect detail of Hatori's present state. Oh he would never let Hatori forget this one!

Surprisingly, his usually exuberant and also pervert cousin of his did not react the same way as he did. Ayame actually looked concerned for the doctor as evident by the frown that creased his forehead. Ayame would never do such a thing that would mar the beauty of his face. For him to frown would mean that Ayame was indeed taking things seriously. Shigure had looked at Ayame questioningly.

"I think we shouldn't let the others know about this Gure-san," was Ayame's answer to the silent question.

Shigure thought about it and nodded in silent agreement. He would keep it quiet… for now. He smiled inwardly. It would be interesting to see the reaction of the boys if they find out that their usual grave cousin *relieved* himself in HIS house, and in HIS study, of all places… He chuckled and smirked. So, whose the pervert now? But what really was puzzling him is why or *whom* caused this incident to happen to Hatori… what has caused Hatori's hormones react as such to cause him to do *that* WHO was Hatori fantasizing about… Shigure rubbed his hands in anticipation. He'd get to the bottom of this if this was the last thing he would do…

So Ayame and also Shigure had made sure that the young ones stayed away from the study, explaining that it would be unwise to disturb the sleeping dragon. Satisfied with that answer, the boys and Tohru left Hatori alone (who was gnashing his teeth in frustration over his present dirty and messy situation). Hatori had not even dared to come out to clean himself up until it was absolutely sure that the others were absolutely asleep. After cleaning up, Hatori had then resigned himself in wearing the inu's rarely used Western clothing and had headed for the dining room dreading the ensuing probable torment/interrogation his two friends have in store for him.

~ end flashback ~

So here was Ayame and Shigure, seated at the dining table, waiting for Hatori's explanation for his erm `weird' behavior. The inu had quieted down after Hatori whacked his head when his laughter had became too noisy. It was amazing that Shigure had only reacted like that now and not in front of his younger cousins and Tohru. Hatori had no idea how he would explain why Shigure was laughing his head off everytime he saw him. Hatori ran his fingers in his hair in frustration. He definitely thought that this was definitely not a laughing matter. He sighed then looked up in surprise when Ayame silently offered him a cigarette. He gratefully took one and then watched as Shigure quieted down and took a cigarette too. The room then became stark silent as smoke slowly swirled in the air… in tune with the tension that was also swirling and brewing in the room.

Shigure couldn't stand the awkward silence anymore. What the heck… why not go straight to the point? They had never bothered with formalities before. His lips curved into a smirking grin as he made the decision to speak first. He opened his mouth to question the hassenchi…

"Tori-san, is everything all right?" sensing the inu's intentions, Ayame broke the silence first. Shigure pouted at Ayame, annoyed that his game was ruined.

"Hai." was Hatori's curt reply.

"Are you sure? You didn't look quite *right* a while ago.… " snickered Shigure. He couldn't help digging it in. And besides, he knew that Ayame was also dying to know what had caused Hatori to let himself *bare* like that.

Hatori didn't answer immediately. He took out another cigarette and lighted it. He inhaled deeply, stalling for an answer. He knew that they weren't just inquiring about his present state of health… they were curious about what has happened or who had caused him to unconsciously do *that*! He didn't know if he should just go ahead and open up to them or make something up and leave it at that. He exhaled the smoke furiously, well for goodness' sake! He wasn't some kind of pervert like the inu here… he had some wet dreams before but not like that. Never like that. Never with one with the clan head for that matter. He couldn't help groaning in frustration. Just thinking about that stupid silly impossible wet dream made him want to scream and bellow in frustration and anger. Hatori slammed his fist on the table, fighting for control. He will not break down. No, he won't break down. He won't let a simple dream eat him up, drive him crazy, and give him a nervous breakdown. He will never give in. He will never allow that-his dream or nervous breakdown-to happen. Hatori took a deep breath and calmed down. He looked up, suddenly remembering that he was with Shigure and Ayame.

Shigure and Ayame were staring at him in horrified fascination. Both were shocked… terribly shocked by the display of emotion that Hatori just showed them. They had never seen Hatori slip and loose control like that. Never. Whatever Hatori was going through was definitely very serious indeed to have shaken Hatori like that. Shigure looked slightly remorseful… looks like he won't be able to rub it in that much after all. Not after seeing Hatori go berserk over such a simple question. Shigure glanced at Ayame. They both silently nodded and agreed to seriously help their cousin. Hatori may be a total bore and a drag at times but he has always been there friend, giving perfectly sound advice and silent comfort at the times that they had also gone quite mad.

"Tori-san, please… we want to help you… really we do! Please tell us what is the matter. Tori-san has always been there for us and now we want to be there for you in return. We can't stand seeing Tori-san like this… bottled up in pain and frustration. Will you tell us what's wrong?" pleaded Ayame softly.

Shigure, in a serious mood now, looked at the silent dragon.

"Does it involve… Tohru-kun?"

"NO!" Hatori blasted furiously. He then winced and waited for any obvious stirring in the upper half of the house over his loud reaction. He glared at Shigure.

"It's not Kana now isn't it…?" asked Ayame hesitantly. Kana was sometimes a touchy subject for Hatori.

Hatori was silent. Is it? Is Kana involved in this? In a small way she was. Horrified, he only realized now that he had subconsciously *made out* with the man who has hurt and destroyed him and a part of his soul. Not only that, he had admitted-accepted these feelings he had for Akito during his dream! How on earth could he feel like *that* for the man who had taken his beloved Kana away from him? Speechless with that fact, Hatori just sat there, his mind blank… spaced out with that single horrifying thought.

Shigure had been closely looking at him and at his reactions. He had clearly seen and sensed the conflicting emotions that was running wild in his cousin's face and mind.

"No… I don't think its Kana. Not with that horrified look on your face. It is someone else. Someone that you are repulsed at with that look on your face…" Shigure concluded out loud as he and Ayame wracked their brains in search of a name that would cause such a look of horror in their cousin's face.

A very familiar name popped up in the minds of the inu and the hebi. Both of them pushed the name aside because of its absurdity. But the longer they thought about it… the longer the feeling of conviction stayed. Who else could bring horror and terror in any of the Sohma's face? Who else could the great immovable Hatori be frightened than the one and only… Both of them gasped and looked at each other with the same shocked and horrified look with the name that they had both come up with.

"No…" whispered Ayame in a horrified tone…

"It can't be!" was Shigure's exclamation to the name that was now blinking like a horrid ghastly neon sign in his mind.

As one, they both turned towards Hatori, waiting for his vehement denial to the name that they had concluded upon.

Hatori looked at them then buried his head in his hands in shame. He couldn't look at his friends. He didn't want to know or see his friends' reaction to his "confession". Hatori couldn't understand himself or his feelings. How much more his friends who have never seen him like this-become like this. He felt so miserable and ashamed. He cursed the day that he was born into the Sohma family… complete with its curses that would forever torment him. Even in his dreams he is being tormented… punished for this curse he has… the curse of changing to an animal and the cursed power/ability he has that he could erase people's memories. Yes, that's probably it. He was being punished… driven to madness-to insanity by these horrid thoughts, dreams, and feelings…

"HATORI!" barked Shigure loudly as he shook Hatori violently. Hatori was loosing it. Breaking down. Shigure had recognized the crazed look that flickered on Hatori's face and had immediately pounced on him and trying to snap him back to reality.

Hatori pushed him away, tumbling Shigure on the floor. He stood up and was about to make a run for the door when suddenly, a loud slap could be heard in the room.

Hatori found himself staring at the golden-yellow eyes of his cousin, his left cheek stung and reddened by the slap he received. Ayame was looking at Hatori sorrowfully. His hand smarted by the slap he just gave to Hatori.

"Gomen, Tori-san… but please snap out of it!" Ayame said softly. "We won't hurt you… so why are you running away from us?"

"Ha-san, whatever that is going on… we assure you, we will do our best to help. We know the pain that you've gone through… and also the confusion that you're experiencing right now. I… we just want you to know that we won't judge you or anything. We'll be here for you…" Shigure pleaded with him softly… trying to make him understand.

Hatori looked at his two cousins who were also his best friends. The both of them had a genuine look of concern and an air of sincerity about them. He had expected ridicule and rejection… but instead they had both shown compassion and great understanding. Even by stopping him make a complete insane idiot of himself by literally slapping him back to reality. He blinked. Kami, he felt so tired by the emotional roller coaster ride he has had these past few hours… he gave up and let his tears fall as his friends ran up to him to support his unsteady body. He groaned out as his damned tears kept trickling down as he slowly cussed and confessed that…

"Yes, its Akito. And I can't keep him out of my head, my mind, my dreams… I'm having feelings for him for crying out loud! Its stupid. Its insane. Its driving me crazy! I don't know what to do!" he sobbed as Shigure and Ayame were placing their arms comfortingly on his shoulders.

The two couldn't say a thing. They didn't know what to do or how to handle this information either. One thing for sure now is that Hatori needs all the moral support he could get. Hatori has never asked for help or needed help from them until the day. And they are willing to give it… no matter how much or how long it takes… they'll stick together… they'll stay.

A/N: So sorry that it took me so long to post another one of these! Yay! Another chappie all done… *sob, sniff* I couldn't help adding this bit of fluff at the end. I mean, what are friends for if they aren't there to help you at the time you need them the most ey? Anyway, I know the characters have become OOC at the end… gomenasai! Actually, Ayame has been difficult to do coz this fic is sort of angsty and all and it just isn't going to fit if I put the Ayame we all know and love that is shown in the anime series. I've still tried my best though to keep this fic and its characters in character as closely as possible (using my mental powers…hehehe).

ANYWAY, Been quite busy lately… but yay! I'm now back to sleeping in my own home so hopefully, my muse would settle down and let me write some more chappies ASAP! *yay!* gosh, I've really missed the modern world… anyway, hopefully I'll be able to post another chappie within this week. So, pls don't forget to R & R! Arigato! Ciao!

-Hatori's AnGeL