Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ Haru ❯ I Just Want To Love You ( Chapter 2 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Disclaimer: I don't own Fruits Basket.
Author's Crap: This has been co-written with my dear Ali. (BizarreLoveTriangles. This was inspired by Nightwish's She Is My Sin, and Carrie.

"Oh, Haa-kun." The dog murmured warily when he appeared at the door again. "Can I help you?" He wasn't too keen on actually letting the child in his poor traumatized house.

"I want--need to talk to Kyo." He stated, not appreciating for a minute the look Shigure was giving him. "Don't worry, I won't blow anything up."

"Kagura-chan showed up a little while ago and dragged him off, Haa-kun." Shigure shrugged.

"Damnit!" Haru cursed, and he heard...something break inside. He was sure he didn't want to know what it was, though. "Uh...if that was my fault, I'm sorry." He added, wincing slightly.

His older cousin gave him a dry look. "Don't worry, I'll just take money out of your account to fix it, whatever it is."

"Make sure it was actually my fault, first!" Haru suggested, less than gently.

"Of course. Maybe you'll be lucky and Tohru-kun knocked something over." The dog snorted. "You can come inside to wait for Kyo-kun if you want to. I'm just not sure when Kagura-chan will let him come home."

"I'll wait." Haru agreed, calming himself down again, before following Shigure inside. He NEEDED to talk to Kyo that day...maybe Kagura would let him come home early...

Or not. She could keep him out all day and he could FINALLY come stumbling back into the house around eleven o'clock at night...

Well...either way, Haru was still waiting for him, when he got back. He was extremely bored, zoned out, and half asleep, but he was still there.

"Haru." Kyo prodded him, even as he tried to keep himself awake. "What are you doing here so damn late?"

"Nnn?" Haru snapped back to reality, and looked quickly up at him. "Oh. Waiting for you. Again. We need to talk."

"No, we really don't." The red head sighed, he should have known, and turned to head upstairs.

"Kyo," Haru frowned, and caught his wrist, before he could get away. "Yes, we do. Or, I need to talk, and you need to listen to me."

"I might NEED to." Kyo rolled his eyes. "But that doesn't mean I'm going to." He jerked his wrist away from the other simply and continued on his way.

"Yes," Haru got up, and pretty much bull rushed him, tackling him to the floor. "You will, even if I have to sit on you all damn night."

The cat was slightly dazed for a moment before he bristled and squirmed uncomfortably under the ox.

"Just go home, Haru." The snarled.

"No." He shook his head adamantly. "I'm not going anywhere, until we talk. Damnit--I'm not going to loose you too!"

"Oh, come off it already!" Kyo hissed, it was eleven o'clock at night and normal people sleep at that hour.

"No." He shook his head again. "Not until you know the fucking truth."

"Hurry up then!"

"You were right, earlier." Haru stated, breathing heavily from the adrenaline rush. "When you said I was jealous. You were just wrong about who I'm jealous of."

"Will you get to your fucking point already, Haru?!" The red head growled in annoyance.

"That would be the point Kyo." The ox informed him impatiently. "I'm jealous of RIN, not her husband. I...I'm jealous that she found someone that she can give herself to, completely and in all aspects, and that I don't know how." He...conveniently forgot to mention that he was also jealous that the person Rin had found wasn't him. He figured he was in enough shit, without that too.

"That's great Haru. Now get off!" The feline ordered. That didn't make him feel any better.

"No." He shook his head. "Knowing the truth includes believing and accepting it."

"Alright. Fine. I believe you. Now, off me."

"Are you going to run off, if I move?"

"No." He planned on stalking coolly up the stairs. No running involved.

"Promise!" Haru ordered, squirming slightly around on him, to prove his point.

"Fine!' The red head snapped.

Haru slid obediently off of him, as he'd promised he would, but continued to watch him carefully, even after he did.

The cat got up gracefully and moved wordlessly for the stairs. He'd promised not to run, but he hoped to go fast enough that the ox wouldn't catch him before he slammed the door in his face.

No such luck. Haru just tackled him down to the ground again.

"You promised." He pointed out coolly.

"I wasn't running." The older boy retorted.

"Running off, walking off, it's the same principle." Haru brushed that off, rolling his eyes. "Now, give me feedback on my conclusion."

"Feedback!" The cat spluttered. "Fine, my feedback? All right, fine. It's all so very sad for you! Now. Off me." He muttered with a slight sneer.

"No." Haru shook his head. "Full, honest opinion."

"What are you hoping I'll say? Don't worry Haru I'll help you?! It'll be okay!" The red head snorted in a mocking tone. "It's not going to happen."

"I. Want. To. Know. What. You. Think." Haru told him through clenched teeth. Something was shaking behind him, but he didn't care what it was, or the fact that a sudden power surge seemed to have just occurred, because the lights flashed on for a moment.

Upstairs, everyone was awake. But, Shigure glanced down the stairs saw the two of them and proceeded to keep Tohru and Yuki in their rooms, for their own safety.
"There's nothing to think Haru." The cat sighed. "Just that we really aren't ever gonna be that serious since neither of us can give much of anything."

"You don't know that." Haru shook his head, in protest. "I don't know how yet, but that doesn't mean I can't fucking learn. But that won't happen either, if you just give up!"

"I can't give up if nothing was there to begin with." The smaller snorted.

"There's a difference between not knowing how to give yourself up COMPLETELY, and not giving half a crap to begin with." The ox pointed out. "That counts as something, doesn't it? The fact that I care about you to begin with?"

"Oh, do you?" Kyo rolled his eyes. "Yeah since nothing says care like tackling me, flickering lights and various exploding glass objects!"

"The last two aren't my fault." Haru pointed out with a snort. "They just happen. And, I only tackled you, because you won't sit still on your own."

"I don't like this, Haru." The feline finally murmured something reasonable. "I don't know what the hell to do and you don't either. So, I'm backed in a corner and I don't like it."

"You think I like it?" He stiffened slightly, and the lights flashed on and off again. "Do you? Cause, I don't. I just know that I don't want to loose you..." He didn't think he could stand to loose Kyo, right after Rin's wedding...literally right afterward.

"Just where are you going to lose me?" The cat sighed. "I'm not going to get lost under the couch or anything."

"Not literally." He groaned in frustration, and whatever was shaking gave another mighty shudder, but it still didn't break or fall. "I don't think I could take another failed relationship, Kyo. Not right now."

Well, that certainly made Kyo feel guilty.

"Haru... I'm tired... please get off me." He begged. "It hasn't failed yet..." Though, said failure seemed imminent.

"Right..." He sighed, and the shaking did calm down again, upon the reassurance. "But...it's dark. I'll never find my way home, tonight. Do you think Sensei would mind if I just crashed on the couch?"

Kyo got back to his feet and raised an eyebrow at the younger boy. "You CAN just put up a futon in my room, you know."

"Oh?" Haru blinked at him idly. "For some reason, I hadn't thought that was an option. Sounds good, though."

The red head sighed tiredly and just headed up the stairs. School was going to be tiring the next day...

Kyo was tired? If Kyo was tired, Haru was comatose. He'd been fine for a few hours, but then he'd woken up from a dream involving the school imploding, and Yuki wearing a pimp hat and in the middle of a sword fight for the student council presidency with the Takei. After waking up from that, he couldn't exactly force himself to go back to sleep. So, the next morning, he was running on about two and a half hours sleep.

Yeah... when he came stumbling out of the room, Tohru blinked at him oddly.

"Hatsuharu-kun... why are you here---I mean. Are you alright?"

"Neh?" Haru blinked tiredly at her, before shaking his head and yawning a bit. "M'fine." He just chose to ignore her first question.

Kyo came down the stairs a few moments after him and went in search of his milk, but he came back out of the kitchen shivering irritably.

"What's wrong Kyo-kun?" The onigiri turned her attention to him.

"Uh... it's cold in there." The cat blinked.

"Oh yes... the window is still... Shigure-san is having someone come fix that today..."

Haru sort of heard her say that, but was honestly still half asleep, and didn't really pay any attention to it, rather sliding sleepily down one of the walls in the hallway, and letting his head rest against it.

Tohru meeped worriedly when she heard him finally thunk to the floor, but Kyo shooed her off and just knelt down next to the other and prodded him.

Haru opened his eyes again, and raised an eyebrow at him.

"Hnn?"

"We have school today." The red head told him flatly.

"I know that." Haru nodded, his eyes still only half open. "Just didn't sleep well. Had a weird dream."

"Are you even gonna be able to stay awake long enough to get to school?" The feline wondered.

"The possibility is there." He confirmed, slumping sideways, to let his head rest in Kyo's lap.

The cat rolled his eyes. "You'd have to go to your house either way, just stay there and sleep."

"Right." He agreed with a small nod. He was sure he could make the few miles to the compound and his room without falling asleep...or, at least, he hoped he'd be able to.

"C'mon." Kyo urged him out of his lap and got him up. He'd have to take Haru, or the stupid ox would get lost.

Haru snorted slightly, and let his head rest on Kyo's shoulder, but he did go where Kyo led him without any problem. The problem came with the fact that that he'd entwined his fingers with Kyo's, at some point, and fell asleep as soon as they got to his door, and wouldn't let go, then.

The cat rolled his eyes again, but just decided he didn't really want to go to school either. He just got Haru settled in his bed and sat beside it quietly, reading a book he'd grabbed off the ox's desk.

Haru woke up several hours later, curled up contentedly around Kyo's hand, which was still clutched in his own. He blinked, a little confused as to why he was at home, why Kyo was there, and how the arrival had occurred. (He didn't really remember anything from that morning, he'd been so out of it.)

"I brought you home, and then you wouldn't let go of my hand." The cat shrugged simply.

"Ah." He nodded, blinking a bit more, but he didn't argue. He didn't let go, either, though. He happened to like holding Kyo's hand. "Okay then..."

"And we missed school." Kyo murmured. That was probably unnecessary, but he said it anyways.

"Worse things have happened." Haru shrugged a little. And, really, they had. Missing school was way down on the list of worldly catastrophes.

"Do you ever plan on giving me my hand back? Or do I have to beat you up?" The red head finally wondered dryly.

"You'd hit me over wanting to touch you?" Haru pouted in a mock injured tone. "That's not nice, Kyo."

"What if I told you my fingers were going numb?"

"Can I touch a different body part?" Haru requested, with a devious grin, crawling slowly up his boyfriend's arm, to give him a proper hug.

Kyo shifted under his touch slightly but didn't say anything about it. They'd just sort of kind of made up... For some reason he was fairly certain he should be happy right now?

Happy would be a good emotion to have at the moment. Haru might get insulted, if he suddenly burst into tears. But, as it was, Haru was happy and blissfully ignoring any discomfort Kyo was feeling, as he wrapped his arms around the other's shoulders, and tugged him down into a laying position.

The cat went with the urging at watched the younger boy oddly. At least he wasn't pissed off and making windows explode or anything right now...

No…no exploding windows. The door did close, apparently of it's own accord, but that was the weirdest of it for that ten minutes. Haru glanced absently at the shut door, but just shrugged it off. He hadn't known he could do that...assuming he had at all.

"You know you're doing that, don't you?" The older wondered, his hair bristled slightly. He could almost feel it when Haru did things like that, it made his skin tingle, but that was probably thanks to the vengeful animal spirit in him. That and he had spent the better part of yesterday trying to prove to Haru that he did those telekinetic things to begin with.

"On some level." Haru nodded idly. "But, it's not like I say 'door shut' and it does it. It just happens. Must have something to do with subconscious desires. Tori-nii thinks I can probably learn how to control it, though."

"That'd be nice." The red head snorted. "You think Shigure is bitchy about doors, wait till you break a few more windows."

"I didn't mean to break his windows...!" Haru pointed out. "And, it wouldn't have happened if you'd just have believed me to begin with."

"I don't---didn't have a reason to." Kyo floundered slightly.

"I told you I wasn't jealous of him. That should have been enough."

"Right." The cat sighed flatly.

"Either way..." He carefully sidetracked that particular subject. "He thinks I can probably learn how to do other stuff with them too."

"Then you'd finally be good for something, Haru." His older cousin teased him.

"Oh, yeah." Haru played along. "I'm sure learning how to levitate stuff will really up my usefulness."

"It will." Kyo nodded. "I could put you to work cleaning."

The ox snickered softly, and squirmed up to place a kiss on Kyo's cheek.

"I'll be sure to do that."

The feline reached up tentatively and urged the ox back so their lips could actually meet. They hadn't kissed in a while considering how upset they BOTH had been. But it was better now.

"I want to love you..." Haru murmured, once the kiss broke. As though he were promising both of them some great treat. "And I will--I do...I think..." He stopped suddenly, before he dug himself deeper in, and just kissed Kyo again.

"It doesn't matter right now." The cat sighed. And it really didn't. Only morons think every relationship starts out with some kind of deep love. It was too soon for Kyo to even think about it. He hadn't thought about it until the ox said something.

"Right." Haru agreed, licking his lips slightly, and nodding. "We'll think about it when it does."


To Be Continued...
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