Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ I LOVE YOU ❯ Fumbling Towards Ecstasy ( Chapter 6 )

Disclaimer: I do not own Fruits Basket or it's characters. It belongs to Takaya Nasuki. Nor do I own the lyrics to "Fumbling Towards Ecstasy" they are property of Sarah McLachlan

Well, I am finding it harder to stay within my two bands of choice. I couldn't find the perfect Cure song for this chapter so I did another Sarah McLachlan. Now I have decided to solicit lyric ideas from you, my dear readers. If you have a song, which might work with this story, let me know. I don't promise I will use it; it has to fit where I am going with this, but I would love to hear your thoughts. This chapter took two days longer to post, because I couldn't decide on the perfect song. Yikes… This was harder then I thought it would be.

Now, let's see, any new places to add to my little reader map? Yes, we have: Ontario, Washington, Michigan (this is The Smiling Onigiri, who must give me at least one song idea for my future consideration, because you were not quite satisfied with Possession in the last chapter. Since, I felt you were a little right, I must have your opinion, okay?) Did I get everyone?

Well, enjoy this chapter, review, and tell me where in the world you live and what your favorite songs are. No need to send lyrics, unless they are really obscure, because I can find them online, just tell me song name & band. I look forward to hearing from you. : )

I LOVE YOU

Chapter Six: Fumbling Towards Ecstasy

As we stepped into the warmth of the beach house, I sent up a silent 'Thank You'. I had managed to get Yuki back inside, now I just needed to get him dried off. Together we headed down the hall towards the bathroom.

"If Yuki gets sick it will be because of you." Akito whispered from inside my head. 'Please leave me alone.' I silently begged, but of course he didn't listen. "You stupid ugly little girl, do you see what you have done to him? Do you see how you've hurt him? You don't deserve Yuki. Leave now. Get out of that house right now. Yuki is mine!"

"Stop it." I answered back. "You're wrong." Yuki looked surprised and stopped in his tracks.

"I'm sorry, Miss Honda. I'll leave you alone then."

"NO! That's not what I meant. I… I was just thinking out loud. Come on, you need to get warm." Grabbing his hand I led him the rest of the way down the hall and into the large bathroom.

Yuki grabbed two thick towels from the cupboard and I turned on the water in the large bathtub, as well as in the shower. We were both covered in sand. Yuki would need to rinse off before getting into the bath.

I took a towel from his hands, and smiled at him.

"You should go first. I don't want your asthma to get any worse." I told him, but he shook his head.

"You need to warm up too, Miss Honda. I don't mind waiting. After all, it is my fault we were out in that rain in the first place." He turned to leave, but I decided that just wouldn't do. If I got sick, I would get better. If Yuki got sick it could be dangerous.

"We can bathe together." I offered, without really thinking about it. I had already broken most of Akito's rules. We were alone together, we had kissed, and we had basically seen each other naked, so did it really matter anymore? If we were to be punished for this, for falling in love, then shouldn't it at least be worth it?

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All the fear has left me now
I'm not frightened anymore
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
it's my mouth that pushes out this breath
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love

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"Miss Honda?" Yuki wondered, his eyes wide and unsure. "Are you certain about this? You're not doing this just for my benefit are you?"

"No, Yuki. I'm doing this for my benefit." I told him, pulling his towel out of his hand and placing both towels on the counter, before pulling my dress off over my head and stepping under the wonderfully hot shower.

I watched him as he unbuttoned his pants, and shyly slipped them off. I watched him, because I wanted to watch him, because I was tired of fighting it. I was completely sick of all of it, of being good, of being scared, and of needing something that I couldn't have.

When he looked over, to catch me staring, his eyes fluttered bashfully away from mine and a blush touched his pale cheeks, but then he smiled. Moving into the shower, he took both of my hands into his.

"Are you really sure about this, Miss Honda?"

"Yes, Yuki. I'm sure, but can you please do something for me?" I asked.

"Anything." He answered, lifting one of my hands to his lips and kissing it. "I'd do anything for you, Miss Honda. Anything at all."

"Can you please stop calling me that?" I said with a smile. It wasn't the first time that I had asked this of him. Yuki had called me Miss Honda for so long that it had simply become a habit.

"I'm sorry, Miss…" His face grew beat red, and he laughed at himself. "I mean, I'm sorry, Tohru."

Smiling at his adorable awkwardness, I reach past him and plucked up the bar of soap from its tray. Realizing that he was letting me hog all of the water, I stepped to the side and gently nudged him underneath the showerhead. "Turn around." I requested, as I worked the bar of soap into lather. "I'll wash your back." His face burned crimson, but he did as I had asked.

As I reached out my hand to touch his pale back, my heart plummeted to my feet, and tears came to my eyes. Yuki's back, his entire back, was covered with a tiny network of razor thin scars. "Yuki." I whispered, and placed my hands over his back, gently lathering the soap over his scarred skin. "Akito? When did he do this to you?"

"I'm sorry, Miss Ho… Tohru. It's not very attractive is it?" He turned his back away from me, his face a mask of shame. "You don't need to… I'm sorry, I shouldn't have let you see."

"Don't." I told him. "You don't need to hide anything from me. Please, let me finish." I moved behind him, but instead of washing his back I stepped forward and I kissed it.

"Tohru." Yuki whispered, and I smiled, and I kissed his back again.

"I love you, Yuki. I will never forgive Akito for doing this to you." I promised him. Resting my hands upon his perfect waist, I trailed my tongue down along his baby soft, but wounded, skin and up again to the back of his neck.

In my mind I could hear "him" cursing me. 'Get your hands off of him! He is mine!' I steeled my heart, and smiled victoriously. 'Akito, you bastard, for each of these scars I will repay you. You deserve this, Yuki will be mine tonight, and you will not stop me."

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Companion to our demons
they will dance, and we will play
With chairs, candles, and cloth
making darkness in the day
It will be easy to look in or out
upstream or down without a thought
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Peace in the struggle
to find peace
comfort on the way
to comfort
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
I won't fear love.

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Chapter six over, seven in the works.

Yes, I know, I know, this was short. This is because the next chapter, which will probably be a lemon, and probably two versions, PG-13 on Fanfiction.net & R on Mediaminer.org, is Yuki's chapter, and if I was going to do a lemon I wanted to do it from Yuki's point of view… I think.

YTR