Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ Sudden Desires! ❯ The Thought Of It Hurts! ( Chapter 2 )

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Chapter 2

The Thought Of It Hurts!

I just can't believe I'm having these feelings for Yuki! I know! I'll just get a girl friend! That's it! By having a girl friend that already tells me I like girls and then once we screw, and I like it, that will determine weither I'm straight or not! I sigh!

 

But, what girl would want to go out with me? Well let's see my options. First all the girls I know: Tohru, Karen, Arisa, Saki, Kisa, Kagura, Isuzu, Machi, and Kimi….Wow! Those are a lot…but for now let's just cross out the too young, the crazy, and the family. That leaves me with: Tohru, Karen, Arisa, Saki, Machi and Kimi. Well I really don't know Machi or Kimi so I can cross them out. Saki scares me shitless! And Arisa, I wouldn't be caught dead asking her out! So that just eaves Tohru and Karen. Now which one wouldn't mind being my girlfriend….actually let me ask myself the real question. Which one would be willing to fuck me after a while of going out? Tohru is just too pure and Karen….well I really don't know about Karen. She really is hard to read…I don't know what she would do if I asked her! She could ripe my head off or eagerly accept! Either way it screws me over because after wards I'd just feel bad. Using her like this….it would be devastating to the both of us and once again it comes to ruining a bond. The thought of losing her because of my actions is unbearable! But even so, if this does fail I will have to succumb to the fact that I am gay and allow Yuki to take me as he wants. As much as I want Yuki I must make sure that I like or don't like screwing woman.

 

But, this is the only way I can find out if I'm straight or not! I most see if I like to screw girls more and better than guys. If its guys then I'll just have to deal with accepting that I'm gay. Although that's not what I want! I don't want to use Karen like this and I don't want to experiment with both mine and her feelings. I really care for her and if she's hurt because of my experiment, I don't know what I'd do if she was really hurt?!?! It's just useless thinking about it! She would never say yes anyway! She'd probably look at me weird and then walk away! I sigh again! I'm really pathetic! You know what? I'm going to go through with this plan! I know the consequences and I don't care about them anymore! This is a matter of being a man! If I'm to be gay or straight! This will decide my fate! I can hear that breakfast is done because there is noise coming from the kitchen. I'm going to have to get her alone if I want to do this right!

 

Hey! How lucky am I? She's walking up right now! I open my door and watch as Karen reaches for her door room and then she walks in. I slither from my room and reach her door. I slightly tap it and the door opens. I walk in looking to see if Karen was here or not. I could have sworn I saw her come in here! Ah there she is, on the bed. Karen is lying on her twin sized bed with her right arm covering her face. It seems like she doesn't like how the light is hitting her.

 

“If you don't like the light so much then why put your bed so close to the wall?” She gasps and immediately gets up to face me. She blinks repeatedly and she just looks so cute in her nervous state.

 

“Um….well….I do it because it gives me more room. Not that I need a lot of room! It's just good to have some space is all.” She sits back on the bed, her back against the wall. I personally like the way the sun shines on her. It gives her that presence. Anyway! I have to ask her if she likes me, and when she says yes I'll ask her out and wait for that reply. Then I'll be closer to my goal of finding out what I am! YES!

 

“So, Karen. I was wondering if, well you know, that well, I don't know, if you like me or not.” I sit down next to her and as to question registers in her brain, she starts to blush. How cute! She so adorable when she shows these emotions; normally I wouldn't see anything come from her but when she shows other things then a smile, I love it!

 

“Um…..well…I….” She blushes some more and she turns her head to look away. So cute! She's trying to hide her face!

 

“Come on Karen! Don't you want to answer my question? Do you like me?” I inch closer to her and I use one of my fingers to bring her face to me. Just like Yuki did outside only I'm going to kiss her. She'll definitely fall more in love with me and all the faster I can get to screwing her. Having her know that she's mine and that it's alright to fuck makes me all the more justified in finding out what I am! She starts to shake from anticipation. I know she wants it and I'll give it to her. As our lips touch and I inhale, I can feel that I just stole her breath away! Her wet luscious lips so scrumptiously tasty, I can't help myself. Karen relaxes even more against the wall and I find that she's moaning from pleasure. This is going to be easy! I pull away and find that she pulls away with me and then our lips part. She goes back to her position and closes her eyes.

 

“Yes! I do Kyo! I do like yo-No I love you!” Her breathing had become erratic. It's almost like she's drunk but not really. Hey! That's an idea!

 

“Good. Then would you like to go out?” I ask kissing her again. I move down to her neck and she jolts up against the wall not being able to go any farther but attempts to anyway. Her breathing hard and she holds her left side of her neck. I chuckle and raise my hand to her cheek.

 

“I wont' hurt you! I promise!” She looks at me intently and then she lets go of her neck. She relaxes again and I move to her right side of her neck. She doesn't move this time and I start to nip at her.

 

“-gulp-Yes Kyo….I'll go….out with you….” She says through moans.

 

She can't contain them, I can tell by the way her eyes glaze over. She'll be easy to take. Now that that's over, time to get rid of these desires over Yuki by fucking around with Karen. Now to get her to agree to have sex I'll have to make fall in love with me….that's already happened. Ok then! Next I have to slowly progress our bond together. With each passing year or month or week or day I'll move more and more until we actually get to the sex. First the kissing then the cuddling and then the sleeping together and then the touching and then finally oh yes finally the sex! This is probably going to be hard though. Knowing Karen she'll feel weird about all this coming at her all at once. So I guess I'll take it slow. I continue to nip at her neck extracting moans from her each time then I stop to look at my master piece. There it was nice big and red, the first hickey of our soon to be very fastly filled sex life together. Once she's comfortable I'll more even fast to get to the sex and then once it happens and I like it that will tell me I'm straight! If not then I stay give Yuki what he wants and we shall live happy together as two gay lovers…..I just don't think its right to chose anyway. Why can't I be bi!?!!??! I mean it seems they've got the better of the two lifestyles! They don't have to choose between genders! They just follow their hearts and end of story! No fricking complications on loving the same or opposite sex! I really hate my life! As I continue to kiss Karen, a knock is heard at the door! We immediately jump and I run for the closet! She closes the closets door and then goes to open the other one! I can see her nervously rub at the hickey trying to conceal it from who ever is at the door!

 

“Hello there Karen. I was passing by and thought that I should thank you for such a….delicious breakfast!” It was Yuki and he was licking his lips as he inched forward towards Karen as she back away.

 

It looked as though she was scared of him and what he is capable of, what ever that is! She back's up on to the bed and Turning her head to look what she bumped into caused her demise. By taking her eyes off Yuki for those few seconds, was all Yuki needed to push her on to the bed and follow her as she fell on to the twin sized bed their bodies extremely close! What is he doing?! How can he just waltz in here and expect her to do nothing! Why doesn't she push him off? She has the perfect chance to escape him but she's not taking it! Is it because I'm here? Baka! Don't worry about me! Take care of yourself damn it! Damn baka! She is totally open! Her legs are spread wide open and Yuki has a tight hold on her arms! Nice! Perfectly nice! Now she can't even move! It's not like I can help her either! If I try Yuki would probably get on top of me and I really don't need that when I'm trying to find out what I am! It seems like Yuki is on all fours like an animal about to finally eat its hunt! He starts to kiss her and then his mouth slithers to the right side of neck! Fuck! He's going to find the hickey I gave her and then he'll put two and two together! Now I'm fucked! Might as well just—wait! She jerked! Yes! She jerked away! She doesn't want to blow my cover so to speak! I'll live for only a few days more! Yuki looks at and then he whispers in her ear.

 

“What's wrong? You don't have any more food for me to eat? Did you run out already?” He really is seductive when he feels like it! Karen lifts only so much, so as to reach his ear. She's struggling enough to keep her head up let alone her upper body. With out her arms she really is powerless. I guess she said something to Yuki because as soon as she relaxed on the bed, Yuki got up, smiling, and left! He closed the door lightly and that's when I burst out of the closet and immediately went to Karen.

 

“What did you say to him?” I turn her neck to look at the hikkey I gave her and it wasn't red; which told me that he never got a chance to see it!

 

“”Nothing!.....I told him nothing!” I grab her face and make her look me in the eyes. I look sternly and strong, I must know what she said or I might go mad! He walked out of here smiling! Smiling for gods sake!

 

“What did you say? Tell Karen…..please!” She looks at me with her sad orange and yellow eyes. Then she admits defeat. She closes her eyes and then turns her head.

 

“I told him…….that the only thing he'll get from me was a kiss and that's all!” It pained her to say it but she did. For some weird reason I have a feeling that she's lie…..not that I'd press her on it or anything. She seemed pretty resilient about telling me so I guess she was telling the truth and I'm just finding a reason to fight with her. Letting Yuki sit on top her like that! I guess it just made me jealous. No matter! I'll make her suffer with pleasure. That'll make me happy and when we have sex I'll finally know if straight or gay! Although….it seems pretty weird for Yuki to have done that, if he was so interested in me then why did he go and flirt with Karen? I mean aren't you supposed to like pick one and stick to it? Whatever it's not my business.

 

“Are you ok?” I ask looking for spots he could have hurt her. Her wrists seem kind of red but that's all.

 

“Yeah!......Thank you Kyo…..I really like how….everything is turning out!” She smiles and then she kisses me. As we kiss I push Karen down so that we're lying on the bed. She moves under me so that her whole body is on the bed and I move with her. I move my body so that my legs separate hers and my right hand is lying on her stomach. I use my left hand to take both her wrists and keep then above her head as we kiss more deeply. I push my tongue to her lips which open up and I explore her mouth with it. Seeing my chance I move my right hand under her shirt…..but…..she stops me. She stops kissing me and then she looks me in the eye.

 

“I'm sorry Kyo….but I don't think….I'm ready for that just yet.” Crap! So close! I was so close to having her, but no matter! I can wait! The question is can Yuki?