Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ Finding ❯ Losing Herself ( Chapter 32 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Ed walked pass Lilly's room door. He turned to it and placed his hand on it. No one has been on her room since the day she disappeared. We have no clues and everyone has been working so hard. I miss her. I keep thinking that she'll come back and everything will be okay, but she hasn't and I know that nothing is okay. I want to find her. I want to have her back. Celine walked down the hall and saw Ed with his eyes closed and his left hand rested on Lilly's door. He must be taking this really hard. I wish I could do more to help, but even if I started to use Alchemy again, I won't be of any use. I don't know what else to do. She walked over to Ed and placed her hand on left hand. Ed's eyes opened hopeing it would be Lilly, but once he turned to face the one who's hand was on his, his smile fadded and he moved his hand back to his side. Ed turned to face Celine.

"I'm sorry you haven't had much of a welcome since you came back." Ed said looking at her.

"I don't want one. I came back to help with your party, but after I heard about..... So I decided to stay and help. I know I can't...."

Before she could get out what she wanted to say, Ed had his arms around her and his eyes closed. She stood there shocked and didn't move.

"Thank you. I just wanted to say that, because Lilly would have wanted me to if she knew you were trying to help." Ed whispered and pulled her closer. Celine felt a wet tear hit her shoulder and knew that Ed was crying. She wraped her arms around him and closed her eyes as well. "I'm so scared that..."

"We'll find her. We won't stop untill we have her home. Now you have to be strong because she wouldn't want you to give up like this. She would want you to stop crying and keep looking." Celine said.

Ed pulled away from her. He looked back at Lilly's door then turned back to Celine.

"Your right. She would never give up on me if I was missing. She would never think that anything bad would happen to me. She always thinks of the positive and she is always there to help. She hardly ever cares about herself before others. She sacrificed herself for Winry once. I can't give up and I will not stop looking!" Ed yelled the began running towards Mustang's office.

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Ed, Al, Winry, Celine, and some other State Alchemist had began to search all over for Lilly in a meadow that wasn't far from town. They all split up then met back up when no one found anything. Ed looked up at the clear sky and sighed.

"Let's go a few more miles up and keep searching, maybe we are missing something." Ed said.

"Are you still looking for her, Full Metal!?!" A familar voice said from a distance.

Everyone turned around and saw Lust and her town idiots standing there laughing. Ed took a step forward.

"Give her back, damn it!!!!!" Ed yelled getting ready to fight.

"Don't worry, she will be here shortly." Envy said looking at Celine.

Celine hid behind Al and Al looked curious.

"Where the hell is she!!!????!!!!" Ed snaped back.

Before Lust could answer, someone fliped from the forest and laded beside Lust. It was Lilly. Ed looked at her and examined her new look. She had really short black shorts on with a black belt. Her top was skin tight, also black, and sleeveless. Her hair was up in a bun with her bangs hanging down. She wore the same boots as she bought with Ed, only they were black to go with her outfit. She had a sword hanging from her belt with her hand rested on it as if she was ready to strick. Her eyes looked like they were empty and cold. She looked as if she had been born evil.

"Lilly..." Ed said. "Lilly!" He shouted.

Lilly just looked at him with no reaction. What's wrong with her? Why won't she come to me? Lilly turned her head to Lust.

"Is this the boy I was told that I could play with?" Lilly asked.

"Yes, but remember, the boss doesn't want him dead yet. Just give him a taste of what you have been trainning for these last couple of weeks." Lust replyed.

Lilly turned her head back to Ed.

"Lilly, what's wrong with you?!?" Ed shouted.

"Full Metal!" Lust shouted and Ed turned to her. "She doesn't belong to you any longer. She doesn't have any memory of you or any of your little friends. She has been trainning since the day we made her into one of us. She was ordered to give you a small example of what she knows. You had better ready yourself." Lust said with a small smile on her face.

Lilly pulled out her sword and looked at Ed.

"Are you going to draw a weapon or will you fight with nothing?" Lilly asked in an emotionless voice.

"I refuss to fight you. Please just come with us and we will take you home. You belong..."

"I belong to no one. And since you will not fight with a weapon then I will leave mine out as well."

Lilly placed her sword back in it's cover and then unhooked it off her belt she placed it on the ground then walked calmly towards Ed. Ed watched as she came towards him and stood his ground. She steped right in front of him and looked at him blankly.

"I will not fight." Ed repeated.

"Then defend yourself." Lilly said as punched him in the jaw.

Ed was knocked bewards and hit the ground. She's a lot stonger than I thought. Ed got up and wiped the blood from his mouth. Lilly just looked at him. On of the Alchemist took a step forward and Ed held his hand up.

"No, I don't want anyone else to touch her. I don't want her getting hurt." Ed said looking at her.

"Why do you not want me to get hurt? I do not understand. You are my enemy...." Lilly said.

"Lilly!" Lilly turned to face Lust. "You were not ordered to talk to him!"

Lilly nodded and turned back to Ed. She threw another punch and Ed dodged it. Ed fliped back as everyone gave them space to fight. Lilly watched as Ed fliped then caught his leg in mid air and slung him against a tree.

"Brother!" Al shouted and took a step forward.

"Stay back!" Ed ordered as he stood up.

Ed used Alchemy to make a few rocks come up to protect his friends in case Lilly tryed something on them. Lilly looked at Ed and walked towards him. She grabed her sword as she walked. Ed transmutted his arm into a sword and Lilly swung. Ed blocked her. The sounds of their metal hitting again and again filled the air. Ed never swung at her, he only guarded himself. Lilly got tired of it and swung one good time, cutting deep wound in Ed's left arm. Ed cryed out as his friends called out his name. Lilly watched as blood came from his wound. She swung again and Ed tryed to block it but she only fliped to his back and cut another deep wound in his back. Ed cryed out again. Lilly put down her sword and walked up to Ed who was now one his knees from pain and blood lose. Lilly grabed his right arm and looked at him. Her eyes began to glow red and Ed's necklas began to follow. With one thought, Ed's metal arm had been shattered into a millon pieces. Lilly went back to normal and looked at Ed.

"I will not harm you anymore, but I suggest that you practice before you meet me again." Lilly said.

She turned to the rocks that protected Ed's friend. Her eyes began to glow red and she moved her hand up. The rocks crumbles into small pebles and she went back to normal. She walked back over to Lust and Lust looked annoyed.

"Why did you let those people out of the rock shields? They could have done it themselves." Lust said.

"The boy has lost a lot of blood and I wanted him to live. They would have taken to long to get to him if they got out themselves. He would have died." Lilly said as everyone ran to Ed to lead a helping hand.

"Why do you care for his safty?" Envy asked.

"I was ordered not to kill him. I have done my job." Lilly simple replyed.

"You know your really starting to get on my nerves." Envy snaped.

Lilly turned her head to Envy and her eyes began to glow red. Envy's body began to change form without his doing.

"Stop it!!" He yelled.

Lilly went back to normal but left Envy in a little girls body.

"Don't piss me off." Lilly calmly said.

Envy looked scared as he changed back to his normal form. Lust looked at Envy.

"Are you asking for a death wish? She could kill us with out breaking a sweat. Don't give her a reason to!" Lust yelled.

Gluttony looked at Lilly's emotionless face. He tryed to hide behind Envy to escape Lilly's eyes. Envy and Gluttony began to walk away with Lust behind them. Lilly looked at Al as he looked back at her. Al was helping the others get Ed to safty. He peered into her eyes and saw nothing. Lust turned back to Lilly.

"We are going to be late if you don't hurry up." Lust said.

Lilly looked away from Al and walked away. Al looked over at his bloody brother. She feels nothing. I can't belive what a change.

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Ed sat in his bed and looked at everyone staring at him. It had been a week and he was still healing.

"She used her red power." Al said. "Since they took away her memory, the took away her emotions. She doesn't remember loving Ed or that she was once good and had friends that care for her. She can also control her powers completely. She knows what she is doing and she knows exactly how to use them to her advantage."

"Looks like she is something that we can't afford to deal with. We are going to have to train harder. I want people to work harder. If anyone gets hurt like Ed did, we are in hell." Mustang said and everyone began to talk.

Ed looked out his window. She really doesn't remember me or love me anymore. I can't believe that they have done this to her! They will pay! I will make sure of it!

"Ed, are you ok?" Celine asked and everyone stoped talking and looked at him with a concerned look.

Ed turned to her with a mad look.

"She still needs our help! She's still lost! Only this time she can't find herself!" Ed yelled.