Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ Green Eyed Monster ❯ Chapter 10 ( Chapter 10 )

Green Eyed Monster

 

 

By Mija

 

 

Disclaimer~nope dont own any of em, so no suing k? Sorry it took awhile for this update but been sick and the damn thing wont go away, plus as I mentioned before having a bit of trouble with this chapter, again the maid outfit was just a spur of the moment thingy for Roy and Me lol, so I hadnt intended to write a scene like that, but will, so there might be some OOCness here and all, but hey somethings are a bit avoidable. Thank you again for all your reviews and comments and helpful tips, they mean alot to me, ty again much huggles and smiles Mija...:-)

 

 

Chapter 10

 

 

 

"Did you talk to him?..what did he say?" came the concerned voice of one Maria Ross. She and Riza Hawkeye had become roommates, and lovers years ago, and both had a motherly complex when it came to the Elric boys.

 

"Yes..and he said I could head off Edward and tell him he doesnt need to do this, that all wagers were paid and that he wasnt to wear the maid outfit..no harm no foul..that sort of thing." replied Riza as she looked down the hall hoping to spot Edward, before anyone else did.

 

"Well what are we waiting for? Lets go look for him Riza..I swear sometimes that boy does the stupidest things..." grumbled Ross but Riza smiled. If she was protective of the brothers, Maria was even more protective, especially of Ed, She had been around him alot when he was injured and did things without thinking that got him and Al into trouble. Maria may grumble and grouse, but Riza knew in her heart that she had fallen in love with those two boys along time ago, they had gotten under her skin and into her heart before she knew it. She couldnt help the protectiveness she felt for Edward, even if it wasnt life threatening, just humiliating. She would do what ever she could to protect that boy, and Riza loved her even more for it.

 

~~~Both went down many halls and to the main entrance and even checked out some side ones in case FullMetal decided to sneak in by one. They searched and researched all the likely places and couldnt find him. It had been way past ten minutes and they hadnt found him, Riza had even went back to the office to check if he had somehow gotten there without her notice, but he hadnt. Where was he? Did he chicken out? That did NOT sound like FullMetal at all. Even if Riza was wishing he HAD chickened out and didnt come in with the outfit, she knew in her heart it wasnt in Ed's nature. Ed was stubborn and to just not show up would not be him. So where was he? Both she and Maria stood in the only hallways that lead to the office and tried to catch thier breaths as they looked at each other.

 

"Did you find him?" came Maria's breathless voice.

 

"No." responded Riza, just as breathless.

 

"Damn it Riza we have to find him before he gets to the offices.." Ross stated with a concern.

 

"We will, but if we dont...its not like the end of the world Maria..the guys will give him a hard time, but its not they will hurt him or anything..they arent like that..it will just be a little humilation for him, but ive seen Ed survive alot worse then a little hit to his pride before." replied Hawkeye.

 

"I know THAT Riza...but..."

 

"But what?"

 

"He shouldnt have to...I cant explain it really, but..wether or not he admitted it to anyone or even to himself, he DOES care about what people think of him, he always did...I hated to watch as people called him short or mistook Al for the FullMetal Alchemist cause they couldnt believe that someone so young and small was the actuall FullMetal Alchemist..it used to hurt him..I know it did..he hated being laughed at, taunted..ya he covered it with his anger, but I could see the hurt in those eyes too Riza...and I hated it...I hated seeing that in him...Those boys have been through so much in life...now things are good for them..and I dont want them to hurt anymore...I dont want even the littlest of hurt to flash in Ed's eyes ever again..even if its some stupid wager where he has to wear a humiliating maid's outfit, I know the cracks and jokes will get to him, even if he would never admit it...they will hurt him inside and he will keep that hurt bottled up and let it eat him up little by little and I dont want that..dont you SEE Riza?? Ed's older now yes...but in someways, hes still that little boy who's trying so hard to be grown up and be accepted, to be loved and wanted, he'll do this to save face, to fit in with 'the guys' but inside it will kill him just a little bit..and I dont want that..hes been through so much..why cant he just be happy now? Why?" Maria asked, a crack in her voice as a few tears spilled from her eyes. Riza pulled her into a comforting embrace and held the smaller woman. Again, her huge heart, especially for the Elrics was one of the many things she loved about this woman. And she would do anything to see her from hurting.

 

~~~What neither women knew was that said Alchemist had heard everything they had said. The women in thier search had stopped in front of the mens room, but hadnt thought to look in there. And thats where Ed was. He had stopped in there to do something about his freaking penis. It kept falling out of those small lacy panties he had to wear. So he had ducked into the mens room to fix said problem and grumble about how much he was going to KILL Mustang. Then he heard them. Hawkeye and Ross talking. He hadnt wanted to interupt them, then he had heard his name and couldnt help but listen. As he did, part of him was angry, that they were treating him like a child, but another part of him, a bigger part of him was amazed, and humbled. That those two strong women out there cared so much about him, boggled his mind. In truth, he always believed the only one who truelly loved him was Al, maybe Winry and old lady Pinako, but he never thought that the people he worked with ever really cared like that, especially Ross and Hawkeye. It made a spot in his heart glow with a strange warmth and heat. All the things Ross had said had been true. He had always tried to fit in, tried to be a grown up in a grown ups world, when all he wanted was to just be the kid he was. He had hated the taunts and cracks about his hieght, had hated them with a passion, hated it even more when they laughed when he got mad and tried to beat the shit out of them, only to have Al hold him back. He had never told Al that it bothered him that much, he usually just shook it off when asked, but he knew that Al always knew it hurt, but he never said anything to him because he knew Ed would just shrug it off and tell him he was crazy, when all along he wasnt.

 

~~~Now here he stood in the mens room, wiping a few tears that managed to leak out of his golden eyes. That those two women out there cared about him being hurt or anything bad happening to him, meant more to him than anything right now. It touched a place in his heart that he thought was closed off, a place where he had placed a wall around. He had grown used to the taunts and all the other shit, and junk, he had closed and hid that part of his heart that used to hurt when he was teased and called names, the part that always hid his automail so that he wouldnt look like a freak. He thought he had outgrown that, that he didnt care anymore about what people thought or said. But he did. And no amount of hiding it or closing it off could protect that part of his heart forever. Now he didnt have to. A huge smile crossed his face. He WAS loved, he WAS cared about, and knowing that, made him strong. He now knew that he wasnt just another military dog but a true FRIEND and that there were people he worked with who thought of him as more than a co-worker, a tool for the military. And wether they knew it or not, that meant the world to him, and knowing it, also made him stronger, more whole. He WAS part of the gang, he didnt need to TRY to fit in, they accepted him, they cared and they treated him like they did ALL thier friends. Thier jokes and taunts and cracks were not meant to hurt, but to include him in thier little circle. He realized that now. Why hadnt he seen it before? Why? Because being the thick skulled guy he was, he hadnt been TOLD, and as a child, he was used to being TOLD things, he hadnt dared just assume he was a part of them, he had been affraid of rejection. Now? Now he knew better, and that made his heart swell with pride, and a warmth he couldnt exactly describe.

 

~~~Riza and Maria were still locked in an embrace in the hall when all of a sudden they were both grabbed by the shoulder and yanked into a room, a room they later realized was the mens room. Both yelped in suprise and went for their guns when they came face to face with a grinning Edward Elric.

 

"FullMetal?" Riza whispered, still a bit shocked by the yanking into the mens room.

 

"Sir?" added Maria, letting go of her gun and going in for a salute, but was stopped by Ed laying his hand on hers.

 

"Dont..." Ed said with a warm smile, and eyes that shone brightly with some inner warmth. Both Hawkeye and Ross didnt know what to say or do at that moment, it was rare if ever they got to see such a look in FullMetal's eyes.

 

"Ed wha.." Hawkeye started but was cut off by Ed.

 

"I heard what you guys were saying in the hallway." he told them and Ross blushed and Hawkeye seemed to straighten up to defend thier actions. Ed smiled brighter.

 

"So k guys...what Ross said was true...It always hurt me when people made fun of me, joked and taunted me..course I never showed it, but it still hurt...surprised anyone but Al ever noticed that though...I was always trying to fit in with the gang, hoping that you guys would accept me as one of the gang too, but always feeling like I had to work for it, to play grown up and do things to make you guys accept me as one of the group..."

 

"Ed you were always a part of us...always." Hawkeye replied in a whisper, part of her wanting to shed tears for the boy she never knew had thought of himself as an outsider in thier group of friends.

 

"I know that now Hawkeye...I know that now...back then I didnt and I'll admit it, it hurt, I was affraid to hope, to be rejected..I thought when the guys made a crack about my height or something else that they were being mean, trying to hurt me.."

 

"They would never do that Ed...we would.." Hawkeye was cut off again.

 

"I know that now...I know now that they were treating me like they did everyone else in the office, everyone they considered friends...they werent trying to hurt me, to be mean...they were just being who they are and including me in thier circle of friends..friends who liked to tease and crack jokes, to play pranks and make each other laugh, when laughter is needed more in the military than anything else...I know that now...back then I didnt understand that though, I thought they were trying to hurt me, even when I saw them doing it to each other, I still thought the ones aimed at me were diffrent, when they werent...they were just including me in the gang and I never saw that...I never saw that I didnt have to TRY and fit in because I was already a PART of them, of you all....it wasnt till I heard you guys in the hallway talking that I finally figured that out..and for that I want to thank you two...you dont know how much everything you said meant to me." Ed explained.

 

"Sir, we just..we didnt want you to be hurt." came Ross's voice, which still held a bit of a catch in it. To her she loved this boy like a son, a brother, a part of her and those she cared about.

 

"I know Ross...I know...and to know that you and Hawkeye care about me that much?...well I gotta tell ya...words cant describe how gratefull I am for that...and before you guys say anything else I want to tell you that Im still going through with the bet.." he stated and both Hawkeye and Ross opened thier mouth to protest but he silenced them with a hug with shocked them both almost out of thier military boots.

 

"Not because I HAVE to..not because Im trying to fit in or because I lost a bet..but because I WANT to...you two opened up a part of me that I hadnt really known was closed off, a part of me that could never see things before..but I see em now..and I want to thank you both for that...no matter what sort of cracks and jibes I get from the guys wont matter cause they arent meant to be mean, thier just funnin, like they would with any of the others..I know that now..thanks to you two...and another thing...I never told either of you how much it meant to Al and me to have you guys watch out for us...to care about us...to treat us like we were just kids and not grown ups...we needed that so much back then and you guys gave that to us..you've always been there when we needed you guys...not in front blocking us from what we had to do, not behind us to push us out into danger, but beside us, letting us know that even though we had to do what we had to do, you were there, you would help us best you could and hold our hands when needed, that we werent alone...and that meant the world to us, even if we never said it...ok Al said it alot to me and told me to tell you guys this stuff...but ya know me guys...Ive always been stubborn and that aint gonna change much...but right now...right now I am telling you guys that it meant alot to us, it meant the world to us and we both Thank you for that...I thank you for that...and with that said, I also have to tell ya, Im not that kid anymore...its nice to know that you still got my back and I will always have yours whenever you need me..but I can do things for myself now...you dont have to play mothers to me anymore, although I dont think you guys were ever mothers but like protective big sisters, I mean hell you two are too young and beautifull to have a kid me and Al's age..hehe..but what Im saying is that although I know I cant stop you two from caring about me or worring, and not that I ever want that to stop either mind you...but Im not a kid anymore and Im going to do stupid things..and you guys are going to have to let me do them ok??...its what mothers and big sisters have to do when thier boys grow up dont they?? they have to let them learn and make mistakes on thier own?"

 

"But Sir.."Maria tried to say, but was cut off by Hawkeye.

 

"Hes right Maria, hes not a little boy anymore...hes grown up on us and as much as it might bother us...we have to let him grow..time to cut the metephorical umbilical cord...we have to let our boys fly on thier own now..but make sure they remember that we are here if and when they need us." Hawkeye stated, looking at Maria then to Ed and smiled.

 

"Youve grown into a fine young man Edward...and I for one am proud of you." she added with a hug that was a suprise for both of them, but Ed returned and then hugged Maria too.

 

"I wouldnt be half the person I am now without both your influences in my life..and I know I can be a pain in the ass sometimes, but all in all I think I turned out ok, and that cause I had awsome people like you two to show me the right way..to help me grow up to be a good person, and again I thank you both for that....." Ed smiled warmly and with love and they smiled at him as well. Then Ed grinned wickedly.

 

"Now...better get to ex-colonel bastards office to pay off my bet...but dont worry bout me guys...wont let the guys off that easily when they tease me, that aint me..and as for Mustang?? Ohh he is soo going to get it for this one...but dont worry Hawkeye...wont lay a hand on him...but he's going to wish I did." Ed stated as he grinned that mistivous grin and walked towards the door, pulling off his coat to reveal the maids outfit underneath. Both girls gaped at him speechless. Ed grinned.

 

"Gotta tell ya, I have a whole new respect for women now...how the hell do you put up with stocking that feel like they are cutting off your circulation? And not to mention the panties of death, that seem to want to creep up into places they have no business going...trust me..if Mustang ever tries to pass that regulation about women in mini skirts in the military, I will fight tooth and automail right behind ya..no one should have to go through this sort of torture..although you women do look so damn good in it." Ed finished with a wink and a wicked grin that had both Riza and Maria reaching for thier guns. Ed laughed and ran out of the mens room. Maria and Riza looked at each other and smiled widely.

 

"Looks like our boy grew up." Hawkeye stated.

 

"Yup..and I feel sorry for Luitenant General Mustang too, cause Ed's going to make him pay big time for this." Maria replied.

 

"Oh ya..hes going to regret this for sure...and I for one cant wait to see it...as much as I admire the man..sometimes he needs a good kick in the ass so to speak and I wouldnt let anyone other than Ed do it." Hawkeye stated as she grinned and kissed her lover before she had to return to her duties. There was going to be some fireworks in the office today and she was looking forward to it all.

 

 

 

 

A/N~okies heres the next chap, yes I know alot of OOCness...Im sorry...but I just felt a need to put it there, and funny but I cried when I wrote this, *shrugs* flashbacks to when I felt I had to fit in as a kid with my friends I guess..anyhow I thought about it too, wouldnt Ed feel like that as well? I mean it has to hurt being teased about his height and all right? Anyway just a thought. Well I hope yall aint too dissappointed, and next chap will hopefully have some humor and a bit of steam, ok at least some dirty thoughts k?? till next chapter be well safe and happy, much huggles and smiles Mija...:-)