Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ Guilt ridden ❯ Midnight house, in lovers arms ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Full Metal Alchemist, just a fan here folks.

 

Warning: LEMON scene's, Language, violence & other stuff.

 

Summary: The ghosts of the past won't leave Ed alone, can he finally find a way to unshackle himself from his guilt and find the peace and happiness he truly craves?

 

Chapter 1: Midnight home, in lovers arms.

 

Ed awoke with a start, his breath coming in ragged gasps.

Sweat covered his upper body and his hair was tussled in every direction. His golden eyes stared into the bunched bed covers around his waist. The same nightmare, it was always the same every night. Himself covered in blood, the homunculus lying at his feet broken, twisted and sliced apart, and he knew it was his doing. But there were other bodies he had sent to their graves as well.

Innocents from Lior he had allowed to be massacred by the state by setting into motion the horrific events that would unfold there. The thousands of state troopers who had been used by scar to create the philosophers stone that he had been unable to stop scar from doing. And lastly Rose's baby who had been used as some sick ritual by Dante.

Silently, so as to not disturb the beds other occupant, he walked out of the house and onto the front patio. The moon was full and illuminated the world below it in its majesty. Ed stood there in just his boxers his face turned up towards the moon. Why was he constantly having the same nightmare?

Despite his past failings Ed had done his best to set right all the wrongs he had done, and he had paid for his failures as no other had or could. He turned his head to his right arm; he had been given the choice to regain his old flesh and blood limbs he had willingly sacrificed to save Al's soul. But given the choice he had kept his automail limbs. Why? Well because it was his burden, his reminder of his arrogance and stupidity and he didn't deserve his old limbs back now anyway so he kept his automail limbs like some stupid child who needed to be constantly reprimanded.

Running his fingers through his hair Ed. A long tired sigh escaped his lips, he didn't deserve what he now had, he had caused too much pain and suffering to be granted this peaceful blessing he now had.

Silently he cursed himself for all he had done, he had been so consumed with his previous goals that he had ignored all the pain death and misery he had committed simply to return his brother to his body. Raising his face too the moon once more Ed's eyes were full of desperate pleading.

Within his mind he pleaded with god or whatever higher power there was or possibly could be to relieve him of this guilt. The guilt had settled over him and he knew nothing about relieving it. He had become a prisoner within his own mind and body and it infuriated him.

His mind had always been his greatest asset, a bounty of knowledge he could use to get himself out of any situation involving science or logic. But emotions weren't logical and he couldn't get away from this cross upon his back. In a fit of self-anger Ed slammed his fist against the patios railing. His teeth were gritted together in frustration, the desire to destroy was nothing new to Ed and he needed to vent it once again.

His eyes were narrowed into two thin gold daggers containing all the rage within him in them. Suddenly he felt two long, slender feminine arms wrap themselves around him and his eyes widened. “Come back to bed honey” she whispered into his ear, all the tension and angst oozing out of him in an instant. “It's too late to be out walking especially in your attire” she whispered making a joke about the fact he was only in boxers.

“I couldn't sleep anyway, too tense” he said closing his eyes as she gently stroked his shoulders. “Then come back to bed and I'll do something about it” she said invitingly. Ed wanted to go with her but a question he continuously asked himself came to his lips “R-Rose, do you love me?” he turned to face her to better gage her reaction. “Of course I do” she said disbelief spread across her face, “even after everything I've done? All the pain and suffering I've created the lives I've ended and the misery I created?”

His eyes were silently pleading with her rich blue eyes for an answer; he needed to know for his own piece and mind. Rose sighed reaching down she took his right hand in hers. Ed only noticed the splinter sticking out of his thumbs knuckle joint. As rose delicately removed the offending piece of wood Ed stared at her dumbfounded, how could someone this nice, this gentle and kind hearted want to be with him? It just didn't add up.

Ed was dragged from his self-hating questioning by Rose pressing her lips to his, her taste washed through his very being as he gave himself over to her kiss. He needed her with every fibre of his being, and to not have her would be the end of him. He loved her without question, beyond doubt and reason and with every particle that comprised him.

As they broke the kiss he went to speak but was silenced by Rose laying a finger on his lips “yes” she said so effectively and simply stating her point of view. “Now come back to bed” she whispered leaning in close to him and laying her head against his chest.

Wrapping his arms around her Ed closed his eyes for a moment just enjoying the peacefulness of this situation before opening his eyes slowly, “okay” he whispered.

As Rose led him by the wrist back to their room Ed surveyed their house in the moons light.

It was a stunning place, large and ornate. Filled with great antique furniture that Rose had pestered him to get her once they had moved in together. Really it was Roses house since he was hardly home for more then a month before having to leave on a mission for the state, still it was a remarkable place.

Once she had him in the bedroom Rose pushed him lightly backwards so he was left sitting on the edge of the bed staring up at her. To Ed she seemed like an angel in the moonlight dressed as she was in her white nightie. An angel sent to earth to rescue him from his own demons, if only for a short while.

But god he wanted her so! She was like no other, her trusting blue eyes, pink and brown hair, her heavenly feminine figure and beautifully soft year round tanned skin. She was everything to him and without her he was nothing. He smiled lightly “I love you Rose” he said voice full of sincerity.

“I know you do” she said returning his smile with one of her own before effortlessly slipping her nightie of in one motion, exposing herself to Ed without any self preservation or prudence. Ed's breathe caught in his throat at the sight of her naked body fully light in the moonlight, her slender curves, full breast, her full hips and her hairless womanhood all conspired to bring his body to the height of passion.

Swiftly he rose from the bed and wrapped Rose in his arms kissing her fully with all the passion he could mount. As he kissed her Ed's hands began travelling slowly over Rose's body. First through her hair then down her neck to her shoulders before slowing going further south and cupping her breasts.

Rose's cry of tender passion reverberated through Ed's mind pushing him to the very edge of his self control, “I want you” he growled into Rose's ear. “Then just take me” she whispered tantalizingly into his ear. They fell backwards onto the bed and rolled around still kissing until Ed was hovering just above Rose.

His eyes glinted with a cockiness that Rose was all too familiar with. He began kissing her, slowly working his way down from her lips to her breast giving each erect nipple a slow languid flick of the tongue before continuing his way downwards until he came to her heavenly, moist, warm opening.

He started with light kisses, teasing her really and drawing from her hoarse whimpers of burning desire. Then he began to lap at her most sacred place revelling in her taste. It was like the first strawberries of spring, the first glass of water after journeying through the desert both heavenly and earthly all at once.

As Ed went to work his hearing was full of Rose's cries of passion. His world shrank to this, it was all that mattered, and repaying Rose for her love in ways no other man would. As Rose began instinctively bucking her hips upwards Ed knew the time had finally came.

Rising from his position, despite Rose's wordless moans of protest Ed slipped up the bed until his manhood stood ready at her heavenly entrance. “Are you ready?” he asked already knowing the answer, “yes” she whispered hungrily. One thrust of the hips was all it took and Ed was in paradise.

It was the paradise of the flesh, the pleasure of being so close to the one he loved that he felt as if he could simply go on forever in this place. Ed was in heaven, a heaven he had almost never known because those state soldiers had almost taken her from this world.

His anger for them knew no bound's. They had been to this heavenly place, this most sacred of experience with Rose before him and treated it without the proper respect and gentleness it deserved. These feelings of anger made his body react by thrusting harder and harder into Rose, drawing ever greater cries of passion from her.

“Yes Ed yes, my god Ed harder please harder…..so good!” Rose exclaimed loudly into his ears. Ed grunted in animalistic pleasure, his voice having lowered into a deep baritone growl “I love you Rose” he said simply over and over as their bodies rapidly came together then parted in a sensual dance as old as animals had walked the earth.

On and on the dance continued, both of them trapped willingly in a prison of physical pleasure that could only be experienced by the deepest of lovers, it seemed to Ed as if their very souls were entwined in this moment this moment of physical redemption. And yet the moment could not last forever “Ed I'm-I'm…… CUMMING!” Rose cried, “ROSE!” Ed exclaimed as their bodies collided one last time as they reached the absolute pinnacle of their shared passion in that moment.

Ed collapsed forward and slightly to the side, so as to not crush Rose. Their breathes rose into the cool night air as their chests rose and fell in swift movements, as both struggled to regain their senses after their experience. Ed felt a small shame creep into him as he realised how rough he had been with her in the height of his desire for her.

“D-did I hurt you Rose?” he asked timidly wrapping his arms around her. “No, you never have” she whispered dreamily into his ear as they slowly drifted off together. Banishing the doubts within Ed…….Until the morning came at least.

 

A/U: Oh, ohh now that's a first chapter! I warned you there would be lemon scenes, so I figured give the viewer what they want to keep them interested. Where will the story go from here? I'm not sure, but that will be the last lemon scene for a while as I can't just write pointless smut. Anyway please R&R as I'll need the input to get motivation to continue with my `bonefied' (He he, I wrote bone) EdxRose fic. Later…….