Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ Guilt ridden ❯ Never leaving, In lovers arms II ( Epilogue )

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Full Metal Alchemist, just a fan here folks.

 

Warning: LEMON scene's, Language, violence & other stuff.

 

Summary: Did you read the first chapter? `Cause it says it there.

 

Epilogue: Never leaving, in lovers arms II.

 

Rose was lonely.

It was the same as it always was when Ed went off on a mission; she was left at home all alone. Of course she knew Ed didn't want it that way but it was still his job and it was too dangerous for her to accompany him so she stayed at home and kept herself preoccupied with house work.

She was in the middle of doing the few dishes from breakfast when she heard the door open and close. She thought it was Winry, who had been staying at her place since Al was also off on a mission. She had been extremely tense around Winry as the two of them struggled to get along.

She was quickly robbed of this assumption when two arms were wrapped around her. Of course she knew who it was; the automail arm gave it away. “Ed!” she cried spinning around and kissing him fully, her arms wrapping themselves around his neck as he pulled her in and deepened the kiss.

She was overjoyed at his return and yet annoyed that he had been away for so long, and on top of that he hadn't called to say he was coming home. But then again that was typical of Ed; he always did enjoy surprising her with his return. “Well at least he called every now and again this time” she mused mentally as their kiss carried on for what seemed a blissful eternity.

Slowly they both broke off from the kiss; “sorry I was away for so long” Ed said his warm breath blasting Rose due to their closeness. It was a sincere apology, although as Rose knew ell enough any apology from Edward Elric was a rarity in itself. “Doesn't matter, your home now that's all I care about” she said her fingers disappearing into his long deep blond hair.

Ed stared into her dark blue eyes as he felt her love for him, no saw he corrected himself, shimmering in her eyes. Pressing his forehead to hers he stared right into her eyes selfishly needing the love there to say his next words “I'm sorry Rose, I know I've been off on different missions all the time lately but it's all over now” he says closing his eyes, unwilling or not wanting to see the joy in Rose's eyes, You DON'T deserve her the negative side of him yells.

“You mean you're home for good?” Rose asks her voice rising with careful joy, after all she might have misread his words and it wouldn't have been the first time she hadn't clearly understood the truth of Ed's statement. But when Ed just nods without opening his eyes she starts quietly weeping with joy.

As Rose kissed him with great passion and love Ed felt himself responding to the kiss, he didn't want to but he wanted to get away and not feel the warmth and love Rose had for him as he felt unworthy and more then a little guilty. What's with you man? Your acting like a scared little child who never knew his family the rational side of his mind screamed trying to override the negative side of him.

He wanted to believe his rational side he really did, but the human mind is easily persuaded by its emotions and can become a hell for itself in a wave of pessimism and self doubt as Ed was well aware. As Rose broke the kiss he opened his eyes and noticed the concern in her eyes.

“Are you okay Ed? You seem sort of….. Distant” she asked her voice quivering with worry for her love yet also with joy that he wasn't going to be leaving to go on month long missions any more. Ed was unsure what to say, on the one hand he could confide his emotional conflict to his love and possibly damage their, at times, fragile relationship or he could bottle these emotions up and possibly damage himself but spare her any hurt.

“I'm fine” Ed lied his mind made up “just the funeral we had for Fallman has made me think about the past and everyone that's died around me” he said trying to tie his lie and the truth together. It was emotionally true that those thoughts had come up during the funeral but then again they were always with him, like some dammed stalker who refused to go away.

Why does it have to be this way man? Why can't you just let go of the past like Al has? Why do you always have to be such a self defeating idiot? He asked himself as he felt Rose's warm embrace tighten. “It's okay” Rose says kissing him softly, trying to sooth whatever concerns were affecting Ed.

“How about you go take a shower and I'll make you something to eat okay?” she said receiving a small nod in reply. Something's up with Ed, I know its not just because of a funeral he wouldn't get this sullen over that but still…… I just wish he'd tell me the truth it hurts not being able to help him she thought to herself as Ed left her in the kitchen to head upstairs for his shower.

 

You stupid, stubborn, bugger.

Ed knew that berating himself wasn't going to help matters but what else could he do? He wanted so badly to tell Rose the truth but to do that might make her hate him, or worse, put her in danger, something he couldn't do to her. Bullshit man, you know full well that it's because you need to keep everything locked up inside so you can hold yourself up as some kind of martyr.

Ed sighed heavily, the inner negative voice had a point he did have a tendance to keep secrets, but solely to protect those he cares for and no other reason. He knew that no argument he gave within his own mind would silence the voice, he required the voices of others to silence it for some reason.

Shaking his head to try and clear his thoughts Ed reached up and undid his braid, his long deep blond hair falling freely now as he ran his fingers through it, trying to calm his overworking mind. As the warm spray of water washed over him Ed felt the tension in his muscles starting to evaporate, and so he surrendered himself to the relaxing water.

His mind wandered aimlessly from subject to subject, musing on the reasons for this particular set of events or for that chain of reactions. But no where, no where within his highly intelligent mind did he hold the answers. But then again he didn't expect any, the world was simply a jumbled mess of peoples actions based solely on their own desires or needs wasn't it?

His mind was torn sharply from all this by the shower curtain being thrown open and then closing, leaving him standing chest to considerable chest with a very beautiful yet naked Rose. “Rose?!” he yelped caught off guard by her decision to join him in the shower, it wasn't the first time but then again she had always been the type to leave anything `saucy' to the bedroom.

“I'm sorry Ed, it's just that I've missed having you around so much and I just, well I can't wait anymore” Rose said constantly looking away then back at him and blushing at her own confession of unbridled desire. So saying she swiftly dropped to her knees, grabbed Ed's quickly hardening manhood by the base and swallowed the whole length into her mouth.

Ed was rendered paralysed by Rose's rather talented mouth work on his already throbbingly hard member. A harsh groan of long repressed desire and love burst free from his mouth as his head tipped back, his eyes closing and his hands coming down and grabbing Rose by the top of her head.

“Oh god Rose, oh god…..” Ed found himself only capable of mumbling those words over and over again as Rose went down on him. God, it's been far too long since I've been home he reasoned to himself. Other thoughts and mostly questions were screaming at him to be heard, but in his pleasantly paralysed state Ed found himself incapable of listening to them.

The sound of the shower, Rose making some rather obscene slurping and sucking sounds with her mouth, the visual sight of the top of her head bobbing back and forth oh-so-slowly and of course the physical sensation of her warm wet mouth and swivelling tongue travelling over his hard shaft had Ed undone in minutes. “Rose…… Cumming” he grunted mere milliseconds before his man seed exploded out of him and into her inviting mouth.

Rose swallowed the first shot of warm salty man seed on instinct then the second, both of which hit the back of her throat with considerable force, before allowing a decent amount to pool into her mouth before swallowing happily. His taste was masculinity incarnate, strong and powerful, and it whispered to her bodies make up of the greatest carnal pleasures.

As the amount of man seed shotting from the tip of Ed's slowly softening member begun to die down Rose used her mouth to milk every drop from the tip as her hand worked his scrotum, trying to get just a little more from him. When she had swallowed the last drop of Ed's seed she let his now limp member escape the vacuum like seal of her lips with an audible obscene pop.

Looking up at a clearly drained Ed she noticed two things, one he had turned the shower off somewhere along the line as she had relevantly `polished his pole' and the second was the look of intense burning hunger and love she saw in his depthless gold eyes.

The look he was giving her cut straight through Rose to her womanhood causing her juices to start flowing instantly as her nipples hardened into two small hard pink pebbles against a sea of year long tanned skin. “So I take it you won't be wanting lunch?” she `asked' smiling sultry at him from her kneeling position before him. “Lunch is going to consist of your pussy baby” he replied dirtily as he reached down and quickly picked her up and off her feet into his arms.

As Ed carried Rose from the bathroom and into the bedroom all self antagonising disappeared into the back of his mind, there to wait until he had finished pleasuring the women he loved more then life itself. He lowered her gently onto the bed before dropping down to his knees at the edge of the bed and, grabbing Rose by the inner thighs, pulled her straight towards him.

Rose, knowing instantly what Ed was going to do, felt a large shiver of anticipation from up her spine along every nerve ending in her body causing her body to flush with embarrassment and excitement as her love juices begun to trickle out of her womanhood faster.

Smiling up at Rose over the enticingly beautiful `landscape' that was her heavenly body Ed ran a finger slowly up and down her tight slit like it was a teasing finger. He noticed Rose's body flush deepen as her breath hitched in response to his gentle touch on her most sensitive of area's.

“I love you Rose” he said leaning forward and planting a small peck of a kiss on her sensitive `mound'. “I…. Love you too Ed” she replied, her voice almost failing her when he kissed her womanhood. Looking up at her pleading deep blue eyes Ed quickly decided to give her what she wanted.

It wasn't even a real decision anyway, more an instinctive response to hearing the small pleading whine that had threatened to leave Rose's throat if he kept up his occasional `teasing game' as he so often did. And besides, he wanted to do this anyway, it was a sign of his love for her and on top of that it was just really really good fun for himself too!

That happy thought swirling around and around in his head Ed begun eating the love of his life out with as much hunger and need as a starved man emerging out of the desert and having a five course meal placed in front of him, he simply went diving in tongue first and with great enthusiasm.

His tongue ran up and down her slit in swift movements stopping only to lavish a small amount of attention onto her hyper sensitive clit. Her juices were flowing faster now causing Ed to swallow every now and again least he drowns in her love liquid. Can think of a worse way to go he reasoned to himself as he lapped happily at Rose's snatch.

He felt Rose's hands come down and start running through his hair as his own went up to help extended the pleasant feelings within her by gently fondling her breasts. Her thighs begun to tighten around his head ever so slightly as he slipped his tongue inside her to taste the velvety soft pink flesh within.

Ed had done this many, many times and as such he had quickly learnt, simply by listening and noting Rose's body's reaction to his actions, how to bring her to the peak of her arousal quickly. Using all this carefully accumulated knowledge Ed's mouth was soon flooded with her girl juices as a happy yet exhausted Rose collapsed, sprawling across their bed her breath now a ragged pant of post orgasmic bliss.

Climbing up the bed Ed hovered over Rose's happy form his manhood fully erect and ready to go again.

Slowly rubbing the thick knob against her womanhood he stared deep into her eyes. “Ready Rose?” he asked, receiving a swift nod of approval Ed leant forward gently pushing himself up and into her. As his manhood slid snugly into her they both gave of shuddering gasps of shared pleasure.

Agonisingly slowly Ed pulled back before pumping back forward a groan of exquisite pleasure tearing itself free of his throat as he tried to verbalise his pleasure only to fail horribly. Deciding that it was more important to concentrate on the feel of Rose's tight, warm wet passage Ed was quickly lost of any constructive thought process outside of the simple mechanics of pumping his hips back and forth to increase the pleasure for them both.

Gasping, grunting, groaning and moaning both Ed and Rose were quickly climbing upwards towards that glorious peak of orgasmic pleasure together. Their bodies were quickly covered in sweat and they both had their eyes closed as their breathes were soon reduced to ragged gasp punctuated by statements like `I love you' so as to show the other their appreciation for the pleasure they were receiving and giving in mutual physical harmony.

Like two wild animals in heat they went at it, their bodies separating slightly before colliding together again in a desperate race between the two to reach the peak of their passions together. It didn't take long, the combination of the physical sensations their bodies were producing combined with the sight of the others most cherished one crying out in pleasure swiftly undoing them.

Rose came first, her body rising up latching onto Ed's and stiffening as her pussy clamped down like a warm wet velvet vice around his member as she cried out in the height of her passion. This was too much for Ed who quickly followed her, his body flexing heavily as he buried himself as deep into her as he could groaning harshly as he emptied his seed into her.

Having peaked there was only one course left open too them, and so their bodies crashed Ed managing to roll to the side as he collapsed forward so he didn't crush Rose. Although he didn't want to spoil the calm atmosphere there was a question on Ed's mind that he needed answering.

“Rose, why do you love me?” he asked staring down at the top of her head, which was resting comfortably on his chest. “What?” she asks her head turning up towards his as her dark blue eyes searched his for some clue as too why he was asking this, quite frankly, perplexing question.

“I mean I know you love me, lord knows you've said it enough times and shown me enough times, but I'm just wondering why after all I'm not exactly the nicest guy ever” he said starting to berate himself. Rose took him by surprise when she kissed him hard and passionately.

“I don't really know why I love you Ed I just do, and don't you dare start slumping into a depressive person I've been there and I know it's not where anyone should be” she said as she broke their kiss. Ed stared deep into her eyes before looking away shamed with himself beyond belief.

“But all the lives I've taken, all those I couldn't or simply didn't help, how can I justify the love I receive and feel and the happiness I live in when I've done all that?” he asked barring his mental dilemma to her without exposing her to the dangerous knowledge he held within him.

“Did you intentionally kill people? Did you enjoy having no option open to you but to either end a few lives or watch helplessly as some people died?” she asked her face tense with seriousness. “Of course not!” Ed all but yelled not liking the implication in Rose's tone “but there's still their blood on my hands” he said voice breaking into a whisper as he looked away in shame.

“Well there's your answer, you had no choice Ed I understand that and I also know in my heart that you'd rather hurt yourself then another” she reached down and took both his real and automail hands in hers “and while their blood is on your hands your hands aren't just tools for destruction” she kissed each of his palms lightly “their also tools that can be used for showing love and affection whilst also creating beauty and pleasure” she said soothingly.

Ed felt her words wrap themselves around his soul and elevate his guilty soul of most of its shame. And while he knew some of his guilt would forever remain a part of him he also realised that loving and being loved by Rose allowed him to understand that his past was his past and he should look to the future and not dwell on his miserable past like some pitiful orphan.

“Thank you Rose” he said his heart swelling with re-found joy as he kissed her slowly and softly expressing his gratitude with his deep love filled kiss rather then some fragile, cliché words. Being here with her, and hearing her soothing honest words did more for Ed then anyone else could ever hope too.

“My turn for a question” she said breaking off their kiss. “Shoot” Ed said a small smile having worked itself across his face. “Earlier you said `it's all over now', what did you mean by that? Because I know that given everything you've seen and heard the state isn't going to let you retire so soon” she asked honestly wondering as to the reason behind his carefully chosen words.

“You're right, the state won't let me retire so easily, but since I no longer want to go charging off on near suicide missions, they've allowed me to become a tutor to new alchemists wanting to become military `dogs'” he replied his smile turning into a rather cocky smirk as he saw the unbridled joy on her face.

“So that means that you'll be having people studying under you here at our home?” she asked. “Uh-huh, I'm not leaving home again” he replied as a small mischievous smile spread across Rose's lips. “Then I suppose that means we'll need to grab what moments to `relieve tension' whenever we can huh?” she asked sliding Ed's real hand down over her tight belly to rest it on top of her womanhood. “Oh you saucy little devil” he said teasingly as he leaned in to kiss her once more.

Fin

 

A/U: YEAH, YEAH, YEAH! I've just finished a whole fanfic for the first time, HOORAY!!! Anyway, sorry if the endings a bit cruddy, I haven't watched much FMA recently and my minds been preoccupied so I've probably gone well over my O.O.C tolerance limit huh? Anyway if you've made it this far I'd like to give you a big, BIG thank you and hope you'll check out my other fanfic GUILT RIDDEN II (Still far off being anywhere near done) and other then that I guess I'll catch you on the flip side. Later……