Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ Hesitation ❯ Chapter 1 ( Chapter 1 )

Title: Hesitation

Warning: yaoi, angst, language

Pairing: envyxed, royxed, envyxroyxed

Disclaimer: We don't own hagaren, just have an unofficial fans club ^_^ square enix does.

A/N: This is our first hagaren fanfic and we hope you like it. This fanfic based on manga storyline. And sorry for the bad grammar coz English isn't our first language. Well, enjoy!

Chapter 1

Edward Elric is lying on the bed and staring at the ceiling above him. It was midnight already but he couldn't go to sleep. It's been a week since he was captured by Envy when he faint from the incident of 5th laboratory. He was held in this room and couldn't escape because his auto mail arm has broken. Also he can't move freely because both his hands are chained to the bed post. Envy put him this way so he can't use alchemy. Well, he already tried many times to kick Envy but failed miserably because Envy is much stronger than him.

He's been thinking about Al and Roy a lot. 'Al must have been worried to death and so does Roy.' He misses them, especially Roy. Well, to tell the truth he's been dating with Roy since Nina's death. That time Roy was comforting him and since then, they became closer. After awhile, Roy confessed his love to Ed in his own way (you all know Roy's behavior right?). Ed sighs when Roy's image comes to his mind. He misses the way he tease him and his arrogant smirk when Ed got angry with him. He turns his body to find a comfortable position when suddenly Envy come and snap him from his drifted mind.

"How are your wounds, Hagane no chibi-chan?" Envy asks with a grin on his face.

"Chibi iuna!!!" Ed yelled back to him. But Envy just still with his usual smirk and pose.

"How do they look to you?" Ed snapped back to reality coz there's no respond from Envy.

"Well, if you already can yell like that, I think they healed already and you always look delicious to me."

"Suit yourself!" Ed replied sarcastically.

"Oh, really? Hey, you don't have to be mad! I'm just telling the truth. You really really look sexy when you're shirtless, your hair is loosening, and chained like this, you know."

With that Envy come closer to Ed, lean on him and kiss him roughly. Ed complied and parted his lips. Envy pushes his tongue to Ed's mouth and savor Ed's taste. It's not the first time for Ed to have Envy act like that. In fact, Envy had already taken him a few times since he has been captured. The first time when Envy wanted to rape him, Ed struggled and tried to push him away. But that time Ed's wounded and Envy's far too strong for him. Plus he was chained so he can't do anything against Envy's will.

Ed feels guilty because after a few times Envy took him, he started to have feeling for Envy. So…can it still count as raped anymore? But he also still loves Roy so he started to think that he had betrayed Roy. Now, he really can't choose between them. What should he do now? He wants to go back to Roy but in the same time he wants to stay with Envy even when Envy tortured him because he enjoys the pains and the pleasures that Envy gives him, also Envy's cares to him and can be gentle too. At least Envy was the one who treated his wounds. Today's the same like the other days which Ed started to submit willingly to Envy.

Envy parted the kiss and Ed loosing the kiss. Part of him wants to stop this but the other doesn't want this to be over. Before he can make decision, Envy started to kiss him again. This time his kiss is gentler. He nibbled Ed's down part lips and he kissed again and slipped his tongue to Ed's mouth. He caresses Ed's ceiling and tongue with skilled moves. After awhile, Ed started to kiss back and play his tongue along to Envy's mouth too. Ed melted because of the kiss and he can't think not to continue this pleasure moment.

'Envy's always such a good kisser. In fact, I must admit that he's better than Roy in bed, not that I'll ever say to him neither Roy about that. But I'm also pathetic because I can't resist him and always submit to the pleasure he gave me in the end, even when I know I betrayed Roy. Damn these teenager hormones and damn Envy for being such a hot, sexy, expert guy and make me betrayed Roy! And damn Roy for being less expert than Envy and mainly damn myself for being such a slut and submit to those every fucking factors and blame everything even when I'm the one at fault!' Ed thought with resignation. That time Ed's thinking was interrupted again by Envy's hands. Both of Envy's hands were started to pinch Ed' nipples and make him arched his back and moan to Envy's mouth between the kiss. And Ed started to feel the throbbing on his groin.

After awhile both parted the kiss because of the need to breath. Ed panted and started to feel that his tight leather pants put too much pressure on his now aching cock and Envy notice the bulge. Envy now leaning closer to Ed and press his body to Ed's and Ed moan because of the friction. Then Envy start to kiss along Ed's neck and stop on the throat to suck it while he start to rub his own now started to erect cock to Ed's. The moves make Ed moan and arch his back again and throw his head back and give Envy more access to his neck. Envy licks on the side trail of his neck and nibbles his ear then slips his tongue into Ed's ear and lick it. Ed moan Envy's name. This make Envy smirk and he whisper to Ed's ear with husky voice, "I'm really like it when you said my name like that…Ed." Envy said Ed's name with very seductive and sexy tone and that make Ed shiver with anticipation because when Envy already called him by name, there'd be so much pleasure waiting. "Oh, god…Envy…" Ed only can say that with hoarse voice and his breath became heavier.

Envy mouth went down to Ed's collar bone and kiss and suck it to make hickey. Ed groan and he really hopes that his hand aren't chained so he can touch Envy. Envy's tortures already began. "Goddamn it, Envy! Can't you release me from these fucking chains?" Ed cried. "Why should I? I love seeing you chained…Ed." Envy replied while he now licked and sucked Ed's right nipple and his left hand went down caressed along Ed's torso and stomach and started to unzip Ed's pants. "Aahh…" Ed moaned and raised his hips against Envy's to get more contact and rubbed along Envy's rhythm. 'OMG…he used that fucking sexy voice again when said my name. Damn it! I can't bear it anymore.' His erection now became more painfully aching. Ed's move makes them both moan. "So…I…can touch…you damn it!" Ed said between his moans and gasps. "Sou ka…ja, help me to slide down your fucking pants first and then I'll release you, Hagane no chibi-chan." Envy said with hoarse voice and seductive smile plastered on his face. Then he gets up to make room and placed his fingers on Ed's waistband. "KISAMA…WHO IS SUPER ULTRA HYPER CHIBI LIKE A BEAN THAT YOU CAN'T SEE WITHOUT MAGNIFIER GLASS?!!!" Ed cried because of Envy's tease and the stress from contact lost, but he still complied to Envy's order and lift his hip to make Envy more easy to slide down his pants and his boxers. After finished with Ed's clothes, Envy start to pull down his own short pants then he release Ed's left hand.

Envy then pursue to give him blow job and his hand clutch onto Envy's long and silky hair. "OMFG…Envy…aahh…" Ed can only moan and arch his back. He wanted to thrust to the other's mouth but Envy's left hand on his hip make him still while his right hand playing with Ed's balls. 'Hagane no chibi's taste always good to me. I never bore to feel him in my mouth and my arms like this.' Then Envy stopped and get up and take Ed's hand off his hair. Ed whimpered, but Envy said with husky voice, "Don't pout to me, Ed! I stopped just because I'm gonna give you more waves of pleasures through your hot little body. But your pout face also looks so cute, Hagane no chibi-chan." while he coated his erection with his own pre cum. Ed's blushed and shuddered from the words.

"Teme…Don't call me LITTLE…CHIBI…and CUTE, Envy! Or else…HNN…" but Ed's words didn't finish coz Envy started to push into his entrance. "Or else you'll what, Hagane no chibi-chan?" Envy said with evil grin on his face and started to thrust into Ed and stroke Ed's throbbing cock with the same rhythm. With that, Ed started to moan and forgot all the words that he wanna said earlier. But his subconscious managed to say between his moan, "chibi…ahh…iuna…AAHH…" he cried coz Envy just hit his prostate and sent pleasure all over his body. Envy just sees him with great amuse and thrust faster, hit the pleasure spot many times. Ed's moans became louder and louder and started to thrust back into Envy's desperately to get release. Then Envy leaned down and started to kiss Ed fiercely. Ed kissed him back with same eagerness and their tongue tangled in the Ed's mouth. Both moaned at the other's mouth as the pace became faster and faster.

Both panted and getting closer to climax. Envy parted the kiss to get air. Then Ed's body tensed and he came first onto Envy's hand and his stomach and cried Envy's name. Ed's clenching muscle around his cock sent Envy to the Edge and he came too with held cry. Then he move off from Ed and collapsed beside Ed. They calmed down their breath while enjoying the afterglow. After awhile, Envy got up and started to lick Ed's cement from his fingers and Ed's stomach clean. Then he put his own pants on again and helps Ed with his pants. Ed lying on the bed still exhausted.

"Why did you do this to me, Envy?"

"Coz I like you, Hagane no chibi-chan."

"Chibi iuna to itta darou!" Ed snapped. Pause.

"But why me?" he asked again.

"Well, coz you're the one that I want, Ed"

"But…"

"Look, you don't have to think much about it! I like you and I want you. And from what I see from your responds, you like me too…so, I fuck you and you seem to enjoy it too. Just admit it!"

"…Well, yeah…it's true that I have feeling to you…" Ed started. "And… I like it when…when…we have…sex…" Ed's words became whisper on that said. "But still…" Ed brought his hand to his head, puzzled.

Envy sighed. "Fine, it's up to you! Make up your mind Hagane no, I leave the decision to you! "

Ed tensed a bit, when Envy calls him Hagane no, it's just like… Roy. Of course the voice is different, but the tone is similar to Roy's. Slowly and carefully, Envy releases Ed from the chain that held him to the bed. Ed looks at him with questioning look, but Envy just shrugged. A minute has passed and still Envy didn't say anything. And that makes Ed more confused. Usually Envy would tease him or insult him. Envy just watch him in silent, then proceeded to leave. In reflect, Ed grab Envy's hand, holding him so he can't go anywhere.

"What is it, Hagane no Chibi? Not enough for you?" Envy teased him again, but the teasing is much colder than usual.

"Why? Why are you releasing me now? After you held me here for about a week? What am I to you Envy? A toy to please yourself?"

"Ed, you're the one who knows the answer. Ask yourself. And to answer your 1st question it's because I give you an option, whether you want to stay with me or go back to your place. It's up to you. Well, I'm leaving then Hagane no Chibi, I'll see you tomorrow…hope so."

Envy kisses Edward on the forehead before he leaves him alone in that room to think. 'Why? Why can't I decide that kind of thing now? I really want to come back to Roy and Al, but…. I really like Envy too.' He thought. An hour has passed, but the young alchemist still can't make a decision. But then, suddenly something come to his mind. The promise he make to Al. He can't do it if he stays with Envy. He gets up and grabs his coat, settling his mind to come back to Roy and Al. It's really hard for him to leave Envy, but Al needs him. He gets out from the room and manages to find the exit.

"I'm so sorry Envy…but I can't stay with you, I've already have Roy and also I can't live without Al," he says to no one in particular.

He just realized that Envy has been prisoning him somewhere in the East. Ed thanks Envy for this, because with his condition, he can barely take any long trip. He examines the road then after finds the direction, he goes toward Roy's house.

TBC

Well, that's it! Hope this fic doesn't suck and you guys like it! So, please review and tell us if this fic good or bad coz this fic would be continues or not depend on you! Critics are always accepted as long as you didn't flame us!

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