Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ Things I'll Never Say ❯ One-Shot

Okay, this is my SECOND fanfic. I still haven’t gotten any reviews on my first one, but what the hell. Right?

The probably means you suck & they never wish for you to write another story - especial sogfics - ever again.

Looks like Fullmetal’s in a bad mood. Heh. Now how should we fix that? *Devise smile*

O.oo.O Don’t you dear!

*Shrugs* Fine fine. Lets just get on with it. I’m tried & we- I mean I have to go to bed.

*Sighs*

T.T It probably does mean they hate me. Or maybe there just that much of a stuck up prick that they can’t seem to take a few extra minuets out of their day to right a few words on how my writing was. I mean you’ve already READ the damned thing. That had to take time why not let the writer know what you think. It might help them get BETTER. We’ve written it. We’ve done the hard part. It’s not that difficult to tell us what you think.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the FMA characters in this fanfic, I just kidnaped them. I did not write ‘These Things I’ll Never Say’ although I wish I did. << >>

Note: This is the first time I’ve done a story out of third person point of view. So it will probably be sloppy. Sentences in this font are the song lyrics. ‘...’ Means thoughts. “...” Is talking. Bold is emphasize. Get it got it good. My grammar sucks, I know.
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Things I’ll Never Say

It wasn’t early in the morning, but it wasn’t late either. All I knew was that the sun was way to low in the sky for me to be up & it was blurry as to why I was up in the first place. I walk down the street to my job, or whatever you want to call it.

It paid well. A lot of stuff was paid for, for me because of this job but it led to so much that I didn’t want to see that sometimes I think it might not be worth it. Me & my damned promises, eh? Hehe.

The only thing I’m really dreading about going to this building is that stuffy office of yours. Where I sit & you tell me a story of what I did; mockingly. God you get on my nerves. But some how I try to, somewhat, act like I’m doing as you please, even if you can’t tell.

Standing outside your door I’m tugging at my hair. Pulling it out of its bread & redoing it now that I’m, more so, awake. I’m pulling at my cloths. Straightening my black shirt caller to make it look nice.

I knock on the door lightly. Maybe your not there, I hope you’re not. I really don’t feel like putting up with your- “Come in.” Damn.

Creaking the door open slowly I stick my head in first to make sure I’m not going to be a burden. Not that you would ever send me away. You just can’t pass up a chance to toy with me can you? From the way it looks, you’d do anything to get away from that paper work Hawkeye must have given you. But maybe it I ask then. “Should I come back later Colonel?”

You look up at me, & give a.. smile? It seems to be a relived. How long have you been here?

“No, Edward now is as good as time as ever.” That smile of yours fades into a smirk as I walk fully into the room & close the door behind me. You just continue. “You’ve had a report due for some time now. I was about to send Hawkeye & her gun after you.”

“Yeah, yeah.” I wave you off as I move to plop down on one of the two couches that sat facing each other. They were rather comfortable for cheap office couches. Maybe that’s the only reason I come here.

“So,” You begin, leaning forward, elbows propped on that wooden desk; fingers intertwined with each other in front of you’re chin. They hung lazily inward. “About that report.”

“Well- uh - you see. Um, what had happened was... eh..” I scratched my chin nervously as my eye wandered everywhere but you. I’m trying to keep my cool. I know it shows. The truth was there was really no report to give. I suddenly remembered why I had been avoiding this. I just told the Colonel that I would be going some where on a hunch & that I’d let him know when I was back. Wait. I hadn’t called you yet!

My head snapped back to you & behind those hands of yours I can see that cocky - know it all - grin mocking me. God how I hated you when you did this. You knew everything about what I did like you have a spy on me!

“You bastard..” I gritted out as I’m staring at my feet.

You just chuckle teasingly, seeming to still expect something from me. “Like you really expected me, Roy Mustang, to believe that crappy lie of yours?” You change your voice to mimic mine. It’s high-pitched & sounds nothing like me. Never take up voice acting Colonel. “Winry thinks she found something that relates to the stone so me & Al are going to go cheek it out.” - Voice goes back to normal - “Yeah right.”

“I’m sorry I thought I deserved a break form my hard research! You never seem to mind to take a few days off here & there. I should get the same treatment!” I yell back at you, without really thinking & still looking at my feet. But it didn’t catch you off guard.

“So, how was it with Winry? It was her, & your, first time I believe.” You say it so casually like it’s something we’ve talked about before.

My cheeks are turning red. I’m searching for the words inside my head. “That’s none of your business!” is all I can get out in a raised tone. How the hell did you know me? Let alone Winry! I’m getting more frustrated by the minuet.

“How cute. You’re blushing.” You say with another chuckle. You’re loving this & I can tell. You love it any time I get all worked up because of your taunts. I hear you stand as I turn my head away & try to calm myself. I had fixed my hair & caller to look nice for you & this is what I get?

Truth is that I liked you. That’s why I acted like I did around you. Yeah Winry was nice.. But there was just something about you...

Suddenly you’re sitting next to me on the armrest of the chair with a sigh. What do you have to sigh for? It doesn’t matter. I’m pulling at my clothes again. I’m feeling nervous. Trying to be so perfect. I had gathered myself & was waiting for you to say something, anything to break the silence.

[Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it yeah]

“I can say what I want to say.” What the hell? I snapped my site to your back, which is still facing me. If I had heard right you had just said you can say what you want to say. I already knew that thanks. You did that all the time. “I say I wanna blow you away.”

What? Can you please stop trying you’re pick-up lines on me? It’s not funny or amusing. It’s just..painful.. Pick on my size again. It would be better then this.

“Be with you every night.” You’re voice was almost a whisper on that one it was breathy too. It was enough for me to shiver. ‘Damn dreams!’ I think to myself as I shake my head missing the last thing you said. “I’ll ask ‘Am I squeezing you to tight?’”

You’re looking at me now. It’s a look I’ve never seen before. You almost seems like hurt.. & longing..& maybe there’s some ..lust? What’s going on? I’m so lost right now. If this wasn’t a dream then what was it? It couldn’t be real. It just couldn’t.

‘I can see what I want to see. I wanna see you go down on me.” That’s what I want to say back to you.. But I can’t damn it! I just can’t get that close to you... ‘Marry me today.’ Is something more that goes through my head. But none of that is what comes out.

“Is that all Colonel?” I ask instead. I could have sworn I heard the hurt in your voice Roy. But for some reason I just ignored it. All I had wanted for so long being offer to me & me being stupid enough it down..

“That’s all.” You’ve turned back around, now your back is to me again.

“Retrieve me when some interesting happens.” I stand & walk out. My voice was cold & plane. Like it was when I came in. But maybe there was a bit of hurt it in. I couldn’t tell.

[Yes I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say]

I was sitting on the dorm be. Now that you knew, for sure, that I was back it didn’t matter if I was in a hotel or here. Now I’m just waiting for Al. Why? Cause I had nothing better to do. While I was waiting I thought. That was pretty much all I could do.

I sigh going over what had happened between the Colonel & me earlier. It wasn’t to long ago though. Maybe I could go talk to you about it... Yeah! I’ll go in & tell you what I’ve come up with!

Hopping up after making my decision I don’t worry about my black over shirt & red cloak. I just hurry out the door.

It wasn’t long before I was in front of you’re door for the second time that day. ‘I hope you’re happy.’ I thought figuring this is what you wanted to happen.

I knock. “Come in.” Is what I here & I compile. Shutting the door behind me I look at you. You’re back behind that desk you seem to love so much. You don’t even look up from the file you were looking at. I just guess you know it’s me & say what I came to say.

“It don’t do me any good.” You direct your gaze, halfheartedly, up at me. It didn’t seem like your head moved much. “It’s just a waste of time.” Now you seem to know what I’m trying to tell you, or question at. “What use is it to you, what’s on my mind?”

You just stared for a moment. Seeming to be surprised for some reason. So maybe you didn’t plane this? Anyhow, you seem to be pleased with me. You’re smiling. I think.

“If it ain’t comin’ out.” I looked away from you as you began. “We’re not going anywhere.”

“So why can’t I just tell you that I care?” I whisper loudly enough for you to hear it. Even if I didn’t speck loud enough for you to hear, I’m pretty sure you can lip-read.

I can hear you smirk & stand taking slow, easy steps toward me. Probably trying not to startle me. But to be honest...I am scared. I just confessed to my boss & the biggest womanize I know.. That I care for you..

I straighten my stance & look at you & your content face. My heart is racing & the room seems to have grown smaller. You’re almost to me just a few more steps now. My breath quickens & I squirm, agitated, against the door I had my back on. Cause I’m feeling nervous, trying to be so perfect.

[Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it yeah]

You right in front of me, & leaning down with a hand against the door & beside my head. Pinning me in a fashion. You smell like you normally do & I can feel your breath caressing my ear as you whisper. “I can say what I want to say. I say I wanna blow you away. Be with you every night. Am I squeezing you to tight?”

It was days-ya-vo but I could say what I had wanted to say back earlier. It didn’t matter now. You know.

“I can see what I want to see. I wanna see you go down on me.” I left out Marry me today but that was alright. It could wait till another day.

“With pleasure.” Was the last thing I heard before my neck was under attack by your mouth. Sucking on my sweat spots. Damn you’re good at finding them!

[Yes I’m wishing my life away
These things I’ll never say]

You chuckled at something & I just had to know what it was. “W-what’s so funny?”

You didn’t raise your head up to look at me in the face but you did answer. “Just the sounds you’re making are all.”

“What’s wrong with my song?”

My second question made you half chuckle & half snicker. “I’ve never heard moans be called a song before.” You continued where you left off on my neck not but a second after you finished talking. I feel one of your hands rubbing up & down my side causing me to shudder uncontrollable.

“Mus-TANG!” I squeaked the last part of it because your hand found its way, under my black muscle shirt, to one of my nipples & pinched it. I gasp when your thumb starts to misusage the nub. You take the opportunity to clam my mouth. Letting your tongue slip in & out however you please.

[These words keep slipping away]

I want to say your name. Call it out & let it be filled with all this pint up passion I’ve had for so long. But you’re perverting me from doing that.

[I stutter]

I try the best I can, “Roy!” but it’s still muffled & doesn’t satisfy me at all.

[I stumble]

My fingers keep slipping off the buttons of your white under shirt. My legs are becoming weak & my knees are buckling together.

[Like I’ve got nothing to say
Cause I’m feeling nervous]

I I don’t know what to do & it seems like I’m making a fool out of myself.

[Trying to be so perfect]

I’m trying to just copy you but it’s not working. It seems like I’m messing up more now.

[Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it yeah]

It’s not my strong suit, but I give up & let you take over. You seem to know exactly what you’re doing.

[Yes I’m wishing my life away
These things I’ll never say]

You seemed to gotten the hint when you moved us to one of the couches after locking the door. I don’t think I want to make this public yet either.

[I can say what I want to say
I say I wanna blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you to tight]

You did what wanted to & how you wanted to. You pulled my tank top off & licked you’re way to a nipple, playing between the two for a bit before moving down even more. My belly button was next. Before I knew it though you were unzipping my pants with your teeth. Hot breath slipping out your mouth to caress my, now, rock hard member.

[I can see what I want to see
I wanna see you go down on me]

MY pants & under wear were gone before I could say anything. You’re tongue ran up the underside of my cock while your hands held my hips still. They were bucking wildly for more & I couldn’t control them.

[Marry me today
Yes I’m wishing my life away]

It wasn’t to log after that you pulled of not wanting me to cum just yet. You were readying me with your fingers for ten minuets, or until you thought I was ready for you. You positioned yourself at my entrance before kissing me & pushing in.

You began to thrust after I was settled & calm. It wasn’t to long until I came. You followed after a few more thrust. You were heavy when you collapsed on me. I feel asleep almost instantly, but I still heard you say, “I love you, Ed.”

[These things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say]
~End~
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I know I know. It sucked. I don’t really like this one either. That’s why, once again, I probable won’t edit it! Yeah for mistakes! Haha. Anyways! Tell me what you think please. It’s really important to me. *Kitty pouts* PPPPLLLLEEEEAAAAASSSS!?!?!?!?