Gensomaden Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ Happy Little Family ❯ Part Two: Acceptance ( Chapter 2 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
1 Feb 2004

Happy Family by babaca
Part Two: Acceptance

"I've made a mistake. I've managed to ruin something so innocent by being so silly. We were out shopping as usual. Gojyo was in good spirits joking around and I think I took the joke too far.

"I really DID want to kiss him. I could feel my stomach flutter like it did the first time I wanted to kiss Kanan. Of course the difference was I did kiss her, while I chickened out with him. I think it was the look in his eyes really. Kanan had a happy and surprised look when my lips touched hers. Gojyo looked at me with surprise and barely suppressed desire. Suddenly I felt all like one of the women that he manages to charm in almost every town we go. I wished I had gone through with it, but I thought I would be overwhelmed by that desire. So I strategically retreated.

"We had a good laugh about it, headed back to the hotel and I thought it was forgotten. However I couldn't help but notice that Gojyo has seemed different around me lately. He's trying to act like nothing is wrong, but I know better. The silent moments between us, which used to feel comfortable and natural before were now tense and tangible. When we room together, he deliberately stays out all night, only coming back in time to clean up before we would head out for the road again.

"Why did I ruin that moment? I've really missed him and the way things were before that stupid incident. I should have kissed him and let the consequences be damned. I wanted to kiss him and see if he really could make me feel ... I don't know like I did before when I was with Kanan. Not exactly the same of course... no one will ever compare to her in my heart, but I wonder if my heart is ready to accept someone else there as well."

"So why are you telling me all this?" Sanzo groused, glaring at the empty bottle of sake. "It's because I'm a priest isn't it? I don't give a good god damn about your confessions of unresolved feelings."

I merely shrugged.

"Look, since the moment I met you, that guy has been your protector and friend. He fought both me and the monkey so you could escape. When he thought you were dead, or at least Cho Gonou was dead, he railed at me for what felt like hours. So it's obvious to anyone including Goku that you care about one another. What do I care if you two finally decide to do something more about than angst and whine to me about your problems?" Sanzo sighed. "Look, do whatever the hell you want to do. Just don't get annoyingly showy in front of the saru. We don't need to be giving him any ideas. So unless you have more sake readily available, I suggest you leave."

"Okay," I said. "I'm sorry to take up your time. I'll see you in the morning."

I returned to the room that I was sharing with Gojyo. I had tried to trade with Sanzo earlier but I suspected he knew Gojyo and I were having problems and that we needed to settle them before doing such a trade. I figured Gojyo had already gone in search of booze, women and a good card game.

"Hey, where have you been?" Gojyo asked me. He was sitting on his bed, and had been looking out the window.

"What are you still doing here?" I asked. "Shouldn't you be out having fun?"

"Didn't feel like it today," Gojyo said. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry."

That got my attention. "Sorry for what exactly?"

"All sorts of things. I was being stupid before. I didn't mean to piss you off with my kidding around. We've been friends for too long to go about being angry at each other," he said looking up at me with those wonderful eyes, full of pain and regret.

"I wasn't angry with you Gojyo," I felt the need to explain. "I was angry with myself for ruining a harmless moment in time."

"You didn't ruin anything," Gojyo remarked, "If anyone was being stupid it was m..."

I decided I was tired of the 'who was the most stupid' game and shut him up before I became angry about this battle of words. I sat next to him, grabbed a hank of red hair and kissed him.

Oh my. I was thankful that I had sat down first, because I'm sure I would be on the floor as a puddle of youkai goo otherwise. Initially I do believe that we both stopped breathing. His lips were slack, probably in shock before he decided to respond.

This felt different from any kiss I gave to Kanan. I know it's horrible to compare things like that, but it did. Her lips were always soft and giving. Gojyo's lips were firm and demanding and I could feel my entire body flush as our tongues started a different battle. Not one of words but of loving play. Nothing in my past experience ever felt quite this exhilarating.

All good things must come to an end and we mutually ended the kiss.

"Holy shit Hakkai," he uttered with the biggest smile I had ever seen on his face.

I laughed. That felt right. No declarations of anything, no apologies.

This time he pulled me towards him for another kiss, equally as earth shattering as the first. I felt my mind blank even as I could feel Gojyo pulling me closer and flipping us on the bed. He settled on top of me and it continued to feel right. It felt like it was something that was always meant to be.

He pulled back and smiled at me again. "What will Mom say?" he asked with a sparkle in his eye that had been lacking for weeks.

"Mother approves as long as we don't corrupt Goku with public displays," I said, just a little breathlessly.

"Oooh, that gives me ideas," Gojyo said with a chuckle as his lips grazed my neck. The shiver that resulted could not be suppressed although I tried. "Next time that guy drives me insane we only have to ..."

Once again I stopped whatever evil idea was about to be said by kissing him again. My leg thrown over his hip so I could flip us again to I was on top this time. "Mmmm," I purred, "I think we don't need any more friction amongst us." I couldn't help grinding my hips just a bit at the word 'friction'. A new unique sensation had as clothed hardness pressed against clothed hardness and it felt good.

"Hey, why am I the girl?" Gojyo asked. However I noticed it didn't stop him from returning the grind.

"Are you saying I should be the girl instead?" I asked, suddenly realizing that we were moving just a little too quickly here.

Gojyo must have seen my expression and seemed to understand it. He smiled at me. "At this point no one has to be the girl." He kissed my nose, his lips slightly bumping my eyepiece. "It's okay. I'm planning on doing something I haven't done since I was a teenager," he chuckled.

"What would that be?" I couldn't help but be suspicious.

"I'm going to woo you. This is more than a quick rut to ease some stress from being on the road. I don't want to blow this," he said as his arms tightened around me. "I'm going to show you and anyone else that I'm worthy of this and of you."

I pushed past the lump in my throat. Gojyo has always had the ability to say things that just evoked emotions you didn't think you had. I opted for humor to the sincere thought; I think we're past the point of misunderstanding. "It still sounds like I'm the girl."

Gojyo laughed. "Okay, we can woo each other then."

"That can work," I joined in the laughter. After that we remained lying in his bed, enjoying the silence, comfort and peace that hadn't been felt between us for weeks.

Yes this still felt right.

Owari