GetBackers Fan Fiction ❯ Anguish for the Lonely Series ❯ Fight with the Mind ( Chapter 2 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

I heard when Ginji arrive back at The Honky Tonk. He was walking in kind of slow and the next thing I know he has ran back out into the rain again. I know that something was up he has been running off lately and even thou he tries to hide his pain I know he hurts but I can't tell why, normally he tells me straight out. I have a feeling it has to do with my relationship with Himiko. It's not my fault that she always wants to have make out sessions with me. I didn't want to have one but she made this new poison that makes me do things like that even if I don't want too.

He left as soon as he opened the door. I force Himiko off of me and ran after him; Kazuki and that annoying Monkey boy follow me. I call out to Ginji; he doesn't stop out first so I figured that he didn't hear me, so I call out again. He final stops, his face facing towards the ground.

“Ginji! Oi Ginji.”

I yell towards him as I finally catch up. He doesn't reply. I stood behind him, he didn't turn towards me. I hesitantly place my hand on his shoulder. I didn't need him to shock me then, not when I'm all wet.

“Ginji talk to me, you have been like this for about a month now. It's kind of starting to piss me off”

I know he said something but I couldn't pick it up, he's voice was too quiet barely audible

“What you say?”

His voice shot up, he was angry, I could tell be the sparks that were coming from his back. I pulled away not wanting to risk being hit by a thunder bolt.

“I said Fine let it piss you off! It just might make up for all the crap I'm going through.”

The next thing that happened was the last thing I expected but Ginji turned towards me, his eyes red from crying and he grabbed my shirt and kissed me. I was shocked; I never knew that Ginji had any form of feelings towards me other then our friendship. I think I would have responded to the kiss but with the shock I was in by time I could have recovered it would have been too late. Ginji had pulled away and was now running again. Kazuki and the Monkey boy were running after him but not able to keep up. I stood there still in shock. The kiss still imprinted on my lips. ________________________________________________________________________

It's been a few months since then, I ran after Ginji when I regained myself but he was long gone. I didn't give up thou, I searched everywhere, well every were I could think of. If Ginji wants to get away he can do it and not even I could find him. I still look even now but when I look for him now it's less physical, you could say I look for him through my dreams.

After Ginji left I broke up with Himiko, she was becoming too much for me to handle with my worries for Ginji. I'd rather give up my girlfriend from my best friend even thou it's cruel but I did just that. I searched everywhere to find Ginji, I got help from everyone even Akabane, who like myself seems to know where Ginji would go but none of us could find him. I haven't found in my dreams yet. Usually we have a connection no matter where we are but I guess he has closed his end up. I wonder if he thinks of me or not but I guess I won't know.

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I sat up in my bed, my body covered with sweat. Once again I was having dreams about Gin-chan. Ever since that kiss I have been having these dreams every night about Ginji. They are usually the same. They are erotic in every time and I always wake up with a painful erection or with cum stuck to my sheets and body. I sometimes wonder if this is caused by Ginji's kiss, as if a way to bring out some hidden emotion I have towards him. I get up out of bed and head to the bathroom. I turn the shower on and strip down to nothing but my bare skin. I step into the warm spray with my back against the wall. I hand goes straight to my erection like always as I slide straight to the ground. As I release myself of this tension I think of Ginji with his bright smile and I feel as if he's been here in this same shower doing the same thing. In my current state if he was around I would gladly pull Ginji into one of our bedrooms and screwed his brains out if he'd let me…but he's not here but my mind won't let me acknowledge that in my current intoxication. I am reaching my peak as I scream out Ginji's name my eyes shoot open. I hear Ginji's voice in my head screaming out, as if Ginji is doing the same as me. I have a perfect picture in front of my eyes of a different surrounding. I wait a few minutes as I recover and I quickly finish my shower and get dressed. I run out of the apartment that Ginji and I got and my feet run to my car and I get in driving of to some place but it's not like I know where I am going.

“Ginji, Ginji, Ginji, Ginji”

I speak as my mind thinks. I pull up at outside an apartment complex and my legs carry me to the 3rd floor of apartments. I stop outside an apartment number 226 and I'm about to ring the door bell when the door opens. I smile but at the same time my face shows shock. I see Ginji but he looks different but I know it's still him. He stares at me wide eyed. His hair is all spiky up top but long at the back that it is in a mid ponytail. He no longer has a fringe. Minus the pony tail he'd look just like he did when we first met and we fought in Infinite Castle. I move forward and hug Ginji tightly, I want to pull him into a deep kiss at this current time but I don't want to scare him more then I think I already have.

“Oh god Ginji, I have missed you so much.”

“Gin-chan, who's at the door?”

I let go of Ginji when I hear another male voice. I have my thoughts on who this person could be for Ginji but I don't want to know because I don't want it to be who I think it could be. A tall black haired guy appears behind Ginji and wraps an arm around Ginji's waist.

“Ban-chan” Ginji whispers faintly before smiling at the guy holding him. “Kousuke, this is an old friend of mine, Midou Ban”

The guy smiles at me and places his hand out, “Ah so you're the great Midou Ban I heard about when I first met Gin-chan. The Great Invisible Get Backer Midou Ban, it's nice to finally meet you.”

I shake his hand as I try to be nice making sure that I don't use my 200 kilo grip and crush his hand. I can tell that Ginji is worried about me using my strength on this guy which is partly why I hold back,

“Gin-chan, I have to go down the road to get some things. Do you think you can hold down the fort and keep our guest company?”

Ginji looks up at Kousuke and nodded. Kousuke grabs the trash bag that I hadn't notice Ginji was holding and Kousuke left after giving Ginji a quick peck on the lips. Then I knew my thoughts were correct, this Kousuke character was Ginji's lover. It hurt me now fully knowing it but I tried to ignore it. Ginji stood at the door and stared at the ground after Kousuke left. The awkard silence surrounded us. I look at the ground, I don't know why but I just can't look up at Ginji.

“May…maybe I should lea…”

“Ban!...chan. H…how did you find me?”

I look up and Ginji is running his hands through his hair. I smile slightly, he has changed from the Ginji I knew. I rub the back of my head absently and I feel my face redden slightly.

“Hehe…ah…was he around this morning…about an hour or two ago?”

Ginji looks up at me weirdly as if to question why I ask.

“He went out for a bit this morning while I was having a shower. Why?”

The image that appeared in front of my eyes when I was in the shower flashed in my head again.

“Well, were you doing anything…while in the shower?”

Ginji blushed and that told me my answer straight away as he looked down at the ground.

“During that moment our connection between each other opened. I…ah…saw you on the ground in the shower…doing. Well I didn't see you…it was like I was looking through your eyes. I thought I heard you call out my name”

Ginji turned completely away from me this time. As if he was afraid to admit that it was true.

“I'm sorry Ban. I think you should go.”

Ginji started walking into the apartment but I reached out grabbing his wrist, which then he stopped.

“Come back Ginji please. It has been hell without you. Thread boy misses you, Monkey bastard, hell even Akabane does. Everyone has misses you.” My eyes down cast, I took a deep breath. “Most of all I miss you Ginji. I have trouble sleeping at night wondering where you are. I looked everywhere but every time I found a clue I was always a few steps behind and could never catch up. Losing you made me realise how much cared…no, loved you.” I felt Ginji stiffen as if from shock of hearing my words. “Ginji, come back with me…please”

I hadn't realised but tears had been rolling down my cheek because I was…crying. I'm not too sure but I felt Ginji move slightly but I do not dare look you.

“I'm sorry Ban. It's too late, I can't”

I looked up and saw a few tears fall to the ground. Ginji's had moved free of the light grip I had on his wrist and I watched him walk back into the apartment leaving me staring at the door. `He was…crying'

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Okay another chapter done. Sorry everyone for the lateness of this post it's just I couldn't get it the chapter off my puter. Hehe *sweatdrops* thanks for the reviews everyone and keep them coming, oh and please check out some of my other stories as well as the ones on AFF.net and Mediaminer.org *grins* Well I hope to have the next chapter done soon.

Ja ne

Nakazato Mitsuki