Gravitation Fan Fiction ❯ Carousel ❯ Sinking In ( Chapter 2 )

A/N: I still don't own Gravitation*crys to self*; there for Yuki still dosnt walk around in those bunnie ears *sob*.

 

Riding along on Hiro's motorcycle Shuichi realized what he had just done. He had left Yuki. No one left Yuki Eiri, Yuki Eiri left people. A sudden sense of pride washed over him as he thought about that; he was kind of happy that he had been the only or one of few that left the famous writer. His thoughts continued to run in that direction until he felt a sudden jolt of the motorcycle stopping and the engine turning off. Hiro hopped off and help Shuichi get down. Hiro took Shu's bag and slung an arm around his shoulder as he led him to the door.

 

Shuichi hadn't been to Hiro's new place many times, mainly because he didnt feel like intruding. Now intruding would'nt bother Shuichi if it had just been Hiro there; but after Suguru moved in with him he didnt want to complicate things by accidently walking in on them while they we're....busy....The other reason was that they had only bought the place a month and a half ago.

 

As they entered the large apartment Shuichi suddenly stopped and pulled on Hiro's shirt; when Hiro turned around he found Shu looking up at him eyes full of concern.

 

"Hiro, Suguru-kun won't be mad I'm here, will he?" Hiro could see the tears coming to his eyes.

 

"No Shuchi-san, it's okay." Hiro and Shuichi both turned to find Suguru standing there in pajama pants with out a shirt.

 

"Are you sure?" Tears were starting to flow over Shu's bottom lids and roll down his face.

 

"Yes, it's fine." Suguru told him in a reassuring manner,at that Shuichi started to bawl and shoved his face into Hiro's chest.Hiro looked at Suguru who nodded in answer to the unspoken question and walked back to their bedroom.

 

Hiro led Shu over to the couch and started to rub his back and told him to calm down. It was finally starting to sink in,he had left Yuki. This time there was no sense of pride, only emptiness. An empty that was cold and dark, it left an unfixable hole in his heart.

 

Hiro, who had no idea what was going on, just sat there trying to get Shuichi to calm down enough to actually speak to him.

 

"Shu, come on now, calm down so you can tell me what happened. Did Yuki-san throw you out again?" Shuichi shook his head no. "Did he say something mean to you?" Another head shake, Suddenly Hiro got an image of a very angry Yuki coming towards a helpless Shuichi and hitting him, hard. "Shu Yuki didn't hit you, did he?" Hiro was suddenly over some with the urge to rip Shuichi's clothes off to check for bruises, his eyes were so clouded with rage he almost missed the fierce head shake of no Shuichi was now giving him.

 

Seeing Hiro so worked up had calmed Shu down enough to speak, but he was still sobbing.

 

"H-Hiro..." he managed to choke out, "I l-lef.." He couldnt finish at was if saying it, no confirming it, made it so he couldnt change it. At this point Shuichi didnt know if he even wanted to change it or if Yuki would let him.

 

What if Yuki is happy I left? What am I thinking of course he is...

 

"Shu it's okay, everything is going to be alright." Hiro grabbed a Kleenex from an end table and began to wipe up the snot that was now dripping out of Shu's nose like a leaky faucet. It looked like a mother tending to her hurt child.

 

Shuichi wiped his eyes on the back of his hands trying to clear away all his doubts and insecurities.

 

This is ridiculous I left Yuki on my own choice....So does it hurt worse than being thrown out? Than being yelled at? Why do I feel as if someone has ripped out my heart and stomped on it? No this is pointless, I can't think like this...

 

Pushing those thoughts aside Shuichi realized something else, without Yuki around he could focus on Bad Luck without coming into the studio, late, and upset over soemthing Yuki said or did. Without him around Yuki could actually write a book in peace, and quite possibly get it in on time.

 

Yes this is for the best.

 

And with that Shuichi stopped his tears and looked to his best friend solemnly.

 

"Hiro I left Yuki." Hiro fell off the couch.

 

"Na-Nani?! Did I hear you right? Did you just say you left Yuki?!"

 

"Yes." Shuichi glared at him as he got up from the floor.

 

"Can.......Can you do that?"

 

"YES! Jeez Hiro you make it sound like it's illegal to leave him!"

 

"Well...I kina thought it was like a unspoken rule......" Hiro rubbed the back of his neck.

 

"Well it's not! I Shindo Shuichi left Uesugi 'Yuki' Eiri, so there." After several seconds of silence Hiro spoke

 

"Why?" More silence......silence......Crod damn you could hear a pin drop in there......

 

"I....I just didnt think it was working anymore...I don't think Yuki really wanted me there.....I know he dosnt love me and he was never going to right? So I would have to give him up sooner or later, I just thought 'Why prolong this anymore? I'm going to be more hurt in the end.' Eventually he'll find someone he does love and I'll be cast aside like an old toy no one wants to play with. I just thought it wouldnt hurt so much if I ended it...."

 

"Oh Shu!" Hiro threw his arms around him. Shuichi's story brought back memories of his own painful breakup......

 

 

***Hiro's Little Flashback***

 

 

Hiro left the studio just after 6, he was going to meet Ayaka for dinner at a nearby café. He had made up his mind tonight he would tell Ayaka it was over. After all how can you compete with your best friends boyfriend who just happens to be the great Yuki Eiri? Answer: you can't. Besides Hiro was tired of this unrequited love.

 

Ayaka would probably be hurt but Hiro couldn't take it anymore, he needed to find someone who would love him like he would love them.

 

*At the Restaurant*

 

Ayaka smiled at Hiro it was a very good dinner and she was looking forward to taking a walk in the park.

 

"Come on Ayaka let's go." Hiro came over and pulled out her chair for her.

 

"Thank you. Hey Hiro?"

 

"Yea?"

 

"Can we take a walk?" Hiro looked around outside for his car (Yea he's got a car and a motorcycle!)

 

"Erm...I don't think that's such a good idea Ayaka..."

 

"Why not?" Ayaka looked innocent as always and for a second Hiro thought she was actually looking at him, but her next words proved him wrong. "Come on Eiri!"

 

"No. I need to get you home." Hiro turned away so she wouldn't see his hurt face and head for the car, "Come on let's go, we wouldn't want you to get home too late."

 

"Aww Hiro no fair!" Ayaka got in the car anyway and Hiro shut her door.

 

*Okay in Kyoto in Car*

 

"Hey Ayaka?" Hiro seemed nervous as he turned off the car. Ayaka looked sweet but she sure did pack a punch, Shuichi would testify to that. Hiro wasnt sure how she would react and he really didnt want to walk into the studio with a black eye or broken nose.

 

"Yea? Eiri are you okay? You've been acting strange all night." Little did she know that little statement eased all his nerves.

 

"Yea I'm fine but I really need to tell you something...Ayaka...I-don't-think-we-should-see-each-other-anymore!" He rushed out. Ayaka just kind of stared at him...and stared some more.......*slap*

 

"OW! What was that for?!" Hiro held his cheek.

 

"How dare you?! After all this now you just want to end it?! Hiro I thought we had something!"

 

"Ayaka please listen-"

 

"No Eiri I won't!"

 

"MY NAME IS NOT EIRI!" Hiro didnt get mad normally but Ayaka just pushed him over the edge, asking how dare he and saying they had something, just to turn around and forget who the hell he was!

 

Ayaka looked shocked, she had never heard Hiro yell like that before. And what was he talking about his name was not Eiri? Of course it wasnt!

 

"What are you talking about? Your name is Hiro! Why are you bringing Eiri-san into this conversation?"

 

"Well sometimes I wonder! I don't think you realize thats my name!"

 

"Yes I do! I think I know my own boyfriends name!"

 

"You know you call me and greet me with a 'Hello Eiri!' Just once I wanted to say 'Wrong number!' and hang up! Ayaka this isn't working anymore you wont ever love me like I love you and I can't stand to be called 'Eiri' every five minutes. It's obvious you still love him and I'm truly sorry he dosnt feel the same about you but I can't be your Eiri any longer."

 

Ayaka closed her eyes for a second then looked at Hiro tears in her eyes,

 

"Hiro, thank you for everything and I'm so sorry I put you through this...Goodbye." Ayaka kissed his cheek and got out of the car.

 

Even though it didnt end up as bad as he thought it would and he was happy it was over; Hiro couldn't help to be sad for awhile after all he really did love her........

 

 

*End of Pointless Flashback*

 

Okay so it wasn't anything like what had happened to Shu but he could still feel for the guy! And yea now he had Suguru and all but these things take time.

 

"Shu I think you should go to be bed now, we can talk about this in the morning okay?" Hiro patted Shuichi's head and lead him to the guest bedroom;which was actually supposed to be a small workout room but Hiro had them take out the extra bathroom connected to it to make it a room for Shuichi. But Hiro would never tell Suguru or Shuichi that; he had a feeling that some how they both already knew.

 

Shuichi kind of wished Suguru wasn't there, right now he really didnt want to be alone. He wanted to go to sleep with Hiro like they did when they were young and Hiro would hold him close until he feel asleep. Shu missed the old days.

 

Hiro turned down the bed while Shu changed into some pajamas. He had brought brought all the clothes he could, but not everything would fit so he had about 8 days before he would have to do some laundry, or attempt. He didnt have room for any his stage costumes so they had stayed in the closet right next to Yuki's best suits, along with some other odds and ends. He made a mental note to go get them while he knew yuki was out.

 

"Okay get in." Shu turned to Hiro who was holding up the covers for him, he nodded and got in.

 

"Ahh! What are you doing?!" Shuichi jumped back as Hiro slid into bed next to him.

 

"What's it look like I'm doing? I'm getting into bed, you didnt think I was just gonna leave you here in your time of need, did you?" This time it was Shu's turn to throw his arms around Hiro.

 

"Oh Hiro! Your the best!" Hiro chuckled softly.

 

"Yea I know now go to sleep." Hiro held Shuichi closely like when they were young until he feel asleep. Once Hiro was sure he was deep enough in sleep that a Mack truck wouldnt wake him now, he quietly got out of bed and headed towards his own room where he found Suguru asleep, holding on to his (as in Hiro's) pillow for dear life.

 

Getting into bed Hiro quickly replaced his pillow with his body so Suguru wouldnt wake up, but he did anyway.

 

"H-Hiro?" Suguru rubbed his eyes to clear away the sleep.

 

"Yea, now go back to sleep."

 

"No, I want to know how Shuichi is." He sat up, Hiro sighed and did the same.

 

"He left Yuki."

 

"Really? The way he was crying I thought he had gotten kicked out again."

 

"So did I, I guess Shu just wanted to be loved and he realized Yuki wasnt going to be the one to love him." Suguru was quiet for a moment, thinking over Hiro's words.

 

"I guess everyone just wants to love and be loved in return, no matter how much Shuichi loved Yuki I think he must of realized that he couldnt make Yuki love him. So I wonder why did he bother?" Hiro grabbed Suguru and pulled him into his lap.

 

"For the same reason you bothered with me." Hiro kissed him softly on the mouth, wanting nothing more than to just hold the one he loved. "Now can we go to sleep? Pwease?" Suguru laughed at Hiro's puppy dog face.

 

"Yes we can go to sleep now." Suguru leaned in and pressed their lips together once more, tracing the outside of his lover's lips asking for entrance. Hiro parted his lips and let Suguru's tounge explore the inside of his mouth before his own joined in on the little dance. Thier tounges continued to battle until Suguru realized what he was doing to Hiro, smirking he let one of his hands travel down to Hiro's now hardening member and pulled it through the oh so convenient hole in Hiro's red Nittle Grasper pajam pants. Suguru then began to stroke at a maddeningly slow pace.

 

Hiro moaned into Suguru's mouth and thrust upward into his hand trying to get him to move faster, but the hand did not comply and began to run a finger up and down the side drawing it's full hieght. Suguru quickly withdrew his hand and rolled over so Hiro couldn't see the huge grin on his face, he just loved to tease him.

 

"Suguru!" Hiro wailed and jumped on him. Suguru just laughed and pushed him off.

 

"I think we need to get some sleep, good night Hiro, I love you."

 

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

 

"Yuki?" Shuichi called out into the quiet apartment, "Yuki, are you here?" Silence. "I guess not." Shuichi started towards the bedroom box in tow, he was on a mission he was going to get all his things and get out before Yuki got home. As he passed by Yuki's office he noticed the computer was still on, Yuki never left his laptop on while he was out. Leaving the box there Shu made his way down the hall, the bathroom door was open but the bedroom door was closed and he could hear...was someone panting?

 

Shuichi turned the knob slowly not wanting to see what was behind the door, but at the same time needing to know. He took a deep breath and flung open the door to reveal a half naked Yuki and an equally naked woman. The woman gasped when she saw the pink haired man gaping at them. Yuki hadn't noticed his arrival till just then and jumped off the woman.

 

"What the hell are you doing here kid?"

 

So I'm just some kid now? Is that all? I don't even get a 'brat' or a 'baka'? Is that all I ever was to you? Just some kid?

 

"I-I just came to get the rest of my stuff.." Shuichi held his composure but that didnt stop the tears from falling down his face.

 

"I put the rest of it in the living room." Yuki lit a cigarette and walked out of the room. Shuichi followed suit stumbling most of the way, eyes clouded from tears. "Here." Yuki shoved a box at him and Shuichi fell over from the unexpected wieght he was just hit with. "Hmpf. Let me help you." Yuki walked picked up the box and walked to the door and put the box outside then did the same with Shuichi. Just as he was about to shut the door he remembered something. "Oh yea I need my key, and dont get all your snot on it!"

 

The know hysterically sobbing Shuichi produced the key and shoved it somewhere nears what he thought was Yuki's chest but ended up hitting him in the face.

 

"BAKA!" Was the last thing that Shuichi heard before the door slammed in his face and he fell to the ground.

 

"YUKI!!!!!!!" Shuichi shot up in bed, covered in sweat. "It was just a dream? Oh it was just a dream." Shuichi looked around the room trying to remember where he was. "Oh yea I'm at Hiro's." He sighed and fell back to the bed.

 

I wonder what Yuki's doing now. Does he even know I'm gone? Wait, what time is it? Ahh I need to find my phone.....

 

Shuichi got out of bed and picked up the cargo shorts he had been wearing when he came to Hiro's and pulled out his phone and switched the power on.

 

Hmm one missed call..Oh it's Yuki.OH! Is it already 9? I wonder what he wanted, probably just wanted to know where I was or when I'd be home... Maybe I should call him back... Wait I can't think like this! I left him! I'm going to erase him from my life once and for all.

 

Shuichi scrolled to the contacts button on his phone and found Yuki's and pressed delete.

 

"Are you sure you want to delete contact:Yuki?"

 

WTF? The phone talks? Since when?

 

"Are you sure you want to delete contact:Yuki?" It repeated.

 

YES I AM!

 

Shu hit delete and went back to the menu where he clicked options, typed in Yuki's number and hit 'Block.'

 

There now I won't have to see or hear from him for awhile.

 

But do you really want that?

 

What? No of course not! Why would I?

 

Then why did you do it?

 

Because it needed to be done! Why do you care anyway?!

 

Because if your not happy, then I'm not happy. I would much rather be happy than lonely wouldnt you?

 

Well yes but-

 

Just then Sleepless Beauty filled the room. Shuichi looked down at his phone it said 'Sakuma-san' on the caller I.D.

 

"Moshi moshi."

 

"SHUICHI!!!!!!!!" Ryuichi screamed into the phone.

 

"Hi Sakuma-san!" Shuichi smiled really big hoping Ryuichi could see it.

 

"Hi Shuichi! How are you?"

 

"I'm fine! How are you?"

 

"I'm going on a trip!"Ryuichi was now smiling bigger than Shu at the statement.

 

"Really? That's great! Where are you going?" I wonder if he's going back to America...

 

"I'm going to America for 2 week with Kuma-chan and guess what?"

 

"Umm.....K-san isn't going with you?" Shuichi was actually hoping he would but alas dreams don't often come true.

 

"No silly Shuichi! K has to stay in Japan to manage Bad Luck! You are a bad guesser Shuichi, I'll tell you instead."

 

"Okay, what?"

 

"Ready? Ryu-chan and Kuma-chan want Shuichi to come with us to America! Tohma said it was okay if you wanted to go. Please come Shuichi! Pretty pretty please!"

 

Go to America? I can't go to America!

 

And just why not?

 

Well what about the band?

 

You werent doing anything important....

 

Oh yea...Well maybe it will help me forget about Yuki! And Hiro and Suguru can spend some quality time together and I've never been to America...

 

"Shuichi? You'll come wont you? Ryu-chan will be sad if you don't come!"

 

"Yes, Sakuma-san I'll come."

 

 

 

 

 

2nd A/N: You know I'm just sitting here listen to a lowed version of Glaring Dream with no words and I feel the need to cry isnt that horrible? Oh yea you know I looked at this Chapter and you know what I said to me self? I says hey I worte alot this time woot woot! The I says wow...I don't like it..Oh well hope you do..Oh yay! Shining Collection is on! Yes so next time we shall take a deep look into Yuki's mind!