Gravitation Fan Fiction ❯ Center of Gravity ❯ One Future ( Chapter 6 )

Warning: This chapter contains explicit language and sexual situations.

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Chapter 6: One Future

Eiri woke up feeling like crap. His head was pounding and his mouth tasted like sand. I hate it when I drink too much, he thought. Shit! He rubbed his eyes, trying to clear his vision. Then he stopped and stared up at the ceiling above him. Where the hell am I? He pushed up onto one elbow and looked around. He was in a hotel room. A vague memory about the night before made him roll over suddenly and stare behind him.

Tohma was in the bed with him.

Fearing the worst, Eiri yanked the bedclothes down. They were both naked.

“Oh crap!” he whispered.

Tohma opened one eye and blinked at him. “You're awake already?” He stretched luxuriously. “I'm still exhausted from last night. You were really horny.” He smiled seductively. “But then, so was I.”

Eiri stared at him. “What the hell are we doing here, Tohma? Whose idea was this?”

“I'd say it was mutual. I've wanted to do this for a long time and last night you were finally ready.”

“I was…?” Eiri rubbed his forehead, trying to remember the night before. “I'm not interested in you, Tohma. Not like this. Why would I…?”

Tohma sat up, folding one knee so he could drape his arm across it. “Maybe you just finally recognized that you need me. I'm more devoted to you than that stupid kid you've been seeing. Besides, he doesn't have time for you anymore. You said so. He's got other interests. But I'll always be here for you. You won't have to go without anymore, waiting for him to make time for you.”

“Stop it!” Eiri snapped. “That's not how it is!” He rolled out of bed and stood up, his fists clenched. “I was drunk last night. What happened doesn't mean anything.”

Tohma crawled to the edge of the bed and put his arms around Eiri's waist. “You can say that, but we both know it's not true. You were much too passionate last night for someone who was just getting laid. You were glad to finally be with me; as happy as I was to be with you. We belong together, Eiri. Accept it.”

Eiri closed his eyes. It wasn't true. He knew it wasn't true. Yes, it had been a long time since he'd been with Shuichi and he had been pretty hard up. But he didn't mind waiting to see him. It just made it that much better when they finally did get to be together.

“Damn you, Tohma,” he whispered. “Damn you to hell!” His clothes were dumped in a heap on the floor beside the bed. Eiri snatched them up angrily and stalked to the door of the bathroom. “I'm taking a shower. Be gone when I get out.” He locked the door behind him and leaned against it for a moment. “What am I going to tell Shuichi? Dammit!”

The shower didn't make his thoughts any clearer. His body got clean but his mind was still a mess. Eiri leaned against the wall, letting the hot water slide over his skin. He thought about the last time he'd taken a shower with Shuichi and how eager Shuichi had been for sex. He was always eager; always ready to give Eiri exactly what he wanted. He was impulsive and self-centered, true, but he was also playful, passionate and delightfully sensuous. He was the perfect lover.

And Eiri had betrayed him with someone he didn't give a damn about. In his mind, meaningless sex was much worse than purposely two-timing a lover. It implied that you didn't care enough about your lover to consider sex between you special. But sex with Shuichi was very special to Eiri.

“Dammit!” he whispered again. He rested his forehead against the wall. “I can't tell Shuichi I betrayed him. Not with someone like Tohma. He would never forgive me for it. I deserve his contempt.”

He finished his shower and tried to smooth the wrinkles out of his clothes before dressing. When he opened the door, he was not surprised to find Tohma dressed and sitting on the edge of the bed with one leg folded over the other.

“I thought I told you to leave,” Eiri growled.

“I knew you didn't mean it,” Tohma stroked his fingers through his hair. “We're friends, Eiri.”

“Not anymore.” Eiri folded his arms across his chest. “You tricked me into betraying someone extremely important to me. That's hardly the behavior of a friend.”

Tohma frowned slightly. “You make it sound worse than it is. All we did was fuck.”

“Right.” Eiri leaned forward and fixed his eyes on Tohma's. “Maybe that's all it means to you, but my relationship with Shuichi is deeper than that. You will never get from me what I have with him. If you can accept that, maybe we can still be friends. But we're never going to have sex again and if you keep pushing me...”

Tohma sighed. “I was afraid you'd say that.” He stood up. “I suspected last night would be the only chance I ever got to savor the charms of the beautiful Eiri Yuki. I suppose I shall just have to make do with the wonderful memory.” He tipped his head to the side and gave Eiri his most charming smile. “Let's go back to the dorm. I'm sure I can find a way to make this up to you.”

Eiri's eyes narrowed. Was Tohma really content to let it rest at that? Eiri had his doubts. He suspected that within a few days, Tohma would begin flirting with him again. And then Eiri would have to decide how important Tohma's friendship was.

Tohma patted his arm. “Don't give me that look, Eiri. I'm not going to tell your little Shuichi about this. It'll just be between us. Let's go.” He stepped to the door and Eiri followed him. He wasn't sure he believed Tohma wouldn't let this incident slip out and he couldn't escape the guilt that was welling up inside of him. What would he tell Shuichi? Or should he say nothing and hope Shuichi never found out? Eiri glared at Tohma's back. Did he even want to stay friends with Tohma if his relationship with Shuichi fell apart?

-o-o-o-o-

Eiri threw himself into his schoolwork in an attempt to forget about his infidelity, but it didn't work. He hadn't expected to feel so guilty. He'd cheated on lovers in the past and it had never bothered him particularly. But then, he'd never been in love with anyone before. His attractions had always been physical, not emotional. But it was different with Shuichi. His passion for Shuichi did not rest entirely in his loins. Eiri liked being with him whether they were having sex or not. He simply liked Shuichi and hated the idea of hurting him. But Eiri was remembering more and more about the night with Tohma. He had fucked Tohma several times; more times than mere drunkenness could account for. Maybe Tohma was right and Eiri had secretly harbored a desire to do it with him.

It was time for class and Eiri started to gather up his books, but he kept stopping to stare at nothing. “I can't tell him. I can't tell Shuichi I fucked Tohma, but there's nothing to worry about because I still love him. He won't believe me. He'll hate me for it.” He folded his hands into fists, watching the knuckles turn white. “Maybe I should just end it. We hardly see each other anymore anyway. He has his music and it's more important to him now than I am.”

Eiri picked up his cell phone, but he hesitated for a moment before punching Shuichi's number. It was Tuesday morning. Shuichi might still be home, but with his concert in three days, he was probably rehearsing. But he should still have his phone with him. Eiri punched the speed dial number for Shuichi and put the phone to his ear.

“Hello?” Shuichi sounded a little breathless. He obviously hadn't looked at the phone before he answered it, because he normally greeted Eiri by name.

“Hey, Shuichi.”

“Yuki! I didn't expect you to call! Is everything ok?”

Eiri closed his eyes. It was if Shuichi knew something was wrong. “Um, yeah, I'm ok, but I wanted to talk to you.”

“What's up?”

“I…” Eiri bit his lip. “Shuichi, I don't know how to say this. I think maybe we should stop seeing each other. We're both pretty busy and it's hard for either of us to try to make time for the other. I think it would be easier if…”

“Yuki! I don't want to break up! I don't care if it's hard to see each other. Even one day a month is better than not at all! Please!”

The anguish in Shuichi's voice tore at Eiri's heart. “I know you feel that way right now, but with all your concerts and rehearsals, I'm sure you'll forget about me pretty quickly.”

“How can you say that?! I'll never forget about you! You mean everything to me, Yuki! Please don't break up with me! Please!”

Eiri could hear Shuichi's tears through the phone. He could imagine the young man's face as he clutched the phone, his tears wetting the faceplate. It made him feel even guiltier for betraying Shuichi's love with Tohma. “I'm sorry, Shuichi,” he said as calmly as he could. “I really do think this is the best thing to do. I need to focus on my classes and my writing and you have your career to think about. It's time for us to move on. Goodbye.”

“No! Wait, Yuki…!”

Eiri disconnected and immediately turned the phone off. “I love you, Shuichi.”

-o-o-o-o-

Shuichi dialed Yuki's number over and over again, but he couldn't get through; Yuki's phone was off.

“What did I do?” Shuichi wept to himself. “What did I do to make him so angry with me? I'm sorry, Yuki! Please answer your phone! Tell me what I did and I'll make it up to you! Please don't break up with me!” Shuichi sank to his knees, clutching the useless phone to his chest and weeping helplessly. “Oh, please, Yuki! I'm sorry!”

Hiro found Shuichi sitting in the middle of the floor in their apartment hours later still weeping.

“Shuichi, what's the matter? You were supposed to meet us at the studio hours ago.” Hiro dropped to his knees in front of his friend, his dark eyes filled with concern.

“It's Yuki!” Shuichi sniffed. He scrubbed his nose with the back of his hand and fresh tears began to fall. “He broke up with me!”

“What?! Just like that? Did he say why?” Hiro put a comforting hand on Shuichi's shoulder.

“No, he didn't say anything!” Shuichi wailed. “I must have done something to upset him, but I don't know what. I mean, I talk about what I'm doing too much and I don't listen to him as much as I should, but I read his book and everything! I was going to surprise him next time by asking him to autograph it for me.”

“He really didn't give any reason?” Hiro asked gently.

Shuichi shook his head. “He just said it was too hard having a relationship when we hardly ever see each other.”

Hiro sat back on his heels. “That's crap!” he snapped. “He knew it would be like this going in. Who started this relationship, anyway?”

“He did,” Shuichi whispered.

“That's right,” Hiro said sharply. “As I recall, he seduced you.”

Shuichi blinked at Hiro in surprise. “He did seduce me!” He sat up straighter. “He took my virginity and nearly cost me my sister. What right does he have to break up with me?”

Hiro nodded. “Damn right. He owes you an explanation. He can't just drag you through all this and then dump you when it's not convenient for him anymore.”

Shuichi jumped to his feet with his fists clenched. “You're absolutely right, Hiro! That sonuvabitch owes me! I'm going to make him tell me to my face why he's dumping me, dammit!”

“Good, because his timing sucks. We leave on tour in three days. I can't have you sitting around crying over Yuki.”

“I'm not going to cry over him!” Shuichi announced dramatically. He shook his fist in the air. “He loves me and I'll prove it to him!”

Hiro chuckled. “Great!” He glanced at his watch. “It's still early. I can take you down to his college on my bike. I'll drop you off and pick you up in the morning. We have to be in the studio by nine tomorrow morning. I think we can make it.”

Shuichi flung his arms around Hiro's neck. “You're the best, Hiro! I promise I'll make it up to you!”

“Just don't flake out on me on this tour.”

“I won't! You'll see! We're going to be the hottest band in Japan!”

-o-o-o-o-

Now that he'd broken up with Shuichi, Eiri felt even worse than before. He missed him so much that he imagined he could hear his voice when a group of students walked by in the hall outside his dorm room door that evening. Then someone pounded firmly on his door and Eiri sighed. He really didn't want to see anyone. He opened the door and stared in surprise.

“Shuichi! What are you doing here?” Eiri blinked at him in confusion. He hadn't thought Shuichi even knew where his college was, much less his dorm room.

“Forget that!” Shuichi growled. He shoved past Eiri and stalked to the center of the room. Eiri quickly closed the door as Shuichi turned to face him. “I want to know why you broke up with me!” Shuichi demanded. “It's not fair! You didn't even give me a chance. What did I do?”

“You didn't do anything.” Eiri couldn't meet his eyes. Shuichi's righteous anger made him feel even worse about his infidelity.

Shuichi's eyes went round. “If I didn't do anything, why did you break up with me? I have the right to know. You owe me at least that much.”

Eiri couldn't argue with him. “It's my fault. I thought you would be better off without me. I… I was unfaithful.”

“What?!” Shuichi stared. “Who was it? That jackass Tohma? Did he get you drunk?”

“I was drunk at the time, but…”

“Goddamn you, Yuki!” Shuichi stamped forward and slapped Eiri across the face hard enough to snap his head back. “You broke up with me because you were unfaithful? If anyone gets to break up over that it's me! Don't you love me anymore?”

The question stabbed Eiri to the heart. “Of course I love you, Shuichi. You're the only person I've ever loved.”

“You sonuvabitch!” Shuichi slapped him again. “And you didn't even think to give me the chance to forgive you? Do you think my love is that shallow?” Shuichi grabbed the front of Eiri's shirt and hauled him close, staring directly into his hazel eyes. “I love you with all my heart and soul, Eiri Yuki! I can forgive you for anything, including being too stupid to realize that.” He yanked Eiri's mouth down to his and kissed him hard. “Now you take me to bed right now and prove to me how sorry you are for betraying me and for breaking my heart! I expect to come at least five times in the next hour. Don't you dare disappoint me!”

“Shuichi…”

“No excuses, Yuki! Are we lovers or not?”

Eiri stared at him. Shuichi's dark eyes bored intently into his, demanding an answer. What could he say? He loved this excitable, impulsive, talented young man with an almost helpless passion. Thinking about a life without Shuichi tormented him. He didn't want to be separated from him.

“We are lovers, Shuichi.”

“Then tell me you love me and take me to bed, dammit!”

Eiri embraced him. Shuichi felt wonderful in his arms. Perfect and desirable and… Eiri kissed him. He couldn't help himself. All the weeks and months apart suddenly felt like an eternity. He didn't want to waste one more second. He may have thought he was being noble, but all he'd done was hurt Shuichi and for no good reason.

“I'm sorry, Shuichi!” Eiri whispered. “I didn't know what to do. I… I'm not used to feeling guilty about my behavior. I missed you and I needed to get laid. I got drunk and Tohma was there…”

Shuichi pressed his fingers against Eiri's lips. “I don't care about that. That's not what I want to hear.”

Eiri blinked at him.

“You know what I want to hear.” Shuichi moved his fingers and touched his lips to Eiri's. “Just say it and I'll forgive you.”

“I love you, Shuichi.”

Shuichi wrapped his arms tight around Eiri's neck. His happy smile lit up his entire face. “I love you, too, Yuki. I'm sorry I can't spend as much time with you as you want. I'll try to do better.”

“You don't have to do that. I don't have to study every weekend.”

“You'll still come to my concert in Tokyo on Friday?”

“I'll be there.”

Shuichi laughed happily. “Now I want to get thoroughly fucked! And you better do it with me more times than you did it with Tohma.”

Eiri flushed. “I honestly don't remember how many times I fucked him. I was really drunk.”

“Well, you're not drunk now.” Shuichi rubbed the front of Eiri's pants and his cock responded immediately. “I want lots of foreplay, followed by some serious fucking in multiple positions.”

“And you want to come at least five times,” Eiri concluded with a smile.

“Feel free to strive for more than that. I don't feel like sleeping.”

Eiri unzipped Shuichi's shorts and put his hand in. He rubbed Shuichi's cock slowly and smiled as it swelled in his hand. “I didn't kiss him, you know. And I didn't touch his cock.”

Shuichi shivered. “I'm glad to hear that.”

Eiri continued to stroke him. “But I missed touching yours. I missed touching your naked body and licking you in all my favorite places.”

Shuichi groaned. “Are you just going to talk about it? I'm getting really hard.”

“I know.” Eiri kissed him warmly. “I was thinking about licking it.”

“Oh my…” Shuichi gasped. “Don't hold back!”

“All right.” Eiri got down on his knees and pulled Shuichi's shorts and underwear down. His erection was delightfully stiff and Eiri stroked the shaft slowly with his tongue. Shuichi groaned. Eiri watched Shuichi's face as he licked his cock. Shuichi's eyes were closed and his face was flushed. He was already into it. Eiri slid his mouth over the tip and began to suck. Shuichi gasped aloud, his fingers tangling in Eiri's hair.

“Oh Yuki!”

Eiri sucked him off. It was a cheap way to start on the five comes, but Eiri liked doing it. He wondered briefly what Tohma would think if he knew. Well, he would never find out, because Eiri only liked doing this with Shuichi and he had no intention of betraying Shuichi's love again. He was not going to do anything to risk his relationship with his adorable lover. He sat back and smiled up at Shuichi. “Why don't you take your clothes off? I should really lock the door before I do anything else.”

Shuichi's eyes goggled. “The door is unlocked?! What if someone came in while you were…?”

Eiri stood up with a smile. “Then everyone would know how much I love you.” He stepped to the door and locked it. “But no one gets to see how satisfying a lover you are.” Shuichi was still standing there staring at him, so Eiri walked up to him and pulled his jacket and t-shirt off over his head. “I'm keeping your body all to myself.” He leaned over and sucked Shuichi's right nipple, teasing it with the tip of his tongue. “I'm going to enjoy every exquisite inch of you.”

Shuichi drew in a sharp breath. “Do you want to tie me up?”

“That's a wonderful idea. I'll handcuff you to the bed and rim you until you come again.”

“Oh my!” Shuichi's eyelids drooped as Eiri nibbled on his neck. “You have handcuffs?”

“Padded ones.” Eiri caressed Shuichi's ear with his tongue. “I was planning to bring them with me the next time I visited you, before I foolishly got drunk.”

“I think you should get them out.”

“Very well. But first, I want to see you completely naked.” Eiri slid his hands down Shuichi's legs and pushed his pants the rest of the way down. He had to drop to one knee to get them all the way down so, since he was down there, he sucked Shuichi's cock briefly.

Shuichi shuddered. “You're making me leak.”

Eiri licked the tip. “I noticed.” He tossed Shuichi's shorts and underwear aside and stood up. “Now then, lie down on the bed on your back and spread your legs.” While Shuichi complied, he went to the desk and dug the handcuffs out of the back of one of the drawers. He dangled them from one finger. “Once I put these on, you'll be completely under my control. You have to do whatever I say.”

“Yes!” Shuichi panted. His face was flushed and his eyes were bright with excitement. He lifted his arms above his head and Eiri captured one wrist inside a cuff. Then he looped the other one through the railing at the head of the bed and fastened the remaining cuff around his other wrist.

“I used to complain about these cheap bed frames,” Eiri remarked casually as he undressed, “but now the simple metal frame seems quite useful.” Shuichi writhed, tugging against the handcuffs. “They don't hurt, do they?”

“No.” Shuichi shook his head.

“Good.” Completely naked, Eiri climbed onto the bed on his knees and got between Shuichi's legs. He grasped Shuichi's ankles and pushed his legs farther apart, bending his knees so that Shuichi was spread wide open. “Now it's time to have fun.” Eiri bent over, inching backward until he could put his face comfortably between Shuichi's legs. “I expect you to make a lot of noise. I want people to ask me later what I was doing to you in here.” And then he began to apply his tongue. He explored Shuichi deeply, licking him until the young man was twisting with excitement and crying aloud. He licked until Shuichi was bucking up against his mouth begging for deeper and deeper penetration. Eiri rimmed him until Shuichi gasped with joy and went momentarily rigid, and then shook with orgasm. When Shuichi finally went limp, Eiri sat up. “That was good, wasn't it?”

Shuichi nodded weakly.

Eiri slid fingers into Shuichi. “You seem to be nice and wet now, too.” Shuichi writhed helplessly as Eiri worked his fingers in and out. “I think you're ready for the next phase.” He shifted forward, lifting Shuichi by the hips. “Let's see if I can get two for the price of one out of you.”

Shuichi moaned and then his moan turned to a ragged gasp as Eiri thrust into him. “Yes!” he gasped. “Fuck me hard!”

“Your wish is my command, love slave,” Eiri whispered and he began pounding his hard erection into Shuichi. Shuichi felt even better than he had the last time Eiri had taken him. He came almost immediately but he didn't let that stop him. He drove into Shuichi at an angle and rhythm that he knew would drive Shuichi wild and Shuichi responded uncontrollably. His head tipped back and he cried aloud through his open mouth, his fists opening and closing as he pulled helplessly against the handcuffs. He looked utterly beautiful and more desirable than anything Eiri could imagine. He leaned over, driving himself even deeper into Shuichi. “My Shuichi!” he panted. “My love! You're the only one I want to do this with. The only one.”

“I love you, Yuki!” Shuichi cried. “I love you so much!”

“That's what I want!” Eiri gasped back. “I want you to be mine!”

Shuichi came but Eiri didn't let it stop there. He paused while Shuichi's climax spurted out of him and then he resumed, thrusting deep into Shuichi again.

Shuichi bucked his hips up against him, gasping with joy. “I can't take any more! It's too good! Oh god!”

“You'll keep taking it until I say you're done, love slave!” Eiri groaned. “I want to explode inside you.”

Eiri leaned forward onto his hands, planted firmly on either side of Shuichi's torso, and pushed his knees up against the inside of Shuichi's wide-spread thighs. Then he drove with the full power of his hips and thighs, ramming his cock into Shuichi like a pile driver. Shuichi cried out, his body bucking and bouncing in response to Eiri's hard thrusts. Climax captured them in the same instant and they came together, their bodies shaking as orgasm shuddered through them.

When he finished, Eiri gazed into Shuichi's eyes with a loving smile. “I still owe you one more, but I need to rest for a moment.”

“So do I,” Shuichi panted, but he was grinning broadly. “That was really good. I love it when you take me hard like that.”

“I know,” Eiri nodded. “But you also like it when I'm gentle.”

Shuichi giggled. “Is that how you're gonna do it next?”

“Um hmm.” Eiri pulled out and put Shuichi's legs together. Then he lay down next to Shuichi and embraced him. “I feel like an idiot for not trusting you to forgive me. Before I met you, I was never faithful to anyone and I thought I had changed. I was ashamed to find out I still had some of my old bad habits.”

“I don't expect you to completely change for me,” Shuichi said quietly. “I just want to be the only one you love.”

Eiri kissed him gently. “You are the only one I love, Shuichi. And I want you to always love me.” He kissed Shuichi deeply and began rubbing himself against Shuichi's hip. He also started pulling slowly on Shuichi's cock. Shuichi moaned softly. Eiri pushed him onto his side and moved his hips up and down until his cock found Shuichi's opening. He thrust in, moving slowly and deliberately, enjoying the way Shuichi's body clasped him and resisted his movement.

Shuichi let out his breath in a long deep sigh. “That feels so good!”

Eiri kept kissing him and pulling on Shuichi's cock as he moved in him. Shuichi was delightfully hard and Eiri made a mental note to suck it again later.

“Yuki?” Shuichi breathed. “Did you like doing it with Tohma?”

Eiri thought for a moment. “Not really. I came but it didn't really satisfy me. I think that's why I kept doing it. But it was never going to feel right with him. You're the only one who feels right to me.”

“Because you love me?”

“Yes.” Eiri kissed him deeply. “You are my one and only love, Shuichi Shindou.”

 

~ ~ The End ~ ~

 

Yeah, I know: Eiri just keeps getting more and more out-of-character, but I can't help it. I just love the image of him gently embracing Shuichi and giving him soft, slow kisses. With tongue. And then maybe a little nipple licking. And then…Damn! If I keep this up, I'll have to write another chapter! Thanks for reading!