Gravitation Fan Fiction ❯ Healing ❯ Can We Heal Each Other? ( Chapter 5 )

Disclaimer: I really wish that Ryu was mine. But alas he doesn't belong to me.

 

*warning…lemon in this chapter*

 

The Eiri and Kisa scene isn't the lemon….not really anyway.

 

Ok, well this is my own take on what happened after the events in New York. Yuki may be completely OOC, but I really don't care, it's my story.

 

 

She knew that she was doing it again, running. She really didn't see herself as having much of a choice though. She couldn't tell Ryuichi why it hurt simply being in the same room as Eiri, she couldn't tell him why it had hurt so much confronting Tohma and she definitely couldn't tell Ryuichi what had happened in New York.

 

He would never understand. The only one that could possibly understand how she felt was Eiri, and he was also the one person she didn't want to ever see again. It hadn't always been that way though. She used to be able to at least talk to Eiri. They also used to do a lot more.

 

Kisa found herself standing in the middle of a park; she must have wandered there while she was absorbed with thoughts of the past. She found a bench and sat down. She had avoided thinking about Eiri for almost five years. As she sat there though, she knew that she had to. She had to think about what had happened with Eiri, so that she could move past it.

 

Five years after the “incident” in New York, Kisa returned to Japan. When she went to see Tohma, Eiri was there. She had expected to feel awkward around him, even after five years, but she didn't. In fact, it was almost the opposite. When they saw each other, there was an intense desire felt on both sides. It was a shock to both of them, because of their relationship with Tohma, and with each other. So, they made sure that they were never alone, unsure of what would happen. They succeeded, until the day that Kisa was leaving. For a minute, they just sat there and stared at each other, and then Eiri was kneeling in front of her, his hands on her thighs. He stared up at her and asked,

 

 

“Do you want to fuck me as much as I want to fuck you right now?”

 

 

She fisted her hands in, the then twenty-one, Eiri's hair, and gasped a yes as he pressed a kiss to her stomach. Before anything else happened though, Tohma came back in the room. He hadn't seen anything, because Eiri had practically flown back to his seat on the other side of the room. After Kisa left, she managed to stay away from Japan for another seven years. She traveled to so many places, in an effort to forget everything. Maybe if she kept going, she wouldn't have this horrible sickness eating away inside.

 

When she came back to Japan, it was merely as a stop between destinations. She didn't even tell Tohma that she was there. She had planned to stay for a day, and then move on. However, that plan went out the window when she met Eiri at a café. She had thought that the desire would have faded over the years, but she was wrong. Just looking at him made her burn. He didn't say a word to her, he just took her arm and moved her along, until they reached his house. As he disabled the alarm, she brought her hand around to untuck his shirt. She trailed her hand up his stomach to brush across his nipples, and felt him shiver. Then she whispered to him,

 

“Hurry Eiri”

 

He opened the door, and they stumbled inside. Before the door had closed, Eiri had her legs around his hips, and was heading towards the bedroom. Along the way, they managed to get each other's clothes off, and were touching, licking, and kissing every piece of skin that they could reach. Eiri threw her on the bed, and fell between her legs. They both cried out at the intense heat caused by their skin to skin contact. Eiri hadn't wasted any time teasing her, and she was glad. She had been about to explode as it was, and wouldn't have been able to last very long. He thrust into her hard and fast. It wasn't long before they were both shaking and crying out. They actually spent a whole week in a similar fashion. It didn't seem to matter where they were to have their desire flash white hot. However, soon something occurred that put them into their present situation. As they spent more and more time together, they began suffering from intense headaches. Eventually, these headaches were accompanied by flashes of memory. By being in each other's company for a prolonged period of time, they were awakening the pain, the suffering that they had endured and forgotten.

 

Eiri had actually been seeing a psychiatrist to help him get past the memories that he still did remember. So, he took Kisa to see her. The doctor could only give Kisa a prescription that would suppress the “anxiety” inducing memories. After the medication began to take affect, Kisa realized that it was Eiri's presence that caused the emergence of those memories. She decided that she didn't ever want to remember, if those particular memories of that night in New York were that bad. So, she decided that she couldn't see Eiri anymore, as in never again. Still, Kisa didn't want to leave Japan yet. She spent the next two years with Tohma, traveling on tour with Nittle Grasper.

 

Eventually, she felt the need to move on, and left shortly before Ryuichi went to America. She hadn't been back to Japan once in the following three years. Now that she had returned, she found that she really didn't want to go, even though….

 

Just then she saw Eiri. He was standing there, watching her with a sad, worried expression. That look brought tears to Kisa's eyes, and they flowed unchecked as Eiri came over and took her face into his hands.

 

“It's time to stop running Kisa,” he whispered.

 

She opened and closed her mouth, desperately trying to speak. She was crying even harder when she found that she still couldn't talk. She needed to talk, there were so many things that she needed to tell him. To tell Ryuichi….Ryuichi.

 

Suddenly, a scream tore out of her throat. Eiri held her as she began to sob and cry the same thing over and over.

 

“Ryuichi”

 

 

Ryuichi moved to go to her, when Tohma reached out and grabbed his arm.

 

“Not yet my friend.”

 

“Why not?” Ryuichi demanded, not even bothering to put on his childish façade.

 

“Just wait. She'll tell Eiri what's wrong. Even though she claims that she never wants to see Eiri again, he's the one person that's closest to her. She'll tell him things that she's not able to tell others.”

 

Ryuichi glanced at Tohma, hearing the sadness in his voice.

 

“Does she not tell YOU Tohma? What secrets does she keep from you?”

 

The look Tohma sent Ryuichi could have frozen the hottest flame.

 

“I meant others. She tells me everything. There's no need for her to keep anything from me.” He told Ryuichi in the frostiest tone he'd ever heard the keyboardist use.

 

“Sorry Tohma,” he mumbled as he turned his attention to the woman he loved.

 

She didn't tell you about sleeping in my arms, he thought to himself as he took a step forward. He stopped short when he heard Kisa's words.

 

 

“I can't tell Ryuichi!” she cried, clinging to Eiri.

 

“Why not?” he asked, looking into her eyes.

 

“Because I can't remember!” she exclaimed, jerking away.

 

Eiri looked at her, confused, until she explained.

 

“I only have flashes of what happened in New York. I need to remember the rest, but I can't.”

 

Eiri watched her start pacing, and then simply asked,

 

“Why?”

 

“Why what?”she snapped

 

“Why do you need to remember something that causes you so much pain?”

 

She stood there for a minute, gaping at him.

 

“How can you ask me that? I want to remember so I can tell Ryuichi what he's getting himself into. I think he deserves to know how…..damaged I am.”

 

She looked away from Eiri, and saw Ryuichi. He was standing next to Tohma, waiting for her. She walked over to him, and looked up into his eyes.

 

 

“What are you doing here?”

 

His beautiful cerulean eyes sparkled as he answered.

 

“Waiting for you.”

 

Kisa wrapped her arms around Ryuichi's neck, and went up on her toes to press her lips against his. She could talk to him. She would tell him everything, she thought as his arms went around her waist…as soon as she could remember.

 

 

Ryuichi couldn't have been more surprised. Not that he wasn't pleased. Whatever caused Kisa Seguchi's mouth to be against his he would make sure was in abundance. He was just so relieved that she hadn't left Japan. He had called up to Tohma's office to tell him that she had run…then, he had called Eiri Yuki. He had known that Eiri would be able to find Kisa. It didn't matter how, just that he had. Kisa tilted her head back to look into his eyes, and Ryuichi thought that he would drown.

 

“Why?” she asked, startling him out of the depths of her eyes.

 

“Why what?”

 

“Why were you waiting for me?”

 

His heart was pounding. He wanted to tell her everything. He wanted to tell her how much he loved her, but he knew that she wasn't ready, that she probably wouldn't even believe him. He'd go slow for her, he didn't want to be the one to put that gut-clenching fear in her eyes. He smiled,

 

“I missed you.”

 

He looked away,

 

“I also wanted to apologize.”

 

“Why Ryuichi?”

 

“I hurt you when I asked about Yuki-san. I just wanted to make you feel better.”

 

She turned his face towards her, and smiled in a way that melted his heart.

 

“That's not why I was upset with YOU Ryuichi.”

 

“It's not?”

 

“No. I was upset with you for hiding yourself from me.”

 

Ryuichi's eyes widened. She couldn't have figured out his disguise. Could she?

 

“What do you mean?”

 

“You know exactly what I mean, it's in your eyes. I hated it that you hid behind that childish mask, especially when I needed you.”

 

Ryuichi felt his eyes fill with tears. If he had harbored any doubts about his feelings for her, they were gone now. She knew that his childish behavior was an act, she wanted the real Ryuichi. He just didn't know if he could give that to her yet. She wasn't the only one that had scars. His were long and deep, and no one could see them except Ryuichi himself, and Kuma…maybe he and Kisa could heal each other.

 

Tohma glanced from his sister in Ryuichi's arms to Eiri talking to Shuichi on his cell phone, and fought to put a smile on his face. These were the two people he loved more than anything, and they were tied together by something horrible, that should never have happened. It hurt Tohma to see either of them suffer because of their memories. So, he ignored the feeling in his chest that hadn't been there for at least fifteen years. The only time he had indulged that feeling, he had hurt those he loved, he wouldn't do that again. He turned to walk away, But Kisa's voice stopped him.

 

“Thank you Tohma.”

 

“For what?” he asked, surprised

 

“Everything”

 

He smiled, and went on his way. It wasn't the same as before, and he wouldn't ever let it be again.

 

 

Eiri hung up on Shuichi, and simply watched Kisa with Ryuichi. He hadn't ever seen her smiling like she was now. He was relieved that she was talking, and that she hadn't run away again. He took one last look at her face, smiling at the content expression she wore. As he walked home, he thought of Shuichi, and hoped that one day he would be healed enough inside to make him happy.

 

 

 

“Did you notice that we're suddenly alone?” Ryuichi whispered against her ear a few minutes later.

 

Kisa glanced around.

 

“We are. I saw Tohma leave, but not Eiri.”

 

She looked back at Ryuichi.

 

“What do you want to do now?”

 

“Hmmmm…are you hungry?”

 

“Not really”

 

“Do you want to go to sleep and rest?”

 

“No”

 

“You wanna sit on the bench over there and make out?”

 

“Yes” she answered, a little breathless.

 

He grinned at her as he led her over to the park bench, and into his lap. He didn't kiss her on the lips at first. He trailed his mouth over her cheeks, neck, nose, before finally settling his mouth gently on hers. She sighed as he began to rub his lips back and forth over hers. There were so many sensations to take in. Such as, his hand stroking her back, the other resting on her hip, the heat of his mouth as he opened his lips so she could explore with her tongue. What she found the most exciting though, was the feel of his body. She loved the feeling of strength in him as she ran her hands over his chest, his arms, and his back. She was growing terribly excited as she touched him, and she could tell that he was just as turned on as she was. This time, the pressure of his desire pressing against her didn't scare. Instead, it invoked an intense wetness between her legs, knowing that she had the power to arouse Ryuichi Sakuma so quickly. She wanted more of him.

 

Ryuichi couldn't seem to get enough of her. He wanted to consume her. He felt like he was going to explode. He groaned into her mouth as she shifted on his lap to straddle him. Not again, he thought to himself, I'm about to come, Kami!

 

Ryuichi couldn't for the life of him stop the motion of his hips when they thrust up against her as he neared release. He tried to hold back the inevitable, until he heard Kisa moaning. She fisted her hands in his hair and pressed herself down, hard, against his swollen shaft. That was it for him. He came in spasms, and was surprised that Kisa was right with him. As she climaxed, he held her close, ignoring, for the moment, the sticky wetness in his pants.

 

 

 

 

A/N: OK I lied..there wasn't a lemon in this chapter…not really. They came pretty close, don't worry they definitely will next chapter. Or maybe I'll be evil an drag it out.