Gravitation Fan Fiction ❯ New Beginnings ❯ Chapter 4 ( Chapter 4 )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
By: teartrax 
Will Yuki and Shuichi be able to have a New Beginning?
Anime/Manga: Gravitation Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Romance / Angst | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 03.14.2007 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.9K | Visits: 344 | Status: Completed
Will Yuki and Shuichi be able to have a New Beginning?
Anime/Manga: Gravitation Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Romance / Angst | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 03.14.2007 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.9K | Visits: 344 | Status: Completed
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation, it belongs to the fantastic and talented Maki Murakami.
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Chapter Four
Shuichi (POV)
I don’t know how much time has passed. It feels like I’m floating, I’m in a place of darkness. I thought Kami-sama would have taken my soul to a beautiful place where I could actually be happy for once.
But am I damned to stay in this black abyss of nothingness because I took my own life, is this my punishment? I’m not really that scared. I would just like to see something, anything…a twinkle of light would be fine. It’s like having your eyes shut permanently.
I try to frown, but I feel numb all over. It’s like I haven’t got a body. Maybe I don’t. I can hear a beeping noise and voices, but they always seem far away. At least I’m not in pain…fuck, I think I spoke too soon. A pain in my chest makes it difficult to breathe. Along with the pain, the voice I can hear gets louder and it’s familiar.
I concentrate on the voice, and recognise it. I want to open my eyes to look at Yuki, but at the same time I don’t…But I want to hear what he’s saying.
“Why did you do this Shuichi? Why did you want to leave me? I know I’ve been a bastard to you, but I’m trying. I even planned on asking you to marry me. That’s why I couldn’t spend time with you today. Tohma and I went shopping, I got you an engagement ring…I also planned to throw you a party tomorrow night…I wanted everything to be perfect…why Shuichi? Why did you do this?”
I am in shock. I’ve always wanted Yuki to marry me, but I never realised he wanted the same thing. If I’m dreaming, please don’t wake me up. When I hear him crying, I force my eyes to open and wince at the brightness of the room. I look to my left to see Yuki’s bowed head, I open my mouth and answer his question.
“Because I didn’t think you loved me.”
Yuki’s head snaps up and his eyes meet mine. His sobbing grows louder, and his grip on my hand tightens. He leans his head towards me, so our foreheads are touching. I raise my hand and wipe his tears away.
I’ve never seen so much emotion in his eyes before. I can’t look away from his penetrating gaze. His tears mingle with mine as I start to cry. My arms slip around his neck, I want him as close to me as possible. His hands cup my face. His lips descend upon mine slowly. His mouth moving tenderly on mine sends tingles all over my body. Someone coughing in the background brings us out of our special moment.
We pull apart to see a doctor standing beside the bed. Everyone files out of the room, allowing the doctor to examine me. He said I was very lucky to be alive. The bullet missed my heart by a centimetre. He wants me to stay in hospital for the next couple of days, and he wants me to talk to a shrink, but I’m not too keen on that idea. Maybe I can get Seguchi-san to get me out of here sooner.
I can’t think about it now, but I know I will have to soon. I won’t be able to forget that I tried to kill myself. I’ll never forget that the reason I tried was because I didn’t think Yuki loved me. I guess in some sick twisted way, this has brought us closer, making him show me some affection at last.
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Sitting up in the hospital bed the next day, the door opens and Hiro walk in. My eyes fill with tears as he makes his way towards me. He pulls me into a hug and lets me cry on his shoulder, something I haven’t done for so long. It feels comforting.
When I pull away, I find it hard to look in his eyes. So he holds my head and forces me too. I think he wanted to shout at me, but my eyes must have shown all the emotions I’m feeling. He didn’t shout, but he wanted to know why I would try and take my own life.
I guess it sounded pathetic when I told him it was because I didn’t think Yuki loved me. After sitting in silence for a moment, he finally asked me where I got the gun from. I felt the blush burn my face. And told him I stole it from K’s weapon closet that he has at NG.
Hiro started laughing, which made me laugh too. I know K will have a cow when he finds out. After another moment in silence, this one not uncomfortable, we settle into a conversation, and it feels so good to have my best friend back.
Throughout the day, I had many visitors. K and Sakano came and K knew I stole one of his guns, but surprisingly he didn’t kill me. He just made me promise to give it back to him. Tatsuha and Ryuichi visited, and the latter was in mature mood. He told me I was an idiot.
And he said he was happy to see me alive. He then reverted back to chibi Ryuichi and bounced around, waving Kumagorou in the air. I smiled at his antics, he could always make me feel happy. Tatsuha made me promise never to do something like this again, I looked him in the eyes and realised that he had changed, and it was my fault because he found me. I can’t imagine how awful that was for him.
I surprised him by pulling him into a hug, whispering apologies into his ear. We broke apart as Yuki came into the room. Tatsuha gave me one last smile before dragging a still bouncing Ryuichi out of the room.
Yuki sat down on the bed and faced me. We looked into each others eyes. His hand moved to my face to wipe the tears away that were trickling down my face. Pulling me into a hug, I lean against him. I guess it’s going to take a while to get what I did to stop haunting me, and him.
But if we can face it together, we can get through anything. Maybe we can have that new beginning I’ve wanted for so long.
“I love you.” I whisper into his ear.
“I love you too.” He answers. It’s going to take a while to get used to hearing him say that, but I love hear those three words coming from his mouth.
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One Month Later
I got out of the hospital three days after I was admitted. I didn’t talk to the shrink they wanted me to talk about. They weren’t too happy about it, but Seguchi-san pulled some strings and got me out of that place faster. I don’t know why I’m reluctant to talk to anyone about what happened. I guess apart of me wants to just forget about it, so I don’t have to keep reliving it.
I know it’s going to be hard to get over it. But like I said before, as long as I have Yuki by my side I can do anything. I still have doubts sometimes, but I probably will for a long time to come. I hope Yuki doesn’t get sick of me, and finally tell me to leave. That is my greatest fear.
Two week after being released from the hospital, Yuki threw me a party at my favourite hotel. All my friends and family were there. But the best part was when he got down on one knee and asked me to marry him. All the worries I had been having evaporated at that moment. If Yuki wanted to make this commitment, then he really did want to be with me.
I accepted as tears poured from my eyes. It was the happiest moment in my life. He placed a beautiful gold ring on my finger. Everyone gathered and we proceeded to celebrate our engagement. Yuki wants to get married next summer, which is fine by me. A summer wedding sounds so romantic.
Even Tohma and Mika were happy for us. I think they’ve finally accepted me. I guess if I was wiling to give up my life for Yuki, then I really must love him. So they know I won’t betray him. It’s kind of a sick twisted logic if you think about it, but I’m just glad I wont have to put up with them always telling me that I’m not good enough.
And last week Hiro, Fujisaki, and I had a meeting with Seguchi-san at NG. He wanted to know if he we were interested in reforming Bad Luck. The guys were interested, and so was I. I never wanted to quit in the first place. I guess what I was going through made do things I didn’t want to really do, so we’re now back doing what we love. I can finally say I’m happier than I’ve ever been.
When we had a joint concert with Nittle Grasper, I found myself loving it, once again on stage with thousands of people cheering loudly. My golden angel standing at the back, his eyes on me all the way through, giving me his support.
I feel so blessed to be giving another chance. This time I’m not going to screw it up. I have my friends, my music and the love of my life. I have everything I want, and it’s finally enough. I’m happy. Happier than I’ve ever been.
Although everything is how I want it, my personality has changed. I guess the old me has gone for good. I’ve changed and personally I think it’s for the best. I no longer get on anyone’s nerves, I don’t bounce and whine.
I’ve finally grown up, and I like the new me. Everything around me feels new. Just like the new beginning I always wanted.
I love those two words: New Beginnings.
END
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Well That's it, hope you liked it and please reivew to let me know what you think.
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Chapter Four
Shuichi (POV)
I don’t know how much time has passed. It feels like I’m floating, I’m in a place of darkness. I thought Kami-sama would have taken my soul to a beautiful place where I could actually be happy for once.
But am I damned to stay in this black abyss of nothingness because I took my own life, is this my punishment? I’m not really that scared. I would just like to see something, anything…a twinkle of light would be fine. It’s like having your eyes shut permanently.
I try to frown, but I feel numb all over. It’s like I haven’t got a body. Maybe I don’t. I can hear a beeping noise and voices, but they always seem far away. At least I’m not in pain…fuck, I think I spoke too soon. A pain in my chest makes it difficult to breathe. Along with the pain, the voice I can hear gets louder and it’s familiar.
I concentrate on the voice, and recognise it. I want to open my eyes to look at Yuki, but at the same time I don’t…But I want to hear what he’s saying.
“Why did you do this Shuichi? Why did you want to leave me? I know I’ve been a bastard to you, but I’m trying. I even planned on asking you to marry me. That’s why I couldn’t spend time with you today. Tohma and I went shopping, I got you an engagement ring…I also planned to throw you a party tomorrow night…I wanted everything to be perfect…why Shuichi? Why did you do this?”
I am in shock. I’ve always wanted Yuki to marry me, but I never realised he wanted the same thing. If I’m dreaming, please don’t wake me up. When I hear him crying, I force my eyes to open and wince at the brightness of the room. I look to my left to see Yuki’s bowed head, I open my mouth and answer his question.
“Because I didn’t think you loved me.”
Yuki’s head snaps up and his eyes meet mine. His sobbing grows louder, and his grip on my hand tightens. He leans his head towards me, so our foreheads are touching. I raise my hand and wipe his tears away.
I’ve never seen so much emotion in his eyes before. I can’t look away from his penetrating gaze. His tears mingle with mine as I start to cry. My arms slip around his neck, I want him as close to me as possible. His hands cup my face. His lips descend upon mine slowly. His mouth moving tenderly on mine sends tingles all over my body. Someone coughing in the background brings us out of our special moment.
We pull apart to see a doctor standing beside the bed. Everyone files out of the room, allowing the doctor to examine me. He said I was very lucky to be alive. The bullet missed my heart by a centimetre. He wants me to stay in hospital for the next couple of days, and he wants me to talk to a shrink, but I’m not too keen on that idea. Maybe I can get Seguchi-san to get me out of here sooner.
I can’t think about it now, but I know I will have to soon. I won’t be able to forget that I tried to kill myself. I’ll never forget that the reason I tried was because I didn’t think Yuki loved me. I guess in some sick twisted way, this has brought us closer, making him show me some affection at last.
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Sitting up in the hospital bed the next day, the door opens and Hiro walk in. My eyes fill with tears as he makes his way towards me. He pulls me into a hug and lets me cry on his shoulder, something I haven’t done for so long. It feels comforting.
When I pull away, I find it hard to look in his eyes. So he holds my head and forces me too. I think he wanted to shout at me, but my eyes must have shown all the emotions I’m feeling. He didn’t shout, but he wanted to know why I would try and take my own life.
I guess it sounded pathetic when I told him it was because I didn’t think Yuki loved me. After sitting in silence for a moment, he finally asked me where I got the gun from. I felt the blush burn my face. And told him I stole it from K’s weapon closet that he has at NG.
Hiro started laughing, which made me laugh too. I know K will have a cow when he finds out. After another moment in silence, this one not uncomfortable, we settle into a conversation, and it feels so good to have my best friend back.
Throughout the day, I had many visitors. K and Sakano came and K knew I stole one of his guns, but surprisingly he didn’t kill me. He just made me promise to give it back to him. Tatsuha and Ryuichi visited, and the latter was in mature mood. He told me I was an idiot.
And he said he was happy to see me alive. He then reverted back to chibi Ryuichi and bounced around, waving Kumagorou in the air. I smiled at his antics, he could always make me feel happy. Tatsuha made me promise never to do something like this again, I looked him in the eyes and realised that he had changed, and it was my fault because he found me. I can’t imagine how awful that was for him.
I surprised him by pulling him into a hug, whispering apologies into his ear. We broke apart as Yuki came into the room. Tatsuha gave me one last smile before dragging a still bouncing Ryuichi out of the room.
Yuki sat down on the bed and faced me. We looked into each others eyes. His hand moved to my face to wipe the tears away that were trickling down my face. Pulling me into a hug, I lean against him. I guess it’s going to take a while to get what I did to stop haunting me, and him.
But if we can face it together, we can get through anything. Maybe we can have that new beginning I’ve wanted for so long.
“I love you.” I whisper into his ear.
“I love you too.” He answers. It’s going to take a while to get used to hearing him say that, but I love hear those three words coming from his mouth.
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One Month Later
I got out of the hospital three days after I was admitted. I didn’t talk to the shrink they wanted me to talk about. They weren’t too happy about it, but Seguchi-san pulled some strings and got me out of that place faster. I don’t know why I’m reluctant to talk to anyone about what happened. I guess apart of me wants to just forget about it, so I don’t have to keep reliving it.
I know it’s going to be hard to get over it. But like I said before, as long as I have Yuki by my side I can do anything. I still have doubts sometimes, but I probably will for a long time to come. I hope Yuki doesn’t get sick of me, and finally tell me to leave. That is my greatest fear.
Two week after being released from the hospital, Yuki threw me a party at my favourite hotel. All my friends and family were there. But the best part was when he got down on one knee and asked me to marry him. All the worries I had been having evaporated at that moment. If Yuki wanted to make this commitment, then he really did want to be with me.
I accepted as tears poured from my eyes. It was the happiest moment in my life. He placed a beautiful gold ring on my finger. Everyone gathered and we proceeded to celebrate our engagement. Yuki wants to get married next summer, which is fine by me. A summer wedding sounds so romantic.
Even Tohma and Mika were happy for us. I think they’ve finally accepted me. I guess if I was wiling to give up my life for Yuki, then I really must love him. So they know I won’t betray him. It’s kind of a sick twisted logic if you think about it, but I’m just glad I wont have to put up with them always telling me that I’m not good enough.
And last week Hiro, Fujisaki, and I had a meeting with Seguchi-san at NG. He wanted to know if he we were interested in reforming Bad Luck. The guys were interested, and so was I. I never wanted to quit in the first place. I guess what I was going through made do things I didn’t want to really do, so we’re now back doing what we love. I can finally say I’m happier than I’ve ever been.
When we had a joint concert with Nittle Grasper, I found myself loving it, once again on stage with thousands of people cheering loudly. My golden angel standing at the back, his eyes on me all the way through, giving me his support.
I feel so blessed to be giving another chance. This time I’m not going to screw it up. I have my friends, my music and the love of my life. I have everything I want, and it’s finally enough. I’m happy. Happier than I’ve ever been.
Although everything is how I want it, my personality has changed. I guess the old me has gone for good. I’ve changed and personally I think it’s for the best. I no longer get on anyone’s nerves, I don’t bounce and whine.
I’ve finally grown up, and I like the new me. Everything around me feels new. Just like the new beginning I always wanted.
I love those two words: New Beginnings.
END
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Well That's it, hope you liked it and please reivew to let me know what you think.