Gravitation Fan Fiction ❯ Ryu's New Assistant. ❯ Uncertainity ( Chapter 6 )

Title: Ryu's New Assistant - Chapter 6

Authors: Dark Nuriko and Mayhem's Angel

Disclaimers: Neither one of us own anybody or anything from Gravitation. We only wish too.

Warnings: Shonen-ai, yaoi, eventually. Not just yet.

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Ryuichi had waved off Tatsuha's offer of medicine to make him feel better, knowing that it wouldn't do anything to help him. He just lay there on the bed, staring at the covers. He glanced up finding his bunny with his eyes. He dragged him down off the pillow to face level.

 

"Well Kuma. You heard her in the restaurant. Do you think that Tatsuha really likes us like that? Like, loves us? And if he does, what do we do about it? Should we talk to him about it? Tell him that we know? And what about Sai? If I go on a date with her? How will Tatsuha feel about that? Argh! I really don't like this! Kuma, can you tell him? How about you go be the rock star, and I'll just stay here, okay?"

 

Ryuichi rolled onto his back and cuddled Kumagoro to his chest. "I just don't know." He whispered, a tear slowly falling from his dark lashes. Eventually, he became exhausted, and fell asleep, escaping his worries for a short time.

 

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Tatsuha had worked on their schedule for the time Ryuichi had been laying down. He tried to adjust for work and alone time. He also made time for any sudden moments of Ryuichi-ness to occur. Sighing, he let his boss rest until the car came to take them to the airport, in which time he had finished the packing himself. Talking with the driver for a second he then came into the bedroom. He had knocked twice, but it was obvious Ryuichi was dead asleep. He came in and smiled softly at the sight of the older man wrapped around the pink bunny. Yet he couldn't let him remain asleep. "Sakuma-san... wake up... the cars here," he called softly.

 

"Mmmhhm? Agh. go 'way. I sleepin'." He mumbled, flipping over onto his other side, curling up tighter.

 

Tatsuha's smile deepened, laughing softly. "Sakuma-san! We are going to miss the plane if you don't wake up!" he called, putting a hand on his shoulder and shaking him slightly as he spoke.

 

"Gah. I don't wanna." Ryuichi mumbled, finally sitting up a little.

 

The teen laughed, holding out a change of clothes. "You can go back to sleep in the car, and on the plane, but I need you to be awake to get to those places."

 

"Fine fine." He grumbled, grabbing the clothes. "I'll be there in a minute." Ryuichi told him, stumbling groggily over to the bathroom.

 

Tatsuha laughed, double checking that everything was collected and nothing was left behind. He then went to the living area to wait for his boss to come out.

 

Ryuichi came out, still looking tired, rubbing his eyes and yawning, kumagoro clutched tightly in one arm still. “I'm ready. Are we leaving right now?"

 

Tatsuha nodded. "Once I collect the dirty clothes from the bathroom and grab my bags, we'll head on down," he replied, even as he was already moving to do what he said.

 

Ryuichi just nodded, waiting by the couch. Sitting down on the arm, he sighed. He had decided that he just wasn't going to worry about anything that had happened earlier just yet. He would call Sai tonight, set up a date, and then fly back in a couple days for their date. Yes. That would work best.

 

Tatsuha had also done a lot of thinking while his boss had been sleeping. And he had decided that he couldn't be upset when Ryuichi decided to go out on dates. He wasn't something to the singer. Not in a romantic sense. He was a friend and an assistant, nothing more. That's what he would remain. He felt that he would have to try to take care of him, help him find happiness, and then move on.

 

"All clear," he called, pulling his strap over his shoulder. "Come on, Sakuma-san. Time to go."

 

"Okay." Ryuichi said, nodding and following him out the door. They got down to the car, and Ryuichi spent the whole long ride to the airport, quietly watching the city fly by. He had said he wasn't going to worry about it, but he had been wrong. He didn't know what to say to Tatsuha, and he was worried that anything he said would give away what Sai had told him. So he just bit his lip and stayed silent.

 

Tatsuha felt uncomfortable. Ryuichi had been too silent... and it was beginning to drive him crazy. With a sigh, he couldn't help but voice his worries. "Sakuma-san? What happened? Did I do something to upset you?"

 

"Huh? Oh, no, it's not you. Don't worry about that. I'm just... thinking too much about that date I guess." Ryuichi explained. Well, it was half the truth. He was worried about that.

 

Tatsuha sighed in relief. "I thought I told you not to panic. I'm certain it will go well. You worry too much and the date won't go well."

 

"I guess you're right. I wouldn't want to ruin it for her, just because I worried too much."

 

Tatsuha laughed, this time with no pain in it. "Of course you don't. So just relax. Besides, before you know it, you'll have had the date, and you won't even know what made you so nervous in the first place."

 

Ryuichi laughed a little awkwardly. "Yeah. That's how it usually is when I worry. I'm sure it will be just great."

 

The teen nodded, patting his arm. "See, even you believe that. So don't worry so much."

 

"Okay." Ryuichi said, nodding in agreement. "Sorry to have worried you. I know people get confused when I'm too quiet for them."

 

Tatsuha shook his head, smiling. "Don't worry about it. It's my job to look out for you right? If you worry, you won't be at your best. So you're special. Because you're also a friend. I want you to be happy."

 

"So basically, you are telling me to not worry about anything anymore, ever." He said, wondering if that would even be possible.

 

The teen laughed. "No. That's impossible. I just want you to not worry about the simple things."

 

"Ah. I'll try then."

 

Tatsuha laughed. "That's all I can ask for."

 

Ryuichi smiled. "I guess so."

 

Tatsuha smirked at that. "Ah ha, I got you to smile again. That's good."

 

Ryuichi laughed. "Well, it's an easy goal to accomplish with me, but congrats."

 

The teen shook his head. "Not really. It almost seemed impossible for a while there. You must have been really worrying over that date. But anyway, it's over with. And you can see the airport now," he said, pointing toward it.

 

"You're right. And soon we'll be looking back on this road, trying to see it." He said, looking towards where Tatsuha was pointing

 

Tatsuha nodded. "Yep. I have to admit, I never thought I'd be moving so far from my home, but this is something I'm looking forward to."

 

"Oh yeah. I forgot about that. You're not having too many regrets?"

 

He sat back, looking back at Ryuichi. "I did for about all of a second. I thought I was letting my father down again. Then I realized I had already let him down when I failed as a monk. So this was nothing too terrible."

 

"Oh. That's too bad that you seem to have failed him. I should think that he would be proud of you, no matter what you do." He tilted his head, thinking about it. "But I don't know. I've pretty much failed my father too, I guess."

 

Tatsuha looked at him. "You did? How?" he asked, surprised they had something in common. He then realized he was prying. "Sorry, don't answer that."

 

"No, it's okay. Just, you know. The whole music thing. He wasn't really happy with that. Because of it, I haven't talked to him, or anyone in my family in years. It's just me and Kuma-chan now." He said, holding up the rabbit.

 

Tatsuha smiled softly. "Kuma-chan has taken very good care of you. Yet, maybe you should try getting a hold of your family. Talking to them now might actually be different. You're very good now. World famous."

 

"No. I don't really want to.” He said, shaking his head. “And I'm sure they don't want me too. They probably know how famous I am, but it won't make things any better. If they really cared, they could always find me. Besides, Kuma does take good care of me. He's all I need. And my friends. Friends, like you, they're most important to me." He said, studying his rabbit.

 

Tatsuha blinked, looking at him. "I'm... a friend?" he asked, slightly surprised.

 

"Of course you are. You may have started out as just a fan, but I really appreciated your caring and the simple conversation that night of my concert. So, yes, you're a friend. I mean, I came after you after that, didn't I? I liked you, wanted to know more."

 

Tatsuha smiled, a soft pink coloring his cheeks, even though he knew that wasn't what was meant by those words. "Then, may I call you Ryuichi-san when there aren't other people around?"

 

"Yup. You can call me what ever you wish. I think I'll still call you Tatsuha-kun though. Or, I just realized, you can shorten that! Tats-chan is a cute name." Ryuichi giggled, thinking of that name and Tatsuha's reactions to it.

 

Tatsuha cheeks turned a deeper shade of red at that. "Um... ah... all right. You can call me what you wish. And I'll call you Ryu-chan... like Noriko-san does. Unless you don't like it. And then I'll call you Ryuichi-san."

 

"Nope! I love Ryu-chan. You can call me that, its okay." The car pulled to a stop just then, and the door was opened for them. "Oh, we're here."

 

Tatsuha nodded and lead the way. Once they were on board the plane, the only two there, they took the time to enjoy themselves. Tatsuha opened his soda bottle and took a sip before moving to sit beside him.

 

Ryuichi leaned back against the soft plane seat. It felt good to be finally going home. He liked his house, and missed it when he was away for so long. It was big, lots of room to move around, but really nice. He looked up when he heard the fizz of Tatsuha's drink. "Mmmhmm. That sounds good. I feel really thirsty."

 

Tatshua smiled, handing the bottle over to him. "Here, I don't mind sharing."

 

Ryuichi took the bottle, and drank a bit. "Thanks. That's better."

 

The teen laughed. "I figured it would be."

 

Ryuichi smiled, "Yeah." He turned his head, looking out the window next to him. "So pretty..." He murmured. He lifted his hand, fingers trailing over the cool window. "It looks so perfect. Until you get down there."

 

Tatshua smiled sadly. "Yes, I suppose it is. And yet, there are times when it is perfect, even when it's at its worst."

 

"Really? I never noticed it like that."

 

"Life is made up of good times and bad... and it's what makes us stronger. Of course, it's also what can break some people."

 

"Hmmm. I suppose so. But some people have more bad than good things in their lives. I wonder how they survive sometimes."

 

Tatsuha leaned close to him, his voice soft. "That's when they have friends help them get through it."

 

"Yes. Friends help with much of life's problems, don't they?"

 

Tatsuha nodded, keeping a soft smile on his lips, even as he moved to lean back. He was getting too close to him. He needed to behave. His heart was racing being this close to him, being this open with him.

 

Ryuichi watched him. He wondered what he was thinking now, if he was worried about the situation between them. He probably was. Being this close to someone you love, yet not able to really be with them or touch them, was really difficult to do. He would make it as easy as he could on Tatsuha, but he wasn't sure if it was going to be enough.

 

Tatsuha leaned back in his seat, looking forward. "Well, that's about as serious as I can get for the day. I've met my limit."

 

"Oh good. Cause since its past midnight, there's plenty of day left to not be serious."

 

The teen laughed. "You would take that as I said it, wouldn't you, Ryu-chan?"

 

"Of course I would. No other way to take it." Ryuichi said completely serious.

 

Tatsuha had closed his eyes, calming his heart beat. But he had opened one eye to look at him. "Oh, I see. So I'm just a little odd."

 

"Eh. That, or I'm just odder than you are." Ryuichi said, staring into his dark gaze.

 

Tatsuha felt a pull, one that called for him to just lean in and kiss those tempting lips. "Naw. You've just been around long enough to know more than me. That's all."

 

"That's true. How old are you anyways? I never asked."

 

"I'm nineteen."

 

“WHAT?! Oh my god! That makes me seem so OLD in comparison! I thought you were twenty two at least!" Ryuichi exclaimed, truly surprised that he was that young.

 

Tatsuha flushed, feeling like even the faintest bit of feeling that could have been budding between them had wilted without even blooming. "You aren't that old. And I've always looked older than I am. Must mean I'll look like an old man before my time too."

 

"No! No you don't! I just forgot you were Yuki-san's younger brother. You don't look old at all. I'm sorry!" Ryuichi apologized.

 

Tatsuha pouted cutely. "Aw, that hurt. I like looking older at the moment," he said, looking like the little kid who had gotten a cut and wanted mommy to kiss the pain away.

 

Ryuichi couldn't help but feel the strangest urge to kiss him right then. Mentally giving himself a shake, he tried to fix what he had said. "I just meant that you looked older than your age. It's a good thing. I think."

 

Tatsuha couldn't hold the pout and he laughed softly at the flustered look on the older boy's face. "Ryu-chan, don't worry about it. I was just teasing you. I guess I got carried away."

 

"Ohh. Okay. Nah, that's fine. I just couldn't tell if you were being

serious." Ryuichi laughed. "Okay. Whew. Now that that's over with, we won't ever mention our ages again!"

 

Tatsuha snickered softly. "I like that. Means I won't have to worry about people calling me too young when I'm in work mode."

 

"Of course not. Besides, it doesn't matter what your age is as long as you do a good job and enjoy yourself."

 

Tatsuha smirked. "Well that's very true. I've already got the next month worked out... so you have time for yourself each day, as well as time for work."

 

"The next MONTH?! Wow. You're really on top of things."

 

Ryuichi flushed slightly. "Not really. Tohma gave me the whole itinerary... and I'm still trying to fit in a few more things.

 

"Oh. Well, I don't need free time EVERY day. Just, y'know, time to sleep is fine. Make sure the important things get in there, like charities and stuff that I like."

 

The teen nodded, pulling out the PDA and looking over the month's worth of work. "Normally I'd know the next three to four months. But because you told Tohma that it was a month trial, that's all the information he gave me."

 

"Ah. That makes sense. He would do that." Ryuichi said. "Have you done this before? Because it seriously sounds like you have."

 

Tatsuha shook his head. "I used to watch Tohma's PA when he was around the shrine. It was odd. But I learned a lot by just sitting around."

 

"Really? I wouldn't have thought Tohma was around the shrine that much. Or if he was, that he wouldn't have had a schedule. I mean, if he was there visiting Mika-chan, why would he even bring his assistant?"

 

"Oh, he hated him. But the guy never let him go anywhere by himself. And this was back when Mika and he were first together."

 

"I don't even remember him. He must not have lasted long. I would have gotten rid of him just like that." Ryuichi said, snapping his fingers to emphasize.

 

"He was really good. He even helped dad out a few times, free of charge. Yet you're right. Tohma fired him after only a week."

 

"Hmmm. Well, there's good, and then there's too good. I don't know. I can't have people harping at me. You know, you were there with my manager earlier. I can't stand when he does that."

 

Tatsuha grinned. "Don't worry. He won't complain about the schedule. I've got it fully worked out... even he can't complain."

 

"Good. I really hate when he does stuff like that. I would get a new one, but he does do a pretty good job."

 

"Well, if you ever really hate him, tell Tohma. He'll get a better one."

 

"I'll do that."

 

The teen smiled, leaning the chair back and closing his eyes. He was having a hard time keeping from doing what his body was screaming for him to do. He wanted to be with him. Very badly. And keeping talk to that of work was getting difficult being this close to him. "It's always good to be with people you can get a long with. Otherwise it's just adding more stress to an already stress filled life."

 

"Y'know, I've agreed with everything you've said since we met. That's kinda crazy. But again, you're right. I think that's why you and I get along so well."

 

Tatsuha was very glad his eyes were closed and that he couldn't see Ryuichi. Because he would have kissed the man for those words if he had seen his serious expression as he said that. "Well, then that is half the battle of keeping this new job for me, isn't it?"

 

"Nah. You won't have any problems keeping it. I promise." Ryuichi watched him. He wondered how it was for him to be this close, yet so far. It must be really hard.

 

Tatsuha smiled. "You really want me as your PA, don't you, Ryu-chan?"

 

"'Course I do. Or I wouldn't have hired you in the first place."

 

Tatsuha opened a single eye then, hoping the need to kiss the man wasn't showing any more. "Well, you've got me. I'm yours until you don't want me any more."

 

"Never happen. I'll never get rid of you." Ryuichi said, perfectly serious. He was a great assistant, an awesome friend, and one day... maybe a little more.

 

Tatsuha smiled softly. "Good. Because I agree with you."

 

"Good. Cause you're not getting out of this job now."

 

Tatsuha smirked, closing his eye once more. "Good. Because I don't want to," he said softly, settling back to enjoy the rest of the plane ride.

 

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