Gundam SEED Fan Fiction / Gundam Seed Destiny Fan Fiction ❯ Storm of Emotion ❯ feelings ( Chapter 1 )

He twisted and turned on his bed with many things plaguing his thoughts. He'd always lived a good life with lots of friends and family by his side but lately things had become rather depressing to him.

 

Turning over, his eyes laid upon a photo that he kept on a table next to his bed. The picture held four different people. There were two girls and two boys in it all smiling at the camera. `Those had been good days,' she thought with a smile.

 

The first person he looked at was himself. Back in those days he'd smiled a lot more. Things had just seemed so simple and he felt like everything was perfect in his life. `Nothing has been the same lately though,' he thought with a sigh before looking at the next figure.

 

The next person was the only other guy in the picture besides himself. His best friend Athrun Zala smiled at the picture as his arm playfully hung around the shoulders of one of the girls. Athrun was Kira's best friend for as long as he could remember. The two of them were as close as brother's to one another. They were also roommates at the university that all four of them had gotten into.

 

Then he turned his eyes towards the blonde haired woman that happened to be his twin sister Cagalli. The two hardly got along but they were still close no matter how many times they were at each other's throats. Compared to his normal mild temper, Cagalli was like a fire cracker ready to explode at any minute. Though she refused to admit it, Kira knew that she had a thing for Athrun.

 

Then there was the last figure in the picture and the cause of all of Kira's current problems. She was a very beautiful woman by the name of Lacus Clyne. Her hair was an unusual color being pink. Her eyes with a very clear shade of blue which Kira loved to look into. The two of them were once so close. Kira would even say he was closer to her than any of his other friends, even Athrun. `Or at least that was how it used to be,' he thought as he turned away from the picture and stared up at the ceiling.

 

Though she wasn't aware of it, Kira had been in love with her for the longest time. That however was where all of Kira's problems originated from. He loved her but she didn't love him. `And I doubt she ever will,' he thought with a sigh as a hand reached out and traced over her face. `How could she when she's in love with that other guy?' he asked himself angrily.

 

Even though his sister Cagalli had always said that his feelings for Lacus were pretty obvious, Kira had to disagree since the one he wanted to see them was unable to. She was instead preoccupied with her own feelings towards another.

 

Finally standing up, Kira walked over to a desk where a bunch of important papers were sprawled across it. He looked them over and sighed. “A little more time, just give me a little more time to come up with my answer,” he murmured before grabbing his bag before he headed out the door to get to his class.

 

*****

 

The classroom that Lacus stepped into was packed and noisy. Dozens of students sat all around talking to their friends and all sorts of things while they all waited for the teacher to show up. Normally the teacher was late anyways so no one was bothering to get too comfortable yet.

 

Looking around the room, Lacus saw her friends all gathered in a corner of the room. She smiled as she walked over to them while waving to catch their attention. “I see I'm the last one here,” she said as she took a seat in the front row of their little square that the four friends made up.

 

“That's rather unusual for you Lacus. Usually you're the very first one here,” Cagalli said with a smile while turning away from her conversation with Athrun. “What kept you?” she asked curiously.

 

“It's not important. I was just running a bit late,” Lacus said as she grabbed her books out of her bag to get ready. `I just didn't sleep much last night since I was talking to Kira for most of it so I was a little more tired than usual,' she thought trying to stifle a yawn that threatened to escape.

 

Looking over at Lacus, Kira frowned when he saw just how tired she was. `Why do I continue to put myself through all this? I know she does mean bad but it frustrated me when we talk and she starts talking about that guy. I guess it's my fault as well for not telling her how I feel though,' he thought with a frown as she turned towards him and gave him a smile. `Is that all I'm good for, just a person or her to cry on when things go badly?' he continued to ask himself.

 

`It's got to mean something though if she chooses you to do that,' his mind taunted him. He figured that it was true since Lacus never showed such feelings in front of anyone. In front of her other friends she just smiled no matter what happens. With Kira, she was able to show just how she really felt.

 

`Doesn't mean that she feels anything for me,' Kira responded to his thoughts with a frown. `I'm just her closest friend. The person that knows her better than anyone else,' he thought with a sigh as he leaned back in his seat.

 

Lacus turned to look at Kira and noticed that he was upset about something. “Are you ok Kira?” she asked reaching out a hand to place upon his. She noticed him flinch slightly and this time it was her who frowned. `Did I do something to him?' she asked thinking over all her conversations with him. `I don't remember saying anything that would make him angry at me,' she thought before feeling his hands on her own.

 

Kira realized what he had done and felt bad for it, especially when he saw her hurt look. “I'm fine Lacus. I… just have a lot on my mind right now. It's not something you need to worry about,” he lied with a smile since he didn't want to trouble her with his feelings for her. `She already has someone she likes. Who am I to stand in her way?' he questioned himself before turning his head back forward.

 

The next moment the door open and the last person Kira ever wanted to see came in. The guy's name was Derek and he was the person that Lacus liked. He was the same age as them and they first met him when they started college which was a years ago.

 

Much to Kira's dismay, Lacus became smitten with the guy almost immediately. The guy didn't even do anything special to deserve it which annoyed Kira the most. `I've been trying to get her to notice me as more than a friend for years and then he comes and she likes him almost immediately!' he thought with a growl as he watched the guy like a predator after it's prey.

 

Turning towards Lacus, Kira saw that she was also looking at the guy. His eyes became downcast and a frown crossed his face. “Why don't you go talk to him?” he found himself uttering to Lacus despite how much it tore him apart. `I know I'm only hurting myself but at least I can know that she's happy,' he thought with a sigh.

 

Lacus looked at Kira for a second before she smiled at him while standing up. She nervously started to walk in the guy's direction as Kira just watched on and wish that he could be the one that could make her feel that way.

 

Cagalli stopped her conversation when she heard what Kira said. She watched Lacus walked over and looked over at her brother in sympathy. “Are you ok with that Kira?” she asked softly seeing the look on Kira's face.

 

Kira didn't even look at her. “What's the point of pretending? She'll never see me that way. I figure that I can at least make sure she's happy,” he muttered as he leaned back in his chair and stared up at the ceiling.

 

When Cagalli saw the pain on his face, it was almost like she could feel it as well. She knew that Lacus never meant or even knew that she was doing these things to Kira. Kira always seemed to push her along and keep his feelings to himself. “But what about your happiness?” she silently questioned before she turned her attention back towards Athrun but she kept looking in his direction as he watched Lacus and Derek talk to one another.

 

After that the class started to pass far too slow for Kira's liking. Lacus never returned to her original seat and instead sat with Derek. Kira felt so lonely throughout the class since Lacus was usually sitting right next to him. Athrun and Cagalli were too busy talking to care about the fact that there was a class in session and that Lacus wasn't with them.

 

As soon as the class was over Kira immediately got up and left before any of his friend were able to talk to him. Lacus saw this and rushed after him. “Hey Kira! Wait!” she yelled out as she ran to catch up to him before he was able to get too far away. `What's wrong with him today?!' she asked herself when she finally caught up and grabbed a hold of his shirt. “What's wrong Kira?!” she asked when he didn't even turn to look at her. She knew he said that there was nothing wrong earlier but she also knew that what he said was a lie.

 

“I told you that there was nothing wrong Lacus. I just have a lot I need to do today. So if you will excuse me I'll just get going,” he said before gently pulling his shirt out of her hands. Kira then started to walk away without looking back at Lacus.

 

After he walked away, Lacus found that she could only stand there and watch as he walked away. “You're a bad liar Kira,” she muttered looking at his retreating back before he completely disappeared from her view. “Why do I get the feeling that it was me he was avoiding?” she muttered to herself before deciding to go after him in order to get the truth.

 

By the time that Lacus had managed to catch up to Kira somebody had already gotten to him first. From what Lacus could tell it was a teacher. She knew it was wrong but for some reason she felt compelled to listen in on the conversation.

 

“Mr. Yamato, I was just wondering if you have given any consideration to my offer yet?” he asked and when Kira didn't answer the guy just frowned. “Listen Mr. Yamato, you're a very smart kid. In all my years working as a teacher here I have never seen anyone who's as smart as you are. It would be a shame if you let this opportunity go to waste,” he said looking towards Kira who still wouldn't look at him.

 

`Opportunity? What's this teacher talking about. I don't remember Kira ever mentioning something like this,' Lacus thought before listening in a little more in hopes of finding out just what this opportunity was.

 

“I know sir,” Kira muttered after taking a deep breathe. “But I don't have an answer yet… I'm sorry,” Kira said feeling like he let the teacher down. He knew the man was only looking out for him.

 

The teacher sighed as he ran a hand through his hair. “It's not just me but all your teachers who feel that it would be a shame if you didn't take this offer. Is there something that's holding you back, or someone?” he felt compelled to ask the young man.

 

“I'm just… waiting for the answer to a question I've been having,” Kira said making the man before him look at Kira confused. “Please, just give me a little more time to find my answers,” Kira pleaded since he didn't want to give up this chance quite yet at the same time he also didn't want to give on what he considered could possibly be more important.

 

“Time's running out Kira. We'll need an answer soon if there's still a chance. Listen, we can give you another week to decide but that's all the time we can give you. By then we will need an answer. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity and I beg you not to take it lightly. Please just think about it,” he said before turning and walking towards his next class.

 

Lacus leaned against a wall just out of Kira's view. `What was that all about? What could Kira possibly be going through that is so important?' she asked herself while also wondering why he never bothered to talk to her about it.

 

Lacus then turned and saw that Kira was gone but then a hand was suddenly placed upon Lacus's shoulder which caused the young woman to jump slightly. She turned around to see Athrun and Cagalli standing there.

 

Looking to where Lacus was just staring at and then back at Lacus, Cagalli could tell that there was something wrong. “What's wrong? Catch your boyfriend with another woman?” Cagalli teased with a small laugh even though she was annoyed at the very thought of it.

 

“What?! No! It's not like Derek's my boyfriend,” Lacus said with a slight blush at the thought of it. She then calmed down a little before putting on a serious face. “I thought Kira was acting weird so I followed him. By the time I found him he was talking to a teacher and they were talking about some sort of opportunity Kira was being given. I don't know what that means though,” Lacus explained in a quiet tone.

 

At Lacus's words, Cagalli and Athrun both looked at each other and nodded. Both of them knew exactly what she was talking about though they were both surprised that Kira had yet to tell her anything even though he told them that he would. `Figures that he probably wouldn't tell the one person that could make a difference,' Athrun thought shaking his head.

 

“Lacus…” Cagalli started bringing Lacus's full attention towards her again since Lacus once again looked back in order to see if she could spot Kira. “I think… we need to talk,” she muttered grabbing Lacus's hand before pulling her away from the crowded area.

 

*****

 

Kira sat at the desk in his room. He had his homework in front of him and music playing in his ears. Normally that helped him concentrate a little more on the work but it just didn't help that day. His mind was too much a mess that he just couldn't focus on the work in front of him.

 

Finally giving up the fight, Kira put down his pen and took off the headphones. “This is doing me no good,” he thought reaching over to pull the papers he had been looking at earlier. `Is it really worth it?' he silently questioned to himself placing the papers down before he started to rub his head. `Yet can I really afford not to accept?' he continued to question himself.

 

A knock on the door startled Kira out of his thoughts. He quickly threw the papers in his desk and closed the drawer before he stood up and walked to the door. When he opened it he was slightly shocked to see Lacus there.

 

It wasn't that she was there that really shocked him but what she was wearing. From his point of view it looked like she was planning to go on a date. She was wearing a white dress that went down to her knees. From what Kira could tell it was a spaghetti strapped dress but it was covered up by a pink sweater.

 

Shaking off the shock of seeing her in such a beautiful outfit, Kira smiled at her which she smiled back. “What are you doing here Lacus?” he asked softly moving out of the way to let her into the room.

 

“I was just seeing if you were here,” Lacus said taking a seat on the bed. “Did you know the fair was in town?” she asked and he nodded his head without looking towards her while she shuffled the clutter on top of his desk.

 

“Yeah, I think I remember Cagalli mentioning it,” Kira said trying not to get his hopes up that this might be what it seems. `Don't get your hopes up. Why would she go with you when she can go with the guy she likes?' he questioned himself but for some reason he felt like taking a chance. “Hey Lacus, why don't…” he said but she cut him off before he finished.

 

“Why don't we go together Kira?” she asked him which shocked the hell out of him but made him really happy. “It's been so long since we've been able to go out and have some fun. I thought it might be nice if we went together,” she explained giving him a pleading look.

 

As flattered as Kira was that she wanted to go with him, he couldn't help but ask the question that came to his mind. “I would love to go but why ask me and not Derek?” he asked somehow dreading the answer. `Did she ask me because he couldn't go with her?' he asked himself.

 

As if she read his mind, Lacus spoke an answer to his thoughts. “Because I wanted to go with you. I didn't even ask him. I just wanted to get out and have some fun with you like we used to,” she said standing up and started to walk over to him. She grabbed his hand and started to gently pull on it.

 

Kira immediately gave in and stood up. “Alright then. I just need to get changed and then we'll get going,” he said letting go of her hand to walk to his dresser and pick out something a little nicer than what he was wearing right then. He then went to the bathroom to get changed and cleaned up.

 

Lacus took a seat on his bed again and sighed. It troubled her about what Athrun and Cagalli had told her. `I really want to talk to Kira about this before he makes his decision. But why didn't he tell me about it?' she asked herself before the door opened and Kira came out wearing a dark blue button up shirt and a pair of jean pants.

 

“Do you have everything or do we need to stop by your room?” he asked her but she just shook her head no before walking out the open door. Kira smiled and followed after her while getting more and more excited about being able to go out with Lacus like this. `Sure it's only as friends but maybe I can become something more through it,' Kira thought as the two of them walked down the halls towards the elevator.

 

*****

 

The fairgrounds were completely packed by the time that they got there. The sun was still in the sky but anyone could tell that it would be gone within the hour and that's when Kira liked it best when all of the lights went on all over the place.

 

When Kira looked over at Lacus she looked so amazed at all of the things around her. “Oh! Wow! I haven't been to a fair in years!” Lacus said as she looked at all of the rides and games that were set up all over the place.

 

A chuckle escaped Kira's lips at her reaction. “Sure it's been a few years but you look like you never been to one at all with how you're acting,” he teased her making Lacus blush a bit in embarrassment. “I'm just joking. Come on, why don't we get a snack or something first?” he suggested as she nodded her head. Kira grabbed her soft hand before gently pulling her towards the food stands.

 

The food stand they came across was run by an elderly looking lady. When Kira and Lacus approached the stand she turned to look at them and a smile crossed her face. “Well aren't the two of you just the cutest couple I've ever seen,” she said making Kira blush and Lacus look confused.

 

At her words Kira couldn't help but think that they did look really good together. “Oh? Do you really think so?” he asked before he was playfully hit in the arm by Lacus. “Hey! I was just joking!”

 

“Oh Kira. Don't encourage her!” Lacus mumbled shaking her head in embarrassment. “We aren't together. But we are the best of friends!” Lacus said without noticing the downcast look that Kira suddenly gave.

 

“Oh really?” the old woman asked looking at the two. She could tell the guy wanted to but that the woman didn't. “I would never have known. The two of you looked so cute together. Cuter than any couple I've ever seen,” she said seeing the guy brighten up at the compliment. “So what can I get for the two of you?” she asked getting back to work before a line started to pile up.

 

The two of them ordered their food and started to walk around to take a look at all that the place had to offer. `Do we really look that good together?' Lacus questioned but laughed it off and went back to enjoying Kira's company. `That's silly, the two of us are just really close friends,' she thought holding onto his arm to not get lost in the crowds that swarmed around them.

 

`Was it really such a ridiculous thing for the two of us to be a couple?' Kira asked himself with a frown as he let Lacus lead him around. `The best of friends? Can't it be more?' he continued to question silently as they walked up to a few of the shops that Lacus wanted to take a look at.

 

“Hey Kira!” Lacus said with humor laced into her voice. This brought his attention to what she was looking at. She held an item from the stand that she thought was funny. “What do you think?” she asked with a giggle picking up what appeared to be a little pink ball with eyes.

 

Kira was about to answer when a voice behind him spoke to Lacus before him. “Lacus?!” a feminine voice said in surprise causing the two of them to turn in her direction to see who it was.

 

Though Kira didn't know the woman personally, he did know that she was a friend of Lacus's though. Somehow the name Megan came to mind but that was the only bit of information that Kira had on her.

 

“Oh! Hello there Megan,” Lacus said waving to her friend. “I didn't realize that you were going to be coming here as well. Why didn't you say so?” Lacus asked approaching the woman.

 

Megan watched Lacus approach her with a little apprehension. “Yeah I was surprised to see you here as well. You should've told me before. Maybe we could've gone together,” the woman said with a laugh while looking around. “I better get going. I have a date to find and you should be getting back to yours as well,” she said with a laugh while looking in Kira's direction. Then before Lacus could say anything she left in a hurry while looking around in every direction.

 

“She seemed nervous about something,” Kira stated and Lacus just nodded her head in agreement. “I guess it isn't our concern though. So let's go and have some fun,” he said and Lacus nodded before he grabbed her hand and started to pull her towards the rides.

 

The two of them went on a lot of the different rides. Kira was really surprised though when he managed to convince Lacus to go on one of the roller coasters that the place had. For as long as he could remember, he knew that Lacus hated being on them and usually avoided them when it was possible. Yet when he suggested it, though she was hesitant, she agreed to go on it with him.

 

The best thing about the experience on the roller coaster was how close he got to Lacus. He could tell that she was scared. So on instinct he grabbed a hold of her hand in a comforting gesture. She just smiled at him and grabbed onto his hand as well and never once did she let go of it during the entire ride.

 

The haunted house attraction was Kira's favorite by far. Sure Lacus seemed like a strong person to just about anyone who met her but when there was no one else but herself or Kira then she would let her defenses down.

 

That was how it was during the entire way through. Lacus remained right by Kira's side clutched to his arm and would always grasp tighter when something ended up scaring her. Kira like that Lacus would only show this side of herself to him. It gave him a special feeling whenever that happened.

 

Many people would say they knew Lacus but none knew the true her. They all called her perfect. That she could do anything she put her mind to. That she never had to worry about anything. With Kira she was human, nothing more or less.

 

“Hey, Kira! Let's go play some games!” she yelled over the noise of the crowd as she continued to pull him around. Kira definitely didn't mind it either because it meant that he got to be with Lacus as much as possible.

 

“That's sounds like a good idea,” Kira said tightening his grip on Lacus's hand. He was then led towards the many games stands. “Why don't you choose something and I'll win it for you,” Kira suggested and Lacus's face lit up at the idea.

 

The two of them walked up to a stand and Lacus pointed out a stuffed animal that she loved. “That shouldn't be a problem, I may not look it but I'm good at this game,” Kira said putting down the money before picking up the water gun that was needed.

 

Just as the game was about to get started, some more money was placed down on the space to the right of Kira. When Kira turned to see his opponent he scowled when he saw that it was the guy Lacus liked, Derek. “What are you doing here?” Kira asked in almost a growl because he didn't want this guy coming and ruining his time with Lacus when things were going great.

 

“The fair isn't your own private place to be Yamato. Everyone is allowed to come,” Derek said as the two of them had a stare off. Even without the whole Lacus thing between them, the two of them were never able to get along.

 

Turning towards Lacus, Derek smiled at her. “I heard that you wanted to get that doll Lacus. Why not let a real man win it for you?” he asked her which only ticked Kira off even more.

 

Lacus felt really flattered that he wanted to win it for her. She then looked towards Kira and knew that he also really wanted to get it for her. `I'm not sure who to cheer for,' she thought so just remained silent and watched to see just who would win this match.

 

`I won't lose to this guy again!' Kira thought as he took aim with the water gun. `Without even trying he took all of Lacus's affections. Sure they aren't together but now she can hardly think about anyone else!' Kira thought strengthening his determination to win against the guy. `I've only ever lost to my mom in this; I can't lose to this guy!' Kira thought before the game started and both hit the area needed at the first shot.

 

The figures above the targets started to rise and they appeared to be neck and neck the entire time. Both Kira and Derek were sweating as they focused all their attention on their target. By the time that they were reaching the top it appeared that Kira was about to win. Yet that was before someone from the crowds behind him bumped into him throwing off his aim long enough for Derek to take the lead and then win.

 

Kira couldn't believe it. He turned around quickly hoping to find the person who bumped into him but all her could see were thick crowds and realized that it had to just be a mistake by the person. `It doesn't matter what happened. I still lost to him. Why can't I win against him?' Kira asked with his hand clenching tightly at his side.

 

Derek received the prize that he saw Lacus wanted and walked over to her. “Here you go Lacus. This is for you,” he said handing the stuffed bear over to the blushing girl. “Hey why don't you consider hanging out with me and my friends,” he suggested giving Lacus a smile.

 

Under normal circumstances Lacus knew that she would've accepted but she also knew that tonight was for Kira. “I'm sorry but I'm already here with Kira,' she explained and he just nodded before he turned and walked back to where his friends were hanging out.

 

Turning back towards Kira, Lacus saw how down heartened he looked and gave a small smile. “It's alright Kira. It was just an accident,” she said since she saw the person accidentally bump into Kira's back. “It looked like you were going to win though,” he said placing a hand on his shoulder.

 

“It doesn't matter if someone ran into me or not. I lost and that's all there is too it. And I wanted to get that for you as well,” he said and was earned a smile and a kiss to the cheek by Lacus causing to turn beat red.

 

“It's the thought that matters Kira,” she said before taking a step back. “Now, how about we go on the farris wheel?” she suggested and Kira nodded before she once again grabbed his hand and started to drag him in the direction of the giant farris wheel that the place had.

 

As he was being dragged, Kira got a good look at what was around him and smiled at a thought her had. “Hey Lacus, why don't you go on ahead and save us a spot? There's something that I want to do really quickly,” he said making Lacus come to a stop pretty quickly.

 

“Why don't I just go with you instead?” she asked but Kira just shook his head much to Lacus's confusion. “Why not?” she asked and Kira just gave her a sly look before lightly pushing her towards a farris wheel.

 

“It's a secret,” he said causing her a laugh a little. “I will be right there anyways. I will just be a few minutes,” he said and she nodded before she turned and slowly started to walk towards the ride.

 

Kira quickly ran to what he was looking for and picked up what he was looking for before he turned and ran back in the direction of the farris wheel. By the time he got there Lacus was in the middle of the line where he soon joined her. “Sorry for the wait,” he said getting a smile before they just silently waited in the line.

 

The two of them finally reached the front of the line and got into it. They started to rise in the air and the city started to appear before them clad in beautiful lights. “It's beautiful,” Lacus muttered as she looked over the city in front of her eyes.

 

“Yes it is,” Kira said not even looking at what Lacus was looking at but rather looking at Lacus herself. Kira then remembered the bag at his side. “Here Lacus, I got this for you,” he said nervously as he held out the bag he had got for her.

 

Lacus looked at the bag in his hands. “You didn't need to do that Kira. I'm enjoying myself without being given anything,” she said but Kira just kept pushing it towards her before she finally gave in and took it from him.

 

Opening the bag, Lacus reached in and pulled out the little stuffed ball that she'd been looking at earlier. “Oh wow! It's so cute!” she said picking it up to look at it closely. “Thank you very much Kira!” she said happily as she examined the little ball. “I think I'll name it Haro,” she said with a laugh which Kira joined in.

 

“I'm glad you like it. I saw you looking at it earlier and thought of getting it for you,” he said with a smile. `I just wish I could've won you that prize,' he thought looking to the stuffed bear at her side which she almost seemed to have forgotten about.

 

Things started to settle down but Lacus kept messing with her new doll. Kira was really glad that she liked it. “You know, I can't remember the last time I had this time,” Lacus admitted as she lowered the little pink ball to her lap. “I'm glad we could go together,” she said and Kira nodded his head.

 

A frown suddenly appeared on Lacus's face as it brought back to her mind what was told to her earlier. “Athrun and Cagalli… told me about the opportunity you were given,” she admitted and noticed how Kira stiffened at the mention of it. “Were you ever planning on telling me about it Kira?” she asked looking deep into his violet eyes searching for the truth.

 

“It's not that I didn't want to tell you. I just wasn't sure if I would accept it or not,” Kira said with a sigh as he turned his head away from her. “Is that why you asked me to go with you? To talk about this?” he asked hoping that what he said wasn't the case.

 

“I asked you to go with me because I wanted to, not just to ask you about this,” Lacus continued to admit and noticed that Kira did seem to brighten up a bit. “Have you made up your mind yet?” she asked him worried a bit at his answer.

 

While Kira was glad that this didn't have to do completely with his problem, it saddened him that they ended up talking about it anyways. “No, this is a big choice and I just can't decide,” he said and Lacus frowned even more.

 

“I don't want you to go Kira,” Lacus responded making Kira look in Lacus's direction once again. “You're my best friend. I just don't want to think about what life around here would be like for me if you weren't around,” she continued sadly while looking towards the ground. “What would it take to make you turn it down?” she asked even though she knew she was being really selfish with her request.

 

“It all depends,” Kira started before Lacus looked back up at him again. “It depends if there's still a chance,” he said and noticed that his words confused Lacus. `If there's a chance that you can ever actually love me,' he thought but decided to keep it to himself because he felt it wouldn't be smart to say it out loud.

 

“Chance?” she questioned but he never responded to her. She frowned and wondered just what he was keeping from her. “I just… don't want to lose you,” she said honestly as she moved over to Kira's side and leaned against him.

 

`Maybe you won't,' he thought as he closed his eyes and enjoyed the feel of her next to him. “It's not like it will kill you. You'll probably go out with Derek and fall in love and get married. I'll probably just be a memory by then,” he said even though he felt like it nearly killed him.

 

Lacus shook her head rapidly at his words. “You'll never be just a memory. Even if I ever do go out with him it won't feel right if I didn't have my best friend there with me during it. I like just being able to talk to you about anything and everything,” she said leaning her head on his shoulder.

 

Kira didn't say anything as the farris wheel started to slow down before the door opened for them and they both stood up and walked out of it. “Why don't we start heading back, it's starting to get rather late,” Kira said looking at his watch.

 

Lacus just nodded her head as grabbed his hand as they headed towards the exit. She had to admit that she was getting tired after this wonderful day that he and Kira had. “Yeah, I'm tired,” Lacus said with a yawn while rubbing her eyes.

 

The two of them got out and reached their car several minutes later and they drove back in the direction of the dorms. They got back about thirty minutes later and the two of them got out since they were in the same building as one another.

 

Kira was carrying Lacus's things as she led the way to her door. “Well have a good night Lacus,” he said handing over her two new dolls and she nodded with a smile before saying goodbye and walking into her room.

 

Lacus quickly got changed for bed and got under the covers. She looked at the bear and Haro before she grabbed the little pink ball and held it close to her as she closed her eyes. Sure she really liked Derek and adored the bear he got for her but she really like Haro and the thought Kira put into getting it for her a bit better. `He truly it the best friend I could ever have,' she thought with a smile before falling asleep.

 

*****

 

Kira walked into his room and placed the keys to Athrun's car down. Athrun let him borrow his car earlier that day since Kira had no other way to get to the fairgrounds without it.

 

`This has been a good day,' Kira thought as he changed into something more comfortable before sitting at his desk and pulling out those papers once again in order to think over what he planned to do about it.

 

`This is an elite university that I can get into if I accept. Something I never could've dreamed of getting into otherwise,' he thought looking at the letter the university had sent him with the information about the college. `This is something only the rich and the genius's are able to get into,' he thought placing down the papers before leaning his face into his hands.

 

`If I accepted I could go there and get the best education I ever thought possible. The only problem is how far away it is. If I accepted I would also be leaving behind all of my friend. I'd be leaving behind Lacus,' he thought with a frown as he ran a hand through his hair.

 

`She has Derek though,' his mind taunted him which he knew was correct. `Can tonight mean anything though? She wanted so badly for me to stay. Is it possible that there might be a chance that she could ever love me?' he asked himself since he figured that would be one of the key issues as to whether he accepted or not.

 

Finally giving up thinking about it, Kira put them away once again and crawled into bed. “I still have a week to think about it,” he said before he closed his eyes and quickly fell into a deep and peaceful sleep.