Gundam SEED Fan Fiction ❯ Fathomless Blue ❯ But...I Love You! ( Chapter 1 )

Black Eagle: Okay...this is a random, pointless, and otherwise PWP fic that I have taken to writing. Since my current obsession is Gundam Seed, and my current favorite pairing is AthrunxKira, this current fic is currently Gundam Seed with a current pairing of currently AthrunxKira.

Mei: You need a vacation.

Black Eagle: -_- I know. Stupid high school.

Ashurei: Yup. *is immersed in 20,000 tons of homework*

Black Eagle: Wait...Ashurei, if you have so much homework, how are you here?

Ashurei:...I have no idea...*disappears to Somewhere*

Black Eagle: Well. That was different.

Mei: Yup.

Black Eagle: Onto the fic!

Mei: CHARGE!

Summary: <Part One of the Eternal Colours series. Kira finally confesses his love to Athrun, though not as smoothly as he intended. When he takes Athrun's reaction the wrong way and flees, can Athrun get to Kira before Kira gets to himself? POSSIBLE LEMON EPILOGUE, A/K! PLEASE REVIEW!>

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Gundam Seed. However, I do own the song that I am basing this fic off of, which I have titled "Fathomless Blue". You are free to use it in your stories, as long as you request permission and put in your story that it is mine.

This story is set after the war.

PLEASE REVIEW! THERE IS NOTHING WORSE THAN SEEING THAT YOUR STORY HAS MANY VISITS BUT ONLY A FEW REVIEWS! If you don't review, I won't continue this!

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I look in the crystal clear lake,

Looking for you

In the fathomless blue;

I don't know how much more I can take,

Undecided love,

Yet sweet as a dove,

My courage is failing,

As my heart is ailing,

Come find me, love me true;

Stop my searching in the fathomless blue...

~*~KIRA'S POV~*~

Athrun Zala. Best friend. Fellow Coordinator. My love interest.

It's funny how life turns on us sometimes. When we were younger, we would often sleep in the same bed, cuddling up against each other for warmth. And I gave it no second thought.

We would often take baths together, laughing and making up our own little stories. I gave it no second thought.

We've seen each other naked, slept in the same bed, done everything together as far back as I can remember.

Then, something happened: we grew older.

When I found out that you had joined ZAFT, my heart literally broke in two. Then, at the moment when we first encountered each other in our Gundams, staring shocked at each other, I saw clearly what I had only guessed at before.

I. Love. You.

It hit me like a revelation, making it hard to breathe and pulsing in my head.

I'm in love with my best friend.

It seemed ludicrous at first. I almost started laughing right then and there. It was impossible, of course. I wasn't gay. You aren't gay. No arguments.

But there was an argument: I love you.

After the shock passed, I felt like crying.

Now, after the war, you love Cagalli. I know that. You love my sister. There's no ifs, ands, or buts about it.

But...I love you!

As I lie awake in bed tonight, like so many other nights, you torment my thoughts. I can't take the strain anymore. I have to tell you. Otherwise, I will not make it.

The next morning, I bike to your apartment. I could drive, but I want to be able to make a quick getaway if you reject me. And I can't do that in a car, unless I keep it running.

Besides, pedaling takes my mind off of what I'm going to do.

I reach your apartment, and park the bike. I walk up and reach your room number. 342.

I knock on it, praying that you're home and yet hoping you're not. When you answer the door, I almost faint. You're only in your boxers, and I can see your toned chest perfectly. I fight the urge to reach out, to feel your silky hair, to kiss you...

"Konnichiwa (1), Kira," you smile at me. "O' genki desu ka (2)?"

"Fine, arigato (3)," I murmur. I look past you. "Ano (4)..."

You look rather surprised at yourself. "Gomen (5), Kira. Come in."

I step into your room. Though it is an apartment, it looks like a room from a regular house. There's a small kitchen, one large bed, a bathroom, a T.V., a virtual communicator, two chairs, and a bookshelf.

"Sit down, Kira," you say, gesturing to one of the chairs. You sit down also. "So, what brings you here?"

I swallow inaudibly. Now that the moment has finally come, I cannot bring myself to say what is upon my heart, weighing so heavily. I am afraid I will lose your friendship forever, and that is something I do not want. "I..."

You look concerned, leaning in and laying a hand on my shoulder. "Kira, what's wrong?"

I nearly cry from the comforting warmth of your hand on my shoulder. I take a deep breath and turn to face you.

Your face is so close...your beautiful hair falling over your deep green eyes, mouth shaped into a perfect curve...but I must resist!

"Athrun..." I say, hating myself and growing tense with fear. "Am I important to you?" Great! I berate myself. Out of all the things you could say, you say that?!

Your eyes mist over, as if you are thinking. You then look at me. "Kira, how could you doubt me? You are the most important thing in the world to me. Without you, I would die. Hell, without you in the war, I would have died! You're my best friend, Kira, and I would give up my life for you."

This is what I wanted to hear...right? But now that our friendship is re-confirmed, I cannot say what I want to. I don't want to lose you, Athrun Zala, but oh, I cannot live with this pain anymore!

"Athrun..." I take another deep breath and blurt it out. "IthinkIloveyou!"

You grow perfectly still. "What?"

I shake tears from my eyes and say, "I think I love you!"

You are not moving. When you lift your head, your eyes are shining with tears. "Kira, I don't..."

You don't have to finish the sentence. Oh God. Oh God!

I jump out of the chair. "I'm sorry!" I yell. "I...I'm sorry!" I run out of your apartment, taking the stairs two at a time, not caring if I slip and fall and die.

I hear you running after me. "Kira, wait!"

I jump on my bike and pedal off. I pedal a considerable distance away, then abandon my bike at my house and run.

I run until the pain in my chest is almost unbearable. Then, I weakly jog to a forest, go deep inside it, fall down against a tree, and cry until I can cry no more.

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(1) Hello

(2) How are you?

(3) Thank you

(4) Um...

(5) Sorry

Black Eagle: Aw, poor Kira! Mwuahahahahahahahaha!

Mei: You don't like Kira, do you?

Black Eagle: Nope. He's a feminine crybaby who's more of a girl that Lacus, Fllay, and Cagalli combined.

Mei: So...why are you pairing him up with your favorite character?

Black Eagle: Because besides Yzak, Kira's the only one that goes well with Athrun! Besides, it was either this or I go totally sadistic and write a fic where Commander Krueze rapes Athrun...I like those too! ^.^

Mei: Oooooooooookay...well, review, minna-chan! She is thinking of writing a whole series of these fics, but won't if you people don't review! *hustles Black Eagle to a mental institute*