Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Ai Qing Gu Shi ❯ Tamashii no Rufuran ( Chapter 7 )

Title: Ai Qing Gu Shi

Author: BlackWind

Email: Luv_bpgal@yahoo.com

Song: Tamashii no Rufuran

English translation: Soul refrain

Animation taken from: Neon Gensis Evangelion

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<<……song lyrics……>>

Chapter 8

<<Please come back to me,

Following memories

To the source of gentleness and dreams,

In order to be born, and shine to the stars

Once again.…..>>

"Heero!"

Horror quickly numbed his arousal as his mind finally registered Heero's presence…… Heero standing at the door watching him…… watching him…… His hands, still holding his erected penis, immediately pulled away, as if scorched by something. Shame and embarrassment flooded his mind as he quickly snatched a towel from the side hook, attempting in vain to cover up his current …… situation……

His eyes were glued to the puddles of water on the bathroom tiles as he mentally tried to come up with an excuse for gasping his friend's name when he was…… He couldn't think any further as his disgust overwhelmed him. All he could do was to pray hard that maybe…… just maybe…… Heero had not heard……

<<Soul's refrain>>

……

Yeah right…… He had gasped so loudly that …… Ahhhhh! He wished that the Oz soldiers would kill him now…… Yeah. A shot right at the back of the head…… Too bad all Ozzies were dead……

Duo was so absorbed in his mental distress that he did not see Heero gazing at him with a strange light in his eyes, as if he had found what he had been looking for.

The tiny splash of water alerted Duo to the approach of the man in front of him. Automatically, Duo raised his head, only to drop his gaze back to the floor. His face was flaming with embarrassment and his fists were clenched with fear. Would Heero be disgusted with him? He was sure Heero would. Maybe Heero would beat him up? Would Heero hate him? Please don't…… Please…… It would hurt too much……

<<Your naked skin wrapped in blue shadows

Trembles quietly in this moment

Your fingertip searches for me,

As if asking for the whereabouts of life>>

The soft footfalls told Duo of the steady approach of the man - the man who made him, the man who knew him, the man who would break him, break him without a single bruise on his skin… Duo squeezed his eyes tightly. The repulsion would come, then the verbal abuse…… then……

A brush of cool cloth against wet skin as Heero reached past Duo, his hand stretching to turn off the still running shower behind him.

Duo looked up with shock, momentary losing his ability to breathe when he realized Heero was standing right in front of him…… His lips were just inches from that tantalizing skin. Soft cotton was stretched across the muscular arm as Heero turned off the shower, the action making the muscles contract, then relax in such a seductive way that heat filled his cheeks. Duo felt the blood rushing to his face as well as in a place hidden by the towel. He could smell the enticing scent of Heero, something that he was so familiar with…… Lavender……

Heero could feel the Duo's warm breath on his shoulders. The tickling sensation seemed to be spreading the warmth outwards, making his toes curl and his heart double its beats. Despite his ignorance of the matters of the heart, Heero could no longer doubt that Duo desired him. The fact exhilarated him as his worries that Duo might be disgusted with him evaporated along with the steamy water.

He was aroused. Duo was aroused. His soldier's mind was telling him in a very direct way to just go ahead and SHOW just how much he wanted Duo so that each of them could get what they both wanted. But his heart told him if he did that, he could forget about having Duo ever seeing him as someone to love…… Just someone to play around with…… Heero did not want that, not ever. He wanted Duo, his body, his love, his whole. And so, he killed the `evil' soldier and crushed his urge to fuck Duo, there and then.

He turned around to face Duo, meeting the twin amethyst orbs that were staring back at him with astonishment as well as fear… Fear?

<<The you that was embraced by fate

Blooms in season like an ephemeral flower

Leaving behind the scent of hope on your chest

Scattering hurriedly in splendid form>>

He almost drowned himself in the shimmering pool of violet. Before he could lose control and give in to the urge to kiss the doubts away from Duo's eyes, he spoke. What surprised him was the husky tone of his voice. Apparently, his self-control was not as great as he had thought it was.

" You really should change the door knob. I think it is loose," Heero whispered, the word coming out unexpectedly silky.

Flustered, Duo immediately shifted his gaze back to the ground.

" Ye…… Yeah……"

Silence, woven by threads of shame, embarrassment and fearfulness, hung in the small room. Finally, it was broken by a quiet statement from Heero.

"Are you finished with your shower?"

"…… Er…... Yes……"

"Then you should go out and change into something dry before you fall sick…… again."

"O…...Okay."

Duo, wrapped in only the towel, watched Heero turning around. The catlike grace of his partner had him staring in a trance. Gathering his thoughts quickly, Duo quickly followed Heero out of the bathroom and into the bedroom. The towel was getting more soaked with each second and the cold air that seemed to blow against his skin the moment he stepped out of the humid shower room did not help to warm him up.

Shivering slightly, Duo walked over to his closet. Picking out a light blue shirt, he quickly shrugged it on, hoping to cover himself as much as possible. A quick turn of his head made him aware of the continued presence of Heero in his room. Not that he was much of a exhibitionist, but the idea of Heero being THERE, in the room, watching him dress made him painfully aware of how much and how long he had wanted Heero.

Crimson stained his face as he grabbed a pair of black boxers. Letting go of the damp towel, Duo hurriedly put on his boxers. Walking slowly to the mirror, still feeling Heero's boring into his back, Duo picked up a blue brush and began brushing through his hair.

He winced as the brush came across a stubborn knot. His hair must had been tangled up when he shifted about in the bed. Sighing, Duo wondered how long would it take for him to untangle his hair, brush it, have breakfast and still have time to call Hilde to apologize.

A sudden touch on his hands stilled their movements. Lifting his head, he saw Heero taking hold of his brush, another hand placed firmly, yet softly, on his left shoulder.

"Let me?"

Duo was surprised. Screw that. He was very stunned. Was this Heero, the one who had never even attempted to brush his own hair, the man who never did anything inefficiently, the person who thoroughly abhorred anything impractical? What happened to the Heero who had told him to cut off his hair because it was a goddamn inconvenience?

Unable to give any coherent comments, Duo could only nod.

Duo had never expected Heero to offer to brush his hair for him. Neither did he expect his hair to have nerves on them; they were dead cells right? What he knew was that every single touch, every little caress made him tingle, shivering with a delicious sensation in which he could not name. Heero's fingers were sending electric impulses through his scalp, he could not help but close his eyes as he tilted his head back to allow Heero more access to his long tresses. Parting his lips, Duo gave a breathy sigh. This feeling… It was so comforting, so gentle…… so right…… He was drowning in the waves of this almost arousing touch, almost loving caress……

Heero was entranced by Duo's display of emotions was showing him. His long chestnut tresses flowed like liquid amber in his hands, teasing his chafed fingertips with the slightest stroke. It felt like cool silk…… A small sigh distracted him from his work. Looking up, Heero saw an image that would forever be imprinted in his mind.

Duo's head was tilted back, revealing the pale stretch of skin across his throat as a few strands of his hair curled inwards, lying gracefully at the broad shoulders. Some feathery wisps of hair graced the gentle curve of his throat, with the silken brown contrasting the smooth paleness of the skin. Duo's eyes were closed, moist pink lips slightly apart, making soft breathy noises as Heero's hands gently brushed through the beautiful waterfall of hair.

Need crashed into Heero like a tsunami, tearing at him, making him want to let go of the brush and just simply comb his fingers through the lovely strands as he kissed those enticing lips.

Heero's self control finally deserted him as the dam broke, letting out all the emotions he had been hiding for years, all the love he had for this fey creature in front of him, all the desire he had been denying himself… He wanted Duo. He wanted Duo now.

The blue brush dropped to the ground, landing with a soft thud as Heero combed his fingers through the long tresses, relishing the feel of Duo as he lean closer, his chest just brushing against Dou's shoulder. Bending his head, he saw the surprise and shock in those heartbreaking amethyst eyes as he lean forward, touching the pale lips to his own.

Duo's lips were incredibly soft and warm…… Heero felt himself getting drunk on the sensation of Duo's lips on his own. Heero pulled back a little to look at Duo, wanting Duo to see his naked feelings in his eyes. Bright amethyst shone with something similar to shock, desire, then fading to something else…… something that made Heero's heart pound faster, something that made Heero feel as if he had saved the world a hundred…… no…… a thousand times over……

This time, it was Duo who made the move. Heero felt those lips pressing against his own, and felt his own head bending down, lips parting as he felt the gentle caress of Duo's tongue licking at the edge of his lips, asking for entrance. The wet touch sent shivers of pleasure down his back as Heero felt Duo's tongue entering his mouth, teasingly caressing the roof of his mouth before probing gently at his own tongue, making a sensual display of what they might be doing otherwise. Hands trailed along his sides, stroking, teasing the sensitive skin as he slowly lifted the thin shirt up, making contact with the heated skin beneath the light cotton.

Heero took that bait. His own tongue flicked to spar with Duo's, the two moving in synchronization, one thrust, one retreat, then a mutual caress before the whole cycle repeated itself. Losing himself in the sweet taste of Duo, Heero felt his breath shortening. His head felt heavy and his lungs burned from the lack of air. The heady sensation made him unwilling to pull away, but the lack of air forced him to break the kiss, panting in short breaths as he tried to take in enough oxygen.

When he finally got enough air, Heero lifted his eyes and saw Duo, still breathless from the last kiss. His pink lips were a little swollen from the pressure, those moist petals apart, making many quick, breathy sounds. His amethyst eyes were half closed with pleasure, his chestnut hair falling softly around him, creating a halo of amber.

<<Please come back to me,

Before you are born

To the earth you spent your days on>>

The alluring sight of Duo transfixed Heero. Still, he wanted to know, wanted to hear those words right from Duo's mouth, from those parted lips……

"Do you love me, Duo?"

Duo's eyes widened in shock as he quickly averted his eyes from the piercing gaze of Heero. There was no way…… He…… Duo closed his eyes. He should have known that Heero would have guessed it…… Would Heero ignore him this time? Or would he mock his love? This forbidden love- this love that wasn't meant to exist? He did not want to answer.

Heero was frustrated. He was so sure that Duo still felt something for him, so why wouldn't he admit it? Was he wrong? Maybe what Duo wanted was just a one-night stand? What was it! What was it that made Duo refuse to answer him?

A thought went through his mind. Hilde! He heard him calling Hilde that day when he first came… Hilde…… Wasn't she the girl whom Duo was business partners with? Wasn't she the one Duo had risked his life to save during the Gundam Wars in Libra? Who was this Hilde? Was she…… no…… Was she Duo's girlfriend? Was that why……

" Don't you love me, Duo? Say it? You love me, don't you?"

He couldn't help himself, this painful feeling that arose whenever he thought of Hilde and Duo…… his Duo with someone else…… Someone other then himself…… He wished Duo would answer him, wished that Duo would stop this insistent ache in him…… Please…… Not when he just realized his feelings…… not when…… not when he had finally found Duo! No…...

<<Please come back into my arms,

To meet again

Miracles do happen, however many times>>

"Duo…… Duo…… You love me…… right?"

<<Soul's refrain>>

Duo was too absorbed in his misery to hear the distress that echoed in the question; too lost in his own fear of mockery, of rejection…… Those three words…… the very same words that almost killed him…… He knew he shouldn't answer…… Call him selfish, but he did not want to bare his heart and soul, to have his love thrown back into his face again. But his heart refused to let him run away from the reality. He knew he could not deny Heero the answer to his question…… That he would love Heero…… even if it killed him.

<<When eyes are closed as if in prayer

The world simply disappears there into the darkness

Even so, my heartbeat starts again

Looking for a bounded eternity>>

"…… Yes……"

The word so soft that Heero nearly did not catch it. He lifted his hand, brushing the tips of his fingers against the pale cheeks of Duo. His heart did a funny flip-flop. Duo loved him…… Duo still loved him…… The simple word drove all doubts, all the pain away……

"Say it again?"

Heero lifted Duo's head up with his hand, wanting to see those expressive eyes when he heard the words, longing to see the love in Duo's violet gaze……

Duo felt a hand lifting his chin. Opening his eyes, he found himself drowning in the deep pools of indigo. He found something there…… Or at least, he thought he did. Something…… Something akin to love…… Giving up the final struggle for the last piece of his sanity, Duo let go; let go of the love he had felt for so long, of the hurt, of the pain, of the last piece of himself on this last bet……

"I love you Heero……"

<<Following memories

To the source of gentleness and dreams.

You, too, please come back,

So we can love each other.

Heart and body repeat>>

Prussian blue eyes bored into his own, searching and finding something…

<<Soul's refrain>>

Duo closed his eyes. There, he had given the last of himself to Heero…… He…… Duo's eyes opened in surprise. Heero's face was right in front of him…… Heero was kissing him! Did it mean…… did it mean……

Duo felt Heero's lips moving away. He felt a little lost at the sudden loss of contact…… and overwhelmed by the knowledge of…… of…… Heero loving him!

Duo saw the flicker of something in the Prussian eyes. That something…… Was that love?

<<Please come back to me,

Before you are born

To the earth you spent your days on>>

Duo felt the sudden impact of the uplifting knowledge. His heart was bursting with the joy of knowing the love of Heero, his whole being felt as if it was weightless and flying……

Duo sent Heero as huge grin as he pushed himself forward and into Heero's arms, planting a passionate kiss on Heero's lips.

The force caused both of them to fall backwards, with Heero trapped under Duo. The waterfall of chestnut locks cascaded over both of them, forming a veil from the rest of the world. Heero smiled slightly at the ecstatic look on Duo's face. Warmth surrounded his heart as he drank in the sight of Duo, knowing that he was the person who made Duo smile like this.

<<Please come back into my arms

To meet again

Miracles do happen, however many times>>

"Baka……" {Idiot}

The silly grin on Duo's face did not fade as he wrapped his arms around Heero's waist, pressing himself closer to the man he loved. Unconsciously, Duo began to slip into the language he used when he was with Heero……

" Hai…… demo …… kono baka ha suki desu ne?"{Yes… But you like this idiot, isn't it so?}

Heero gave Duo a small peck on his cheeks.

"Hai…… Kimi ha suki dayo" {Yes. I like you.}

" Suki no mi desu ka? Ai shitemasen ka?" {Like? It's not love?}

"Iie…… Gomen…… Aishiteru, boku no Duo." {No… Sorry… I love you, my Duo.}

"Aa. Boku no aishiteru, boku no Heero." {*sound of agreement* I love you too, my Heero.}

"Hai…… Kimi no…… boku ha…..." {Yes, I am yours.}

A heated kiss was shared between the new found lovers as they made their way to the kitchen where the breakfast that Heero had prepared await them…

<<Soul's refrain>>

TBC

Note** I don't really speak Japanese…… I made up the sentences as best as I could with my limited vocabulary and grammar… Okay, I admit the grammar is lifted from Chinese…… But the two languages are a little similar…… right? -__-`' Ooooookay……. So…… To anyone who speak Japanese out there, please tell me if I got my grammar or words wrong? I will try to change it as soon as possible okay? (I added in the bit of conversation to make it more sappy…… Is it working?)

I am sorry for the lack of the limey scenes or the promised lemon…… I kind of lost the mood for writing it ever since NC17-rating had been banned…… Sigh…… Whatever! I think the mood for writing lemon will come back sooner or later… maybe in the form of future chapters! Haha…… Okay…… I hope the fluffiness had more or less made up for this lack of…… erm…… lemony features? Besides, I don't think Heero and Duo would be such easy people…… I think I would torture them for some time more (no more emotional crap I assure you guys……) and may the SEXUAL tension between the two of them heighten! Now wouldn't that make a lemon more fun? Haha……

BlackWind~