Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ All Along ❯ All Along 4 ( Chapter 4 )

Title: All Along 4/?

Author: LEEMAX^_^

Pairings: 1xR to start 1x2 eventually

Rating: R - (NC-17 on media or my site)

Warnings: language, yaoi, lemon, and Heero bastard for some of the first chapters of this story

Note: This will be my first fan fic. I am hoping that it will be at least fourteen or more chapters.

Disclaimer: I don't own the boys...unfortunately *sighs*

Dedicated: Ryouga (She was my muse and my restaurant)

"Words" - speaking

 

 

Heero POV

 

 

"Duo, what is going on, what is happening here?"

 

 

I could not recognize my voice as it came out of my throat. It sounded so weak and broken to my own ears. As the realization of what had and was transpiring in this room occurred to me, my heart rate rocketed threw the roof. I felt as if my heart would break looking at Duo's downcast face burned into my retinas.

 

 

Duo was still looking at the duffel bag that he just zipped up as he informed me in the coldest tone that I had yet to ever hear out of his mouth. "I am leaving Heero. I am tired of all the yelling the complaining and the accusations. I am going to go with Kristen and Lilly to live. Bill just passed away last night and I will need to take over the shop since Kristen does not know how to run it. Bill's brothers all live out of the country and have their own families to take care of. Since it seems that you and Relena are getting better aquatinted in your lives, me being around has seem to have only caused problems between our friendship. I do not want to lose what little friendship we have left, if we had one at all? I care about you greatly pal, but I can not live my life this way anymore. I will send Fie to get the rest of my stuff sometime next week."

 

 

As those words pored out of Duo's mouth my first thought was, why? Then when he told me about Relena I realized that I had not even checked up on her to see how she was doing. A thought occurred to me at that moment that I really must be an ass if I made Duo feel like we had never been friends. All of my goals that I had set to achieve in my life were going out the window. I was so confused that when Mrs. White and Duo moved passed me out the door with the baby I could not move from my spot.

 

 

I stayed there as I heard murmurs from the living room, unable to move at the site of the room that was almost completely bare of Duo's possessions. At that moment I realized that my heart felt as if it was breaking. I had never felt this sort of pain my entire life. The smell of the room that was so commonly scented of apples and sandalwood drifted to my nose, as I heard the front door close.

 

 

# # # Flashback # # #

 

 

This wonderful smell was all around me. As I felt soft lips on my neck I moved my head to the side to give whom the person that was doing this to me better access. I had totally forgotten about the movie at this point and wanted release.

 

 

The room was quite dark and it kept me from seeing much except the feel of someone kissing my neck and moving to my lips. I just could not get this smell out of my system and it was making me so hard. I moved my lips to the side and captured the person's lips in a heated kiss. It felt so warm with the person pressed to my body and the fuzzy feeling that was in my brain was not helping.

 

 

As a hand traveled higher up my thigh and started to caress my dick it was all it took for the smell with the fuzzy feeling to have me loose my control. I pushed on the body next to me and sent them sprawling under my body as I fell on them. I probed my tongue into a hot cavern and drank from them the taste of wine. I caressed the body under mine.

 

 

Hands made their way to my belt and pants and undid the buckle, button, and zipper. All I next felt was a hand caressing my dick and sending pleasure through my entire body. As I hungrily devoured the hot mouth under me, the sent of apple and sandalwood continued to assault my senses.

 

 

# # # End of Flashback # # #

 

 

As realization of why I could not achieve an arousal with Relena, and that I had used Duo's shampoo that afternoon dawned on me I felt my world shatter. I remember all the times that Relena and myself tried to get into the mood never happened. I remember the colors of the sunset at Ru-yo's and the way it seemed to match his hair and eyes. The places that Relena and I went out to, places that Duo and I use to go to before the guys at work talked.

 

 

I forced my body to move and ran from the bedroom out to the living room. "Duo! Duo! Duo wait please, don't leave me! Duo please! Please Duo don't leave me!" As I ran out the front door screaming and saw that no one was there I felt a wet stinging feeling in my eyes. As looked around the hallway, like a lost dog I turned back to go into my apartment.

 

 

Entering the apartment and shutting the door I noticed Relena sitting on the couch with a black shirt in her lap and a resigned look on her face.

 

 

"Tell me Heero did you just realize it now or were you trying to see if you were not?" Looking at the tears that were coursing down her cheeks I felt as if I had just hurt a small child. I had not even come out here and checked to make sure she was all right after I ran off to the bathroom. I feel like a total dipshit once again.

 

 

"You know I really can't think of any other way to say this, but I am sorry. I am so sorry for you to have found out this way. I can understand that you did not know you were gay. But, what I do not get is how you could treat your best friend that way! From the looks of things it seems that you also did not realize your feelings for him!" As Relena's voice started to ascend to a higher level as she threw the shirt at me. Catching the shirt I realized that it smelled of apple and sandalwood. It dawned on me that the shirt must have been on the couch, probably left by Duo and I must have missed it. With the sent of it in my hair and on the cough it seemed as my body realized, what I had yet to for myself.

 

 

"Did you even fucking realize that it was me at all Heero that you were about to screw! I bet you sure as hell did not with the wine that you drank just so that you could get close to me!"

 

 

Not wanting to lose any more dignity and probably only last friend in the world, I tried to explain as best as I could. "Relena, look I am so sorry. I did not mean for any of this to happen. God, I did not even realize that I like guys. Shit, I still don't even. Crap Relena. I, Oh God Relena! What am I going to do!" After everything finally sunk in I could not hold up the anger that hid me from the rest of the world. I fell to the floor in a sobbing mess clutching a T-shirt that smelled of my ex-best friend to my face. I had just let my best friend walk out of my life.

 

 

I still remember all the mornings that I would wake up and have breakfast waiting for me. I thought about the notes that Duo would leave for me if he went to work early in the morning, with those dumb happy faces at the end. The times that we would sit and watch Dune over and over again just so that we could talk about how the graphics sucked so badly. Falling asleep on the couch when it got too late but neither one of us wanting to stop the movie. I still can recall the first time Duo took me to Ru-yo's to celebrate moving into the apartment. The nights that he took me out to the pool hall that lasted well into early mornings. The shirt that he bought me to replace my old one. He had thrown the dirty towels into the hamper and ruined my good shirt. I remember the reason the towels had to be by the toilet. Since the he uses towels always had grease from the cars he works on, he started leaving them there after my first ruined shirt. I remember the late movies that we would go see at the Cineplex.

 

 

As I recalled all of this I felt two arms wrap around my shoulders as I cried my heart out for the first time since I had killed that girl and her puppy.

 

 

"It is going to be ok Heero. Look I am not mad, upset maybe, but not mad. We will get a hold of Duo when he has had time to cool down. Right now he is going to be angry and upset. Especially now that he is probably depressed with that gentleman passing away. Once this all gets a little more settled down you can call him and work things out. But I will tell you this Heero, you treat Duo like the way I saw tonight and I will personally hand you your balls on a platter."

 

 

After Relena dried her eyes with her hand and helped me up off the floor to the couch, she threw the afghan over my body. I was still holding on to Duo's T-shirt. I had yet to move the fabric from my face. The sent of the shirt was all that I felt was keeping me grounded from losing my sanity. It felt as if my life was going by in a daze and I was unable to stop the world from spinning. I needed time for me to catch up with the world, but it seemed as if that was never going to happen.

 

 

Relena was moving around in the apartment but I could not make out what she was doing or where she was. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed Relena's dress as she moved back into the living room.

 

 

"Heero take these and drink all of this water. If you don't you will feel worse than you are going to in the morning."

 

 

After Relena handed me a few asprins, I sat up and put them into my mouth. After drinking all the water from the glass, I fell back into the sofa and pulled Duo's shirt back up to my face. Two more tears fell from my eyes on their own accord. I was cracked and unable to pick up my shell that had been protecting my heart. It seams as if my heart already had an intruder that it was totally unaware of until now.

 

 

"Heero I am going to go get a cab home, OK? I want you to get some rest and try not to think too much into this tonight. We will deal with this once things get settled down. I will just let my self out, and you just stay out here and sleep."

 

 

Relena moved to sit on the edge of the couch and brushed back my bangs and placed a soft kiss on my forehead and caressed my cheek After that she moved down to take off my shoes. My world seemed to still be at a stand still and it was just too much. "Just get some sleep Heero, everything will be all right."

 

 

As Relena got up and took her coat she turned off the lights as she left the room. I could still see her reflection as she was leaving in the television Once she had left and closed the door the tears that seemed to be a part of my life now ran faster down my face. I could not stop my eyes and heart from breaking.

 

 

Lying there on the couch in my apartment that use to belong to Duo and me, I realized one thing. I had tried to recreate what I had with Duo in Relena, and I had not known. I tried to make something for my life, and it was already there. I could not believe that I already had my one-ness and just threw it away.

 

 

I had been looking for someone to complete me and make my life whole. Someone to come home to just for me, to understand me for whom I was and not what I was. I wanted a person that would make me to all that there was to be. He was there and I did not realize until it was too late.

 

 

I had it all along.

 

 

Tbc.

 

 

LEEMAX^_^

 

 

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