Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Another view ❯ Chapter 1 ( Chapter 1 )
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By: Noirblood 
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Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 08.12.2004 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.4K | Visits: 289 | Status: Work In Progress
hm... just read!
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 08.12.2004 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.4K | Visits: 289 | Status: Work In Progress
Title: Another view
Author: Noir
Anime: Gundam Wing
Parings:
Warnings: AU, lemon, yaoi, attempt to suicide, angst and stuff like that... Enjoy!
Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wings and none of its characters... bla, bla, bla
Chapter 1
Warnings for this chapter: hm maybe R, but that's it till now.
*Duo POV*
I was alone and the room was full of darkness...
I didn't know what else to say, I was waiting for him to call so that I can know what to do next.
The night passed, the sun started to show it's rays, the phone didn't ring, he didn't call... Why?
I needed him to call, he has to, he just has to... Maybe I should go to him, what if something bad happened? Or maybe..., oh who am I kidding, the reason he doesn't call..., the problem was that I knew it all to well, I am just to afraid to admit the truth, I knew it...
It's been a month now, days since I last heard from him. If he wanted he could have called by now, but he didn't, he didn't, man I'm such an ass!
It was over, everything! Everything was over! Everything we had, I lost everything because of my stupid mouth. Fuck, I hate myself right now!
Why am I so scared? I knew this would happen. I mean it was fuckin' obvious, only I refused to see it that must be it, I was blinded by my thoughts, yeah...
So what now genius, you just lost your best friend and the opportunity to ever make him like you, even a bit! You blew everything with three fuckin' words.
I should have let him in shadow about the way I feel, I should have shut up in that moment, God, he probably hates me right now, but no wonder, I'm such an ass; thinking only about myself, not thinking how the other is going to react. I thought he would take it quietly and that he would be cold and just tell me what he thinks, like he always does, but not this time, no, this time he acted differently. Why? Is it such a bad thing to love your best friend, your only true close friend? To love him more than the word friendship could ever imply?! Or is it bad because he's a boy just like me
I never confessed to him until now, though he always was counting on me to confess to him, and now that I did, he turns his back away. What does the word 'friend' mean anyway, I thought a friend a true friend will never turn his back on you no matter what, so maybe he wasn't such a true friend after all...
God, what am I thinking? He's probably disgusted by my feelings; he probably thinks that I made him my friend just to get into his pants.
How could I just throw it in his face?
***flashback***
"Hey, man can you fuckin' live that computer alone for a few second, I want to talk to you" I said trembling. "Just a minute Duo, I almost got the son of a bitch! Yeah, die, fucker, die!"
"Aham!" I said clearing my throat. "Ok, what's on your heart that can't wait a second longer?" he said with the eyes still blocked on the screen.
"I need to talk to you about something important, to me anyway..." "Well..., you know you can talk to me... I'm listening..." "Can you fucking turn that thing off when I'm talking to you?" "Yeah, sure", he said and he turned the computer off.
I didn't know where to begin.
"You see Heero, I..." I felt my voice was going away... "Yes..." "I... I... need to go to the bathroom", stupid, STUPID!!! "Is that what you wanted to tell me?" "No, wait a sec, I'll be right back", I rushed in the bathroom, hoping for the end of the world to come!
What the fuck was I doing? I mean... what should I tell him, where should I begin?
After 10 minutes I exit the bathroom and I was cotton white, Heero looked concerned.
"What is it Duo? What happened? Are you feeling sick, is that it?" he looked at me, but with a cold gaze. He seemed concerned by his voice, but his eyes said something else.
"Nothing, I... 'm not sick.", I said with my eyes in the floor.
"What did you want to tell me? he asked curious. "Heero..., I... I..." "Yes, go on..." "I... love you", I said in a whisper, hoping he didn't catch the last part.
He looked confused, than smiled and say: "I love you too buddy." "Really?" I didn't hoped to hear that from him. "Yeah, sure, why do you think we are such good friends? Love is the first thing that ties a friendship."
"No..., Heero, you didn't understand me... I love you."
"What's not to understand? I love you too." "No, Heero, I love you MORE than a friend!" I said almost yelling. He was confused. I think now he understood, cause he rushed in our bedroom.
I stood knocking at the door. "Heero?" "Get the fuck away from me you pervert, you freak." My eyes were filled with tears. "Heero, listen..." "I told you to get the fuck away from me!" he yelled.
That's when I realized I lost him...
I went out for a walk and I returned after a few hours, he was packing. Fuck, the last thing I wanted is for him to move.
"Wait, Heero, don't!" I said taking his hand, but he pushed me. "Don't touch me!" he yelled pushing me 'till I hit the wall. "Heero, why are you acting like this?" I said almost starting to cry, but I stopped. He kept on packing and before leaving he gave me a cold glare. "You make me sick! I never want to see you again!" he left.
I fell in the middle of the room and started crying, I never cried until now, not even when I was fighting and I was injured, but this hurt more than anything. He didn't want me nor did he need me, I was nothing now in his eyes. It was all over, over for me.
*** end of flashback***
I didn't even realize, but he changed so much. I mean the first time I met him he was aaa, better said at the beginning he was such a cold person, he didn't even talk except for the 'hn', that he was basically his speech, but than it was like he snapped. He started to talk to me, he spoke more when I was around or when it was just the two of us. He actually calls me buddy. My lips escape a sob, when did I started crying again?
It just hurts so much to remember of him. All I wanted is to hold him, to embrace him and to tell him how much I love him. I would have died to kiss his lips, so sweet, I even got him to to tell me he loves me, but as a friend and it would have been more than enough. I break down and cry again. He's probably at Relena now. I hate that pink bitch! I hate her! I hate her! I yell and throw my fists in the wall. My knuckles crack, my skin breaks and blood streams furiously down the length of my palm and down the carpet.
I LOVE YOU HEERO YUY! I yell, sobs killing my voice. I love you more than you could ever know, I whisper.
Is that true? a soft voice asks.
***
To be continued (Tbc)
Author's note: Am I bad or am I bad? Muhahaha! I just hope you enjoyed so far. First I thought I'll kill MY little Duo and make Heero suffer, but well maybe I will just hang on if you want to find out and pls RxR.
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Author: Noir
Anime: Gundam Wing
Parings:
Warnings: AU, lemon, yaoi, attempt to suicide, angst and stuff like that... Enjoy!
Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wings and none of its characters... bla, bla, bla
Chapter 1
Warnings for this chapter: hm maybe R, but that's it till now.
*Duo POV*
I was alone and the room was full of darkness...
I didn't know what else to say, I was waiting for him to call so that I can know what to do next.
The night passed, the sun started to show it's rays, the phone didn't ring, he didn't call... Why?
I needed him to call, he has to, he just has to... Maybe I should go to him, what if something bad happened? Or maybe..., oh who am I kidding, the reason he doesn't call..., the problem was that I knew it all to well, I am just to afraid to admit the truth, I knew it...
It's been a month now, days since I last heard from him. If he wanted he could have called by now, but he didn't, he didn't, man I'm such an ass!
It was over, everything! Everything was over! Everything we had, I lost everything because of my stupid mouth. Fuck, I hate myself right now!
Why am I so scared? I knew this would happen. I mean it was fuckin' obvious, only I refused to see it that must be it, I was blinded by my thoughts, yeah...
So what now genius, you just lost your best friend and the opportunity to ever make him like you, even a bit! You blew everything with three fuckin' words.
I should have let him in shadow about the way I feel, I should have shut up in that moment, God, he probably hates me right now, but no wonder, I'm such an ass; thinking only about myself, not thinking how the other is going to react. I thought he would take it quietly and that he would be cold and just tell me what he thinks, like he always does, but not this time, no, this time he acted differently. Why? Is it such a bad thing to love your best friend, your only true close friend? To love him more than the word friendship could ever imply?! Or is it bad because he's a boy just like me
I never confessed to him until now, though he always was counting on me to confess to him, and now that I did, he turns his back away. What does the word 'friend' mean anyway, I thought a friend a true friend will never turn his back on you no matter what, so maybe he wasn't such a true friend after all...
God, what am I thinking? He's probably disgusted by my feelings; he probably thinks that I made him my friend just to get into his pants.
How could I just throw it in his face?
***flashback***
"Hey, man can you fuckin' live that computer alone for a few second, I want to talk to you" I said trembling. "Just a minute Duo, I almost got the son of a bitch! Yeah, die, fucker, die!"
"Aham!" I said clearing my throat. "Ok, what's on your heart that can't wait a second longer?" he said with the eyes still blocked on the screen.
"I need to talk to you about something important, to me anyway..." "Well..., you know you can talk to me... I'm listening..." "Can you fucking turn that thing off when I'm talking to you?" "Yeah, sure", he said and he turned the computer off.
I didn't know where to begin.
"You see Heero, I..." I felt my voice was going away... "Yes..." "I... I... need to go to the bathroom", stupid, STUPID!!! "Is that what you wanted to tell me?" "No, wait a sec, I'll be right back", I rushed in the bathroom, hoping for the end of the world to come!
What the fuck was I doing? I mean... what should I tell him, where should I begin?
After 10 minutes I exit the bathroom and I was cotton white, Heero looked concerned.
"What is it Duo? What happened? Are you feeling sick, is that it?" he looked at me, but with a cold gaze. He seemed concerned by his voice, but his eyes said something else.
"Nothing, I... 'm not sick.", I said with my eyes in the floor.
"What did you want to tell me? he asked curious. "Heero..., I... I..." "Yes, go on..." "I... love you", I said in a whisper, hoping he didn't catch the last part.
He looked confused, than smiled and say: "I love you too buddy." "Really?" I didn't hoped to hear that from him. "Yeah, sure, why do you think we are such good friends? Love is the first thing that ties a friendship."
"No..., Heero, you didn't understand me... I love you."
"What's not to understand? I love you too." "No, Heero, I love you MORE than a friend!" I said almost yelling. He was confused. I think now he understood, cause he rushed in our bedroom.
I stood knocking at the door. "Heero?" "Get the fuck away from me you pervert, you freak." My eyes were filled with tears. "Heero, listen..." "I told you to get the fuck away from me!" he yelled.
That's when I realized I lost him...
I went out for a walk and I returned after a few hours, he was packing. Fuck, the last thing I wanted is for him to move.
"Wait, Heero, don't!" I said taking his hand, but he pushed me. "Don't touch me!" he yelled pushing me 'till I hit the wall. "Heero, why are you acting like this?" I said almost starting to cry, but I stopped. He kept on packing and before leaving he gave me a cold glare. "You make me sick! I never want to see you again!" he left.
I fell in the middle of the room and started crying, I never cried until now, not even when I was fighting and I was injured, but this hurt more than anything. He didn't want me nor did he need me, I was nothing now in his eyes. It was all over, over for me.
*** end of flashback***
I didn't even realize, but he changed so much. I mean the first time I met him he was aaa, better said at the beginning he was such a cold person, he didn't even talk except for the 'hn', that he was basically his speech, but than it was like he snapped. He started to talk to me, he spoke more when I was around or when it was just the two of us. He actually calls me buddy. My lips escape a sob, when did I started crying again?
It just hurts so much to remember of him. All I wanted is to hold him, to embrace him and to tell him how much I love him. I would have died to kiss his lips, so sweet, I even got him to to tell me he loves me, but as a friend and it would have been more than enough. I break down and cry again. He's probably at Relena now. I hate that pink bitch! I hate her! I hate her! I yell and throw my fists in the wall. My knuckles crack, my skin breaks and blood streams furiously down the length of my palm and down the carpet.
I LOVE YOU HEERO YUY! I yell, sobs killing my voice. I love you more than you could ever know, I whisper.
Is that true? a soft voice asks.
***
To be continued (Tbc)
Author's note: Am I bad or am I bad? Muhahaha! I just hope you enjoyed so far. First I thought I'll kill MY little Duo and make Heero suffer, but well maybe I will just hang on if you want to find out and pls RxR.
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